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@grimpapuff
Hii
Could I get the CSS for this ao3 skin that you made? https://www.tumblr.com/grimpapuff/716651756105482241/now-get-your-ass-to-use-this-1380895?source=share
I would really love to use it
I unfortunately don't have that code anymore because of file corruption or something :'-)
Maybe in the future, I would do something like that but with better code since I got familiar with HTML.
To be honest. The New Year was fun! But, I really can't help but think about my future.
I keep wondering what would happen if I failed high school, how it would affect my career as an uneducated adult, and if my ability didn't fit the requirement, and what it would do to my financial situation. I'm wondering myself what my job would be if my art career is not enough to buy the food to survive and buy the stuff that makes me happy. I'm keeping wondering what's going to happen to my family and friend(s) as they age, jobs, or hobbies, and their financial situation. And I'm wondering what about my unfinished projects and my tiny impact on the internet.
I'm pretty sure it may be hardly different from the past current, Tết doesn't allow sadness, and my thought process was once like that (however, it wasn't THAT bad compared to now). But at the same time, it still made me unhappy to feel the New Year reminds me to know I'm still not ready to move on to think that someday, I will turn into an more than 20s years old and my grandparents and parents may be gone for many reasons, and the people I'm friends with could be too. I guess the New Year also reminds me how lonely I am just now, I didn't speak with my classmate(s) really that much because despite of the same class, we don't have a lot in common.
I feels like this thought is why I have an existence crisis from time to time, and how I was keeping overthinking about my actions and my words.
I don't know why. It's just that, it's hard to move on when you know that it's something you can't change the times and you know that death may be waiting for us until the end. And even though I love to make art, I'm not sure if I am able to survive this year with the whole of AI-generated content without my parents' and grandparents' help. Sometimes, I wish we could live forever, but that would be a selfish wish.
If there's one thing that will help me to write my fanfic is that an outline and the manuscript is insanely helping me.
Rather than immediately typing on the digital what's on my mind, as what distances me was all thanks to a noticeable flaw as I was typing my first draft, and because I have the urge to correct things such as misspelling, or grammar mistakes, or remove the scene that's no longer relevant to the storyline anymore instead of just keep typing until I am ready move to the second or third drafts, it made me lose my motivation somehow (I think it's miracle few of my Dinosaucers and Country Bear Jamboree fanfics is finally published on AO3 and Fanfiction.net instead of abandoning it... Actually, I am still writing my unfinished some of my Country Bear Jamboree fanfic, it's just that I am too focused on drawing my ideas, lol)
With an outline, I could get an idea what it should be and what the path should go.
With the manuscript, because I use a blue pen to write that instead of using a black pen or pencil (though, I use that for correction and note), you really can't remove sentences you were already writing until you're about retyping on the digital with correct errors because, of course, it was on the physical and it helps me a lot.
I guess this is what they said about making a bad first so you can do perfectly later ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Did you know you shouldn't misgender people even if they're problematic or if you dislike them or disagree with them. Did you know that misgendering doesn't become acceptable after a certain threshold and the other trans people around you will not feel safe and will wonder what it must take for you to misgender them too. Did you know recognizing people's identities isn't a fucking privilege revoked by bad behavior. Did you. Did you fucking know
Same goes for racism or ableism like. Hey it really really seems like you're just bigoted and glad to exercise it on acceptable targets and it will make you look bad and I will take your criticism way, way less seriously immediately.
[ID: a digital drawing of mitzi mozzarella holding her paws out and smiling with her eyes closed. she has a yellow and red party hat on top of her head. /end ID]
i may have missed every other major holiday but i would NEVER miss mitzi's 17th
HAPPY HOLIDAYS oh my God I feel I haven't posted in forever
Graduating will do that to you BUT I HAVE HOLIDAY ART
It's beach bears again
Hallelujah
God I'm so tired
Let's get freaky.
too much emphasis on "finding your art style" and not enough on the subject of the art, the themes you want to explore etc
escapism is a privilege actually
i don’t participate in fandom to “escape.” i think fandoms are toxic bc they’re riddled with the same problems that plague larger society. it’s only a “safe bubble” and a “site of refuge” for people who decide to leave their empathy & critical thinking faculties at the door when they enter these spaces
oh it’s a “safe space”? from what? at whose expense? i don’t CARE if i ruin your fun or “enjoyment” bc you shouldn’t BE “enjoying” half of the things you so uncritically enjoy anyway. it’s easy to dismiss people’s misgivings and criticisms bc YOU’RE not the one affected by this content. “give people the benefit of the doubt”? they don’t DESERVE benefit of the doubt. things like racism & p*dophilia & transphobia get entrenched in society precisely BECAUSE people let their media manifestations slide. “just let people enjoy things”? what “things”? nobody’s actually stopping you from doing or feeling anything, you just feel threatened, bc deep down you feel guilty. why don’t you ask yourself why
Hii um..I wanted to say Ty for everything and I hope u understand me since im still a 16 year old teenager...and im still shy though. U see alot of people think never understand me and they also call me...lame and more other bad names they call me...😔(don't ask why...) 💜💔
But the thing i feel more comfy was Country Bears jamboree they always inspired me and I feel alot better 💜after I think all the worst things in the past...💔💜
Hi, and no problem! I know what it's like to be ever since I was on DeviantArt (I leave my past in the past and took it as a learning my mistake experience. It started to not be fun anymore now that they update their UI and support AI generation to the point that most artists leave the website, I'm still here though). And yeah, it really sucked to be bullied by a bully just because the person has a different preference, it's stinky.
I also understand to be more comfortable with favourite media as well, that's my feeling with Dinosaucers and then Country Bear Jamboree 💜
"bi women are straight" / "bisexuals dont want commitment" / "bisexuals cheat" / "bi women always go back to men eventually" / "bi women are only interested in other women for sex" / "bi women never have sex with other women" / "bi celebs are faking for attention" / "bi female celebs are fetishizing lesbians for the male gaze" / "bisexuals are never ostracized" / "bisexuals are always infiltrating communities they dont belong to" / "bisexuals were never a part of this community" / "bisexuals dont love women they way WE love women" / "bi women idolize men" / "bisexuals dont experience homophobia" / "biphobia isn't a real thing its just homophobia" / "bisexuals dont experience internalized homophobia" / "I dont like bisexuals because my ex left me" / "bisexuals don't understand anything we experience"
/ "les4les" "its just a preference" "I would never date a bisexual" /
Can 2025 be the year when you all start keeping this stupid bullshit to yourselves because good fucking god we get it already.
I've talked about my fruit box on several occasions. How since I told my mom that I just don't eat fruit because the task of buying, keeping track of and preparing it is too demanding, she has been cutting up fresh fruit for me and putting it in an easily accessible box at least once, sometimes twice a week. This week, as she was cutting away, I asked her about it. "How are you still doing this every week? It's been years. It's very nice of you, but why do you bother?" Her answer surprised me.
"You know how schizophrenics have a much lower life expectancy than the general population?" she said. We do. For a combination of various reasons that I won't get into here - that's not what this post is about - people diagnosed with schizophrenia die earlier than people without schizophrenia, statistically speaking. Apparently my mom knows this too. And she has read up on it. Why do we die. What can be done.
Most of the contributing factors are not something my mom has any shot at affecting or controlling. But one of them stood out to her. Not a major one admittedly, but still it was mentioned. A lot of us don't eat enough or don't eat varied enough. We generally don't get enough fruits and vegetables, because when you're severely mentally ill and also likely to be poor, that's just not a realistic priority for a lot of people.
My mom has felt very powerless in the face of my illness. She loves me a lot, but it hasn't solved most of the things I've been struggling with, most of the detours my mental health has taken, most of the crises I've survived. And there's a lot she can't do, while also working a full-time job, and being there for the other people in her life. A lot of it is very much out of her control. But she can cut up fresh fruit. And so she does. Every week.
Okay, I'm making this callout post on @demikhaotix because I fucking had enough of this person and I'm not gonna let this be silent any longer, he's been lying about his age to get adults to draw nsfw art for him, he's been cyberbullying and being horrible to my friends and girlfriend and spreading horrible rumors about them, also he's been making up false accusations against my other friends being groomers wich they're not! And he was being creepy towards my girlfriend and my other friends, he watched snuff films involving infants, he's also a zoophile, he's been asked multiple times for evidence of my friends grooming him and he never posted it because he was never groomed, he's a horrible person towards my girlfriend most of the time and she deleted her Tumblr and Twitter because of him and she wanted to say this to you guys!
"Hey yall. Super sorry for freaking out and leaving. Was in a super dark place (stressful situations are not fun when you have diagnosed schizophrenia) and I needed to get away from it all. Sorry if I scared anyone and I love yall so much. I couldn't handle the bullying, harrassment and hate art anymore. I lost friends who turned around on me like "oh Angel was nice but I know deep down shes secretly a bitch" like they know me. It hurt a lot. Its my fault for being too paranoid to release evidence (he knows my full name and probably saved pictures of me). In case yall want to know what kind of person Demi really is. Here you go."
"I want everyone to know what a dick he is."
And here's the real reason why Angel didn't want him to contact Mars, because he'll try asking her to send him nsfw stuff and he's a fucking minor, he tried to get her to draw stuff for her, after my girlfriend told him he shouldn't contact her he throws a fucking tantrum about it!
LIKE FOR PART 2!!!
And another thing about @demikhaotix, he did say he did find the dinosaur from jurassic park and a child rapist cute and attractive, well here it is!
And here's the other shit that he said about my girlfriend that really pissed me off!
And then Angel lost her followers because of him, and makes a apology post about her!
I don't believe his words one bit!!!
If you get a follow request from him, I recommend blocking this person, he's a creep, liar manipulative and a cyberbully!
I'm mutual with AngelBlitz in Country Bear Jamboree fandom, so when I saw that callout post from Demi before Angel came back from a month ago, I was confused by suddenly, and I was unfortunately believes him at first because I can understand him for how sometime, no one going to believe the person who had been wronged just because the person befriends with the another person who has been wrong someone. But then, the more I thought about this situation, the more I started to not believe him once I realized.
Not only was there no evidence to prove the allegations as true (There are few cases for which allegations have already proven false, and the person who makes that allegation in the first place is a liar to get the public engagement. So not surprised that it was the way to defaming them, especially the screenshot shows Angel suggestion that Demi can follow Marz but not to reply or message her, and followed by him throwing the tantrum just because it doesn't get his way is enough made me doubt to believe him), but also that would be strange for suddenly Angel befriends with someone whose predator even there's the evidence against them (like I said, not surprisingly that Demi did it to defaming them).
Plus, Demi mocking Angel by making one of his OC as more caricature fat for the joke also made me uncomfortable and already lost credibility to me because is it really necessary to mock someone's appearance?
For now, since Demi has deleted his account on Tumblr and the only ones that remain are Instagram, Spotify, and Twitter. So for my followers who happened to have an account outside Tumblr, I'm encouraging you not to interact with him and block him instead for being an asshole who has been lie about the situation in both private and public when something doesn't get his way, is also doing suicide baiting, and already have the history for doing this to multiple people as OP said it; even if you're not a Killer Klowns fan, or at least report it for harassment and/or suicide baiting.
Update 03/01/2026: Found out I already blocked him and because of that, the post from him disappeared, but still I'll recommend to blocked him.
Yeah I think Im ready to post now.
There is something incredibly poetic and tragic about the Walt Disney animatronic exhibiting the same moral issues of the Lincoln one (looking inaccurate, causing mass discourse about whether the descendants would have wanted it, questions over likeness and whether you're depicting an idea of a person that will massively distort their image years after they are no longer around to defend themselves), down to being in the same venue and show structure.
But all of that pales in comparison to Kevin Perjurer essentially going "EAT SHIT WALTER, YOU MADE YOUR BED NOW LIE IN IT"
about to finish the new defunctland video and. i hate walt disney with all my heart but even i can empathize with his mental crisis over having impostor syndrome because of the brand image of himself he helped create. and then feeling like that all the way till he died, only for his corpse and image be dragged out decades later by the successors of his employees, desperately trying to keep his projects afloat. artificial intelligence, deepfakes, the antithesis of the medium he was passionate for, the very own brand image he hated right till he passed away now a staple of his own creations for the foreseeable future. "i'm not walt disney anymore", indeed
Kevin snapping in the new Defunctland video and telling Walt Disney that after the whole Lincoln animatronic debacle he gets no say in what they do with his image after he dies is hysterical, and also I just love the idea of Walt Disney becoming trapped in an animatronic in his theme park as a punishment for his own hubris like it's some kind of FNAF Greek tragedy
Hi, I came back now (Yeah I know that I’m a liar to told everyone that I’ll come back in December, but I’m somehow okay now? I felt like this is the times to explain the truthful now) So I’ll explain my decision for why I’m taking the break and also to explain my regretted. Please note that this is explained, not to excuse my action.
A month ago, I really enjoyed my time around others online, as I kept uploading my work and talking with them with no hard feelings at all.
But then weeks ago, every time I tried to reply to someone else story and/or share the story and repost (Like TikTok's feature for some reason) on Instagram, all it made me feel more… pathetic? Not only that, but now I also realised that it was rather more like an obsession one-sided at that point since I sometimes comment or message the same person (I talk to more than one person, my point still stands).
I keep thinking over and over that I came across as annoying to someone and insecure around them. More and I keep thinking that again, again, and again; the more it fuels me to overthink everything in a much destructive way. Because of that, I went straight to writing my issue on Tumblr as it perfectly described what my thoughts were to look like.
Man, I really have unresolved issue with my overthinking and myself. Every time when I keep thinking over and over and that’s all over about the non-issue stuff and social media. I keep overanalysing what was I said and what was I doing before. I keep assuming other thinking of me as negative and/or weird because of what I said or was I doing. I keep imagining the worst case scenario, even it’s not always that case. And I always seek reassuringly, even they didn’t think me of as negative. I wish there’s an easier way to forget about too much negative thought quickly because I really didn’t want to leave me damaging myself more like I used to be. But it didn’t go away, and I can’t avoid it. But when I thought about that more, all it makes me sad to thinking about.
After I was writing that, I thought it would go away because sometimes when I write it out of feeling, it starts to fade away. But here, unlike my previous experience, it takes much longer. So even I have already disabled the notification from social media (Except for Facebook and Zalo, they’re my family, my classmates, and my school uses it for communication; so I feel like not using those apps would leave them confused and wondering why I stopped that, especially since I never communicate with someone I trusted about my problem involved online, so that was why) and would not look at social media longer until I decided to check; that reflection and sensation were still there, it keeps haunting me every time, and I truly feel like I’m uncomfortable with my condition right now and that’s part when I can’t stay on social media any longer.
Which is something I really didn’t want to for in these years, because this is what I want to be getting away from repeating as that was what make my mental health was getting worse.
I don’t want to be bitter any more. I don’t want to be melancholy any more. I don’t want to be reminded of how disconnected I was around them yet as same-time want to bond with them. I don’t want to be reminded of how I was desperate to want to have new friends and be centred on current friends.
I want to be happy with who I am then and now. I want to be the best version of myself. I want to be proud of myself, and I even want to make my past me proud of my progression. I want to be a reality check with myself. I want to improve myself and not be haunted by my mistakes any more.
But it then fell flat when it reflected on my relationship with someone I know, when I kept imagining the worst-case scenario (E.g. if I have more negative points, I’m really scared about this because I feel my parents would find me more annoying in the worst way once I have grown up all because my points didn’t improve, bonus if I were a boy. It is actually what happened to my brother back when he was a kid. They didn’t do that again, but it still impacts me to remember that, especially what my father said to me when I got punished for not taking enough sleep in the Vietnamese language: “What are you crying for!?” (I’m having a strong emotional response), “If it were the strangers’ children, I don’t care because this is not my child”, “In truth, I want to beat you so bad”, while I know what he said, but I don’t know how to structure my sentences to argue, and I stare at my mother says nothing and watches my father scold me instead. While they’re likeable, work-hardening, and humble person around with their relatives and their friends, I really don’t know if they finally understood how it influenced my brother and me emotionally with their verbal and action like that, genuinely regretted it, apologised to us, and took accountability) and reminded of how I was isolated, alienated, and a bit of unloved on the internet and offline. Be self-love was not enough for me at that point; and that part made me cry on the bed.
“It gets worse, there’s nothing to make me feel relaxed now, I don’t know if that going to be okay,” That was my thought. It was also already happen to me in 2019–2024 as I keep crying on the bed to point that I can’t even sleep as peaceful, wondering if I am going to have redemption and forgive myself due to enable my ex-friend’s worst contribution (In the truth I don’t want to hide from everyone any more. Back on Twitter, we both were sending the NSFW art each other and drawing that topic too, while we’re underage doing that (I was 11yo and she was 16yo, yes I know it doesn’t sound believable, I wasn’t the best person); THAT’S the reason I’m never want to go back to my Godzilla phrase and why I don’t believe to redeem myself or deserve to redeem; this was also why I hated myself back on Twitter and DeviantArt at the times I was still having Godzilla and Dinosaucers phrase to point that when I was thinking how if I weren’t existing everybody would be happy without me involving and also at once point when I consider to doing suicide)
So, my solution for this? To quit social media, just keep doing my hobby and focus on right now. Since I keep drawing and everything else that’s not social media to make me feel satisfied, at least it benefits me. You can say that the fact that I leave from the social media was a surprise. To be frank, I never want to open my issue and complaint to the person I trusted because I always thought that it would make me selfish, come across attention seeker, and also that I was a liar. This was why I was hesitant if I post my issue and the warning in the first place, but even not opening my issue and keeping it to myself and not be truthful end up not help at all.
But now ever since I’m finally quit from social media; I’m finally feel calm from myself, my brain was now relaxing, and my heart and gut was no longer at bad feeling any more. Honestly, writing this maybe does help me now, but I still wonder what people thinking of me now I’m telling the truth, and I don’t even know if I can continue to post know that now.
Too long, don’t read: Overthinking got me and because I already have bad memories and didn’t have good experience from my previous special interest phrase, thus I have to quit from the social media for the first-time.
