Hi baby. Can we talk about your oral fixation post earlier? Please đ because I was just thinking a little, you know and maybe Ilya asks Shane softly later that night how he did stop sucking his thumb, when he was little since clearly the fixation never left.
And Shane is all blushy and shy and shut up Ilya and Ilya is like mm no I want to ask, Iâd like to know. And Shane shrugs and heâs like I kinda didnât. Not for a long time. I was too old maybe like eleven? Was only ever at night when if needed to sleep. I guess. And Ilya just hums, combs his hand through hands hair over the back of his head.
âAnd you stopped?â And Shane is quite quiet. âGot caught once, away game- guy I was rooming with saw and uh- thankfully he wasnât evil enough to tell everyone but he called me baby the rest of the year and I just. The way he laughed at me. I donât knowâ and Shane shrugs and itâs so quiet and Ilya plays with Shaneâs ear, tugging and pulling at it. Heâs quiet but Shane just knows that means heâs thinking.
His hands keep stroking over Shaneâs face soft gentle touches. âKids can be cruelâ Ilyas says and Shane nods. They can. Heâs hidden much of himself in the past for the same reason.
âIt um. Helped you relax?â Ilya asks and Shane nods.
âLike now, with my cockâ Shane slaps Ilyaâs side once, open palmed and Ilya just catches his hand, squeezes it.
âFuck offâ Shane huffs and
âNo, no- Shane I mean it, like it makes you, happy, calm- Iâm not being a pervert. Mostly. But you like it yes? Like my fingers in your mouth hmm?â
And Shane huffs and nods and blushes and then itâs quiet again. Warm in their room, Shane kicks a leg out from under the covers.
Ilyaâs hand smooths down the side of his face, fingers drag and then his thumb finds Shaneâs bottom lip, rubs at it. Shane keeps his mouth shut the whole back of his neck tingling. Face hot.
He swallows and Ilyaâs fingers curl gentle against his flushing cheek.
âIf you wantâ he offers and Shane parts his lips, sucking a Ilyaâs thumb into his mouth, on his tongue and between his soft pallet.
Ilya just hums happily, his other hand rubs up and down Shaneâs back.
Shane feels struck, still, for a while and they do this al the time during sex, but itâs fleeting and itâs with a focus- to cum- to get off together. This. This is just for Shane. Just Shaneâs comfort.
Ilya just keeps running his back and eventually Shane goes softer, looser heavier on Ilya and then his tongue is wet and hot and licking, sucking softly at Ilyaâs thumb. His lips are pursed around Ilyaâs knuckle, sucking, a little bit of saliva on his lips.
Shane falls asleep in minutes, tears simmering in his eyes, the feeling of being accepted, held. Understood. Like Ilya always did for him.
(Eep sorry if this isnât ur vibe feel free to leave it here and not put it out but I just had do)
AHHH BUG THIS IS COMPLETELY THE VIBE
I saw this before work this morning and then I had to WORK and I was thinking about it all day â ïžâ ïžâ ïž
Ughhh I love it when big bad Ilya is also gentle loverboy Ilya. They are the same person they coexist that man contains all the multitudes. It's soooo hot to him that Shane needs his cock in his mouth on the regular to LIVE but on the flip side, the knowledge of WHY he needs it...the id of it all...the bits of Shane that only Ilya really gets to know because he's hidden and repressed so much over the years.
I absolutely lose it for dynamics that combine sexual and nonsexual intimacy. Cockwarming as comfort, obviously, but also this. There is nothing particularly sexual happening and neither of them is getting off on it but it's an echo of their first sex YEARS ago and they're both aware of it. There's also something to be said for it being vaguely taboo, which is inherently erotic. But then it's also, above all, Ilya offering comfort. Ughhh HUMANS we are all so imperfect and wonderful and wanting and perverted and loving. I'm not making sense
Thank you Bug I love this a lot đ„șđ„șđ„ș