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I think i find it hard to be happy because no one seems to notice just how unhappy i am

CRYING IS FOR THE WEAK

but did you consider...

✨️🧚I am weak🧚✨️

#cry #depression #i love crying #sad #weep

When something good happens, do you ever get the urge to just ruin it? Like crush the perfect paper boat you made. Smash the plate of food in your hand. Bang your head against the wall because you thought you could be happy?

#words #life #fuck life #depression #anxiety #adhd #emotions #dump

After a point in life, you can never do the right thing. I mean, whatever you do, someone's gonna try to make you feel bad about it. And that someone is often you. It takes conscious effort to accept your choices. Feel good about yourself. Heck! It's take effort to allow yourself to be happy.

#adulting #life #life sucks #adulting sucks #growing up #words #spilled ink #overthinking #word vomit

themostfuniveverhad

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halfway-writer

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Friends suck

#friends suck #literature

I stopped being afraid of the dark

When I started wanting the ghosts to be real

#words #poem #lines #depression #sad #spilled ink #maybe the ghosts will understand me #i don't care #i don't care about anything anymore

i-c-stars

#i have not had a single original experience #well i was not sure about losing you but now ig it's just part of the character arc #but id still like to know if you ever liked me the way i did you

Soo

The thing about confrontation no one tells you about

It is fast, i.e. it gives you more time to regret and mop around

It's a bitch and does not feel good

#confrontation #friendship breakup

I lost my friend of 4 years (not dead, just cut off), and it's relieving

In the sense that I have no one to talk to now ✌️

#freinds #lonely #depression #edgy lmao

Bitches be bitchin

#bitch

Sometimes, I wish I was a rock. But now that I think of it, how much of this (vaguely gestures towards the world) am I willing to miss upon? Bread and butter on a quiet morning. A cold glass of water when I'm especially thirsty. Getting under blankets when the AC gets too cold. Listening to a song on repeat for hours. Laughing with my friends. You know the list can go on and on. Even though the happiness from these moments may not last long, they are there quite enough. I don't want to be a rock, because I want to have bread and butter, drink water when I'm thirsty, enjoy cheesy songs, stay up late enough to hear the silence of roads, and wake up to the humdrum of an ordinary human life.