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Yumichika and Ikkakku are the most married characters in the entirety of Bleach, I won't accept criticism.

i do not “delete sentences” when they start “hindering the plot” i COPY PASTE THEM into a SEPARATE DOC made just for keeping all my USELESS LINES that i will also NEVER USE so therefore i should JUST DELETE THEM but i DONT because id FEEL BAD if i did

harpyharpyharpy

You don't actually have to kill your darlings. You can just put them in the oubliette #myoubliette

#writing

amazingeurus

btw i hope this isnt offending but, i notice the ikkayumi dynamics in dirty³ is getting a bit toxic? like it started that way and is staying, like i read chapter 30 several months ago so details are blurry to me but they have some more toxic dynamics thar your other ikkayumi fics dont have

i read the cutthroat one and the ace one and they were much sweeter and loving there

like im not saying it is bad or telling u how to write ur own fic but was just curious on why the reason it, i wonder if its because of them being st the beginning of it and having more unresolved aspects or simply ur personal choice, as u said this fic is way personal to you...?

again i still love it and went yipee as soon as notif for new chapter came! and you did a wonderful job again, just was a bit curious...

I'm not offended at all! The IkkaYumi dynamic in Dirty Names is totally toxic! It is very unlike who they are in Bleach and it is very unlike my other fics. The toxicity is intentional and I have a few reasons for it.

The main reason is that I find relationship conflict to be interesting. I am normally drawn to ships with a lot of conflict. IkkaYumi is an exception to this so I have thrust my love of relationship conflict upon them.

Yes, it is also because it's them at the beginning of their relationship. These are the events before the happily married couple they are in Bleach. I want these characters to have bad parts of themselves and bad parts of the relationship they have to work hard to fix before they deserve to be happy and before they are allowed to have their happy ever after together.

This fic is also a dark time for both these characters. They are dealing with a lot of complicated emotions due to very different problems, and they are struggling to be there for each other in the ways the other needs because of it.

This fic being personal to me is right as well. I used this fic to work through a lot of my own issues. I wanted to have a conversation with myself about toxic masculinity, domestic violence, internalized homophobia, relationship conflict, past sexual assault, etc. I wanted to explore the toxic parts of myself and my relationship at the time when I started writing. I have been dealing with a lot of big life problems while writing this and that tension might have bled into my work.

My intention was to make their relationship less toxic and more comfortable as the story went on but if you're still getting toxic vibes at chapter 31, I may have gone wrong somewhere. Oops!

I'm happy to hear you were excited for a new chapter! I was excited to post after such a long hiatus. Thanks for the ask! A lot of people like IkkaYumi for the effortlessness in which they get along and respect each other so it's good for me to clear the air on why their relationship is so messed up in this fic in particular.

#my asks

oh hi! i sincerely hope you're better now than when you wrote in your author's note on chapter 31 on dirty³... so like i was the one asking u about if u hate yumi or not, when was it i cant remember genuinely but like long long ago.. back then i had just found your ao3 and was reading dirty³ on a roadtrip or smth, so i wonder now and like forgive md for being dumb, havent slept properly, do you hate him? or like love-hate? or seeing urself in him? cause like reading it back then it felt like u definitely favored ikkaku and liked him with yumichika but not yumichika as a separate character, then i thought you were just showing different and darker aspects of his characterization but im not sure now... good chapter btw! hope you feel better today <3

Oh hi again! It's good to hear your thought process in sending me that ask because I was a little confused by it.

I definitely have a bias toward Ikkaku. When I was a kid reading Bleach, Ikkaku was my guy. I liked Yumichika as a member of the 11th but nowhere near as much as I liked Ikkaku. I actually shipped Ikkaku x Iba and Yumichika x Hisagi. This history of my feelings probably still lingers. But after Yumichika's fight with Charlotte, I saw him in a whole new light. And after he freaked out when Ikkaku lost his fight against Poww, I suddenly liked IkkaYumi.

It is true that I like Ikkaku and IkkaYumi together more than I like Yumichika by himself. But I still do like Yumichika a lot. I especially like him as a tragic metaphor for queerness and being in the closet in a hyper-masculine culture. I also just personally like the darker parts of his personality. I think they are more interesting. I really like how villainous he was to Ganju and how mean he was to Charlotte and Giselle. He is a great example of how morally grey soul reapers can be and that is a lot of fun.

I'm glad you liked the latest chapter :3 Thanks for the well wishes!

Long hair anders

"what if they fucked" WRONG. what if they ruined each other's lives irreparably. what if there was nothing left but a smoldering heap. what if everything that brought them together twisted and corroded and ripped them apart. and then they fucked.

emilyirvineart

Drawing them based on a 90s glamour magazine

#bruabba

maru6

#zosan

inthestarsisyourhome

listen, he is exactly where he wants to be

this was meant do be a foot study but. lol. i’ll work on this more once i learn how to fix my many colouring sins & also lighting & also…… everything 🫡

#zosan #please forgive me for what I am about to tag this #feet #this is so crazy hot

cococosmo

Thinking of how Jugram and Bazz B's Schrift letters represent each other, their bond in particular as confirmed by Kubo himself. Schrifts are unique to the soul. In the Wandenreich, where individuality is destroyed so they can better serve Yhwach, Schrifts are one of the few marks of individuality they have. Yhwach doesn't choose the Schrifts, nor can he take them away. It is theirs and theirs alone. So, the fact that Jugram and Bazz B's Schrifts represent each other is just... you get what I'm saying with this. They're so important to each other that their SOULS, which represent who they are deep down, are named after each other. Jugram's balance ideology, which he's had since childhood, to help him survive. Bazz B's flames, which represent his trauma, the trauma that fuels his life. They love and yearn for each other so much that their identities are intrinsically tied to each other. They're soulmates.

Heat and Balance

uhm what if I found him kinda really cute

#shinji hirako

rukiadriedhisrain

Follically Challenged 😔🥀

#ikkayumi

slowpokegamer

*looking at myself in the mirror*

Fanfiction is supposed to be cringy. You're allowed to write bad. You're allowed to be cringe. Fanfiction is supposed to be self indulgent. You're allowed to be cringe. Let yourself be cringe. Fanfiction is supposed to be fun. Stop putting arbitrary rules on yourself and be free.

#fanfiction

satsuha

thanks bleach for making my ship taste even more obvious

#ichiishi #ikkayumi #jugobazz

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