Hayley 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

she/her 18 Multifandom Talk and post random shit

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owen shields abby from the sight of her dad’s body ):

shots by @abbystanaccount

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TW: mentions of rape and sexual assault

Is lying about your political views to sleep with someone a form of rape?

I came across this tiktok and some people agreed with this statement some people didnt agree with this statement saying it discredits victims of SA + rape.

What do you think? I wanna hear other people's opinions.

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What is this feeling so sudden and new?

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VENT

Trigger warning: Possible depression, grandmother loss, mother loss, pet loss and unhealthy use of alcohol

I've been feeling sad for 18 months now and now even being accepted into university I still don't feel anything. Not even a bit of happiness of great fullness, not even birthdays, Christmases or hanging out with friends heal the hole thats inside me.

All this sadness started in 2024 when I did get on the course I wanted to go onto so I had go to a college doing course I hated for a year. Also in 2024 I lost my grandmother in the summer and she was my mothers mum. My mum passed when I was 11 years old. I wasnt just mourning the loss of my grandma, i was mourning maternal line. The only who is left and i have no siblings to share my grief with

In early 2025 my dog Toby was diagnosed with aggressive cancer and just 2 months later he died too. He was my dog for 10 years he was with my mum she was alive.

I put all my purpose into getting out of the college course and once I did i turned 18 years old. I have had booze before at family gatherings but now when I drink alcohol I seem to just get easily drunk and I drink so much that life feels more better, the pain becomes silent. I drink when I I'm sad stressed or angry. Towards the end of the summer I did a acess course but now that doesnt seem to give me happiness

Currently I'm home most of the time with no company other than my dad who comes home in the evening. Did my ucas application in January and got offered a place at the uni i wanted to go to for 2 years. I felt a okay just for a few moments and I acted happy in front of my dad but even then in that moment it all felt fake. Every interaction i have feels fake, hanging out with friends feels fake, my short time of happiness feels fake when I read or laugh at a joke feel fake and life is a nightmare that I can't wake up from.

I wouldn't want to say I have depression as i am not diagnosed but I would say something is wrong with me. I don't have any help and I hate talking to my friends about it as I don't want them to worry about me. All these deaths that have happend in my life and disappointment have all come crashing down on me. My grief is not going away at all, all I want in the world is to have my mum back with me. But I can't have that as she is dead and I look at all these mothers day cards in the shops + feel completely alone.

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Why the fuck did tumblr uploaded my tlou edit 3 times

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Last of us edit from my tiktok account: got_lotr_lover

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Last of us edit from my tiktok account: got_lotr_lover

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Last of us edit from my tiktok account: got_lotr_lover

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since i’m not posting fics to make you happy, i’ll post this to make you sad instead

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If instead of Tess getting infected and it was Joel who got infected with cordyceps. How would the rest of the story playout?

Tess and Ellie never reach the hospital

They reach the hospital and Tess saves Ellie

They reach the hospital but Tess allows Ellie to die to create the vaccine

Voting ended onMar 6

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My controversial Last of Us opinion

I think the vaccine would of worked but I don't think the Fireflies would of been able to distribute it across the country and the rest of the world in order it to be successful as they hope it to be.

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Fuck the royal family, fuck the king,+ Fuck ai, fuck the government, fuck tories, fuck reform, fuck Israel, fuck restore Britain,fuck British + American press, fuck gb news, fuck the aristocrats, fuck the tories, fuck Labour Party, fuck reform uk, fuck Trump, fuck Andrew mountbatton, fuck epstein, fuck ICE and fuck everyone who supports this shit

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My Bella and Edward sims

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

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Drinking as i hate life 🙃

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I honestly cant live anymore

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My fancasts for Arthur Morgan and Micah Bell if Red Dead Redemption 2 was made into a movie

Tom Hopper as Arthur Morgan

Jake McDorman as Micah Bell