UFF.. un fucking forgetable

Trying my best to be human

[sgeoffa]

[goth-queen]

[goth-queen]

[recaption]

[love-personal]

[theartidote]

[danger]

[5oil]

[sickfake]

being alive is very………..Not Easy

[seemingly]

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[hardening-caulk]

I miss what i used to cry about as a teenager. That shit was way easier I’d bounce back so quick. I haven’t felt this type of sadness before and it’s awful. And it’s not going away in a day or two.

[purifiant]

[hardening-caulk]

Alright gratitude i gotta work on i think

1. All the helpful people in my life. They always have little nuggets of wisdom that come without warning and have really helped me along. It always comes at the right time.

2. Gage. He’s always my rock and makes me feel safe. I don’t know what I’d do without him honestly

3. My family and friends. Although i don’t respond most of the time they always reach out. I miss them a lot.

4. My job. I finally have a stress free job that pays well. Gives me time to relax before the move and my manager is super understanding of everything going on and helps me where he can.

5. My weight gain. Although it was supposed to be for the baby and it came out of something awful, i did gain weight so hopefully I’m on the path to put on more weight.

6. My crohns doctor. She’s so nice and seems like she loves what she does and loves helping people get healthy.

7. I have a warm house and 2 working cars

Might just add on to this list when i think of things. 7 is good for today though

[hardening-caulk]

I’m right on the line of being motivated to take care of myself and get healthy/get my life together or not care about anything and be self distructive because i feel like even if i take care of my body it’ll still fail me anyway

[closure]

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[sunshlne]

[hardening-caulk]

I just want to leave. Not run away, but me and gage on a road trip. I’m missing our cross country trip right now where everything was new but in a good way. I just want to leave this area and go have fun and we can’t even do that