Zenith Petrichor || @zenvyix side blog! || 19 || zey/zem/he/it || yume/selfship || Banner and PFP are screenshot redraws from the anime. || Title is from Find Your Flame - Sonic Frontiers OST
proshippers AND antishippers dni, i hate you both. i am not part of either of you. i am employed and touch grass. otherwise i block freely.
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Now Playing: Be As One - w-inds.
"I will be as one, I swear I will protect you. Stay with me, I love you."
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Hi!!! My name is Zenith Galileo Petrichor, or just Zen. This is a selfship/yumeship sideblog that centers around my main f/o, Gray Fullbuster, from Fairy Tail. I have other romantic f/os as well as queer-platonic f/os I'll list in a minute. This blog will double as my selfship blog and also just my general Fairy Tail centric blog where I talk about my s/i too. I'll yap about other f/os on occasion, but... yk...
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I am aroace and fictorose. I turned 19 not too long ago and my pronouns are zey/zem/zeirs, he/it works just fine, too. I am autistic, ADHD, OCPD, depersonalization/derealization (DPDR), and delusional disorder (DD). All diagnosed with the available resources I have. I'm also emetophobic and germaphobic, so refrain from anything vomit related and anything generally gross. I cannot handle gore (only mild), active self harm, mutilation, and especially anything to do with eyeballs. My pronouns page will give you more info on my identities, sexualities, and my pronoun collection. And my strawpage goes more in depth about me and some other stuff! I also have an ao3, although I don't post selfship fics yet. I have cc/cc fics tho.
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My number one rule on the internet is you are responsible for the content you consume. I am not responsible for anyone coming onto my blog and seeing something they don't like. If I post something you don't like, block me.
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I'm also fictionkin and alterhuman. I've never met a double, so I really don't know how I feel about them, but that's a problem for later me. A lot of my kins are also my f/os. I partake in selfcest/mirrorshipping for multiple reasons and if you don't like that, get out idk. There's nothing wrong with it.
- Zeref Dragneel (some guy i have a weird magical connection with idk, Fairy Tail)
- Enjin (older brother figure, GACHIAKUTA)
- Amo Empool and Guita Hebby Fantasia (younger sister figures, GACHIAKUTA)
- Miles "Tails" Prower (younger brother, Sonic the Hedgehog)
* the weird dragon pact is just a mutual pack/pact thing between all the dragon slayers. its not familial per se but its. its something!
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Unsorted/Possible:
- Asaba Harumasa (Zenless Zone Zero)
- Kinich (Genshin Impact)
- Reno Ichikawa (Kaiju No. 8)
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I should also say that I don't like or support Hoyoverse. I unfortunately have a deep attachment to a lot of their games, especially Genshin as I've played it since Dragonspine release (1.2? i think?) Idk, but I don't like hoyo, they deleted my acc </3
Also, all friends and family f/os are sharing!
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I do NOT ship with Solivan or Ren anymore. This is not because I was ashamed and didn't want people to know, or that I wanted to keep them a secret. I stopped shipping with them because I realized that I was reverting to old ways of coping. It took me a while to realize that, but after I realized what I was doing, I immediately stopped liking them. Ren is a little more forgiving because he is the only one who is big on consent, but still. That's all, thank you.
CW for major and minor character death (not extremely descriptive) and vague mentions of child trafficking. This is 2.8k words. Reference sheets at the very bottom (you can just scroll past everything if you want, you don't need to read all of this).
Zenith Petrichor, the Leviathan of Fairy Tail. The guild's very own water dragon slayer.
He's quite the mysterious one, that boy.
A "loner" by definition.
He does not know that soon, he will be so, so loved.
Tidalis, the Water Dragon, was lithe and pearlescent. It had chromatic blue-green scales all over it's body with wispy fins that trail all the way down like fabric flowing through the waves. A beautiful creature, really.
This dragon is the guardian of two small children, the Petrichors. Zenith and Freya. They were both brilliant children, but Tidalis took the eldest as it's suitor to learn it's magic. Freya was simply too young.
Where these two young children came from, no one knows. Zenith couldn't remember anything, and his younger sister wasn't any better.
As they aged, they grew into wonderful, capable people. Zenith taught his sister some magic, even if she wasn't supposed to be learning any. He wants her to be safe in any emergency.
Zenith wasn't as loud as Freya was. They almost seemed like complete opposites. Freya would laugh, run around, and smile as bright as the sun. Zenith stayed focused on his training and was more calm and collected, almost quiet. They were the two sides of a single coin. Sun and moon, as they say.
Zenith was not the moon, though. He wasn't aware of that, but rather, Tidalis was more of the moon than he ever was. Zenith is the deep oceans of Earthland that are pushed and pulled by the moon at night, and he is the surface waters that become warm and inviting during the day.
He is the typhoons that riddle the oceans, the gravitational pull of the moon, and the puddles after a day of rain.
He is Earthland, the water of Earthland.
Years pass where Zenith grows stronger by the day, with Freya right behind him becoming brighter each sunrise.
Unfortunately, it wouldn't last forever. Tragedy struck at the seventh hour, of the seventh day, of the seventh month, in the year seven-seven-seven. July 7th, X777. The timing was strange, but Zenith had no time to ruminate on what it could mean, as he no longer has a protector. He himself has become the guardian.
He's learned survival skills over the years, so that wasn't the hard part. The hard part was finding somewhere to live.
They traveled through forests and through mountains, with a few near death experiences, and ended up in a small town at the bottom of the mountains. Along the way, they had found a peculiar egg with green markings littering its surface. It was impenetrable, so they simply just took it along with them on their journey.
By the time they had reached town, the egg had hatched. It was a... cat. A grey cat that can talk and can fly, apparently. Zenith and Freya were bewildered, but took the cat along with them anyway. They named him Astrin.
In this village, they had to rely on thieving, as they had no jewel to their name. Some were kind and loaned them food and clothes. They were sitting at an inn when they heard something interesting. Something about a guild.
Zenith remembers Tidalis mentioning magic guilds, and that one day both he and Freya would join one. That's when it clicked for him; he needed to find a guild. The guild he had heard through the whispers at the bar pointed him to Blue Pegasus.
It doesn't take long to reach the guild, and when they do, they meet its master.
Master Bob was strange to say the least. However, something that did confuse Zenith was that the guildmaster asked him about his gender. He was a boy, was he not? That's how he was raised, and that's what he wants to be.
Apparently, now that he's twelve, some things are going to be changing with his body. And his body was not the body of a boy's. It was that of a girl's. His body was the same as Freya's. It was weird. Zenith didn't know how to feel about any of that. Did he need to be a girl? He didn't want to be a girl.
So, Master Bob told him that he can be whatever he wants to be. To ignore anyone who says otherwise, because they don't know your mind like you do.
It helped. The guildmaster also gave him some clothing and bandages to help with his chest area, which would be growing, unfortunately.
Even though everything so far had been welcoming, Zenith felt that they shouldn't stay at Blue Pegasus. That their journey wasn't over yet. Master Bob agreed and had called the dragon slayer 'incredibly intuitive'. He loaned the Petrichors plenty of jewel for them to survive on for a while.
They set off once again, this time heading southeast, following the bottom of the mountains. They tried to take a train, but Zenith got incredibly sick as soon as it began moving, so it was completely ruled out after that.
He had a fear of nausea and sickness, so learning that any moving vehicle would make him such was devastating.
From Mt. Hakobe, they made their way further southeast to Onibus. Since they had been traveling for so long, they needed to stop and rest.
This rest turned into a year of stay.
It was frustrating, really.
The reason they had stayed so long was because people's eyes were lingering on them too much. Freya was young, bright, and innocent. People were cruel and corrupt.
He spent a long time protecting Freya from people who wanted to take her, and in the process, landed himself on quite a few bounty-boards across many dark guilds. He was too young to have blood on his hands, but Freya and Astrin are all he has now. He is the oldest. He is the strongest. He is their protector. He needs to keep them safe.
During this year, he started training physically with a teacher. It was odd, but learning different arts of fighting will build his skill and his fighting style. Tidalis taught him that expanding your sight will lead you to a brighter horizon.
He even got a few jobs. Nothing crazy, but the jewel Master Bob loaned them wouldn't last forever.
It's just... on the down-low, he did some things he's not proud of. He's killed people for daring to hurt his family. He was a normal thirteen year old during the day, and something sinister at night.
Eventually, they made it out of Onibus. They traveled northeast this time, following the train tracks by foot. It wasn't a long distance, but Zenith mostly wanted to get them away from bounty hunters. Oshibana was safe for now.
Except it wasn't.
Nowhere was safe. They kept hunting them down and would find them wherever they ran. They needed to find a guild, and fast.
They traveled back and forth for another year, even ending up at Lamia Scale for a few weeks, before they were found there, too. Zenith didn't like Lamia Scale all too much, but they weren't that bad. They housed them and were nice enough, but they were all strange.
It wasn't until they were traveling back up from Lamia Scale that they heard it. They crossed paths with another group of people, and they had mentioned a name.
Fairy Tail.
When Zenith heard the name, he paused. Astrin and Freya moved along without him, eventually stopping to check on him. They watched silently as the dragon slayer strained his ears to continue listening to the other group's conversation.
In Magnolia, there was a guild called Fairy Tail.
That's where they were meant to be.
He's not sure how they missed it on their travels, especially since he has been to Magnolia. Granted, they only passed through, not even staying for a day. Maybe that's why.
Zenith, with newfound vigor, grabbed Freya's hand and yelled for Astrin to follow him. That he's finally found them a home. A home where they will be safe, and a home that will welcome them with open arms. A perfect place for Freya's brightness to thrive.
They still had a day's worth of travel, though. The dragon slayer was excited, more excited than he's ever been. So much so that the feeling of being watched completely slipped his mind as they entered the forest north of Magnolia.
He didn't realize how much he'd come to regret this decision. How he'd come to regret his blindness.
Halfway through the thicket, they had paused for a second too long. In this second, they were ambushed by a group of bounty hunters.
Usually, this isn't too much of an issue. Zenith can handle this. Something was off, though. A peculiar smell in the air.
It hits him all at once, the paralyzation. One of these bounty hunters had magic that specialized in controlling bodily functions through smell. He couldn't move. It was made worse by his nose being more sensitive, therefore being more receptive to this magic. Both Freya and Astrin were affected by it as well.
Zenith was grabbed by the throat. He was quite small, so it was relatively easy to restrain him, but the headlock that the hunter had him in felt unnecessary. While restrained, he was forced to watch the scene unfold before him, with no way of stopping it.
He was powerless to watch as it happened.
These bounty hunters didn't take anything seriously, and went on and on about selling Freya for money, probably to a trafficking ring or some sort of slave-trade, while tossing her around like a ragdoll.
Astrin was tied by his wings, and it feels like a miracle in the present that they didn't try ripping them off of him. He does have scarring from being whipped by one of these hunters, though.
All of their screams fell on deaf, uncaring ears.
Deaf, until the forest itself made no sound. Until no one made a sound.
Until there was nothing but the solid crack of Freya's back hitting a boulder.
She made one last cry of pain before she fell to the ground. The hunters looked at each other, slightly worried. They looked at her for a few seconds, trying to discern if she had really died from the impact.
Her spine cracked at her neck, meaning no, she couldn't have survived. And for all Zenith knew, Astrin was dead, too. He didn't know the cat was still alive.
He heard murmurs around him, about how, "you weren't supposed to kill the girl!"
About how, "we were supposed to sell her and bring the dragon slayer's head back!"
It was all muffled. Zenith stopped struggling against his restraints a long time ago, paralyzed by more than just magic.
Everything felt slow, fuzzy, unreal.
His family is dead, everything he had and everything he lived for. They're dead.
Zenith huffs out a small laugh, in disbelief and anger. He's never felt this angry. He doesn't know what to do.
So, his body decides for him; he blacks out.
When he comes to, he's still in the forest. His sister's dead body is still lying in the same spot, having long gone cold at this point. Astrin was also in the same place as he remembers.
Everyone else? They're also dead. There's blood everywhere, a massacre. He doesn't care, though. He's glad they're dead.
He crawls weakly over to Freya and kneels in front of her limp body. The tears finally come, and he hunches over her. He can't scream, his voice can't manage it. He can't muster the strength to scream. He just sits in silence, the sound of the woods deafening to his ears.
After a while, he's not sure how long, he stands up and walks to Astrin, picking him up and holding him close, too.
His eyes go wide. He pulls Astrin back and presses an ear to his furry little torso. There it is, a pulse. A heartbeat.
Zenith starts crying again; Astrin is alive. He's not entirely alone. He needs to get him to medical assistance as fast as possible.
He brings him over to Freya and lays him on top of her. Zenith bends down and picks up his sister and tries not to drop her out of horror. He's holding his sister's dead body.
He can't fathom it. None of it has truly processed in his head that she's gone. He doesn't know if it ever will.
He finishes the trek through the forest and ends on a clearing that sits above the town of Magnolia. All the way at the north side, there's a cliff with a perfect lookout. What is there to look at?
Fairy Tail. The guildhall in all its glory sits at the south side of Magnolia, overlooking the ocean. It's beautiful. It's a perfect place for Freya to rest.
He lays her down gently and slips the necklace off from around her neck. It was a gift from Tidalis. Zenith got the matching earrings, and now he'll wear the necklace for Freya.
He digs the grave with his bare hands. It's his fault she's dead.
He should've been more careful. He shouldn't have gotten carried away.
They were so close. The guild was right there.
Once she's buried, he covers her back up with the dirt. He grabs some tree branches and makes a small grave marker. He carves her name into the wood, and may she rest in peace.
He sits there for a long time. He needs to get up and get Astrin to a clinic, but Zenith has been slowly siphoning his magic into Astrin as he holds the cat. Water has healing capabilities, so little by little, he's keeping Astrin alive.
He doesn't want to leave Freya.
But he has family to tend to.
He stands and says one final "I love you." before departing into Magnolia.
He thought it would end like that, but no. He thought his grief would be the same as when he lost Tidalis. This is much worse.
He hasn't joined the guild. Astrin is in hospice. Zenith lays on the grass alone, right next to her grave. He's expressionless, having already cried himself dry.
The water dragon slayer ran out of tears.
He barely moves from his place on the cliff. He sleeps there and rarely eats anything anymore. He's only gone into town once after he dropped Astrin off, and that was to check on him.
It's been exactly a month.
He lays at her grave, contemplating how much it'd hurt for him to splat onto the ground at the bottom of this cliff. It's his fault she died. He shouldn't care how bad it hurts.
A really bad typhoon rolled in a few days later, Zenith still laying in the same spot. He doesn't take any shelter and let's the storm pass right over him.
It was a powerful storm, for sure. The whirling winds threatened to sweep him away, but he wouldn't let that happen. He holds onto the grave marker, keeping it planted in the ground and keeping himself on the ground.
Something he didn't expect, however, was getting struck by lightning.
It hurts. He actually did scream. The pain traveled all through his body, paralyzing him and searing his right shoulder. It's a reminder from up above. A reminder of his mistake, and a reminder that it's his fault.
He doesn't treat it. He doesn't visit hospice. He lets himself rot. He lets the wound sit without a care. If it kills him, then good. Astrin would be better with a competent companion, not someone like Zenith.
Another few days pass, the dragon slayer's shoulder throbbing rhythmically. He's not disturbed until he hears the sound of a certain flying cat.
He weakly looks up to the grey cat, looking lifeless.
In the end, it was Astrin who forced him to get up and do something with himself. To join the guild.
Having Astrin boss him around is probably what he needed. He tried pushing him away, but that little cat is persistent and hard-headed.
Years pass. He's quiet and sits alone in the corner of the Fairy Tail guildhall. He takes odd jobs here and there with Astrin, but he never makes his presence known to anyone other than Mirajane and Master Makorov.
He visits Freya's grave constantly. He talks to her and tells her about his observations on certain guild members. A fire dragon slayer, the opposite of him. An ice wizard who constantly picked fights with the fire dragon. A redhead who uses requip magic. So many more.
He's an adult now.
He came back from a job to see the guildhall in ruins. He runs and jumps into the action, like a true member of Fairy Tail. Because if Freya can't experience it, then Zen will experience it all for her. He'll fight for her and fight for his new family.
He's an adult. And Freya is still eleven years old. She will forever be eleven years old.
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If you read this whole thing, then thank you!!
I want to add a little disclaimer for anyone worried about canon conflicts regarding the water dragon. There is no technical water dragon slayer, not until the sequel, 100 Years Quest. However, I am fully retconning all of 100YQ in my universe. It doesn't happen in my universe. I'd rather just remove it all than have to rewrite so many facets regarding Gray, me, and Juvia.
That being said, here's some references and charts/sheets!
ok so i realize i need to post my actual fairy tail s/i to like. get anywhere. so here we go. im going to use this as a chance to finalize my s/is story/timeline because there have been minor changes and edits here and there and like. i need to settle on something LMAO
ZENITH PETRICHOR
AGE: 18
ALIAS: LEVIATHAN
MAGIC: WATER DRAGON SLAYER
GUILD: FAIRY TAIL
DESIGN SPRITES:
BACKSTORY:
"My first memory? That's meeting Tidalis [tih-dahl-iss] with my little sister, Freya."
TW: description of death and grieving. section that describes a death scene starts at the first 3 red dots and ends at the next 3 red dots. read safely.
Tidalis, the Water Dragon, had found me and my little sister wandering in the forest at age five and age two. They took us in and gave us food, clothes, and shelter, albeit in a cave. Since I was older, they taught me their Dragon Slayer magic. My sister watched from the sidelines for years. She was never taught anything.
I still taught her some magic, though. She needed a way to protect herself if she ever needed to. My efforts proved to be fruitful when Tidalis disappeared on July 7th, X777, the same day as all the other dragons seemed to vanish. I was ten, and my sister was seven.
We couldn't panic and grieve for long because if we did, I knew that we'd only be in danger. Tidalis always told me that when the day comes, me and Freya will join a guild and that will be our new home. So that was my first goal, find a guild.
It was harder than I thought it'd be. Living in the forest close to the ocean for five years gave me and Freya plenty of survival skills, both learned naturally and from Tidalis. However, we were still kids, and kids can only do so much.
We found an egg shortly after we started our journey. It was a large white egg with bright red markings all over it. We decided to take it along with us, hoping it'd prove to be useful.
It took weeks for us to find a town. When we did, we unfortunately had to rely on petty theft to feed ourselves, since we had no jewel. Some people were kind and gave us some bread without us having to steal it. After asking around about magic guilds, we were pointed in the direction of Blue Pegasus.
Master Bob of Blue Pegasus was kind. He was kinda weird, but he helped me and Freya. I remember him asking me if I was a boy or a girl, and I told him boy. It was confusing at the time, because I always said I was a boy, so why would I be any different? Either way, I stayed at Blue Pegasus for about two years, but I never actually joined. Something told me that it wasn't where I was supposed to be.
That my journey wasn't over yet.
Master Bob agreed, he gave me plenty of jewel for me and Freya to survive on while we traveled from town to town. At age twelve and age nine, we made our way southeast to Shirotsume. We stayed there at an inn while we took jobs to get more jewel to fund for a prolonged stay. I was told that Mt. Hakobe was in the way of here and Oshibana, and the terrain and weather conditions were perilous. I wanted to wait a while before we went, as I felt preparing myself and Freya physically would be important to surviving.
During the time it took to train, the egg we had found hatched. It was a... red... talking... cat. We were super confused, but the cat was cute and somehow was able to fly. It slept a lot and taking care of him was easy. We named him Astrin.
It took another year of training under a local self-defense and survivalist instructor, who was kind enough to help us at a hefty discount considering our story and reason for travel.
We gathered proper snow equipment, rations, and weapons and at age thirteen and age ten, we made our way through the dangerous Mt. Hakobe. About two weeks later with minor injuries and... one or two near death experiences... we made it out and could see Oshibana in the distance. It didn't take us long to get there once we saw it, as we were excited and filled with energy to finally be out of the snow.
Oshibana was nice. It was a welcoming town. We quickly forgot about our original goal, enjoying the bustling town and staying at another inn. The topic about me being a boy or a girl came up again whenever my chest started growing. I realized that I looked like all the other girls. Thankfully, a kind doctor helped me figure out a way to block incoming hormones from puberty. She said I could come back when I'm older for some surgeries to help, too.
This pattern of travelling, however, continued for 4 years. We even traveled to Clover town and then back through Oshibana to Kunugi. We were just living life as adventurers. Once we found ourselves in Onibus at age seventeen and age fourteen, I heard something about a popular guild.
Fairy Tail.
I remember feeling something click in my head and I turned around and asked the person about the guild. They told me it was the next town over in Magnolia. They were known to be reckless and destructive, but also boisterous and friendly.
I felt confused because I wasn't good with those types of people, but I knew Freya was. She loved being loud and she loved having fun and being reckless. It sounded perfect for her. I knew that's where we would find our home. So, we set course for Magnolia.
We didn't take the train, as I had developed motion sickness sometime in between travelling through the connected towns. We had taken a forested pathway that was about a four-day hike from Onibus to Magnolia.
However, we were being followed. I knew we were, but I never did anything. I regret that decision now. I regretted that decision as soon as I realized it was the wrong one.
During my time in the connected towns, I had made many friends, but I didn't realize I had people who weren't fond of me. I didn't openly boast about being a Dragon Slayer, as I knew it was ancient magic, but I never kept it a secret either. I think Freya might've been loud about it, in hindsight.
There were people who wanted my power, who wanted my sister, or who wanted to just kill me... or both of us.
We were halfway through the hike when we were ambushed. Someone had some sort of paralyzing tonic that worked through inhalation. They threw the tonic and paralyzed me, Freya, and Astrin. All of us were defenseless.
...
They grabbed us and... forced me and Freya to watch as they repeatedly slashed Astrin's back, hoping to stop him from using his aero magic. Once he was incapacitated, they then...
They... They threw Freya back and forth between them. They threw her around and around and around... There was a loud crack when she hit a rock, and the forest went deathly silent. I remember one of the attackers saying, "You weren't supposed to kill the girl! You were supposed to kill the Dragon Slayer-!"
"...F-Freya? Hey... get up Freya...!"
I can't move. I can't fucking move. I need to get to Freya. I need to get her and Astrin out of here. She's not dead, she can't be-
"Oh shit, she's actually dead!"
"Yeah, jackass, you weren't supposed to kill her. She would've made a hefty sum of jewel."
She... she what?
"...Freya?"
"Whatever, just kill the cat and the Dragon Slayer and leave them. This was pointless-"
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I remember 'seeing red' as people call it. I lost control of myself and my body. I now know that what happened was my first experience with Dragon Force, but at the time, I was completely out of it and had no clue what was happening to me. I killed all of them. There was nothing left of those filthy assholes.
...I carried Astrin and Freya all the way to Magnolia, still out of it. Dragon Force had worn off, but I was... numb. Freya had long gone cold by the time I had gotten to town. I knew there was no saving her and that she was dead. Instead, I went up a hill to the west of town where I dug a grave and laid her to rest. Astrin was still breathing, so I took him to a clinic to see if they could help him. I left him there for a few days while he healed.
I sat at her grave for months. I slept at her grave for months. I ate at her grave for months. I stayed there for months. I hadn't stepped foot into Fairy Tail. What was the point? It would've been perfect for Freya, but she wasn't here anymore.
I turned eighteen during those grieving months. Freya stayed fourteen. She will forever be... fourteen.
It was Astrin, actually, that finally got me to get up and do something. He told me that Freya would want to see me live for her, rather than waste away at her grave. He was right. I couldn't stay here forever.
Her grave overlooked Magnolia, and there was a clear view of Fairy Tail from there. She'd always watch over me.
Joining the guild was a silent thing. I talked to Master Makarov and Miss Mirajane. They were the only two I talked to on my first day, and then I sat in a corner and observed. I took jobs here and there, but never ones that required I go far from Magnolia. I wasn't ready to leave Freya for long periods of time. I visited her grave a lot and over time, my visits became less frequent.
I spent more time in the guild, enjoying the livelihood of the people in it. A part of me wanted to join, but I was too scared to say anything. Especially knowing that there was another Dragon Slayer in the guild. I kept my scent muddled using my own magic, hoping the Fire Dragon Slayer, Salamander, wouldn't smell me.
It worked, thankfully. I remember seeing him and his team come back battered and bruised from many jobs and emergencies. They even took an S-Class quest even though they weren't supposed to.
It wasn't until I had come back from one of my own jobs to see the guild in destroyed that I made my presence known.
I didn't join them on the raid of Phantom Lord, but I did step in when MK-II had made its way to the guild hall to finish destroying it.
Apparently, Master Jose wanted a girl from our guild, Lucy Heartfilia. I didn't really care why he wanted her, but I could clearly see that the girl didn't want to leave Fairy Tail. I saw her with Salamander's team. I saw how happy she was in the guild. I saw a little bit of myself in a way.
Seeing everyone fight for her made me realize that I wasn't trying hard enough to live. Astrin had said it himself, Freya would want me to live for her. I wasn't doing that, and that is when I finally snapped out of whatever grief-stricken haze I was in and told Astrin to fly me onto MK-II and join the fight against the Element Four.
I remember shedding my cloak and jumping off the ledge as Astrin grabbed me with his wings out. I heard some people gasp behind me, but my focus was set on the Jupiter Canon. I made my way inside the same as Salamander did.
He quesitoned me of course, seeing as he has a talking-and-flying-cat named Happy. I told him we could talk later and that I'll help him fight. He just shrugged and said, "Don't get in my way!"
And honestly, the rest is history. In the aftermath of the Phantom Lord disaster, Salamander, or should I say Natsu, welcomed me into the guild properly. Everyone did.
I never actually said anything about being a Dragon Slayer. I kept my scent muddled for as long as I could. The cat came out of the bag (pun intended) whenever Laxus had initiated the Battle of Fairy Tail. I ended up being stuck in the guild hall with Natsu and Gajeel, who were both Dragon Slayers. Then they reared on me and asked why I was stuck, and... well...
I'm mostly fine now. I've learned to live. I've made a home and friends here in Fairy Tail. I don't want to leave. I think I saw more of myself in Lucy than I originally thought.
I put this in google docs btw and uh. this is over 2000 words. that Was Not My Intention. but okay.,,,,,,
Ways to connect with your f/o
(a list for slow living and mindful moments)
♡ Go for a walk and imagine you're holding their hand
♡ Try to make your f/o's favorite foods
♡ If you'd prefer to be pampered, when you make food, put it down with a little love note from your f/o saying how happy they were to make it for you, and that they hope you enjoy it (even if it's just a sandwich or something small!)
♡ Bake bread with your f/o
♡ Go on a picnic with your f/o
♡ Use pictures of them on your phone or computer to body double when you do chores or study
♡ Use pictures of them on your phone or computer to play video games or watch movies and shows with them
♡ Along that same vein, watch something that they expressed interest in—or that you think they'd really like—and imagine the comments they'd make about their favorite media
♡ Print out a picture or use photos on your phone or computer to have a romantic candlelit dinner with them (even if it's just ramen!)
♡ Buy flowers or a plant from or for your f/o and take care of it
♡ Take up a hobby that they enjoy, even if you're not very good at it
♡ Curate a playlist using music they would enjoy
♡ Or you can curate a playlist using music with meaningful lyrics about you and your f/o's relationship
♡ Write loving post-it notes or letters from your f/o and leave them around the house for yourself
♡ If you need reminders, write one for yourself in your f/o's voice (for appointments, medicine, to eat, or any aspect where you need a little help—they're so happy to help you!)
♡ Run yourself a bath with bath bombs or bubbles and imagine your f/o made it for you to relax
♡ If you prefer showers: light some candles, use your favorite music, and imagine your f/o set everything up for you
♡ Spend time in nature with your f/o enjoying the sun or the trees or the beach or whatever little safe spots of nature you can find around you
♡ Imagine their voice guiding you through meditative or mindful deep breathing
♡ If your f/o is from a different culture than you, learn about their culture—make food from their culture, immerse yourself in music or media from their culture, and/or learn their language (even if it's just terms of endearment or phrases of their love for you)
♡ On the flipside, have them learn from your culture, too, and be enthralled and surprised by what they learn
♡ Buy or thrift clothes that look like your f/o's so you can wear them
♡ If you have to purchase clothes for yourself, imagine your f/o hyping up every outfit you try on
♡ Buy or thrift trinkets they would own and decorate your home with them
♡ Buy perfumes or colognes that your f/o wears and spray them on your clothes or bed (or scents that remind you of them)
♡ Use shampoos, conditioners, and/or body washes that they'd use so you can have a shared shower space with them
♡ Paint your nails your f/o's favorite color or colors that remind you of them
♡ Read a book you think they would enjoy, and—if you own the book—annotate the margins with little notes for them
♡ Journal your thoughts about them—gush about them, write about their flaws and merits, outline all of your favorite aspects of their physical features or personality, all of the reasons you're grateful to have them in your life, and include lots of little hearts and declarations of love
♡ Alternatively, get a journal that they would have and do the same thing, but in their voice about you
♡ You can also use journals to vent to your f/o so they can read it and help comfort you
Remember: your f/o wants you to eat, drink water, remember your meds/vitamins, take care of your hygiene, and exercise! Not for them, but because it will make you feel better—they love seeing you happy!
bro btw ive only gotten two done. TWO. since tweeting this (TWEETING? I TYPED THAT UNCONSCIOUSLY LMAO)
i have 6. i planned on making 6 bracelets. i have 2 out of 6 done in 3 days what is going on AND IM MAKING COMPLICATED ONES TOO SO LIKE I HAVE AN EXCUSE BUT STILL
not all of my sonas, ofc, but these are the ones i pay the most attention to nya
my fairy tail sona has so mucb joy and whimsy for someone whos lover dies in his arms...
i just realized i forgot to put it, but one more universal trait is He/It pronouns. my sona is always going to use He/It and on occasion my neopronouns, depending on the universe
hence why i mentioned the AGAB becuase some of my s/is are transmasc-agender like me and some are amab and agender
also all of my sonas are over 18. i am 18 irl.
in order:
alnstzen - 21 y/o
sk8zen - 18 y/o
wbkzen - 18 y/o
TSzen - ???? y/o (nonhuman)
kn8zen - 24 y/o
fairyzen - 18 y/o
ATLAzen - 18 y/o
i might do in detail posts on some of these,,, idk... also TSzen sticks out bc of his color palette LMAO. i know i need to do work on sk8, kn8, and wbk but like hyhhhhh... i always get so scared to tag fandoms for each of my s/is or f/os bc im scared ill get hateful people in here but i might... take the risk... and tag for this one... considering some of the shit ive seen on some of these tags (/neg), i know this wont be the worst thing people see 💔💔
i should make an art tag for this blog hgggh
also i did use some of @/mellon_soup 's bases/poses!!! you can find them on insta :D
bro btw ive only gotten two done. TWO. since tweeting this (TWEETING? I TYPED THAT UNCONSCIOUSLY LMAO)
i have 6. i planned on making 6 bracelets. i have 2 out of 6 done in 3 days what is going on AND IM MAKING COMPLICATED ONES TOO SO LIKE I HAVE AN EXCUSE BUT STILL
