they/them ,, rb on @reis-reblogs (im so creative w usernames) idk i started posting impulsively cuz i needed a distraction from my hangover • adult • art school student (in the trenches)
been obsessed with @hallucivan 's rebel!ivan au so here's some doodles of it cuz it's been plaguing my brain
close ups+ slight rambling:
it was love at first sight when i saw this concept, it's more that me being a sucker for angst. it just seems like such an accurate take on their characters and i rarely see rebel!ivan content that is more than just copium (no hate to those who need/produce fluff or more light hearted content)
it'd be so OOC for ivantill to just. communicate if they ever found each other again.
i think vivinos mentioned that if till ever saw ivan again he'd approach him calmly and logically (or smn along the those lines). him assuming that iv is just a clone feels logical on till's part and ivan playing along (at least mostly) to spare till's feelings is pretty accurate to his character.
also ivan having a bunch of medical issues due to his injuries on r6 is very realistic. he got shot THREE times and fell very roughly on his head. plus him abusing pain meds to primarily keep his emotions in check is perfect
this setting opens so many doors to explore their dynamic without straying away from their canon counterparts. im so glad it's an ongoing work!!!
were u inspired by some other media/song/wtv for this au? or was it just a brain fart
also what does issac think about ivan?
[What does Isaac think about Ivan?]
"There's a lot of things I don't like about him, but it isn't exactly fair to hold it against him either. I have to assume that he's not trying to be difficult, he must really believe that he is the same guy Till remembers."
"But he's kind of destroying himself and Till by insisting on it. I try not to involve myself in those arguments. Besides that, neither he or Luka can do much without the threat of keeling over and dying. It's hard to look at them in a good light when resources are running low, but I just have to figure it out. It's not his fault, just like it wasn't Till's when we brought him in."
I'll put my answer under the cut because it'll be some rambling, but the short answer is brainfart! Thanks so much for the ask!!!!!!!
The idea mostly came from the thought process of "He would not fucking say that" I'm ngl, as does most of my ideas. I was annoyed at how often people write post-canon ivti suddenly being a happy couple because wheee Till did all his healing and Whee Ivan is alive hashtag copium!
I'm also just very fond of doing weird shit to Ivan and ruin Till's idea of having moved on from Ivan because his ass has not indeed moved on from Ivan
I've seen sooo many beautifully written happy ending-ish rebel Ivan works (Like All Our Scars by heyreirei which I definitely recommend to anyone who likes rebel Ivan AUs a bit happier/more domestic than mine while still maintaining that canon-typical angst factor, and like Moments Between Us by kizunkun which is a lot closer to my tone and a oneshot!) and while the effort and love put into them are palpable (both the ones I just linked and other works with the same concept!), it just wasn't scratching the angst loving itch in me. I prefer to go into the grit of it more, and really drive characters into madness as far as I can! Healthy relationship can be an end-goal but it certainly isn't what I like to write about.
The most direct inspiration I can name is probably Mitski songs, specifically "I want you".
Her blend of eroticism and horror really calls to me! The tone of my writing is heavily influenced by her albums Lush and Retired from Sad.
Not exactly for this AU specifically but if you're in the DC fandom and my writing seems familiar, it may be because envysparkler on ao3 has impacted my writing and ideas very heavily. Go read her Batcellanea oneshots they're so delicious. So yeah in short, All Our Scars was a big inspiration and @/fizzyfate gave me the confidence to post about it by bouncing ideas with me :>
remember a post about how mizi isn't obviously uniquely beautiful because there's little difference between how her body is portrayed compared to, say, sua, but i can't find it. i do think it would be cool if alnst had more diverse body types
but another thing that stood out to me was how they didn't utilize the fact that the alnstkids r catering to the expectations and beauty standards of the aliens. mizi could literally have any distinct feature for the other kids fawn over her. one motif could be her long, unkempt hair, as we see till holding the ends of in the utte mizitill cover and ivan using it as a fake beard. maybe only shine was indulgent enough to let her keep it long, as we see kids like sua have theirs managed quite well. (till probably cut his own lol). if sua is snow white then make her rapunzel.
I'm still not happy with how Ivan's anime tooth looks in my style so I tried to think of what a realistic exposed canine would look like and thought of a cleft lip instead. I might honestly keep this in my future drawings of him.
used jock Ivan because finally having the highschool AU has done things to me
ive got to do like 6 acrylic paintings, buncha charcoal sketches and another 3 woodcarving/engraving projects..sigh 😢😢 once this month is over we're so back
I think people are scared of acknowledging that both Ivan and Till display misogynistic behaviour and display it consistently because that makes their blorbos bigoted but like. Not acknowledging that Till was misogynistic really diminishes how he talks about Mizi in Remember Everything.
this is one of the main issues in this fandom. some ppl would rather water them down to something "bearable" than acknowledge the faulted morality of these characters. painting them in black and white is easier than accepting what makes them uncomfortable
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