Grumb1r

A grumbler but good news, there's alcohol and other drugs.

[grumb1r]

I got bored with all the other social media and decided to haunt my old internet spots (this void hellscape). I kinda miss it. And I should be too old to say that but I’m not. I kinda miss it because I went through some old messages and chats and just that whole era of my life, ya know.

Shit, I was here pre-tumbularity!

Some of y’all actually hit on me back then, lol. I even got out of my shell to flirt with some of you freaks and I read through them again I feel...sad.

Just another sad boy tumblr blog just like always.

I feel sad that I don’t do that anymore...or can even feel like that anymore.  And certainly, no one is hitting on me anymore.

Then I did this thing where I realized...some of the folks I followed are...still here! and yes, I thirst followed some of them. And they’re still getting all the notes like they used to. Their inbox still filled up with thirsty dudes. And they are most definitely not so young anymore either.

Life really does suck for the uggos, huh? It truly is a different reality if you’re pretty, huh. Just insane. I don’t really feel this much envy anymore but this is what i get for opening up tumblr.

I’m over 30. I work. I eat. I l sleep. I look at the markets. And one thing I don’t do is feel like I can feel puppy love again.

I said the same shit 10 years ago. But now I’m really sure. It’s true. I’m really sure. I will never fall in love. I don’t know that feeling anymore.

There is no love in your 30s. There is only your stock portfolio and what you can’t afford. And it’s tanking and it’s a lot.

[favoritesticle]

[danaa-scully]

Period dramas + Art (parallels)

[guerrillatech]

[esoomris]

Wow.... so you’re telling me you took an action that resulted in the death of one person...... to save the lives of many people.... who would have died if you did nothing??? that sounds so familiar

[grumb1r]

Ugh, no

You killed the person who kept tying people down. It's not as if one just ties people to tracks one time and never does it again.

[foreverfandom50-50]

[pointnclickadventuregame]

donald duck homophobic moments

[catchymemes]

[grumb1r]

i’m so homosexual, it’s actually shocking to me people are pressed they might be into...the same sex or the other sex or whatever.

[takealookatyourlife]

Athena blessed her with the ability to protect herself and men beheaded her for it.

[takealookatyourlife]

[bloodasredlipstick-deactivated2]

That’s actually a really intetesting intpretation of it I hadn’t thought of. Most people seem to think Athena turned Medusa into a gorgon as punishment for defiling her temple, but thinking that she did so to protect her from being abused again is interesting and I like it!

[gabyluvsxena]

Athena’s hands were tied. Yes, she was a powerful Goddess, but she was very much a woman in a “boys club”, and the true offending party (don’t think for a moment that Athena blamed Medusa for being raped in the temple, Athena knows better) held all the cards. There was nothing that Athena could do to punish the true criminal, and she was expected to punish Medusa by everyone else. What’s a Goddess to do when she cannot punish those who need to be punished and is expected to punish not only the truly innocent party, but her most beloved follower? Use that incredible brain power she had to protect Medusa at all costs, and of course the men would see it as punishment, to be have her beauty stripped from her and sent to live in the shadows. Medusa should have been KILLED for supposedly defiling the temple, whether she truly did or not, but she was given the gift of life, and the ability to protect herself and her daughters (who she bore thanks to Poseidon). This is why Medusa’s image was used to signify woman’s shelters and safe houses.

Medusa means “guardian; protectress”, and she was.

[geekremix]

holy shit.

[virtuous-thing]

Feministic mythology is what I’m here for

[grumb1r]

you don’t have to be a woman to know that being ugly is ethically/morally wrong.

[grumb1r]

I want to look like this again.  =(

It’s funny* that back then, I felt inadequate and looking back (only 3 years, lol), I was in a much better position to hit a homerun with love, and yes with physical validation and yes with sex.  It didn’t happen then and it’s only worse now. =(

*not funny and depressing as shit

[strongermonster]

why do the bots on this site constantly have the best bios

[grumb1r]

I wish the bots would at least target me as a homo male

[grumb1r]

So you're telling me that Tumblr banned porn and the only tumblogs that follow me are porn blogs 👍👍👍

[grumb1r]

How fucked is it that I match more with white gays than asian fags?

Used to it but its so depressing when I get into it

[guerrillatech]

[3rdeyechakra]

Reblog to make a white gay big mad

[apicturewithasmile]

Reblog to make black queer people feel visible and supported (and also to make a white gay big mad)

[bryanrl]

Reblog to make a white gay terf big mad

[grumb1r]

As a brown gay, adding the brown is so fucking stupid.

The original rainbow represented all queer people, regardless of race. Just because the reality does not currently meet the ideal doesn't mean that two stripes that are specifically about race should be added.

It's so fucking dumb, so the rainbow only represents only represents white queers but the brown one is supposed to represent me?

The original rainbow represented ALL queers.

[grumb1r]

Kinda resent the fact I was on this site every other hour and only started drifting away when yahoo fucked up majorly now it just seems this site is dead...

Like I'm staying this like 5 years after the fact but I'm just in my memories right now ok

[lilcowgirl7-deactivated20210223]

You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

[grumb1r]

This is basically telling you to be an adult.  It fucking sucks.  Would not recommend.

[rosetower]

You know how you can say literally anything about British cuisine and it’s like, likely to be true? 

[female-twink-deactivated2021032]

wait did ppl outside britain not know about faggots??

[sapphophallocentrism]

The problem is that you fucking Brits call everything faggots! Bundles of sticks, cigarettes, food, servants, men, trans women! It’s getting difficult to keep track of

[female-twink-deactivated2021032]

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[grumb1r]

I love a good faggot

[grumb1r]

About seven years ago, I was working the table at some event when I was still in graduate school.

This middle aged, slightly overweight white woman came up to me and said I looked like this one actor.

Since there’s very rarely an Asian actor that’s popular in the wider community, especially back then, I immediately went to her meaning Jackie Chan and Bruce Lee and 2020 slang seemed to jump back in time so that I could form the words “DIS KAREN BITCH.”

I gave her a testy look.  If DIS KAREN BITCH IS ABOUT TO SAY - but it wasn’t them.

She mentioned some actor’s name on some show that 2014 Karens watched.  Probably, and I think it was a network show.  Maybe a cop show.  Or a doctor show.  Or a lawyer show.  That’s about 80% of scripted tv and at least .5% had Asian men so he really should be pretty easy to find.

“Trust me, that’s a good thing.” she said before waddling away with a smile on her face, as if she just met a celebrity.  (ME, BITCH!)

I immediately looked up the actor to see my famous doppleganger only to discover that the man was ugly.  That I was ugly.  DAT KAREN BITCH.

And that I definitely also didn’t look like him.

I was mad that he was ugly.  I was mad that I didn’t look like him.  I was mad that she thought I did.  She thought I was ugly even though she was also clearly in love with ME, BITCH!

How can that Karen love me for looking like an ugly man that I dont?  Why does this piss me off?!

Because, dear reader, self-hate is a disease.