🔞Her Guard Dog Boyfriend🔞

THIS BLOG IS 18+ You can call me Worshipper 24 - FtM - Hyperrose - TAKEN Welcome to my cage, I'm an obsessive lover and IRL yandere, and this is my blog for coping with my mental health, venting, and the like. I have no DNI but I will block freely. I make content for the IRL yan community so if you don't like that, you should probably leave! Main blog is @weird-incarnate

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

Welcome to the Cage~🔪❤️

General Trigger Warnings: obsessive/possessive behavior, depictions and mentions of kidnapping, stalking, violence, unhealthy relationships, cannibalism, mental illness, intrusive thoughts, drawn gore and blood (I will never post/reblog irl gore), imagery of knives, weaponry, and other dangerous/sharp objects, discussions of trauma and mental illness and all that entails including self harm, suicidal ideation, and eating disorder talk. This blog features sexual posts as well, so general NSFW warning for that.  

Disclaimer: This is a space for me to express my thoughts and feelings through healthy outlets rather than suppressing them. Do not come here to lecture me about what is and isn’t healthy. This is how I cope, you, random stranger on the internet, do not get to dictate if it’s healthy or not. No threats of harm or violence on here are genuine. So don't freak out about that either.

About Me: 

Now that that’s out of the way, my name is Worshipper (He/Him)! I’m someone who struggles with severe mental health issues that impact my ability to function as well as physical health issues. I identify as an irl yandere due to my obsessive intrusive thoughts around My Goddess.

So a little about me! For my yandere types, I’d categorize myself as self-sacrificial, overprotective, definitely a worshipper type personality (where my name comes from), possessive, obsessive, and while I would never hurt my beloved or anyone else for that matter irl, I consider myself more on the violent side, due to my intrusive thoughts. I also deal with psychosis on the daily, so there’s that. Overall, this blog is getting the very raw side of me I struggle to express to others in a healthy manner, so the vast internet void gets it instead. I do have BPD and My Goddess is my favorite person, but I'm also aplatonic and hyperrose (hyperromantic and hypersexual) so I have no intentions of making friends. My sole purpose for this blog is to be my personal diary.

Either way, I hope you stick around! I’ll post some original content here and there for the yandere community. Never be afraid to send me an ask, I quite enjoy rambling, just don’t be creepy/sexual to me, and don’t vent in my inbox. I struggle with empathy and it’s probably just going to overwhelm me. I don’t give good advice if I don’t know you personally. 

**All personal posts will be tagged “worshipper’s oath”**

[important-animal-images]

[amongst-the-pines]

Become ungovernable

[alarajrogers]

That sign can't stop me because I ate it

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

Okay so this is a hail mary post to the yan followers. Can any of y'all tell me about Degrees of Lewdity? I'm interested in playing it but it seemed to be unavailable on steam?? Is it just not available anymore??? I love games like it so I'm kinda sad about it :/

[yourunnaturalobsessor]

You are the drug I am addicted to

You are the home I need to be in

You are the god and I am your devoted follower

You are the most perfect being ever to exist and I am far lesser than you for you are perfect in all ways

[thearrogance]

it doesn't have to be romantic i just want to be someone's caretaker. the person who reminds them to eat, drink, sleep, shower, brush their teeth, text a friend, commit to something, do homework, clean, cook food, organize, anything. to be the relief in their day that someone cares. that someone is me.

[cannibalcanines]

fuck situationships I wanna be bound to you by fate and be soulmates

[maladaptiveangelx]

The spaces between your fingers are supposed to be filled with mine.

[muttpoetry]

"match my freak" match my devotion match my loyalty match my love match my yearning match my ache match my obsession match my need for you

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

Private thought: My Goddess is earning the Landmine Girl label through and through and it's honestly really endearing to me as an Explosive BPD kinda guy??? Like I'll run into one of them emotional landmines and I'll be thrown for a loop for a moment but then I'm like "🥺 oh crap I made her split I feel so bad" and I can tell she'll short circuit for a minute about it because her brain is freaking out at the response being kindness and not immediate screaming and punishment.

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

If I start working out I may post pics, since My Goddess likes showing me off. It may also be reserved for the joint horny blog we made. I'll chit chat more with her about that blog and see what she thinks. I don't wanna slim down I just wanna bulk up. I also have my dad's body type which is very... chubby fit? I can't remember the correct word but like true to form strong man body type. I am by all definitions a bear.

Either way I'm trying to be more comfy posting on social media now that I've closed a lot of old chapters of my life officially. We'll see how I dooo.

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

I do not know how to explain that I have both a special interest in being an S-Tier husband, and a deep sense of gender euphoria tied to it.

(This post is sponsored by me basically solo hauling a washer and dryer up a flight of stairs to install on my own, and will be running my wife a bath later because she's been having a rough time emotionally.)

[lyrics-and-music]

Follow You // Bring Me The Horizon

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

So cool little life update for the people that care about me, I got my stuff back from my extremely abusive ex after almost four full years.

It was pretty quick in and out. And while I didn't give enough to psychoanalyze her emotions past "Am I about to be physically attacked?" (Since I had my best friend and my wife and I know they'd pile drive this woman in the ground for fun if I gave them the word) I wanted to believe in her apology and her growth.

Then she tried to talk me into keeping my pet leopard gecko which was literally never discussed, I even confirmed with her prior to leaving that he was coming home with me and she said yes.

And then once we got home and I started looking for the top tier important stuff, and I found my pokemon card collection (which was previously my brothers, he played in events during BASE SETS RELEASE). And. She chucked. An OPEN JAR OF DIRT AND DEAD PLANTS IN IT. THERE WERE LITERALLY JUST POKEMON CARDS IN THERE AND A SINGLE OPEN JAR OF DIRT.

The dumbass also created what I'm now labeling the "post-Worshipper running away" bin, because she has tons of her shit shoved in here too but it was clearly to hurt me??? (And also under a fucking FILTHY blanket.)

The items include:

- The creative writing journal she made while we were in the class together during highschool. This has all the foundations of how our relationship formed written down from her side.

- Several crushed DIY valentines day card I had made

- THE TINY DRAGON CARVING THE EX SHE CHEATED ON ME WITH GAVE HER?????????

So yeah. I'm about to use all this to finally curse this bitch to the ninth degree. I do not give a SINGLE fuck about her growth now. If she is still this shitty now, fuck her. Let the Universe return some wrathful energy.

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

The thing is the shit shoved in this bin that's hers, I don't really give a single fuck about??? It's just super charged curse taglocks and burn material for me??? Like??? I think some part of her brain thought I still was hurting from the breakup and not the extremely violent abuse I was put through that happened after because I couldn't just immediately move. And this was her attempt at hurting me one last time and yeah it hurt to see the tiny carving. That was all that actually hurt. The rest made me start laughing at how this dip shit just handed me perfect curse fodder and how glad I am that she has always been 10 different levels of stupid.

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

So cool little life update for the people that care about me, I got my stuff back from my extremely abusive ex after almost four full years.

It was pretty quick in and out. And while I didn't give enough to psychoanalyze her emotions past "Am I about to be physically attacked?" (Since I had my best friend and my wife and I know they'd pile drive this woman in the ground for fun if I gave them the word) I wanted to believe in her apology and her growth.

Then she tried to talk me into keeping my pet leopard gecko which was literally never discussed, I even confirmed with her prior to leaving that he was coming home with me and she said yes.

And then once we got home and I started looking for the top tier important stuff, and I found my pokemon card collection (which was previously my brothers, he played in events during BASE SETS RELEASE). And. She chucked. An OPEN JAR OF DIRT AND DEAD PLANTS IN IT. THERE WERE LITERALLY JUST POKEMON CARDS IN THERE AND A SINGLE OPEN JAR OF DIRT.

The dumbass also created what I'm now labeling the "post-Worshipper running away" bin, because she has tons of her shit shoved in here too but it was clearly to hurt me??? (And also under a fucking FILTHY blanket.)

The items include:

- The creative writing journal she made while we were in the class together during highschool. This has all the foundations of how our relationship formed written down from her side.

- Several crushed DIY valentines day card I had made

- THE TINY DRAGON CARVING THE EX SHE CHEATED ON ME WITH GAVE HER?????????

So yeah. I'm about to use all this to finally curse this bitch to the ninth degree. I do not give a SINGLE fuck about her growth now. If she is still this shitty now, fuck her. Let the Universe return some wrathful energy.

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

if it helps, I've flown multiple times across state lines with like two weed carts and it was never an issue (both states have rec use legalized tho...)

regardless, it'll be okay ^^

Thank you for this, I'm not even planning on bringing my vape pen, as this is just to grab the last of my stuff from a very shitty ex finally, but I have agoraphobia that immediately shoots through the roof if there is a law enforcer of any kind present due to trauma bullshit. So I think I'm just scared of being near legal authorities again even though I'm not really a guy I think they'd target. Maybe 🫠

[guard-dog-boyfriend]

So I'm going to be on a plane for the first time in five years, which means I've been able to finally realize that my paranoia has increased quite a bit. My brain triggers the Pre-TSA anxiety of "what if I commited a crime on accident and forgot?" three whole days before the flight will be occurring. I am not even in the airport. I literally had a stress dream about this last night. It was an incredibly stupid stress dream but it was one nonetheless.

[sarahdraws16]

Caine & Jax 🐇