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He is the one

If this break taught me anything it taught me that i lost myself while trying to make this relationship strong. Some people don’t get the opportunity to make things right, others don’t get the chance to reflect and recollect their thoughts.

for the first time, I was shown the true meaning of letting someone go and if they come back then you know it’s real.

it’s different this time because I did not leave when I was upset nor did he. We left to find ourselves in love again. Although I feel quite reserved about everything, we will find the reason why this relationship is so worth it.

I love you, Keith Bragas.

Hello! I’m back (hopefully) at this point in my life I just am trying to find solutions. I constantly feel lost or unheard, but reading this article made me feel like I’m exactly where I need to be

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Do you ever feel like you want to talk to someone so badly, but have nothing to say?

I’m starting to feel this way every day now.

I honestly feel like i’m loosing it.

This kind of feeling is something i havent felt before. I’m fat. And i’m constantly falling more and more because i cant get back that motivation i once had to be where i want to be. I hate looking in the mirror and apart of me feels like no one wants to be around me anymore because i am this way. I have never felt so self conscious to the point where no one can help me. Not even keith. I need a seriously change in my life. I can’t ever be this way anymore. I need help.

the scariest point

I’ve gotten to that point where i forgot how it feels to be completely into someone. Being on tinder had it’s many flaws, one of which dealt with the vulnerability of allowing someone in, in hopes of them not doing anything to jeopardize how you saw being with someone. Unfortunately my feelings of love has changed; and i no longer remember how it used to be with me and just wonder other person.

I like to just tell myself that i don’t want to settle unless something is established, but the deeper i go with letting someone in, the harder it is for me to feel that special feeling for just that someone. Just one someone.

I mean, maybe what i’m feeling is normal since i’m not committing to anything right away, but i wish that once i fall in love again, it wouldn’t be feelings of being comfortable or just settling.

When i do, i want to be able to say that it’s real.

YOU. i miss the little things about you. How we were so excited to be around each other, how you were always just right there.Of course there was a lot of things i couldn’t stand. Like how you were late, or just communicating with me was never an option. I know you were everything but right for me, but i thought you were worth working for. Just goes to show that i can’t put my effort to change something that is not right for me. You were the example of just that.

Despite all, that doesn’t stop me from missing you.