1. I built walls not to keep people out, but to contain myself within. I chipped away at myself so that I wouldnât be âtoo much.â So that I wouldnât be too loud, too emotional, too transparent all of the time. I thought I had to shrink to make myself more palatable even if it left me feeling lukewarm. I didnât know that it was okay to want to be loved as I am. I had never known a love that wasnât conditional.
2. They say that open and honest communication in relationships is key. What they donât tell you is how nobody will actually want to hear about how they have hurt you.Â
They will tell you they love your big heart until they do something inconsiderate. Then when you try to address it, they will say you are too sensitive.
They will tell you that they love how passionate you are until they have a disagreement with you. Then, even when you come to an understanding, they will only say you are too aggressive - too difficult.
They will tell you that they only want the best for you until they do something that lets you down. Then they will brush you off and say you are just too hard to please.
They will turn your traits against you. They will convince you that everything that theyâve said that they loved about you were actually all flaws. They will lash out in guilt, they will lash out in discomfort, and they will blame you so that they wonât have to face themselves.
You are too much. You are just too much for them to handle when you refuse to shrink for their convenience.
3. I have learned that when people tell me I am too much, they are actually just afraid that they are not enough.
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