live like a ghost

i'll bleed from the inside and i won't tell anyone

[hd131399]

living with a grief-shaped hole in your chest leaves you reaching for fire. all the time. you wonder if it's ever gonna go away and the truth is that it won't. you learn to live with it. you tell yourself that for years, you fall in love, you feel happy, and you have these pockets of time where it's not so suffocating, but it doesn't get easier. this companion that follows you forever, in the shadows, in the light. not consistently anyway. some days it's a bit easier to breathe. some days you're knee-deep in sorrow. most days you can barely break the surface.

[hd131399]

i don't know how to let go

[hd131399]

when ur devotion is a bottomless well and no one wants to sit in that space with u lol this is how the heart becomes a dead muscle.

[hd131399]

woke up knee deep in grief again. do you ever catch a glimpse of what it was supposed to be like?

[hd131399]

it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts

[hd131399]

i guess there’s nothing left. i’m not upset

[hd131399]

how are you feeling

are you healing

what’s it mean to be sealed to me

[pretty-ichor]

its so difficult to make connections w other ppl

[hd131399]

I wish to be met with the same depth, instead of having to float to the shallow end to meet everyone. No one has met me with the same intensity and depth of soul. It hurts to know.

It is so incredibly lonely here.

[hd131399]

sometimes it hurts like that, you know? the heartbreak of it all. the weight of grief sits heavy when the pockets of time are bottomless. where do we go from here? pain you can't quantify. where do you put it

[hd131399]

the light has gone from my life

[hd131399]

in rock bottoms basement tonight. I remember the sinking of it all. I was describing the anchor. I remember the save point. The pockets of grief are filled with sand and photos of you. How long until we get there? I’m still spiralling, but i’ll let you know. I’ll wait a millennium. i’ll wait that, tenfold.

How long until it all falls apart again?

[hd131399]

you bleed and bleed and bleed and bleed and bleed and bleed and bleed

[xue-mei]

every page of This is How You Lose the Time War drives me Insane

[hd131399]

the only question you’ve gotta be asking yourself right now: do you really care what these sicko fucks think about your leap of faith?

[hd131399]

i love you so much that it hurts my head

[hd131399]

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