i’ll try to make this quick. this is going to be the first and final time i ever talk about this. i probably won’t answer any questions regarding this, i won’t talk about it publicly outwith this post unless the situation arises, i won’t dwell on this for any longer than i have to – but i don’t want this to go ignored, because it’s something important. i don’t want this to dictate my life upon this site. i don’t want to stay bound to this forever. i want to move on.
everything about this is true. i have no reason to lie about any of this. this is not any of the social experiment bullshit he’s tried to say it is. this is real, this happened to me, and i’m not staying quiet about it. here’s some people who helped out, and also those who might want to see this – @pcindre, @ncfrat, @whitepeoplearehellbeasts, @problematicdirectory.
ollie, who most of you know as iuriis, came back to tumblr under the url rex/al/ban with a fake identity. using another person’s selfies, he pretended to be a 16 year old girl from the uk named “joy”, in order to get close to me and one of my friends. he fooled us all – we defended “joy” against those who suspected she was ollie. whilst a few of us had our suspicions, they were all eventually disregarded.
i was close to “joy”. we talked a lot, mostly about our muses. i was excited to make a new friend, especially with someone who roleplayed a personification of my country. she claimed to have been assaulted by ollie. it wasn’t until monday night (20th november) that we really talked about ourselves, and “joy” told me she had a crush on me. i was, admittedly, smitten. that night, we talked about potentially meeting, something we’d mentioned before, kissing, making out. i EXPLICITLY stated that i was asexual, as well as a csa, cocsa, and grooming/stalking victim. she seemed to respect this, told me she was ‘pretty grey-ace’ herself. it seemed too good to be true. it was.
on tuesday night, “joy” said she had something to tell me. that it wasn’t “too bad”. then this happened. i’m heliogabalus in these screenshots.
this is the main part of the conversation, minus a few messages asking if i was alright, and telling me to get over it. to say i was a wreck would be an understatement. that day had already been particularly terrible, and this revelation was truly the icing on the cake. i was in tears, shaking, in a complete state of shock.
but i didn’t stay quiet about this. i couldn’t. almost immediately after this happened, i went to my friend cheech ( @otempcraomcres ) with this. she was understandably livid. she then told agrippa, her girlfriend laure, ( @overyourhubris ) who in turn told brogen, aka @faultsaints / @errorshe, one of the major blogs during the original sarah incident. whilst i initially wanted to keep this as contained as possible, it got out fairly fast, and part of me is glad that it did. on wednesday, ollie sent me this from his other blog.
when i first got this, i couldn’t read it. i sent it to cheech, to laure, who sent it to brogen. they told me not to read it – that it was disgusting, it wasn’t worth it. this was around the time when ollie kicked off on his blogs and started insulting me, making fun of my weight, saying no one would love me, saying i should’ve come to him to work things out, blaming me for “sexting” him, insinuating that i’d led him on.
i never consented in the first place. i’m asexual. i told him i was asexual. not only that, i’m still a minor in the majority of the world (16). i never sexted him. i made one comment about making out, and that was it. i mentioned i was gay, as in, liking women. i sent him an ask saying “i love u”. i don’t know how he deluded himself into thinking we sexted, but the point remains – HE WAS PLANNING TO RAPE ME. i don’t know for how long he’d been planning this, and quite frankly, i don’t want to know. it’s likely he would’ve gone through with this if he wasn’t about to be called out by brogen again, and the length of time he’d spent on this seems pretty evident, even stating he only wanted to talk to me and a few others.
and even on the first day, he tried to keep up the guise that he still cared about me under the guise of “joy”.
i would not lie about something this horrendous. this is not a social experiment like he tried to pass it off as. this is not me making a big deal about something little. ollie purposefully lied in order to get close to two minors. he catfished our entire group, had all of us convinced that “joy” was innocent. i’m speaking up about this because i don’t want anyone else to get hurt. i don’t believe he’s going to stop targeting people, specifically young girls. he was targeting me from the start, along with agrippa, and who knows who he’ll target next. he acts as if he’s merciful for telling me the truth, when in reality, he’s not. i’ve spent this past week in a dissociated haze, i’ve lost weight because of the stress, i’ve fallen behind in school, i’ve been a shaking, emotional wreck, having nightmares every night. i don’t want someone to go through what i have. i don’t want someone else potentially getting hurt, in any possible way, by this demon.
ollie – if you loved me as much as you claimed to, you wouldn’t have threatened me. you wouldn’t have catfished me, insulted me when i went to people about this, spread lies about me, or blamed me for this whole thing. you wouldn’t have planned to rape me. i rejected you, and like every narcissist, you’re trying to repair your damaged ego by attacking me. i can speak for myself, and that pisses you off. if you were fucking dense enough to believe you could keep me quiet, then you’re even stupider than i initially thought.
you don’t love me, or agrippa. you don’t care, and you said that yourself. but i’m supposedly the one at fault. you claim that me and everyone else have made this seem worse than it is, and that it’s been taken out of context.
it’s pretty hard to take this out of context.
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