🌹Hannah🌹

20 / awake but I'm still dreaming

[hanniibee99]

and what if we are the right one for each other and we just don't know yet?

[hanniibee99]

I miss you so much. I thought I'm over you but that was just a wish being able to breath again. So I'm sitting alone in my room and thinking of you while you're out with friends and thinking about other girls. How will I ever get over you? How will I ever learn to live my life without you again?

[hanniibee99]

At Midnight, in the Month of June, I stand beneath the Mystic Moon.

- Edgar Allan Poe

[hanniibee99]

4 am.

I miss you

and I know that you don't miss me

but that doesn't matter

cause I miss you

every second

every day

and with every breath I take

I miss you terribly.

[hanniibee99]

I think I still want you even if I say I don't..

[hanniibee99]

I know you like me

and I like you

yeah I know you like me

but I love you..

[hanniibee99]

Sometimes I'm scared I'm too much.

[hanniibee99]

And in the end it's me, I'm alone. But that's okay because everybody leaves. So I'm used to be alone.

[hanniibee99]

And I would choose you over and over again until you believe me you are enough and you are all I want.

[hanniibee99]

You make me feel things I thought are impossible

[hanniibee99]

What am I doing here? Why am I doing this to myself? How am I supposed to handle this?

- Thoughts that keep me up at night

[hanniibee99]

And even if you don't choose me, you'd always be my choice.

- 3am

[hanniibee99]

Yeah we loved before and yes it was real love with big feelings but that doesn't mean we can't love again. Right? I mean you can't just go to a person and start a relationship with them, it takes time. It takes time to get to know the person, to see the real person hiding in them and to open up and trust them. It is normal that you aren't totally in love after a second. It takes time but it doesn't mean it can't get to a big love. We also know you can't force yourself to love someone but time can make you love them and time will bring you the answer. Nevertheless it's not a reason why you should stop these feelings because they can get real and big. Everything starts small.

- 2am

[hanniibee99]

When does it get better¿

[hanniibee99]

It's raining. I like the rain. It reminds me of myself. It's quite, dark and also soothing. On days like these I'd just wanna stay in bed and never get up. I'm tired and so exhausted. But when I hear the rain it makes me feel calm and relaxed. It's like I finally can breath again after a long time. I can finally relax and don't think about anything, just shut down my head, lie in bed and stare out the window. God I'm so tired.

[hanniibee99]

I'm confused..

What are we doing here? I know we never really talked about it but even when we did it never changed so what are we doing here? It's only getting weirder and more confusing..

I just wanna know if this means something to you because it does to me.

and to be honest I don't wanna stop this.. I never wanted it to stop

[hanniibee99]

I don't wanna be you I wanna be me