no safe anymore.

indie, selective, laura lee from yellowjackets. adored by lucy.

[guiltedfaith]

indie,  selective,  laura  lee  from  yellowjackets,  adored  by  lucy  (they/them  &  27).  exploring  themes  of  faith  and  religion,  betrayal,  the  exploration  of  sexuality,  and  desertion.  established  march  2022.

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[antlerqueer]

Yellowjackets (2021). s01e08.

[guiltedfaith]

while they were normally so careful to not go against what people would want them to do, when laura lee set their mind on something it was exceptionally hard to talk them down. there was exceptions to the incessant need to be liked, and this was just one of those times. it was a good attempt, lottie the one person who laura lee would always listen to, but they’d barely registered who was speaking -- just that they were trying to stop them.  "this isn't just about you. it's about what's best for all of us." there was a sense of urgency behind their words, hands tensing then relaxing, stopping from their rush to look at her. lottie was normally so calming for laura lee, the exception to everything that was around all of them and this lightness in their life. but the weight of what they were trying to pull off got in the way, and all that happened was their eyes softened before they tried to push past her. “we all die if we don’t at least try, don’t you get that?”

    💬    /   @antlrcrwnd​

[guiltedfaith]

"would you come to my funeral?" it was a morbid question for a person who had once been the perfect image of joy and positivity. they couldn’t even be sure if it was a genuine question or a more lighthearted test of friendship, if it could be called that. mortality weighed heavy on their mind these days, jokes often giving way to the real fears they now possessed, only hoping no one around them realised. if they came across as jokes and just that, no one would look too deep into why they had this newer outlook. laura lee was secretive, never letting anyone in far enough to know what they’d been through. not anymore. “completely hypothetical, i don’t think i’m dying. but if you got an invitation or read about it somewhere, would you?”

    💬    /   @perceives​

[guiltedfaith]

the hints of a smile ghosted across their face as they looked at kate, head tilting ever so slightly to the side. there was something about her that laura lee just trusted, something in her face or voice that said laura lee should listen. trust had been a thing they’d stopped wanting, letting people in meant either judgement or concern -- they didn’t want either of those things. but looking at kate, a voice in the back of their head said it wouldn’t be like that with her. gaze softened, and one corner of their mouth quirked up. “entirely hypothetically, how are you with secrets? i don’t have any, but scale of one to ten?”

    ❝   tell me if something’s wrong - you can count on me.  ❞    /   @vihilum​

[guiltedfaith]

“well, what if it was really important?” their eyes narrowed, as if it was the most obvious reason and natalie should have known. laura lee was never good at holding grudges, and especially not after becoming more religious. they were big on forgiveness, even if they weren’t sure the person necessarily deserved it. “you could have been dying, doesn’t mean i have to be happy to see you.” there’s a pause, wetting their lips as they look at her. “you aren’t dying, right?”

    " why the hell did you open your door for me if you're so angry at me?! " natalie   /   @nofable​

[guiltedfaith]

there was a comfortable silence, the two of them still sitting there and laura lee not quite ready to move away. they were even more unwilling at the sudden feeling of their hand in another's, the last thing they expected but not at all unwelcomed. gaze trailed down until it was settled on their hands, one that had previously been just hanging was now in laura’s. her hand was warm and welcoming, and a million other things that laura lee couldn’t pinpoint, yet all positive. quietness somehow hung in the air around them, eyes still on their hands, afraid if they looked away it would be brushed off as an accident, a split second of misjudgment, and laura lee wanted to remember it as more than that. a thank you, a sign of this thing they shared.  “you have a nice hand.” the words were so quiet they may as well have been a whisper, and as soon as they came out laura lee wished they were even quieter.

    [ HOLD ]: having been bandaged and cared for by the receiver, sender unexpectedly reaches out to take their hand and hold it in a quiet, sincere gesture of gratitude.   /   @perceives​

[guiltedfaith]

lips parted, but nothing came out. how did laura lee even begin to tell lottie that they’d always doing anything for her? scared those confessions would be falling on unwanting ears had always made laura lee keep to them to themself. “you don’t need to thank me. i just want to, i don’t know, be there and help you. support you. it’s what friends are for, right?” there was an accidental inflection on friends, one they hoped lottie didn’t pick up on. “you’re really important to me, so i’d keep doing anything to keep you happy, or at least happier, thanks or no thanks. i want you to know that.” it was true that they didn’t need a thanks to tell them to keep it up, but what they didn’t say was so much louder than what they did let themself say. 

    " i am grateful, you know. for everything you've ever done for me... i notice. and i see you. and i've never thanked you properly before, so... thank you. "   /   @visionsaw​

[guiltedfaith]

a sweet smile spread across their features, taking in the sight of misty in front of them. in a way, they were both outcasts. while both involved with the team and had people friendly to them, sometimes laura lee still felt like they were outside and looking in. sometimes, they assumed misty felt the same way, it made it less lonely. there was an unspoken bond, one that allowed laura lee to be there and not have the incessant need to know exactly what was happening and firing off question after question, a simple are you okay was all they needed. “you’ll tell me more if you want me to know more, i believe.”

    " thank you for not asking questions. "   /   @nofable​

[guiltedfaith]

they struggled to find words, lips pressed together but not quite forming a frown. there was hints of a limp, wincing whenever they stepped wrong. “you’d think being able to play soccer, i wouldn’t lose my footing and land wrong.” cheeks tinted pink from embarrassment, after everything they’d been through and laura lee was taken out by uneven ground. there was an insurmountable range of things that could go wrong, any injury or ailment leaving the rest of them questioning what got to them, they were almost tempted to lie at first, but they didn’t lie anymore. “i’m fine, i just need to find a new way to walk for a little bit. i’m good!”

    " what the hell happened to you!? "   /   @nofable

[guiltedfaith]

drafting all the memes i have and then posting them all at once so i can feel accomplished on at least one blog lfgnkdjgnvksj

[guiltedfaith]

do you have a list of people laura lee's out to with regards to the pronouns?

i feel like they would've told jackie and lottie first, and then when they all got stranded they would've eventually opened up about it because with everything else going on, staying in the closet didn't feel like the most important priority to have, but wouldn't have told ben, travis or javi. everyone else (including those, or people from other media and ocs) can be determined by how the interactions go or anything plotted

[guiltedfaith]

just a quick question, would you require that people refer to laura lee as they/them in writing even if the muse specifically doesn't know that those are laura lee's pronouns?

okay i didn't even think of this so thanks for bringing it up ! i think that while i'd prefer any sort of narration to refer to them as they/them, if it's a character they haven't come out to or that hasn't found out in some way i won't be mad about the misgendering -- especially because in the show laura lee is a cis girl and i've just made the change because i found out jane widdop is nonbinary and both want to respect that and explore that with the character

[guiltedfaith]

not back to back ooc posts ..................... anyway lil quick disclaimer i guess that the way i write laura lee and lottie is being enamored but it doesn’t have to be reciprocated i just think they adore her and that comes through in all the replies. laura lee and lottie friendship is also perfect but they will have a crush

[guiltedfaith]

i could kiss all of u i didnt actually expect to wake up with things to do 

[justanotherrpmeme]

Send 💬  for me to make you a starter with a random line of dialogue from this generator.

[badliares]

* 𝚂𝙻𝙴𝙴𝙿𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙰𝚃 𝙻𝙰𝚂𝚃 ( 𝚂𝙾𝙵𝚃 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙸𝙾𝙽 ) 𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂.

taken from the bands’ various songs,   but with a twist:    a lot of it are soft sentence starters meant for those quiet or glaringly tender moments.     nothing belongs to me.     feel free to change any pronouns or sentence structure according to your muse’s preferences.

❝   the world is brighter than the sun now that you’re here.    ❞

❝   you are loved, you are loved more than you know.   ❞

❝   i’ll give you everything i have, i’ll teach you everything i know.   ❞

❝   i will always hold you close, but i will learn to let you go.    ❞

❝   i will soften every edge, I’ll hold the world to its best.   ❞

❝   you taught me the courage of stars before you left.   ❞

❝   how rare and beautiful it is to even exist.   ❞

❝   sweetheart, you look a little tired. when did you last ate?   ❞

❝   it’s okay if you can’t catch your breath; you can take the oxygen straight out of my own chest.   ❞

❝   just wanna build you up till you’re good as new.   ❞

❝   with every heartbeat i have left, i will defend your every breath.    ❞

❝   i promise i’ll do better.   ❞

❝   your heart is far too young to realise the unimaginable light you hold inside.   ❞

❝   come in and make yourself at home. stay as long as you need.   ❞

❝   no, i don’t wanna talk about myself - tell me where it hurts.   ❞

❝   i just wanna love you well.   ❞

❝   i’d give anything to hear you say it one more time that the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes.   ❞

❝   i will rearrange the stars, pull them down to where you are.   ❞

❝   i will love you without any strings attached.   ❞

❝   i finally see myself—unabridged and overwhelmed, a mess of a story i’m ashamed to tell—but i’m slowly learning how to break this spell.   ❞

❝   make my messes matter.   ❞

❝   tell me if something’s wrong - you can count on me.  ❞

❝   we were full of life, we could barely hold it in.   ❞

❝   time is ruthless but showed us kindness in the end.   ❞

❝   we find our way back home.   ❞

❝   i wanna love you but i don’t know how.  ❞

❝   for the first time i see an image of my brokenness utterly worthy of love.   ❞

❝   you know i’ll take my heart and clean apart, if it helps yours beat.    ❞

❝   we will call this place our home.   ❞

❝   it’s okay if you can’t find the words; let me take your coat off and these weight off your shoulders.   ❞

❝   let our hearts, like doors, open wide.   ❞

❝   i will love you with every single thing i have.   ❞

❝   what a privilege it is to love.   ❞

❝   a little broken, a little new. we are the impact and the glue. capable more than we know to call this fixer upper home.   ❞

❝   let the years we’re here be kind.   ❞

❝   there is goodness in the heart of every broken man.   ❞

❝   we’re young enough to try to build a better life.   ❞

❝   i rebuild when I break down.   ❞

❝   don’t you worry, there’s still time.   ❞

❝   i’m short of breath standing next to you   ❞

❝   you are beautiful like I’ve never seen.   ❞

❝   goodnight, it is time to sleep. the moon will watch over all of your dreams.   ❞

❝   go ahead and laugh, even if it hurts.   ❞

❝   you’re enough. i promise you.   ❞

❝   oh, let me be right.   ❞

❝   we are infinite.   ❞

❝   we may fall in love every time we open up our eyes.   ❞