kill witches get bitches

19 yr old whiny twat from europe. this is a personal blog.

[greyveils]

yes hello everybody this is a psa

i made another, more personal blog

you can unfollow this one because i wont be using it in the future

if ive followed you with this blog i probably will follow you with my new one as well

the end

[killer--eyes]

[softbutchmom]

someone should pretend to love me so i feel wanted thank you

[ukyos]

"And then we discovered that our only desire was never to have become mahou shoujo.”

[notalkingplz]

[derikisu]

[fcknfilthy]

[larmoyante]

There are people you need to leave behind, They just dirty up your mouth, They don’t value your treasure. You fall down, you kiss up, you love them. It’s not enough. They’re nothing special and you’re such a gift. If you had no magic here you’d be just like everyone else. Imagine the tragedy. You must change your life. You are never ready. Love is like crying like writing like dying. You have to do it alone. I know it’s tragic to be tender. I know it’s dangerous to be kind. I know it’s vicious to care. Listen to me. I know what’s going to happen to you. You don’t need a window, you need a fire escape. You’ll need a skylight to get where you’re going. I can’t tell you where.

Nicole Blackman, “You Are Never Ready”

[beingsiri]

[allmymetaphors]

I painted this with my fingers last night

[greyveils]

literally my one single goal now is to get physically healthy again asap so i can a) get the tattoo my dad promised me and b) start taking pole dancing classes uh

[greyveils]

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[greyveils]

im so proud of myself whenever i achieve the smallest of things. like cleaning my room or doing housework or staying awake the whole day or going grocery shopping and whatnot. ;v; its kind of ridiculous tbh but it keeps me from thinking im a total failure so theres that

[shmegeh]

[for-myeyesonly-deactivated20220]

I didn’t know words could be so heavy.

Markus Zusak, I Am The Messenger

[gaytoshi]

[greyveils]

i always thought im like. what do you even call it. a people person? a social butterfly?? but then the mental institution showed me how much i actually loathe a) people b) socializing c) having to talk to someone when i dont want to which was pretty much all the time

therapy didnt do anything for me it just made everything worse but thats what i predicted.

also im having the worst withdrawal symptoms because of the medical treatment i got while i was there, and i still need to take a shit ton of pills even at home to be able to sleep which isnt helping. ive always hated the idea of mental hospitals tbh inpatient treatment isnt about helping you with your problems its about prescribing you one pill after another until youre too numb to feel at all like?? this happened to me twice im not kidding i was unable to walk because of the medication i had taken and the nurses pretty much had to carry me to my room because i had no control over my body anymore ha,,,

tl;dr im glad to be home even though being here still makes me feel like crap but its better than staying at the hospital. the past four weeks did change me as a person im sure and i hope i wont fall back into old behavioural patterns now that im free again sigh.