okay so i think i finally understand the feeling of loving someone so much that it hurts, of being so fucki*ng scared to hurt them and even worst, of losing them, like i now have such a great relationship but im so so so scared of messing it up, like i wasn't really taught how to love, like really love someone, cause in my house love hurts and is kinda twisted, and shi* i think i really relate to sirius now and im really scared
im afraid that i might fuc*k this up cause i always sabotage myself, and God, please, i just want to love them well and my whole life, please




















