eas calum x female reader
timeline might be a tad wonky so just ignore it
Calum Hood. A name you tried your best to avoid but you still found him everywhere you went. Today it was a billboard in Cincinnati “5 SECONDS OF SUMMER LIVE” and in a blink of an eye it was gone, but his memory was closer than ever. You and Calum had a tumultuous past. You’d been together off and on for years now but somehow it was never enough for him. You loved him like crazy but he loved the limelight more. That last night it all crumbled and the thought hit you like a ton of bricks.
“ Calum, what’s wrong? You’re acting really weird” You asked as you started at him on as he paced on the opposite side of the room fidgeting with hands. “I don’t know y/n, I just feel like this tour is gonna be the biggest one yet and I feel like I don’t need anything or anyone tying me down.” You stared at him in disbelief, you had no idea this is where the conversation was leading to. “Are you ending things again, right now?” A mix of hurt and confusion present in your voice. He couldn’t even look you in the eyes he just stared down at his feet, curls falling in front of his face. Even when he was breaking your heart you just wanted to reach out for him. “I love touring y/n, you know this and I just want to give it my all and I can’t do that if I’m constantly worrying and thinking about you.” You shook your head in disbelief at the words leaving his mouth. “No you do not get to blame this on me, we could get through this if you truly wanted to but you don’t. Giving up is all you want to do. It’s easy. It’s convenient. You know what Calum? Go right ahead, end it now and go live that lifestyle you love so much. But, don’t forget you loved me first.”
Those words replayed themselves in your head as you dialed Luke’s number in your phone. Despite the troubles with Calum you and Luke always stayed close. He was like your younger brother in a way. It didn’t take long before you heard his voice on the end of the line, “Hey y/n, how are you? It’s been a minute.” “I’m doing okay, I could be better but what’s the use in complaining. I did have a question though.” He hummed in response letting you know to go on. “How crazy would I be if I showed up to the show tonight? Would that be a really bad idea?” You tapped your finger nervously against the phone and anticipating his answer. “No I don’t think it’s crazy at all. Actually I think we’ve all missed having you around. Especially Calum” he teased slightly. Hearing his name made your heart ache. “I doubt he misses me Luke or else he wouldn’t have ended things in the first place.” Luke audibly sighed and rolled his eyes “y/n, you know how he gets when he doesn’t think straight. I know he regrets leaving things the way he did. No matter how long it’s been. He’s stubborn.” You couldn’t argue with that, he always made things more difficult than he had to. Before you could talk yourself out of going, Luke interrupted your thoughts. “You’re coming tonight. No excuses. You won’t regret it.” You huffed acknowledging you had no other choice but to go. “Okay I’ll go Luke but don’t pull anything stupid.” You could practically hear the smirk in his voice. “Last time I checked it’s my show y/n. I can do whatever the hell I please.” His ego was still in check. Noted. You laughed to yourself as he continued, “I will leave a ticket for you at the box office, just say you’re with me. Also, one last important question. Have you kept up with anything we’ve done since the breakup?” “No I haven’t, I’ve tried to avoid you guys at all costs. No offense.” You added quickly with a small laugh which caused him to reciprocate. “Good, let’s keep it that way, yeah?”
You were almost ready to head out the door to venue. You zipped up your boots and adjusted your outfit in the mirror and adding the finishing touches to your hair before you walked out the door. You decided to walk to the venue since it was fairly close to your apartment. The nerves were beginning to set in as you got closer to the venue. You thought about turning around and just going home but you thought about what Luke said. They missed you and you couldn’t help but miss them too. Even Calum. God as much as you hated to admit it there was a hole in your heart where he used to be. Even the slightest chance he missed you made you want to go even more. You walked into the venue to the box office where Luke told you to go. He hooked up you up with seats on right side of the stage as close as he could. When you settled in your seat a QR code popped up on the screen “PICK TONIGHTS SECRET SONG” the options were Beside You, Want You Back, Best Years and You Don’t Go To Parties. The last one hit like a punch to the gut. Calum played you the demo after things ended the first time around. He won you back with that song and you couldn’t help but think if Luke was up to this. You didn’t even bother picking a song. Whatever happened would happen. You just prayed to god it was not that song. The openers were really good and you were enjoying your time before the self proclaimed “greatest boyband” got on stage. You were scrolling on your phone anxiously thinking if you should go before it’s too late. Then, the light shut off. Screams erupting from the crowd and it was too late now. There they were up on the screen looking as good as ever. You couldn’t help but smile knowing they got what they wanted. As soon as they appeared on stage everything felt like a blur. Of course Luke put you on Calum’s side of the stage. Based on this alone, you knew you were in for a long night. You haven’t seen Calum at all since the breakup and he looked good and you tried your best to ignore it. The songs went by fast, you’d sing along when you knew the words and dance when you didn’t. Luke shot you a smile a couple times and that helped ease your nerves until you heard the beginning chords of the next song.
Luke started the intro to Bad Omens like he did everytime and the crowd was feeling it. I scanned over the crowd until my eyes found her. Y/n was here. Nobody told me she would be here. She wasn’t looking at me instead her eyes were on Luke like everyone else. She couldn’t look at me, wouldn’t look at me. Not during this. Not with our history. I played through whatever feeling was consuming me. Hurt, guilt, love? I don’t know I can’t pinpoint what I’m feeling right now. I glance over at Luke and he’s already looking at me. Singing directly to me. “I died when you left the night, for the thousandth time ‘cause you love somebody.” He knew what he was doing just trying to open that door again, but was it ever closed to begin with? I tried to shake the thoughts out of my head and focus finishing the song. Relief washed over me when it was finally over only to realize the worst was yet to come. It was the same setlist as every night but the songs had more meaning tonight. I played like there was tomorrow I was spiraling. I missed her. I fucking missed her. It was my fault. I don’t even remember singing the last two songs before the break. It was all blur. She was all I could focus on, all I wanted.
You could tell Calum was focused on whatever was on his mind. He was playing harder, singing louder. It was obvious something was wrong. You wished you knew what was going through his mind as he finished the last verse of the song. Was he thinking about you? Does he even know you’re here? You needed a breather you walked out and away from your seat the music fading as you walked to get some air. After a couple minutes you decided to walk back to your seat only to find Calum front and center on the stage singing his heart out. “It’s 12am on Taco Tuesday I’m crying out my eyes.” You can look away from him now, the vulnerability being evident on his face. He’s looking at you now. Singing to you like no one else is around, like it’s just you and him. Everything laid out on the table. “Cause on that last night instead of looking for a fight, I should’ve looked you in the eyes” you were breathing feeling so many things at once as he kept singing to you. “Cause what it really was, was me begging, don’t forget you love me. The words hitting you like a ton of bricks. You said those words to him and here he was singing them to you a year later. You could see the tears welling up in his eyes as we tried to keep his composure. Not letting himself feel what he wants to feel and just like that it was over. Michael took his place as you tried to piece everything together. What you were feeling, what he was feeling. When it was over you saw them walking backstage and Luke was talking to a member of security that then made their way to you. “Luke wanted to inform you that you would be presenting the secret song tonight. He said he’s not taking no for answer.” Finding it useless to argue you followed the security guard to the front of the stage. Holding a briefcase the could contain a song that could easily break you was nerve wracking.
The secret song portion of the set is next which means I only have half a show left. It’s almost over and it couldn’t get any worse I said to myself. Michael went on and on about this portion of show. Then I saw her walk closer to the stage with a briefcase. You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. I shot Luke a glare which he responded with a laugh. “I fucking hate your ass.” I mouthed to him which he continued to find hilarious. Michael finally caught on to what was going on when he saw y/n with briefcase. He shot me a smirk which meant nothing good for me. The guys despised me when I ended things with her. I can still hear them now. “This is a generational fuck up man, she was the best thing to ever happen to you.” They loved y/n and were gonna make me pay now. “Well, well, well look who we’ve got here boys it’s our favorite girl from Ohio” Michael exclaimed. Luke laughed causing y/n to crack a smile. “Everyone let’s give this beautiful lady a round of applause!” Luke yelled and the crowd erupted. “Isn’t she beautiful Calum wouldn’t you agree?” Ashton added on. I rolled my eyes and couldn’t even get my answer out before Michael interrupted. “Yeah that’s enough of that, you’re too slow Calum. Anyway, let’s see what song is in that briefcase. Calum would you like to do the honors?” I looked at y/n who looked nervous as to what song she was holding and I knew neither of us wanted the same one. I reluctantly started the countdown, “10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1…” “YOU DON’T GO TO PARTIES!” Luke and Michael practically yell at the top of their lungs jumping up in the air when the briefcase gets opened. I shook my head in disbelief as I looked over at her and her face was unreadable. I start to play the song to her like I have many times before “It’s 5:00am clinging to my couch and everyone I ever knew is standing in my house, oh I wonder who I’m looking for cause you don’t go to parties anymore.” I’m looking straight at her now and she mouthes something to me. “You’re the reason, you know” she says with a smirk. We continue the song and I see her singing along to every word. I fight the urge to run to her and saying everything I should’ve said a year ago. She looks so beautiful and Luke was right. How did I ever let her go. Right on cue he shows up next to me shooting me an I told you so look. I go to look for her again and see she’s been taken back stage. I perform the rest of the night with her on my mind. What I’m going to say to her, how can I get her back? As soon as it was over, I ran back there to find her. There she was standing in front of my dressing room waiting for me. After everything, she was still waiting for me. I pulled her through the door and engulfed her in a hug. “Im so sorry y/n, for everything. I was an asshole, I was selfish, I was-“ she interrupted me before I was finished. “You’re right you are an asshole, but for some reason you’ll always be my asshole. I can’t let you go Cal.” I pulled her in for a kiss full of longing and passion. “I won’t ever let you go y/n, never again. I promise.” “You better not fucking mess this up again mate or I’ll kick your ass.” I hear Luke say from behind the door. I rolled my eyes as y/n smiled at his remark. “You have him to thank for me being here, so I’d be nice Cal.” “She’s right, you better be nice to me Calum.” I opened the door to hug him and say my thanks. “Now Luke if you’d excuse as us we have some catching up to do.” I shut the door in his face and carried y/n to the couch.
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