If you know me IRL please don't read my blog - for you as much as me >.<
Bi ~ Grey-Ace ~ Married & Polyamorous ~ Nonbinary ~ Trans Masc (pre-t)
I'm mainly known for writing these kinds of Witcher fics:
- Soft dom/sub
- Navigating romance and kink with mental health challenges and past trauma
- Kink in ace relationships
- Enthusiastic consent & Comfort
This is My ao3; but I also have all of my Witcher fics organised and linked under the cut by the pairings that I write :)
My ask box is always open and I love getting asks :) [Prompt List]
! I also love making new friends and getting to know people in the fandom :D
I'm also learning Finnish and Scottish Gaelic so feel free to speak about that!
My blog is 18+ only, so if you follow me from an ageless blog and dont let me know you're over 18 I might block you.
I also have a side blog @softdomhailie and a patreon where I write soft dom x any reader stories and record audios.
Always looking to make new friends and I am actually really approachable 🤣 but please bare in mind that I am 33 so I'd rather speak to people in their mid 20's and over hahahah
Thank you for reading & Fics under the cuttttttt :D
Geraskier
Dom Jask, Sub Geralt Masterlist
His Bard - Geralt struggles with what to call Jaskier in front of others.
Just Need to be Held - Touch starved Jask, cuddle fic ❤️
Needy Aftercare - Semi non-verbal Jaskier needing Geralt to look after him after sex
Is this what you want? - Geralt’s first time in sub space
I'm not Scared - Jaskier stays up watching scary films and realises it's a bad idea come bed time, cuddle fic ❤️
Friends Share a Bed - That’s Fine - There was only one bed fic
Geralt’s Chores - Just cute subspace Geralt being looked after.
The Letter - Geralt leaves a letter for Jaskier then runs off. It contains a few confessions and some scored out cute stuff.
Not Used to This - Geralt's had a rough day and Jaskier soothes him by simply holding him, something he's not used to. Cuddle fic ❤️
Shivering - Consensual axii fic, Jaskier is unwell and Geralt just wants to help
Sort of Dr Jaskier - Its a fluff written asmr cranial nerve exam lmao
What’s your opinion? - Geralt asks for Jaskier to give him advice, it catches him off guard. (Sword of Destiny prompt)
Sunburn - Geralt gets taught a lesson about not wearing sun cream, light smut.
Jaskier’s Hands - Geralt wonders why Jaskier wont let him touch his hands.
“I can smell him on you” - Geralt is mad that Jaskier slept with Chireadan and Jaskier is simply having none of it.
The Burden - Jaskier’s feet are blistered but he doesn’t want to seem like a burden so struggles on.
“You’re stuck with me whether you like it or not” - Jealous Geralt grits his teeth as Jaskier flirts with someone at a party.
“You smell nice.” - Drunk, cuddle, fluffy Geraskier sweetness. Geralt feels safe with Jaskier on his knee.
Scent kink - headcanons for Geralts cum/scent kink
Catboy Jaskier - Jaskier gets spanked into subspace
Piercing AU // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4
Head Wound - Geralt tickling Jaskier, fluff, season 4
I am home and recovering from my surgery :) - I have endometriosis.
I didn't want to be too open about what it was in case I got no answers or in case anyone told me the surgery was really scary haha but it's over now so I can talk a bit more about it - and it's probably important for people to hear how it was diagnosed, and how the surgery went for anyone who's going to be having it and might want to know a bit more about it.
TLDR before the cut: 20 years of various drugs and testing before I was taken seriously. Having endo isn't something that you want, but finally having a diagnosis is such a relief. Recovering well :)
Additionally I'm nonbinary with they/them pronouns for anyone who's reblogging this and referring to me
Journey:
I started my period before I was a teenager, and struggled with the pain from day 1. I was put on the pill from about 14 to manage the pain, and just took days off school when necessary. All smear tests were agony, periods were lasting 2 weeks and the pain was constant through the whole year. It was put down to starting periods early and going through puberty.
When I started having sex I went to the doctor for pain and they told me my partner was probably dirty, and I should be asking him to have a wash before we had sex and then use lots of lube - the more sex I had the more I'd get used to it.
At about 19 I went for an ultrasound and they found nothing and told me I needed no follow up appointments.
I got diagnosed with ulcerative colitis - so any crampy pains were put down to this and at the time, that made sense!
I had another test at about 24, found nothing, no follow up appointments.
Changed my contraception to the implant at maybe 25, and just figured everyone experiences what I'm going through - because the doctors were telling me that. I got another smear test at 29, the nurse told me it wasn't normal and I should see a gynaecologist. I got my appointment a year later, and she told me that I should go to Ann Summers the sex shop, buy a dildo, and just practice until it wasn't sore. She told me to take my contraceptive implant out and she'd see me in a month.
I got my implant out, my appointment was scheduled for 2 years later. Not a month. My implant being removed was awful and I was left with the same pain I had as a child. Not only that, but my depression sky rocketed and I was left an absolute mess, both from reliving past trauma, but also from thinking I was broken in some way and that I should "take a fuck to myself" basically and get on with it.
I went for a second opinion last year with a different doctor, and I explained verbally what my issues were. His reply was "These are all signs of endometriosis, I'm happy to book you in for surgery next month."
Now at that point I'd been told from i was about 14 that there was nothing wrong with me, so I took it slow, went for an MRI, they saw nothing in the MRI at all. I was told that this is super common, and the doctor said he still fully believed I had endo.
TW Surgery, laparoscopy & hysteroscopy:
I went for my surgery yesterday. It was under general anaesthetic. They wheeled me in and gave me medicines in my hand, then put an oxygen mask on me. I was out after about 2 breaths I didn't make it to the countdown 😂 I woke up in the recovery room and was in quite a bit of pain, but mostly nauseous. They gave me a jag in my leg of anti sickness, and that worked very quickly. Because I was all woozy I was complaining a lot, but after a few hours that subsided, I really mainly felt sick. As far as I'm aware, that's just your luck depending on how you do with certain medications. I ate 2 slices of toast over about 3 hours 😂 Surgery at 5pm, sent home about 11pm.
Trigger warning for wounds: I've got 3 incisions, one in my belly button and one at either side of my belly button. Pain is very manageable today. No sickness today. The wounds are covered with small white plaster things and they've got blood on them but they're not frightening to look at and no bruising. I'm walking about slowly and I've been told not to lift anything heavier than a kettle for the next 2 weeks.
Follow up & Recovery:
I've to see my specialist again in 4 weeks. It says endometriosis on my letter with biopsy and excision, but there's no specific details on there so idk what stage it is or if there's anything else in there. Tbh, I was pretty set on them finding nothing in there at all so just seeing the fact they found something at this point is enough for me. Healing wise I can do small walking after a few days, working towards possibly a light jog by 6 weeks. Obviously this is dependant on the wounds healing properly, and I am immunocompromised already with IBD so it's difficult to say if that's going to be a bit longer for me.
If anyone else is going through the same thing and has any questions about the process, please let me know and I'll be happy to help :)
Watched lotr's 3 (the 3rd one) for my bday today. The extended 4.5hrs one obbvvvvv haha. Ate lots of treats and my friend put up pictures of my blorbos with birthday hats on on the wall 😂😂
Showing my mother in law my holiday pictures and swiped all the way through to thirst trap gym pics of Paul bullion LOL I was like well that's not my holiday. 😂😂😂
What is it that I search to specifically get fics where Will Graham is a shaking shivering clingy needy twitchy possessive man with unhealthy coping mechanisms and Hannibal is just as possesive in what can only be described as unhinged? With some sort of Dom/sub power dynamic.
Is there an ao3 librarian that can help me out here?
Chapters: 10/?
Fandom: Wiedźmin | The Witcher - All Media Types
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Eskel/Lambert
Additional Tags: Angst, Depression, Self-Harm, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Lambert has Depression, Eventual Romance, Eventual Happy Ending, Sexual Dysfunction, Non-Sexual Intimacy, tags will be added as I go but this is going to be a heavy angst type series with eventual romance and happy ending, Skin picking, Sleep Deprivation, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Eventual saviour Eskel, Dom Eskel (The Witcher), Sub Lambert (The Witcher), Smut, Implied Past Trauma, Implied childhood trauma, adding tags that I know will be there in the future, Dissociation
Chapters: 10/?
Fandom: Wiedźmin | The Witcher - All Media Types
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Eskel/Lambert
Additional Tags: Angst, Depression, Self-Harm, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Lambert has Depression, Eventual Romance, Eventual Happy Ending, Sexual Dysfunction, Non-Sexual Intimacy, tags will be added as I go but this is going to be a heavy angst type series with eventual romance and happy ending, Skin picking, Sleep Deprivation, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Eventual saviour Eskel, Dom Eskel (The Witcher), Sub Lambert (The Witcher), Smut, Implied Past Trauma, Implied childhood trauma, adding tags that I know will be there in the future, Dissociation
Actually romance wasn't invented until 2020 when Joey Batey wrote "Cause darling I was born to press my head between your shoulder blades at night when light is fading just to let you know I'm old, waylaid, and feels like I am wading into carpet burns and carousels, christ you'll be the death of me" etc etc
