真夜中のひかる

Just a place to follow, reblog stuff and add stuff at times...Hi stranger, don't get scared if I suddenly reblog something yours from like 10 years ago... When I really like a Tumblr I look for the first page and stard reading from there to the present just like it’s a book XD

[kroovv]

A little Brushbuddy 🍊

[vesperosy]

this tweet has been fucking killing me

[thyla]

WORD OF HONOR | episode six

[sarahseeandersen]

Aren't these pieces absolutely stunning? These new works were created by GEGYjiji, one of my all time favorite painters. It was truly an honor to collaborate. I'm very excited to say that these pieces will be displayed in the upcoming London show, and there are also prints available.

[creature-wizard]

Folks have got to understand that they probably aren't messed up by some Secret Big Trauma that they just can't remember; but rather by a million tiny microtraumas that they do mostly remember but don't even register as traumatic because nobody actually understood that these things would cause trauma, much less stack on each other over the years.

[xpxssxm]

Whether you're carrying one big rock or a big ol' bucket of sand, it's going to weigh on you just as much.

[ramshacklefey]

This is why psychologists have started taking more of an interest in CPTSD in the last 10-15 years. What most people know as PTSD is a response to a single, intensely traumatic event (or even a series of events). However, CPTSD (chronic post-traumatic stress disorder) is caused by living for years in a situation where your nervous system cannot catch a break. Even if nothing huge ever happened to you, you always had to be on guard for a thousand little things that could and did happen.

After years and years of this, your nervous system gets "stuck" in an activated threat response. It never really lets you rest, and if this started when you were a kid, you may not develop a lot of neural pathways that you should have, because your brain was too focused on keeping you safe to bother with little things like "genuine human connection" and "interpersonal attachment."

[naamahdarling]

No lie, Complex PTSD/CPTSD is HUGE.

If you are disabled, if you are queer, if you are chronically ill, if you are the survivor of a toxic but not abusive relationship, if you grew up or lived under the threat of harm but no "actual" harm (or "very little" harm) was done, you may have CPTSD that isn't getting caught because CPTSD looks different from PTSD.

[thenookienostradamus]

At the risk of falling into a trivialization trap, a lot of things you may not perceive as traumatic actually are. I was embarrassed for a long time in both group and individual therapy to say anything in my childhood was traumatic, because I was sitting with people who had suffered horrible physical or sexual abuse. But here are some things that are, in fact, traumatic and - when they occur over a long period - can set you on a course of maladaptive coping for decades if not addressed:

Being told or shown that your emotions are not valid, that you have no safe place to express them

Parents or caregivers oversharing graphic trauma from their past with you

Threats of physical violence, even if not carried out

Being told or shown that affection or approval is contingent on competency or academic success

Prejudice from inside OR outside the family (homophobia, racism, body shame)

Mocking or dismissal of things that are meaningful to you

If you constantly feel unworthy, afraid, ashamed, or even flat and emotionless, it's worth exploring why. And, because you've been so consistently undermined and minimized, you may feel like a fraud for being upset or functioning poorly. You're not a fraud; it's years of conditioning telling you "I should be able to handle this" or "lots of people are worse off than I am so I shouldn't complain." Your conditioned brain is lying to you; you won't be able to open yourself to the joy of trusting relationships with others OR do meaningful things to help those who are worse off until you do the work to melt the block of ice surrounding you. All my love to you, friends.

[lunahorizon]

Pete Walker is a therapist that's been on the cutting edge of this for many years, and he has a website here with plenty of free resources. (Just straight PDFs of parts of his books!)

Also, his books are not that expensive, well-written, and truly helped me process a lot of my trauma. I did a ton of it alone because I couldn't find a therapist for years, and those books (complex ptsd: from surviving to thriving & the tao of fully feeling) really changed the trajectory of my life.

He talks about grieving, about changing our internal dialogue to one that's positive instead of negative, talks about SEVERAL trauma typologies, and more.

As someone who has been diagnosed with the big trauma PTSD but most of their problems were coming from the little stuff that was CONSTANT and made me run on 2000% all day every day, this guy is a lifesaver. I'm so different from how I was before, especially with the help of some in-person therapy. Finding the right person makes all the difference, truly.

You can pick up his books on the website, but if you're looking for resources on this and you have the space and support to be able to do some of your own work (please don't do it completely alone unless you must) check out the sidebar over at pete-walker.com. He made this incredible resource that not everyone knows about and I try to share it where this comes up.

Thank you for informing people about this.

[creature-wizard]

Reblogging for the additional info and resources, and to emphasize that the C does indeed stand for "complex," not "chronic." (Understandable that people would get mixed up, though.)

[onthoughtscliche]

Naruto Shippuden, Chapter 486: Fists

"We'll meet again in the afterlife!" and so they did

Aki Tsukikage and Haru Hinomoto

Saori and Mario

Kinich and Ajaw

[chillyfeetsteak]

from this article, which is well worth the read, if only for the fun of seeing zuck get dunked on

[palaceofissay]

ISSAY MEETS DOLLY. 🎭

Have you ever wondered how Issay's unit "Issay meets Dolly" was created?

Well, in interview in 2004, he said:

"At first, I thought of doing something distanced from rock. It’s just that since what I have in me is rock, I wanted to try it out and see what will happen if I involve someone who also dabbles in rock but has different elements than I do. For example, classical elements or cabaret chanson¹ elements, and in terms of songs, I do cover those by Kurt Weill² and such, but I’d like to incorporate those sorts of elements because I’m thinking that maybe I’d be able to do something more interesting if I brought in [elements] that are completely different (from rock). I’ve always had a penchant for that sort of thing, so I thought to try something with the most disparate part of this range that I have. At the time, I happened to have a chance to drink with pianist Fukuhara Mari. She’s got a completely different background than I do, so we started to try and see if that would cause us to be entirely unable to do anything, or if we’d end up creating something exceptionally interesting."

Isn't his head amazing?

The way how he wants to try everything, even if he'll won't be good in it? Probably it makes me love this man more. He's a true artist and music is him. Rock is him. Theater is him. I never met such a man.

Also, you can read the full interview here:

ISSAY meets Dolly | [May-June 2004] A Velvet Dream -

A Velvet Dream Zy. No. 16 May-June 2004 Photo by Hiranuma Hisana Interview by Murayama Miyuki   ISSAY has gathered many followers in the vis

[grimoireao]

#derzibet #Issay #Issaymeetsdolly

[yoshiyuuki]

September 1995 / Ongaku to Hito Atsushi Sakurai (BUCK-TICK)+ISSAY (Der Zibet)

A decadent conversation even under the sun

Text/Interview: Tetsushi Ichikawa Images: Koij Kayano

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[grimoireao]

#Issay #Sakurai #Atsushi #interview #translation

[dn-838]

I’m going to be doing a face comparison between Luigi, myself, the Adjuster, The Motel person and the guy in the vehicle as well as answer a few of my ask’s tomorrow

I know I’m still gonna receive like 50 “send proof” asks overnight because everyone is leaking in from TikTok and won’t bother looking beyond the pinned before nagging me to show my face or tickets or whatever else, but hopefully my next post should calm some of it down. I’d do this sooner but it’s almost midnight and I really need to get some sleep.

[dn-838]

Apologies if you were pinged to this, I need it to get as much traction as possible before the risk of removal, please, like, reblog and screenshot, get the images of what I have revealed today out there, keep this known, DO NOT attempt to Blaze

Hello, my name is Jon-Paul Rennison, although I prefer to go by “JP”, I am a radical civil rights activist from the United Kingdom, the few who follow me probably know me for doing a lot of LGBT+ rights stuff as well as holding a lot of Marxist views and ideals. Well today I have something I wish to share with everyone in light of the recent situation with Luigi possibly facing death and the wider state of the world…

I confess to the killing of Brian Thompson on the 4th December as well as the theft of multiple items including a pistol I had no permit for

No, this is not a late April fools joke, nor is it a hoax or a parody, if I wanted fame and attention I could have just continued the work I’ve already been doing in politics without admitting to a high profile crime, if I wanted to just try to get Luigi off the hook then I will tell you that I DO NOT believe that this will clear his name, the narrative set up painting him as guilty would backfire horribly if they were to accept that someone else was the culprit. I and my mother were in Manhattan at the time and well… I had the opportunity to and knew how to get my hands on the right tools so… I went ahed with it.

Simply, I did it to try and cause tension, I knew that someone of his status dying like that would have caused chaos amongst the ruling class, and it being a Healthcare CEO really helped to get the message across, since while it is a different country my main work IS targeting and investigating the NHS and the quality of its health services (especially when it comes to wait times and the quality of care for disabled and Transgender individuals), and thankfully it appears the message I was getting across DID make it to people across the UK. Since this however I’ve been just back to doing more stale things, it’s not as easy to get a gun over here for one, and two I was making enough progress that I was semi-confident I would be successful without any more extreme and risky moves… however I think this is something that needs to be known considering the current situation.

I didn’t know if I could actually get away with everything, however, I didn’t really care by that point, I saw an opportunity and I took it, I was in an unstable position, had effectively seen my chances in education destroyed, and as far as I knew and still know the person who matters most to me who served as my motivation for living and engaging at all in politics was out of my life and may never speak to me again, in my eyes I really had nothing left to lose, and almost 4 months later I still don’t, so here I am. The REAL perpetrator, don’t anyone forget, they are trying to send an innocent man to his death.

Yes, I am a leftist who opposed voting Kamala because of Palestine and supports the rights of LGBT+ people, People of Colour, Women, disabled people and Immigrants, the main catalyst leading to the events on December 4th eventually happening was a Trans woman I sacrificed almost everything to protect. If this alters your perception somewhat, good, if this upsets you or caused you to try denying, then I don’t care, go fuck yourself. I’m revealing this through Tumblr because this is the platform in which I’ve received the most traction in past.

If there is enough time left and anyone wants more information on the crime (to try and confirm it’s me or just general morbid curiosity), send me an ask and I might elaborate on certain details.

@death2germany @ayeforscotland @getpoliticaluk @whereserpentswalk @hot-flippin-mess @greenhairedlink @glittergluekintsugi @wildeleaf @kainekillinggod @throwawayidk

[xitty]

Giichi is the best boy.

[yoshiyuuki]

We were there

Here's the concert report for the 23 July show at Tokyo Garden Theatre.

So many of us were there.

Ongaku to Hito: BUCK-TICK 異空-IZORA- Album Tour Final Concert Report | BUCK-TICK

Concert report of BUCK-TICK's TOUR 2023 異空-IZORA- final day at Tokyo Garden Theatre on 23 July 2023 by Ishii Eriko. Published on Ongaku to H

“How long can we keep going…… I wonder, how long can we keep going?　 Until death?　 No, even after death. We will do this even when we turn into ghosts. They are waiting!　They are waiting!”

[bizarrequazar]

08-27 Zhang Sanjian/Scam Gang Recent Events Space

This was a Twitter space held to review recent events with the scam gang and Zhang Sanjian, as well as to address topic about fandom culture and likely reasons why Zhang Zhehan’s case is taking longer than many would hope. Notes are organized by topic, then by order presented in the space. [Recording]

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[bizarrequazar]

Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun Shows and Movies Masterlist

I seem to have gained a bit of a reputation as The Person With Links, so this is a masterlist of streaming links to all of Zhang Zhehan’s and Gong Jun’s dramas, films, and reality shows. Interviews and variety show guest appearances are not included here.

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[yukiko-moriarty]

ZZH IG Video Deepfake Detection

I started researching deepfake detection method after IG video published, an approach that can objectively examine a clip without any bias. After researching published deepfake detection papers, I started to build the code based on one of the published deepfake detection models. It took me 2 days to have the first result generated without fine-tuning. The result was published on Weibo and banned 6 hours after posting. Based on the feedback from other experts, I refined the model to have the second version published here, with a detailed explanation of the method.

I retrained the model with raw/uncompressed video, and increased the training samples. The final output reduced false negative rate, leading to a more accurate reading.

The algorithm classifies each frame of video along with confidence values. The green box with 90% value, means the model classified this frame as real with 90% confidence.  If the box shows red with 90% value, it means the model classified this frame as fake with 90% confidence.

I compared the IG video with zzh’s previous real-person interviews. The video showing my results are below and includes the ZZH IG video first and then two confirmed real interview clips with him. The confirmed real-person interviews were included to show what the model outputs when the video is real. After running the videos through the model, the results showed that where more facial expression was present, more fake frames were detected. 

The below chart shows the detection result with confidence value within a video. When the algorithm detects the frame as being “real”, there will be a positive confidence value.  When it detects the frame as being “fake”, there will be a negative confidence value.

This is the chart of the confidence values detected for the IG video. Note that the results fluctuate with high volatility between -100 to 100

This is the chart of the confidence values for the first confirmed real interview video used in the video clip. The results are between 90-92 with minor volatility

As comparison, I run the model through two known deep fake videos.  Result is shows in a separate post.

ZZH IG Video Deepfake Detection （Part 2）

As comparison, here is what happens when you run the model through two known deep fake videos.  The first part of this video shows part of a

Explanation of the Model Used

The model used in this simulation is called “Xception”. The paper describing the model can be found here: https://arxiv.org/abs/1901.08971

The model was trained via Faceforensics++ data which is collected by the Visual Computing Group. I downloaded 800 raw videos (200 real + 600 fake) covering 3 state-of-art video manipulation techniques such as deepfakes, faceswap and face2face. 

Data are divided into training, testing, and cross-validation group. Then I took 101 face images from each video and pre-processed every image by applying a face tracker algorithm that detects face area pixels. Based on those classified videos, the AI model will learn how to distinguish between a manipulated video and a real video. It is similar to the process of a baby learning the difference between an apple and orange, the model will classify fake and real along with confidence values on each frame of the video.

At present, Deepfake and Deepfake detection technology is progressing simultaneously. A good model can detect a modified video made by a less trained/outdated deepfake model, but a better deepfake model can also fool a good trained detection model. No technology is perfect and it is possible for a very good modified video to escape detection given current Deepfake detection technology.

[bizarrequazar]

Collected information and sources about the 05-04 Instagram video

As I’m sure many are aware by now, a six minute video of Zhang Zhehan speaking was posted on the Instagram a little after midnight on May 4th. [subbed video] 

Below is a collection of information discussing it, why people find its contents questionable, and why there is reason to believe it was faked.

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