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@hambaillahi
Subspeciality
another level in my career that I really dream of ... but things are not going my way ... well, I don't know. Still keep praying... being hopeful as always...
but I need this break from all of this.. hence a Japan trip it is..
finding some clarity.. the calmness and peace of my mind..
lets move!
yes!!!.. dear self,, whatever happen that make u remain static.. pls fight against it.. move!!!.. move and learn , keep growing at your own pace... no matter what.. no matter how hard life is... even though it's not easy.. just move on ok.. life is temporary... why soo stress about it kan.. let's have a positive mindset.. one step at a time.. well now.. u already have 3 steps moving forward.. don't compete with other people.. but compete with yourself last year.. this year will be better.. insyaa Allah.. amin...
Uncertainty
It's been quite some time since I haven't visited this page.
anyway, I have been living in uncertainty for months.. been applying my subspecialities twice.. the first one didn't secure as I was disqualified due to not completing 2 years post gazettment..but this 2nd attempt, by right, I fulfilled all those criteria. unfortunately, due to some technical glitch on the government site, my batch ( 90% of us) , didn't manage to secure for the criteria.. but our HOS will appeal for us.. again.. uncertain kan.. here I am .. in a district hospital for almost 3 years, I am indeed regressing.. I don't find any light yet.. I pray .. I pray and keep on praying.. I did approach a few people including the HOS for this.. knowing me,, the introvert, I don't normally go and approach other people.. just follow the flow.. but.. I need to chase my dream.. I need to get out from this comfort zone.. I don't want to get rusted forever... Hence, here I am.. persevere, struggling to get out of it..
"And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out and will provide for him from where he does not expect." — Surah At-Talaq 65:2-3
but deep down, I believe Allah's promises.. HE will provide the best for me.. perhaps at the right time.. : (
I don't know whether I can hold on to this dream until how long..
should I just give up and surrender? I'm already dreaming of expanding services after this fellowship training.. huuu.
but I guess Allah knows better..
well, my career progression is still uncertain, and my marriage is obviously still in the dark ..
hahaha.. in which I already gave up with this fate... perhaps staying single is the best for me in this dunya... LOLs.
getting older alone, in solitude and on my own.
I try to stay optimistic, but deep down, I still need to address my sadness, my disappointment... though I still need to stay patient and just move on with my life.
people might see my smile, my cheerful face... but only Allah knows my sadness. :(
ok .. that's all for my ranting.
Please pray for my smooth journey...amin
It seems that so close yet so far 😢
May Allah provides the best for me
For my dunya and my akhirah
He knows, while i’m not
lately, ive been thinking my decision to be back home.. working in my hometown.. is it the right decision?? perhaps I should move far away from here..
bila rumah tak rasa tenang... run + sweet escape = is the plan...
I think my level of ignorance is wayyyyy too high. orang ckp masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri.. That's how I've been trained since I waa small.. but today, i just reached my limit.. in which I need to say out loud.. huuu.. sorry lahh yerr..
bila balik kerja penat... tapi hari2 hadap dengar dan complain benda yang sama.. orang tu yg tak kacau sikit pon hidup kau.. x kacau sikit pon duit gaji kau.. not worth to be mentioned and stress about yah...
so just forget about it and move on!!!!
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This week, I intend to seek Allah’s pleasure in the quiet, ordinary moments — the ones no one sees but Him. I want to be more mindful of my words, guarding my tongue from anything that doesn’t benefit my akhirah.
I intend to choose sabr over reaction, to pause before I speak, and to let dhikr soften my heart throughout the day.
I aim to pray on time, not just out of routine, but as a meeting with the One who never tires of me.
I will try to ease someone’s burden, even if only with kindness or a silent duʿāʾ. And when I fall short — as I will — I intend to return to Him with humility, not guilt.
By the end of the week, I hope to be just a little closer to Allah, a little lighter in spirit, and a little more aligned with my purpose.
As soon as you begin to love something, PRAY that it doesn't become your test. pray that you never lose it. Thank Allah constantly for it and make sure your love for Allah is greater than your love for that thing.
If you're young and your deen is your priority, then you are blessed immensely. Don't ever look at others and feel you're missing out.
A youth who grew up worshipping Allah will be one of the seven types of people under the shade of Allah on a day where there is no shade but His.
2024..
Salam.. it's been a while here.. pretty busy lately.. taking a long break twice.. i think this year is pretty hard for me.. Being left alone as solo physician in district hospital for 8 months is not something that I've come prepared for, of course. i've prepared my knowledge since in MMED years.. but being left alone.. being a head of department .. need to manage patients and settle administrative stuff at the same time is not something that I've been trained during MMED years. Anyway, there are some battles that I won and some I lost.. disappoinment burn out, angry etc.. those feelings that I've been struggling with..
2024 is something that i'm not really proud off actually. my HM in Langkawi also , i didn't perform .. but alhamdulilah manage to complete within the COT.
i'm scared for 2025.. more challenges.. i hope i can skip 2025.. hahah..
I bet I need to be strong and brave enough to face the world..
Having a hard time?
Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and say:"Ya Allah, I know it's your plan. Just help me through it.
“Do not be afraid, I am with you all the time, listening and seeing.”
— Al Qur’aan [20:46]
Kita kerjakan saja bagian kita.
hanya kepada NYA. sahaja aku tawakal..
mungkin saja lidah ini senang ucapkan tawakal itu..
namun.. hati ini masih berat..
masih menyalahkan diri sendiri andai kesalahan berlaku..
sedangkan kemarin sudah aku ucap kan tawakal itu..
it needs some training..
tawakal muscle.
perhaps, my heart is not really at ease in terms of tawakal..
mungkin sebab itu sentiasa diuji dgn ujian tawakal ini,
Decision fatigue
Im a solo physician in house in my hospitals
Been doing oncall straight more than 30 days..
Daily ward rounds..need to crash my brain to think and give decision plan for each of the patients under my care..
Tired yes
Drained definately
Minor mistakes i tried to brush it off
But certain decision with big impact to my patients outcomes really put me in distress 😭😭😭😭..
I feel that my brain is foggy..
Cannot think sharply like before
I dunnow..
But each of my decision definately give some outcomes to my patients
I feels that I am not doing enough
I tried my best
I tried to scroll down and check bloods results/double check my MO job,and documentations .. are they doing it correctly or not
I tried!!!
But its still feel hard when my decision causing bad impacts on my pts..
Allahu..
Ya Allah please make this easy
Dont put us a burden beyond my soul can bear
Ps
No one above me except God
Allah is working out something beautiful in the midst of your suffering. He will compensate you, as if you haven't lost anything. Remember Nobody will fully know how much pain and struggle you are going through. But Almighty knows. The beauty lies in the struggle. Trust Him.
yes, hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa letih, lelah jalan2 yang dilalui.. hari2 yang mendatang terasa berat.. : (
I feel like, im in a long run.. super or ultra marathon ... havent reach my finishing line.
May Allah remove any arrogance in our hearts, and make us humble and modest people, dealing with everyone with love, care, and respect.
Hurm..
Tak mudah
Tak senang
Moga ini jalan yang terbaik
Ada one year plus untuk decide dan solat istikharah..
Moga Allah beri yang terbaik buat dunia dan akhirat..
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