Tumblr took its meds so we can't have hallucivan:(

used to be @hallucivan

[hallucivti]

My old blog @hallucivan got termed. If we were mutuals, dw I still follow you! You're the one not following me lol. My main is @girlprince-extraordinaire

Call me Kurov. Profic. Minors/Ageless will be blocked

I appreciate being tagged in anything alnst related!

Art and fics on Ao3

Art also on pixiv & baraag

I'm not doing maintags anymore because I don't wanna bother with them so heres my tags

[kymixsha]

There’s just something about ignoring that Ivan’s attempts to connect with the two people he loves most frequently take the form of projection or behavior that pushes their boundaries, all while withholding any real vulnerability himself, and then reducing it to him merely trying to 'fit in' while casting Sua and Till as needlessly cruel for, naturally, reacting to that provocation

[kymixsha]

how does one look at teenage Ivan who's described as charming and prince-like more than once and whom everyone in Anakt Garden and their mom have a crush on, and come to the conclusion that yeah no actually he has no idea how to act around people :( he's just trying to establish a connection in the only way he knows why are Sua and Till being so MEAN and pushing him away when he deliberately taunts them and anticipates that very reaction:(((

[vintageandroid]

we've all heard "he would not fucking say that" which i know has some nuance to it, but what about the fanart version, "He would not fucking have defined abs and gym-toned muscles"?

[ryartchus]

sleep

[hallucivan]

Threw together some doodles of the rebel Ivan

[reireisays]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Alien Stage (Web Series) Rating: Mature Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Ivan/Till (Alien Stage) Characters: Ivan (Alien Stage), Till (Alien Stage) Additional Tags: Zombie AU, Hurt No Comfort, Angst, Body Horror, Non-Consensual Touching, Sad Ending Summary:

Zombie Ivan is given human Till to infect. What little that’s left of human Ivan inside the creature that’s still aware is anguished and guilt-ridden by what’s happening, while the zombie part of him rejoices in spreading the disease.

A speculative piece about the upcoming zombie AU for Alien Stage.

[hallucivti]

I wonder in what context we'll be getting songs for zombie stage tbh

[hallucivti]

[hallucivti]

Taglist because I have a lot by now. I'll make them clickable when I get on PC

My tags

Talking tag, art + fics tag, extensively talking tag, gross tag, pinned post

Characters

Mizi, Sua, Till, Ivan, Hyuna, Luka, museum kids, Hallucivan

Ships

Mzsa, ivti, tiiv, hyunlu

AU ships that I tag

Rockemo, Emojock, Jockemo (Kurov approved), Ageswap (any version where Till is older than Ivan), Ivancest

Reblog tags

kurovs fav arts, kurovs fav posts, kurovs fav fics, kurovs nest (art/fics/whatever made for me in trades/gifts/etc.)

More specific reblog tags with explanations

prox (short for proximity, chars squished together)

[anarchopuppy]

sometimes being a fan of something means not wanting them to make any more of it

[cutter-kirby]

god I love when a character feels so engulfed in guilt that it's a comfort to them

[hallucivti]

Something I find funny about the fandom sexualisation of Till is that in canon, he displays similar behaviour by objectifying Mizi. Like. Karmic punishment, get put in a maid dress idiot

[goodfoolofillyria]

I have some thoughts on the way Till uses the term family in Alien Stage. We already see familiar terms like “father” be used for their guardians and “sister” get used for Sua’s sisters, but neither of these terms are distinguished as family. Sua and her older sister seemed to have genuine love for each other, but we know that many of her other sisters engaged in competitive behavior over favor of their guardian. Familial terms like “father” and “sister” seem to operate solely in terms of the relationships the Segyein organize, that are entirely without choice for the humans a part of them and often of limited care. The relationships between humans within the biological and reproductive sphere are stripped entirely of any positive social possibilities. Io is not a mother, she is a producer, and term that is stripped entirely of any social and non-commercial associations. The boy that strikes Mizi does not just deny the possibility of queerness and specifically lesbianism, but he also strips the relationships between men and women to solely a reproductive function. “A male and female are bound to fall in love, and end up mating” structures the value of human relationships solely on the possibility of producing more human beings. The social aspect, love, is merely a stepping stone to the end, the production of more humans. Their lives are entirely commercialized—any relationship that exists outside of a commercialized framework, in which more humans are created, is rendered entirely invisible. Fathers can only exist as entities with total control over their children. Love only exists as a stepping stone to the production of further humans to exist as product. That they have friends is only because it is understand that humans, as social creatures, require social interaction. The humans in alien stage have no conceptualization of relationships outside of at their most commercial, and with little to no control in these situations. There is also no possibility of long lasting social relationships—Till is removed from Io, Sua’s older sister is gone, Mizi’s mother is killed, Hyunwoo is killed, and Ivan does not appear to have had a large amount of social relationships at all prior to Anakt Garden. To me, when Till in Remember Everything, talks about family in the context of Ivan and Mizi, it’s discussing a relationship that is social, non-commercialized, by choice, and based on mutual concern and care. When discussing both Ivan and Mizi, the idea of sharing pain is emphasized in both cases. It is also, by its vagueness, unlike father and sister, a term that does not situate itself within a particular hierarchy.

[paragayyy]

my personal hc is that ivan’s best dreams are him crawling into till’s veins and ceasing to exist and ivan’s worst nightmares are actually having sex with till. does that make sense

[paragayyy]

this was brought about by my own meta post abt ivan’s bday art actually, bc the karaoke scene in round 6 strongly implies that they were sexually assaulted, but where till fights back ivan just accepts it. which has SO many interesting implications, but it also got me thinking like… we know ivan has canonically had r18 thoughts about till before, and he was the one who found till after the karaoke scene in round 6, so i can’t help but wonder… given how little they know about human sexuality, i think ivan’s r18 fantasies would actually be his nightmares.

he already thinks of himself and his feelings as twisted and wrong, and while we might extrapolate that to place it in the context of the “predatory gay man” trope and deconstructing that, in and of itself ivan doesn’t think his feelings are wrong because he’s attracted to men. he thinks they’re wrong because they’re intense, obsessive and possessive, nothing like how his peers show their affection. and him having r18 fantasies would only reinforce that.

and so given the karaoke scene and all its disturbing implications, i wonder if, in ivan’s eyes, having those r18 fantasies would make him no better than a segyein. after all, that’s probably their only knowledge/experience of sexual encounters. as far as we know, they seem to understand human sexuality only on a biological level (they don’t know what kissing means, and the true face comic where the guy says men and women can’t be friends bc it leads to mating).

which is why i think that ivan’s worst nightmares would be actually having sex with till. who tops/bottoms is irrelevant here, it’s just the act of touching him in that manner that makes it so disturbing for him.

so then his best dreams are crawling into till’s veins and ceasing to exist/anything along that vein (ha) because well. paratise exists. i don’t think i need to explain further

[fizzyfate]

some rebel tills i drew right after karma to try and like drawing short hair

[hallucivti]

Alien Stage fandom made me return to fandom habits. I'm Commenting on Youtube Videos. I haven't done that since like 2016.

Anyways check out this paratise animatic I just found