alright so I've already sucked at keeping track every day. mostly i would just forget and other times it felt like a lot of pressure on myself if i feel forced to do things every day.Â
I've really just been letting myself take my time with working out and eating right. really taking baby steps. because if i forced myself then i would just stop or hate it the whole time but now it’s just slowly becoming a part of my routine, and becoming the norm. like eating healthy has become fun and i’m HORRIBLE at cooking but i’m getting a lot of practice in now with simple things like quinoa patties and stir fry.. i feel like if i can make stir fry then i will never go hungry because when in doubt, just mix a bunch of crap together. I've also been drinking a TON of lemon water every day and i feel like that’s had a major impact as well. water in general is obviously necessary for life and health and weight loss but i think really drinking a LOT of water makes such a difference. i think the fact that i throw a cut up lemon in there makes me more motivated to drink water so i don’t feel like i’m just wasting the lemon i bought and put in there lol.Â
I've been doing workouts with weights or even just my body weight in my own room and I've felt good doing it. i finally ran for the first time today and i could barely run more than a couple minutes at a time before giving up. but i just let myself take it easy because i don’t want to be miserable while doing it. i really want to work up to doing more so that i can enjoy it.
it’s been really helpful to play upbeat music that goes at a good pace.. because something it me just wants to follow the beat of songs so if its fast i’ll go faster and crash faster.. and if its slow then i’ll kind of lose motivation and momentum in my workout. listening to podcasts is also really entertaining.. I've been doing that more in general like to fall asleep i’ll play meditations or while cooking i just have youtubers like David Dobrik or Shane Dawson talking in the background just for entertainment.Â
my results are small and slow but i’m proud of them because it’s healthy and i feel like i can maintain it even if i became busy with something else (a job lol). my stomach definitely looks a little better, and it’s probably mostly because I've just been eating better so i’m not as bloated all the time. I've also noticed that my double chin is smaller (i never had one that would show all the time but i feel like it was very easy for the fat to show when i lowered my chin a little... this mostly made me sad/uncomfortable because i thought about what my [ex] bf was seeing when he would look down at me in bed and.... yeah i needed to change things...). anyway, i’m proud of what i’m seeing so far.
i need to work on being more kind to myself, especially if i eat some junk food i need to remember it’s not going to kill all of my progress and that its ok to let myself eat badly sometimes because i’m a freaking human and should enjoy life!!! and that’s the whole point of working out and eating clean most of the time.. so that i don’t have to feel guilty if i indulge once in a while.Â













