I think it’s selfish to say, I am more damage than you, she suffered more than you, he’d been through a lot than anyone of you. I think it’s wrong. Because no one could ever feel the same intensity of how a person is broken or damaged. No one should ever feel that their feelings don’t matter just because there are more unlucky humans than him/her. Yes, I know there are kids around the world who doesn’t have something to eat and water to drink. Yes, I know that there is a war going on anywhere in the world. Yes, a child just became an orphan. Yes, someone just lost their child in a cancer battle. I am not being inconsiderate. I am just simply wanting to let you know that everyone deserves to be empathise. Every soul on earth matters. Every soul that seeks help and cure should be healed.
And I think ‘hugging’ is the most powerful tool that you can give to a soul who feel lost in this world. I am writing this because I am one of the few souls tonight who feel so lost in the world. Never knowing what exactly to do, where to go, when is the best time, how can I fix this.
I’ve been trying so hard to stay away from depression but I am quite convince after trying all these years that (a.) there will be times in our life no matter how perfect it is we see it, that there’s no purpose to live anymore, that (b.) you know happiness comes from yourself first before others, yet it’s not enough, you are not enough, being happy is not enough, that (c.) nothing make sense, you’ve been trying so so hard to stay positive and let positivity wins but still negativity prevails, that (d.) even if you’re with someone, you know they are there but they are not enough, there’s always something missing and you wanted more, and never be contented, that (e.) death only matters.
I am writing this to express my depression, my frustrations, my weaknesses and all negativity I cannot hide from myself. I am writing this to remind myself that there’s no such thing as perfect, that even your family isn’t perfect but despite the imperfection they love you dearly. I am writing this to let myself know that even in times when I do not feel that there is someone there for me to listen, writing it down is sympathetically helpful. I am writing this down for all the beautiful lost soul in this world to let you know that, you’re not alone, you’re never alone, you’re not the only one feeling all the weight in the world. I am writing this down because I love myself.
Please be okay. I love you.
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