angry kiss with fem s/o and iwaizumi, no au owo
“Hajime,” she calls, eyes glued to the back of the man rushing about pointlessly in the kitchen. A low hum resounds, and a nonchalant response followed.
“That’s enough, isn’t it?”
He hears the familiar wrinkling of the couch, and then soft, padded footsteps, before a whiff of her scent reaches his nose. It slowly seeped into his skin, causing him to freeze in place. Still, he forced himself to continue with the task at hand.
But it wasn’t long before he was stopped again. A hand tugs at his shirt, the owner circling her arms around his waist, leaning her forehead against his back. She gently blew out a breath, and Iwaizumi could feel her shoulders sagging as she sighed.
“This… us, everything. It has run its course, hasn’t it?”
He knows, of course he knows what she’s talking about. He knows and yet, he can’t help but deny, because denying it would bring a sense of normalcy. If it wasn’t acknowledged, then it did not exist.
“I mean us,” she interrupts, the arms around his waist tightening itself slightly. Her voice trembles a little, and she blows out another breath. “Our relationship. We can’t… do this anymore.”
Iwaizumi repressed the urge to laugh. Who would’ve known that the honesty he fell in love with, was the same honesty he dreaded facing now — it had cornered him, and there was no way he could continue his denial of the current issue at hand. At this point, it was probably a lot healthier to let go of this and let both parties heal, and yet… he didn’t want to do that.
It was probably his conscience nagging at him — he still wanted to try to paper over the cracks. Losing something close to your heart is terrifying, and he wasn’t ready for it. Especially since he hadn’t tried anything to fix things, in hopes that it would somehow miraculously smoothen over, though he knew that wasn’t going to happen.
“I no longer have the same position I used to hold in your heart; someone else has taken over… and you too, you know that very clearly, don’t you?”
Iwaizumi remains silent, his teeth snatching the plump bottom lip, eyes squeezing shut.
Silence reigns over the two for a short moment, before she breaks it again.
“This may be selfish of me, but can you allow me one last request?”
Iwaizumi wants to say no, he wants to stop her and appease her, returning everything back to how it was before he flew off to pursue his dreams. To a certain extent, he feels responsible for how things turned out. And so, he doesn’t. Instead, he nods mutely, fixing his gaze on her figure that seemed to be shrinking.
Without warning, she pulls his head down, firmly planting her lips against his. A tentative lick at first, but then all restrain was quickly thrown out of the window, and she threads her hands into his hair, tugging on it tightly.
Her emotions were clear as day, and all Iwaizumi could feel was a hollow feeling of sadness rising in his heart as he reciprocated, kissing her with equal fervour. For a time, they continued, and it looked as though they were both trying to suck the life out of one another in a fit of anger; he was angry at how things turned out and at himself, while she… she was angry at him.
She pulls away, and finally, the first drop of tear mars her face, her lips twisting into a pained smile. The anger and frustration had broken free in that kiss, so had the accumulated sadness, infused deeply in her words.
“Do you know how painful it is to continue loving someone that has fallen out of love with you?”
Her words struck Iwaizumi in the heart; he had no way of retorting that comment, she knew it, and so did he — it was the truth, but… it wasn’t complete.
“I… I’m sorry,” he pushes out, his fingers gently stroking her cheek, causing her cheeks to be stained with more tears as her eyes slid shut.
“But there’s something you’re mistaken about. Nobody has taken my place,” his voice quivers slightly, resting his forehead gently against hers.
“I just can’t continue loving someone who has fallen out of love with herself.”
haha, sike! how should i even start… ahem hello, here’s a short update that i’m putting out because there’s a random burst of inspiration! though i’m literally typing away here at 2am, but hey, better than nothing… (which has been the case for the past few months oof) it’s pretty bad and short sjidfn ik, but i’m trying to regain my already rusty writing skills, so it’ll (hopefully) improve as i continue!
i never expected to be gone for such an extended period of time, and i’m really sorry to say, but it doesn’t seem like i’ll be updating regularly anytime soon! i’ll be updating as and when i feel the urge to write, and the simple reason is because if i choose to set a schedule for updating, i end up frustrating myself really easily, and that discourages me from writing at all, + the pieces that i end up writing will be really bad, because my writing tends to reflect my emotions..
besides, the idea of letting people down on this blog just adds to pressure that i’m already experiencing in my life, so that’s not really good for my mental health.
therefore, it’d be better for me not to give you guys any hope, because then i won’t be crashing any of it, and this can be a really free and easy kinda thing for you and me both yay
there might be some changes to this blog too (since i have fluctuating interests) but it’s still unconfirmed!
as always, thank you for sticking by! (we have close to 700 on this blog rn, i! am! absolutely! blown! away! thanks for enjoying these mediocre pieces that i put out!!)
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