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Intorduction

Heyy :)

And welcome to my blog. You can address me as Emily.

This blog is for everything healing but focused on ED recovery as someone going through it herself right now I hope we can all support each other here and give advice if needed to help those in a similar position. <3

I want this to be a safe space for everyone who is struggling or needs help. So please be mindful with your comments.

Thank you happy healing ❤️‍🩹

I hope you stick around.

-xx em 🫶🏼

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I promise you, you won’t regret recovery.

What you will regret is more wasted years on a disorder that does not really give a sh** about you.

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If you do not choose recovery at one point everyone you will meet in your life in the future will only ever know the sick you.

On your potential wedding, you will be sick.

Your children, will only ever know the sick you.

You will be sick on every birthday.

Every party.

Every new years.

Every Christmas.

Every Easter.

Every Summer.

Every Winter.

Every Autumn.

Every Spring.

Every day.

Every day, for the rest of your life!!

Is that not sad?

Is that not scary?

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There is no sick enough nor will there ever be one. Sick enough is an endless void to keep you trapped in your eating disorder. You are already sick and that’s enough.

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Your daily reminder that it is okay to get help. And that you should do it because you can’t (don’t have to) fight this fight on your own

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Destroying your body in order to fit society standards is wrong and hateful towards your body.

It is like cutting off your best friend in order to hang and fit in with the popular crowd.

I would rather have my body as a friend rather than fake people who only like me for my body.

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You need to stop treating your body like the enemy and start treating it as a friend.

Society made you hate your body. That is not your bodies fault but societies. The anger and hate towards your body is misdirected.

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I promise you, you won’t regret recovery.

What you will regret is more wasted years on a disorder that does not really give a sh** about you.

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Your disorder does not want what’s best for you, your body does

Your disorder wants you dead

Your body wants to keep you alive.

Literally everything it does is to keep you alive even when you hate on it and starve it. Everything it does solely has one purpose. To keep you alive and healthy. For that we should all be more grateful.

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I have been sick for the past days. And that has been rather triggering and challenging. I had a fever and have been nauseous for days. Due to that I could not really eat anything. Now that I am no longer sick I really struggle getting back into a normal eating pattern, especially because the ED thought are really loud again because of the past days.

For anyone also out they're currently sick and getting a bit (or completely) derailed by that. We got this!! I believe in you sending you lots of strength <3

And of course anyone else just struggling, just because. You should also know that you can and will get through this. You've got this. It will get better

Happy Healing xx

Lots of Love Em <3

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Depiction of mental health in Thunderbolts and how it helped with my Mental illness

the way this movie handled the topic of mental health is honestly so breathtaking. (in my opinion)

Exhibit A

"Look I have been where you are. You can run, but it doesn't go away. Sooner or later it catches up to you, and when it does, it is too late. So you can either do something about it now, or live with it forever.

-- Bucky

This is such good advice, and so real coming from someone like him who has been through it.

And you can transfer that on your ED as well. The longer you wait with recovery the longer the journey back to normalcy will take. And maybe by that time you will have done irreparable damage, that you will have to live with forever.

The longer you wait the worse it gets. It will not just go away on its own you will have to work hard for it.

Exhibit B

The way Yelena talks about her struggles with mental health. Saying she has so many regrets and how in the red room she was just a Child.

And I feel a little bit silly and stupid comparing this to an ED, but the amount of regret I have I do not have words for. I wish so badly I could go back and tell the ten year old version of myself that it is okay, that she will be fine, that she NEEDS food to live and be happy and the things she is doing will not actually fix anything.

Looking back it breaks my heart, looking at everything my younger self has been put through at a way to young age.

Exhibit C

THEIR ENTIRE CONVERSATION HONESTLY.

My new Roman Empire.

The way Alexei Handels the situation. And the things he says to her.

"When I look at you, I don't see your mistakes"

Like wow, I think so many of us really need to hear that. And I think a lot of us also struggle with not being defined by our disorders or struggles. When people find out about my mental health struggles or the fact that I am in therapy I am always afraid of what they will think about me.

But I want to tell you that you are NOT your disorder and you having a Disorder does not make you worth less or too much.

Your struggles are valid!!!

"You walked into a room, you made it bright"

( "I don't remember that feeling" )

SOBBED

Again circling back to the younger me thing. I know that I was a happy kid up to the age of like ten but still I do not really remember that feeling. Sure I am not completely depressed anymore as I was then but still not 100% happy either. So it is difficult to really remember what that full joy felt like. And again it breaks my heart that so many of you had to go through similar things.

But you need to think about your younger self and what he/she would have wanted for you. Part of recovery is also healing your inner child and going back to the very things that brought you joy as a little kid.

I could honestly go on all day about this. I definitely loved this movie and yes I have already watched it three times and will continue to rewatch it. Because especially the scene between Alexei and Yelena healed something inside me and made some things clear to me.

Thank You if you listened to mx TED talk till the very End :)

Happy Healing xx

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It was never about you.

No one thinks they’re enough.

Because no one is enough for an industry built on making you feel like you are lacking.

-Alana Lintao

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She says she should not have all those carbs.

She is not having dessert.

She chose the salad.

She did not have any bread.

They workout everyday.

They cut out all sugar.

…

Good for them not you 🫶🏼

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Let this be your reminder that you are your own person. There is not second person exactly like you. You are uniquely you. Therefore you need to cater to your own unique needs and those might be completely different from someone else’s and that is good and totally fine.

We are not all the same and that is how it is supposed to be otherwise live would get quite boring quite fast.

What works for them, does not need to work for you.

Happy healing ❤️‍🩹

Xx em

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She says she should not have all those carbs.

She is not having dessert.

She chose the salad.

She did not have any bread.

They workout everyday.

They cut out all sugar.

…

Good for them not you 🫶🏼

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„Everything I loose, creates space for what I need“

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What does not challenge you,does not change you.

You need to leave your comfort zone to evolve and get better. 🫶🏼❤️‍🩹

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My younger self wanted to become a baker.

Not suffer from an ED.

For her I will continue to choose recovery every day no matter how hard it might get. Because she deserves to see her dreams come true. 🫶🏼