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[vulpesvoid-deactivated20171014]

                              (                  OH WOW ! ™                )

yikes ! i have no idea how these things are done tbqh but i just wanted to give something back to the amazing people that i’ve met through this community and show them my gratitude.  i’m so happy to have had the opportunity to explore void and stiles’ character is such a twisted mixture with so many wonderful muses and writers. you guys are so freaking great and i honestly hope that you’ll stick around for a long time. thank you for making this experience so positive for me and even though i don’t celebrate this holiday,  i hope you all had/have a merry christmas and a happy new year !

                   HERE ARE SOME PSD’S FOR YOU ALL IN THE ORDER FROM THE IMAGES ABOVE:                                                    (  please do not claim them as your own or repost them !  )

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                                               I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL.

        . *   @ofmaltreats    . *     @taeted    . *     @charredsea   . *     @deathisarose      . *  

                                       YOU GUYS ARE CUTIES AND I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH.

     . *     @shootsgirls       . *      @vilekiller      . *     @helpsthings      . *      @unsolvedcase      . *     @capsizedheart      . *     @hastodosomething      . *      @unendingwar      . *      @notatlas      . *   @martindust      . *      @mercying       . *     @corruptedgood      . *        @vanishcd​   . *       @shroudedheart      . *      @killedher      . *     @funeralpolished      . *     @deucalionsdarcy      . *     @confcdere      . *     @pupbar       . *     @wasabeliever

                     SOME VERY TALENTED PEOPLE  (  LOWKEY ADORING YOU FROM AFAR YES. )

     . *     @hisyoda      . *     @sarraqum      . *     @avoidstiles      . *     @goatdick      . *     @wingburned      . *     @sorewolf      . *     @haleraised      . *     @jingelena      . *     @heavenbuilt      . *      @shelazarus      . *     @elevenmccall      . *     @wardiish      . *     @brightotter      . *      @arsnist      . *     @dollfaced      . *     @mazkill      . *     @fataldelicacies      . *     @promeanger      . *     @unhumxnity      . *     @ofreliquiae      . *     @stuartwcmbly        . *   @guiltcarried       . *     @clownpolicy      . *     @surviivorborn      . *     @heartveined      . *     @couldkill      . *       @voidworn      . *     @coolgirled      . *     @seenhell      . *     @hartiless       . *     @uzumengan     . *   @hereisthelie      . *      @honorstrung      . *     @triessohard      . *     @boyfluent      . *     @fieldsmedcl      . *     @grinninghand      . *     @wildtypc      . *     @friesconquer      . *     @becomeshunted      . *     @hostilc      . *     @nctafailure      . *     @healertouch      . *     @findsdeath      . *     @lovedrage      . *     @ofthecode

[loyalhale]

     So, I know I haven’t been back long ( and that I’ve been creating blogs left and right for new muses #whoops ) but I wanted to spread some cheer around. I don’t have a family - so I consider you guys family.

     And I’m okay with being just as pathetic as that sounds. As a thank you to my new ( and old ) friends, I wanted to do a follow forever.

                                                    First, my Amiga/os:

@haleraised, @inkedblueprints, @brckencastle – Liz, you have been incredibly supportive during the three years I’ve known you. You have been the Charlie to my Jo, and now the Michael to my Lincoln. Thank you so much for being such an amazing supportive person.

@neurotickiddiepool – Kayla! You beautiful person! You awful enabler! I can’t believe we’ve clicked so well, and I always feel so welcome throwing goofy ( or angsty #wink ) stuff at you without ever feeling like I might bother you with it. That’s such an incredible feeling! <3

@avoidstiles – Yo, Ripley. Bro. Bro. Bro. You need to listen to me. Can we have like, all the AUs? Good, because I’ve already written us down for every AU ever created. Ever. I love plotting with you, and showing you cinematic masterpieces.

@hisyoda – Omg Lea, omg. Sometimes I even wonder just why you waste your time with me bc I am trashy trash and you, love, you are so resplendent. I’m so lucky to have you as an occasional writing partner. Thank you for putting up with my stupid, stupid ways. 

@xblankpage – Telllyyyyyy. I love you. Nuff said.

@yourneighbourjerry – The Ted to my Bill. or the Bill to my Ted. I’m not quite sure.. but it doesn’t matter, because how is it that you can be this awesome and I’m just now meeting you???

@ingeniouslawyer – I sometimes can’t deal with the overwhelming feelings I get when I think of our Friends AU. I really can’t deal with the overwhelming feelings I get when I think about your blog, Connor, or Jack. I can’t deal in general around you. You’re overwhelming me with intense emotion. 

@strongerthanchaos – SHANA. How gypped would you feel if I just kind of keyboard flailed at you? How about I talk about how you’re totally okay with me cooing over your little spawn and her cuter-than-shit eyebrows? ‘Cause that’s really amazing that you let me do that. I mean, I could be a crazy person for all you know. Maybe you already know I am a crazy person and you’re still okay with that. Maybe that means you’re crazier than me. Hmm. (#whispers nachos)

@ironandsteel​ – It’s Jaci! Bruh. I am like the worst friend to Jaci. Like, no I’m not joking. I’ll hit her up everyday for two weeks and then I’ll be hit with things from seven different directions and then won’t talk to her again for three months. But you’re always so patient with me. Thank you. #kisses

         And the other blogs I lurk like the shadow monster I am:

@hellinski + @bcdkarma (and the rest of your blogs omg ) + @madeforhell + @fracturedminer + @thebetatohisalpha + @nogcd + @ofherage​ + @cameoutofabottle​ + @tragiichearts​ ​ + @druidium​ + @xprodigium​ + I feel like I’m forgetting so many. Oh, shit. I am so sorry if I’ve forgotten anyone! Ughhhhhhhhhhh.

[wcntbite-a-deactivated20170201]

Follow Forever

hi guys,  so i haven’t been very active as of late, which i still feel really bad about…but ! i recently hit 300+ followers ! this is a big deal for me, as i thought i’d never get this far with my blog, honestly. during my time writing Scott, i’ve improved if even a little, as well as made so many new friends. you have all helped me build myself as a writer as well as made an impact on my life. i just want to say thank you, especially to those of you have stuck with me from the very beginning. i’m not going to write essays here, but you should know i love and cherish you all equally. it means a lot to me. 

first and foremost would like to thank you all whether it be just for writing with me, helping me improve, or for just being a great friend. shoutout to my Scott squad: @trueaxpha @wecanalwaystry @atlasbcrn @wahreralpha @scottymccalltrue  people i look up to: @@geunun @truesthope @thestilinskispark @awvkening @sufferawiitch @avoidstiles @noctuatim @sidekick-stiles @facetiious @schimaere @master-nikoli @offershope @helltoraise @transslayer @notmyjeepyoucreep @iwontberobin @voidkept @firecaged @waldenbeckboys @solumlupum @iincapacity @ofnoblehunt @drowniingdreams  @erasedncxt  @nogitsuman @blameshimself @stilesavedme @instvnkt @friesconquer @rooktheworld @hereisthelie @txkeyouout @elevenmccall

here are people i have interacted with as well as those i’ve admired from afar: @makahwclfgirl @vanidicvs @pupbar @wolfraeken @lacrossemore @howmanybones @xthexandmanx @snipcrwolf @caoinxbas @slayingkitsune @honorstrung @loyalhale @lobitahale @betawithascarf @allihavearevoices @unlockinglahey @angrybabybeta @wolfskinncd @stuartwcmbly @rocksxlt @heartkings @hmnals @piaememoriae @scartissueex @fieldsmedcl @suckerferpain @theblackfamilysheep @littlebrokensurvivor @bloody-hell-xo @druidium @paintmybodyxargent @tinyfray @bitingthebat @daayaan @eggsynog @hisevolution @rocksxlt @ridinghoodie @singlesighted @wildlingmalia @kithoe @devourslightning @exubcrants @dysxn @imworthfivedollars @ilickedtheswingset @thxlittlxbirds @silvcrblood @impcled @regretsmade @oncepcriah @haleraised @arrowdriven @unhumxnity @artemishalfwolf @lydiaxlittlemissbackup @aggiestilinski

even if you don’t see yourself on this list, i still love and appreiate you. you all mean a lot to me. c:

[sometimesbatman-deactivated2018]

first of all. holy crap. stiles has been around for over three years now. when i first made him, i’m gonna be honest, i never expected to have him around this long. and some of you have been here for me through the years without fail – from my many, many random hiatuses, to archiving stiles and coming here. to completely disappearing off the face of the planet and returning. and i want to thank you all for that. but, it’s fucking christmas, so i want to thank a few people in particular for being around and hanging in there with me.  i’ve tried very, very hard not to forget anyone. and – one thing i do wanna make clear, it is likely that no one i’ve followed in the past few months will be on here as this is REALLY a thank you for the people i’ve known and have been following/interacting with since before i archived stiles. THE GREAT PEOPLE YOU’LL EVER MEET ;; 

@blindhim ;; chey is one of the people on here that i’ve been interacting with the longest – a lot of our early threads dating back to more than two years ago. she is the one who completely changed my bias outlook on ocs and turned it around – and there is never going to be another writer like chey. i could write about her for days and not be done. i love everything about her, and fucking adore cosmo, and chey can do no wrong in my eyes.

@txkeyouout ;; i love me chelsea – and i love all of her accounts. before her malia, i refused to ship with any malias. and, i’ll be a little honest, i still refuse to ship stalia with most of them. but chelsea is that exception. her and i click so well – and even if i go ages without talking to her, she never holds it against me and will instantly snap back to me and give me love far beyond what i deserve. @lcbrat ;; brooke and i started on her jackson, and to this day is the best stackson i’ve ever done. i love duran, as well – and her stilinski twin/clone is one of the best bios and most unique that i’ve ever seen. just like chelsea, she will bounce back to me no matter how long i’ve been gone and not even blink; much more than i deserve and i love her for it.

OTHER AMAZING PEOPLE THAT I LOVE AND AM KEEPING FOREVER ;;

@haleraised // @santaclaustrophobicwerewolf // @elevenmccall // @pupbar // @lilmisslydiamartin // @godxofxegypt // @shexhowls // @goingtosave

[sluggernegan]

I literally have had this blog for two months? I’m kind of in shock every day I come onto this blog and I appreciate all of the love and all of the threads. You guys are so good to me and I’m so happy with this blog and it means so much. I really have no words for the last two months of love and everything in between. I feel so welcomed in this fandom and I really needed this. Thank you for everything. Here’s to a new year and one I hope is very bright and much better than this last one. I hope for new threads, and new beginnings. Doors closing and doors opening. May whoever reading this to have a wonderful year and thank you for being apart of the last two months, making them pretty great. ( if I forgot someone, I’m so sorry! )

love – lexi, negan, & lucille. x

SAVIORS; my loves. 

@damaseisotiras, @kxllercolt, @ask-alicelockwood, @theprixrity, @withliight, @wxngedarcher, @principecorvo, @daryliisms, @omnipotenceisoverrated, @unseenmockingjay, @fragilcminds, @theoriginallucille, @fiercerebekah, @officerdxddy, @dcntopen, @singlesighted, @theprixrity, @hellclaimed, @notgriieving, @anditsxsorrows, @steadyfire, @sordidpride, @mrcompellinggrey, @moralsofajackal, @hateshim, @dcadtastic, @mcggiee, @theresalwaysmcre, @lunarwclf, @you-wxll-be, @sirencalled, @witheredsanity, @hesburnt, @haleraised, @warricrking, @klllerwithin, @hidesgrief, @thewalkingdeaxter, @starkwithsarcasm @hauntedgilbert, @samattheend, @safetydoesntexist, @thestarlightsx, @thatslayer

I LIKE EM’; people who make my dash delightful.

@theirstories, @thesoullesshunter, @thickcrskiin, @jesus-fromhilltop, @nottobecrossed, @kolhearted, @tobeblamed, @showmaxter, @bcthgreene, @fissarsi, @grimesjr, @walkcrguts, @thexolderwinchxster, @bornwithbarbs, @lastprcttygirl, @keepliviing, @cruelintenticns, @hopelesshybriid, @motherofasgard, @vampiirebct, @motheriing, @iindomitus, @nctbitten, @toofargcne, @firstwifc, @outdccrcat, @hmnals, @rgthcnd, @gaelicpearl, @purrsuasion, @ruinedmission, @onestrikegrimes, @fatherxgabriel, @hardchoices, @looneytxne, @miiistrcss, @originallucille, @thenightmarescontinue, @herxhighnessxthexmurderess, @scalpelsuperstar, @ofcandybars, @svperwitch, @ncbodysbitch, @thiirstyy, @allgotjobs, @likepapertowns, @nutcraccker, @shatteredcrown, @fcllenangels, @mgreener, @gottapay, @bethisms, @soulscreamsandleopardfurs, @muldcritsme, @frackingzcmbies, @harlcyqcinn, @handcfhealing, @destructivehybrid, @venomskin, @totalwiildcard, @askthedeanwinchester, @gotbrainsonyou

LINE THEM UP; stalking all of ya & definitely wanna do things with you.

@deliverybcy, @aintashes, @dcryl, @holyunclean, @barbedlucille, @nobodiesgovernor, @oneeyedson, @swingblind, @withusnow, @stillwithyou, @jcsus, @pussywhiipped, @dcmination, @afewmistakes, @battingbeauty, @righthandstache, @dwight-twd, @dibsisdibs, @butscrewmefirst, @brokenarcher, @deathraised, @notaleader, @bloodiedblade, @hclyson, @starhaze, @iamyourking, @femmekill, @distrcss, @dissolvedshadows, @deputyricktator, @bcrnedaway, @grcssashell @madeiit, @consumcd, @devilsbackbcne, @mcnstrvm, @wickedvitality, @siickone, @aaratt, @ichordrowned, @walkingheroin, @benjcmiin, @dirtygirllucille @stillcominback, @jeffgriimes, @justsurxvive, @graveyardhearted, @livingdeathbat

blogs that fill my dash with jdm/negan.<3

@mypapawinchester, @jdmnetwork, @jdmsproperty, @crzcorgi, @queen0fants, @cerseilannister, @saviorsimon, @negandarylsatisfaction, @negangifs, @negans-dirty-girl, @negansource, @justnegan, @hilariesjeffrey, @heartfulloffandoms

[haleraised-blog]

~ Just a note: 

I’m here still although things lately have been bad to say the very least. I’m not going to go into it. It’s just been a pretty rough few days... almost a week now I guess but, who’s counting right? I’ll be back eventually just right now I need a break. Especially here-- it’s just painful and while I’m sure eventually things will get back to normal but, right now it’s not, I’m not and I can’t pretend that I’m okay. It just sucks-- 

[haleraised-blog]

hereisthelie: // theo

         everyone was returning to beacon hills at the same time, it felt like. maybe theo just wasn’t expecting to see DEREK HALE back.             probably here to find peter.           and scott’s common sense,    but derek is easily swayed.    ( not by teenage chimera dirtbags. )        shopping for his mostly USELESS pack was a waste of time–  not that any of them eat anything besides people and junk food anyway.       “ derek hale, right?    – THEO RAEKEN.     i’m sure scott told you all about ME. “

               It shouldn’t have come as a surprise that this person knew of Derek. The fact that he knew his name should have simply been reminiscent of a few years ago when he met a couple of teenage boys in the woods holding a completely useless inhaler in his hand. It wasn’t anything like that though. This was different and Derek knew it. This teenager was different. Theo was a name he’d heard little of. A few rumblings here and there but, nothing much.                               ❝ I think you’d be surprised how little Scott actually does tell me.❞ There was little to the admission. If anything all it was for Derek was an admission that the two had started to move on with their lives. 

[haleraised-blog]

ingeniouslawyer: // connor

‘’I can make it my business. You know, by helping you out. IF you want to of course.’’

               Ever the awkward conversation Derek just stared for a moment before saying a word. ❝Th... this has got to be the strangest offer I’ve ever had.❞ Really it wasn’t but, that was besides the point. ❝You’ve got to be kidding me...❞

[loyalhale]

JO!!!!!!!!!!! should I send you my URL??? SHOULD I SHOULD I?

#PositiveVibes [ Accepting ]

 – CHARLIE! Okay, okay, okay. This motherfucker right here. Everybody needs to know just how amazing Charlie is, because holy cow, I am a major fuck up. And she fuckin’ saw that I meant no malice in my fuckery, forgave the shit out of me and she decided that I was cool enough to be a friend. Can you believe that was three years ago?We got into some stupid ass shenanigans, but they were some of my favorite - and hot damn, do you know how to write your characters well or what, girl? My characters were always the humorous ones, when yours were the ones that were chalked full of feels and legitimacy. It’s no wonder everybody flocked to you to thread – your talent is obvious.Y’wanna come over here and give my characters some of that amazing dimensionality you’ve got going on with your own? 

[frenchones]

may I ask that you send some positivity towards haleraised?

@haleraised

it’s a liz! i like liz. so many people i know likes liz. like. she’s just. really cool? and a good derek and writer in general? and as i’ve said before i’m really picky with dereks so. just. everyone go give liz some love.

[wasirauhlpsds]

WASIRAUHLPSDS, fonts hosted by dafont.

Cleopatra // Hemera // Falling // Patience // Dingbat // Ophelia // Girls // Submarine

[fandomboardss]

[heroicheartx]

Wolfsbane

[haleraised-blog]

heroicheartx: // erica

               The scent of another wolf nearby barely registered with Erica as she writhed on the solid ground. It was only when Derek was right beside her that she noticed his presence there. And even then, he was but a blurry shape due to the UNSHED tears pooling her eyes. 

                               ❝I-It’s in my—❞ Ragged breathing led to the she-wolf having to pause regularly, but it was another SPASM rocking her body which caused her to fall silent completely, the agony setting every inch of her body AFLAME beneath the skin and each one of her muscles locking more. 

               Erica needed help and she need it right that second. Didn’t he see that? ❝Der–❞Derek, please, she pleased mutely, forcing her unseeing eyes to rest on where she knew him to be. He was her last HOPE now, and she knew that if he couldn’t save her, she’d never see another sunrise. 

                     Trigger pain-- the words ran through his head. He always in these situations would hear his mother’s voice calm and serene. She always knew what to do and would never panic. Derek used to watch her in awe in every situation. Pain will at least start to trigger her healing. Then Derek could hopefully figure out what happened. Wolfsbane was one thing but, there were certain kinds that you could just bleed out and others that were just a little more complicated. That was what he needed to know before he started trying to bleed anything out of the wolf. 

                    He hated this part-- Most people didn’t think that about him. They thought he just did what he did and that was that. (he was a monster... which wasn’t true) ❝Erica this is gonna hurt...❞ The words were a whisper that fell on deaf ears but, he wanted to warn her before he did anything. 

                      Breaking bones was never easy. Physically or mentally. The cracking, ensuing screaming and the feeling of the bone breaking under skin because Derek had taken it in his hands and used the strength he had to snap it. Sometimes he wondered if breaking other people’s bones actually hurt him worse but, then he knew that wasn’t true because there were a few times that it was actually satisfying. ❝Come on Erica--❞ His voice was louder than normal, on the verge of panic. 

[haleraised-blog]

sometimesbatman: // stiles

Stiles was relieved when Derek didn’t push the point of his father not being here – of why he was here alone. It wasn’t something he liked to talk about often – or at all. He more or less refused anytime Scott or Lydia tried to get him to talk about his emotions. They were complex and so tight inside of him that he felt like he could never contain himself, or his powers, if he ever completely and totally addressed it again. He chuckled softly at his comment about the community, “Things do change – “ was his soft comment at that, something unknown in his eyes as he looked the other over. He had something now – his gifts. His magic. And he didn’t want to squander it. Albeit, Beacon Hills was just not somewhere he could be anymore. And this? He was living comfortably, and he genuinely enjoyed it. If it wasn’t for being so … lonely. He then hummed slightly at the offer from the other. And while part of him screamed that it was a terrible idea – that this should be strictly business and reconnecting with Derek could adversely spiral them back into memories they would sooner forget .. – maybe it’d be nice. Maybe he could be selfish to not feel so .. ALONE. When he refused to trust strangers, and refused to talk to anyone back home, it made it impossible to connect with anyone. He had dug himself into a deep, dark hole that he tried to pretend wasn’t even there. “I’ll give the beer a try, yeah,” he finally responded with a quirk of a smile. “I close up at six. I can be there by seven with a contact in hand.”

               When he offered Derek expected that Stiles would refuse. The way he acted was almost cold. Not to the point of being total strangers but, to the point of keeping him at a distance. Which Derek understood. Business and old friends or acquaintances could make things weird. This wasn’t his intent though. There was something-- not quite misery that he could smell coming from Stiles though. Maybe loneliness but, he tried to mask it so well that he almost succeeded. 

               ❝Yeah?❞ Derek didn’t mean for the word to come out as a question but, it did. Taking a step back towards the door he smiled a little and jerked his thumb back. ❝Alright well, I should probably get back before Cora starts to wonder what happened to me. If you don’t get the contract sorted before you close up don’t worry about it. I know sometimes they can be a little tricky and it’s business-- something you don’t want to screw up.❞ Derek had taken enough missteps when he first started to last a lifetime and learned his lesson. 

               Turning to leave he paused before opening the door. Glancing back towards Stiles he started talking again. ❝This is a great place. You should be proud of it. No matter what you should be proud of it. I’ll see you tonight.❞ Not waiting for a response he opened the door and left making his way back to the bar. 

               Derek pulled his phone out while walking down the street and text his sister to tell her that they would be working out a contract with that supplier and as an after thought (mostly to annoy her) added that it was Stiles. No one had heard from him in years and it was more than just a little shock to Derek to see him. Although part of him expected that he wouldn’t show up at seven like he said. Stiles had a habit of either being late or not showing if it wasn’t life and death and this-- wasn’t life and death. Plus even though it was business Derek always had this need to take care of people that he cared about so the chances of him deciding to use someone else know were slim. (not that Stiles would ever know that)

[forndom]

[haleraised-blog]

"How much sleep did you get last night?"

i love you // accepting

                      Derek wasn’t exactly sure why Peter cared how much sleep he got. It honestly was the first time he’d asked a question like that in... well, Derek couldn’t actually remember the last time he asked a question like that. A LONG time was a good way of putting it.  

                     ❝Enough that I’m not going to fall over dead anytime soon if that’s what you were hoping for.❞ Maybe that was a snap that was slightly harsh but, the truth was that Derek was a little exhausted. He’d been out late running guard around the town. (there’d been threats and he didn’t want to take chances) Now though it was daytime and all he could think about was the fact that he hadn’t had but two hours of sleep and tonight he had to do it all over again.

[haleraised-blog]

"I've got your back."

i love you // accepting

                     Derek would have expected something like this from Stiles-- From Scott well, he didn’t NOT expect it but, to actually hear it the words caused him to pause... ❝Yeah and believe it or not Scott, I’ve got yours too.❞