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Please, reblog! IIt’s called self defense. Apart from having here, in the US, one of the highest cases of homicide and rape in the world and high rate of GBV, think about how this could help your mother or sister
Traversing the Cosmic Interdimensional Multiversal Onion ::: To Do Edition ::: Written by Me
Utilize my Kundalini energy to incite, inspire, and activate my creativity and passion for life. Through that process find a new form of satisfaction without the need for or the regular experience of personal sexual release.
Engage in ceremony more often.
Work toward being able to physically, emotionally and mentally handle a true fast including from cannabis.
Open my heart and mind to the fae world again/more often.
Appreciate the one sexual/love connection I have and desire right now without being needy, overbearing or allowing it to consume me on any level ever. Work on attachment issues in general and practice transforming longing and loneliness into productivity and self improvement.
Read The Four Agreements and the Mastery of Love again.
Start Qigong.
Life activation.
Realize and accept that the right healing will come to me at the right time.
Practice patience.
Meditate on recent animal signs and totem dream.
Create the following: Water painting at the river Great mystery coloring book Poetry coloring book Flower of life story book with paintings
Plant seedlings, bury my hands in the soil. Take at least one herbalism course (foraging for food, herbal medicine/medicinal mushrooms). Spend more time in, around, and meditating on water and uplift through that connection.
Work more. Play more. Find ways to make work feel more like play.
Find a DBT specializing therapist.
Remember - everything is mother fucking connected. So amazingly soaringly mother fucking connected.
Practice opening my mind to intuition and rediscovering the language of magic. Listen more to the synchronicities and animal magic around me. Believe.
Practice acceptance.
Practice present moment awareness and appreciation.
Develop clarity, balance, and unity within and between my heart and mind. Listen with my heart more. Communicate freely, clearly, fully honestly and with my heart more. Develop more intimate non-sexual connections with people I love. Only nurture the sexual/love connections that are healthy and personally fulfilling. Respect and honor my body and what I have to offer in relationships.
Don’t sell myself short on my potential. Believe in myself more. Create more. Work through the resistance and trepidation I encounter during the creative process that often dampens my creative flame and productivity. Build new momentum.
Train again for performance arts. Practice my most treasured passion, dance. Believe in my body’s ability to transcend injury and illness and become healthy, strong, balanced, and capable of sustained high energy performance again. Practice and reinforce that belief by breaking through barriers and self imposed limitations and actively engaging in self care and physical activity/performance training daily.
There is so much god damned beauty. Appreciate the shit out of it.
Utilize mantras more often.
I will heal. I will overcome. I will open to the all of life. I am healing. I am overcoming. I am opening. I am transforming. I am learning so much. And I am so grateful for this journey.
Please upload you. Bush. Pussy n. Feet. Legs. Short video. 5 min clips here. I. Am your diehard fun. Really.
Not a chance :P Honestly, I feel like if you were truly my die-hard fan, you would have already purchased from me. I will likely upload some photos of my feet at some point when I feel like it, as I’ve been wanting to do that for a long time but to your requests about the other stuff. Nope. Requests like these are pretty insulting tbh. I work really hard at what I do as an ametuer porn artist and these kinds of requests devalue my work. If you want to see more than the vaaaast amount of bush, sexy hairies and pussy photos I already post for free, you have to pay for it. Simple and reasonable as can be. This is how I make a living and I will never give any of it away for free except for when I offer freebies to paying customers who regularly purchase from me which I do often because I love my customers.
I already give away thousands of sexy photos for free on my blogs. Please be grateful or go away. I would never send the epic, pornographic material I make to anyone online at all for free. That devalues the work I do tremendously. I wouldn’t even be making it if it weren’t for the fact that lots of people have asked me to time and time again and offer me payment. After a while, I decided to try doing it. I gave up a high paying job to try this out. It takes a lotttt of time and effort and energy to do what I do full time but my customers love and happily pay for what I offer them. It is worth the effort in the long run, but it wouldn’t be if I made a habit of giving my work away for free. Believe me, you aren’t the only one who has asked.
I hope the following examples will help you understand what it means to devalue a person’s work. You wouldn’t go to a plumber and be like “fix my pipes for free please.” You wouldn’t go to an appliance repairman and be like “fix my appliance for free.” You wouldn’t go to a professional house cleaner and be like “clean my house for free.” You wouldn’t go to the car wash and be like “wash my car for free.” You wouldn’t do these things even if you couldn’t afford to pay for them. Please don’t come to me (or any other sex worker for that matter) and ask for our services for free. I work hard to make and distribute the content I have available.
Please have respect for me and the work I do. Feel free to enjoy my free content as thoroughly as you wish, but if you want more, you’ll have to save up and pay for it just like everyone else. And if you do, please feel free to email me at [email protected] for content descriptions and purchasing instructions. I hope you understand. Many well wishes to you!
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IF YOU ARE IN THE US AND NEED HEALTH INSURANCE, PLEASE REMEMBER THAT THE HEALTHCARE.GOV MARKETPLACE (OBAMACARE/ACA) OPENS ENROLLMENT TODAY!
CALL THEM TO FIND OUT HOW THEY CAN HELP YOU!
YOU MAY BE ELIGIBLE FOR TAX CREDITS WHETHER YOU ARE WORKING, NOT WORKING, ETC. EVEN IF YOU HAVE INSURANCE THROUGH YOUR JOB, YOU MAY HAVE LESS EXPENSIVE OPTIONS THROUGH THE MARKETPLACE.
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Open enrollment ends December 15!
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Update Nov. 6:
Please keep reblogging this post! Open enrollment ends December 15 and I want to make sure everyone sees this who needs to.
Also, the phone number to call is 800.318.2596 and they are there 24/7.
Hi! I’m someone who used to work on the other end of that 800 number! I’m here to tell you that they can absolutely help you with any issue you’re having with the site. If you’re not comfortable filling out the application yourself for some reason? They can literally ask you all the questions, answer the questions you may have about some of them, and help you do the whole thing.
I want to be clear: you can call this 800 number and they will physically fill out your application for you with information you provide. They will walk you through the plans and premiums that you’re approved for, and can even enroll you in them, if that’s easier for you to do. Not everyone knows they can do that, and for some people that can be really really useful.
Most of the people who work there are underpaid but care a lot. Be kind, be patient, but know that they really are there to help you, and can do so with pretty much any of the process you find difficult or confusing. MAKE USE OF THE 800 NUMBER IF YOU NEED HELP. (after 9pm tends to have a much shorter wait time, btw)
Recipe tiiiime…
This is a recipe I invented that I make usually at least a couple times a month. It’s earthy and yummy and honestly one of my favorite foods.
Italian Meatball Soup
Ingredients:
~Mushroom stock, Imagine brand, one tetra pak ~Better than Bullion, chicken flavor ~Salt ~Tucson Italian Seasoning ~Sage ~Precooked, thawed meatballs (I get frozen all natural Italian meatballs that come prepackaged but you could make your own instead, I put them in whole but you could cut them if you want smaller pieces) ~Carrots ~Sweet potato (I use more sweet potato than carrots and sometimes I use sweet potato instead of carrots) ~Lottts of mushrooms ~Onions ~Beets ~Kale and/or spinach (I use a frozen organic kale/spinach blend) ~Garlic ~Precooked quinoa or brown rice (optional, I only add this occasionally if I want to bulk up the soup a bit more) ~I go pretty heavy on the veggies and meatballs, I think it works well as almost a stew so don’t be afraid to cut up a good amount of stuff..
Directions:
I love really, really flavorful food so when I make the broth for this soup, I use lots and lots of the Tuscon Italian seasoning and sage…like way more than you would think to use haha and I use lots of the bullion paste as well. I basically season the broth to taste as it heats up and throughout cooking. I add seasoning all the way until the end. After the broth starts simmering, I add first the carrots and garlic and then the sweet potato and beets and then the onions and mushrooms. After that simmers for a few minutes, I add the meatballs and let that cook until the veggies are kinda soft but still pretty firm. If I’m adding quinoa or rice, I would put that in now. Next I add a heaping pile of frozen kale/spinach and let it heat back up to a simmer. Turn the heat off and let it sit for a little bit to finish cooking and cool down some. I serve it with cornbread or by itself. I make lots of it and eat it over the course 4 days or so and it gets better over time. :)
Viola! Soup yums! :D
So I saw a post bringing awareness to bipolar disorder, and they had this image:
Why did they have to draw the fat person so… lumpy and gross looking? Was this really necessary? This really makes me uncomfortable. I don’t want to pick apart the post, but this is just gross. This isn’t what fat people look like, and there was no reason to draw us this way. -V
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<WARNING>>>>>>>>>>>>>> FATPHOBIA BUSTERS IS AN ANTI-FAT-ACCEPTANCE BLOG IN DISGUISE!!!!!!!! <<<<TRIGGER WARNING: extreme ableism, healthism, nazism>>>>
“ This isn’t what fat people look like, and there was no reason to draw us this way “
YES, MANY FAT PEOPLE ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE FORMLESS, LUMPY BLOBS OF FAT. AND THIS IS NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED ABOUT.
Just accepting one kind of fat people and not accepting another IS NAZISM. IT’S NAZISM AT IT’S WORST.
It’s just like those “plus size models” that are actually just bigger than the mainstream fashion industry standards, but are still “healthy” (as if there was such thing as objective health standards), in a totally ableist, healthist way of thinking.
Plus, assuming that bipolar disorder, just as any mental disorder, is something bad, is also healthist and ableist. Bipolar disorder should not be treated and there should not be any affort to find a cure, society has to change to accomodate people affected by bipolar disorder. People who complain about “suffering from bipolar disorder” are just expressing their interlalized healthism and ableism.
Um
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Like I call out people for not supporting all fat people all the time? We constantly reblog posts about how all fat people, no matter their size, shape, and weight, need to be included in fat acceptance and should be accepted 100%?
All I said was the drawing was unnecessary? How is that fatphobic?
I’m literally a lumpy fat person. Like… come on.
Just accepting one kind of fat people and not accepting another IS NAZISM. IT’S NAZISM AT IT’S WORST.
This is so antisemetic, holy shit. How the fuck do you get off saying that??? Don’t you dare compare anything to Nazism like that; that completely trivializes the experiences of Jewish people by making it seem less bad. Why the fuck would you think it’s okay to say this???
It’s just like those “plus size models” that are actually just bigger than the mainstream fashion industry standards, but are still “healthy” (as if there was such thing as objective health standards), in a totally ableist, healthist way of thinking.
Do you ever read our blog, or did you just see this one post and freak out? We call all this shit out all the time.
Plus, assuming that bipolar disorder, just as any mental disorder, is something bad, is also healthist and ableist. Bipolar disorder should not be treated and there should not be any affort to find a cure, society has to change to accomodate people affected by bipolar disorder. People who complain about “suffering from bipolar disorder” are just expressing their interlalized healthism and ableism.
None of us said anything about this…? I’m so confused on why you even made this comment?
-V
Can you maybe stop harassing us and stop being antisemitic, please???
Read our rules:
You are trivializing the experiences of Jewish people by comparing what was basically poor wording on my part to genocide, the Holocaust, Aryan pride movements, etc. Who the fuck do you think you are? That is absolutely not okay. Stop using Nazism as a rhetorical device to discredit us, because that is absolutely repulsive! Get the fuck away from us and stop doing things that would potentially trigger our Jewish followers and put them at risk!
You want to talk not caring about all fat people? You obviously don’t care about Jewish fat people, or else you wouldn’t be saying this shit. -V
WHOA WTactualF! There is obviously so much wrong with this but I want to address the part that wasn't really addressed by OP.
"Bipolar disorder should not be treated and there should not be any effort to find a cure, society has to change to accomodate people with bipolar disorder. People who complain about 'suffering from bipolar disorder' are just expressing their internalized healthism and ableism."
This person has also said this same thing about cancer. Part of me feels like this must be a troll blog because of these statements but if it isn't that this person actually believes this horrendous filth then seriously what the fukk. This is such a damaging perspective to have and shows that this person knows very little if anything about illness and particularly suicide in relation to illness. Having bipolar disorder SUCKS. I'm not saying that because I have internalized healthism and ableism. I say that because I have to live the reality every day and it is hard as fuck. Some days the only thing I can do is not die. Constant suicidal ideation is NOT just something I will ever accept. I have almost killed myself because of it. Depsite the fact that I love life otherwise from my illness and deeply want to live and live well. Spouting bullshit like this person has done is dangerous. Implying that people should just accept their illnesses and their fate to be sick and hurting the rest of their (possibly very short) lives is so incredibly wrong it hurts my head to think about. Basically damning numerous people to live in states of severe suffering with no relief until they die an untimely death. Horrible. How anyone could advocate for that is so far beyond me.
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bliss, ecstasy, elation, exaltation, glory, gratification, passion, pleasure, floating, unbridled joy Rigid - adamant, austere, definite, determined, exact, firm, hard, rigorous, solid, stern, uncompromising, unrelenting, unyielding, concrete, fixed, harsh, immovable, inflexible, obstinate, resolute, resolved, severe, steadfast, steady, stiff, strong, strict, stubborn, taut, tense, tight, tough, unbending, unchangeable, unwavering Sudden - abrupt, accelerated, acute, fast, flashing, fleeting, hasty, headlong, hurried, immediate, impetuous, impulsive, quick, quickening, rapid, rash, rushing, swift, brash, brisk, brusque, instant, instantaneous, out of the blue, reckless, rushed, sharp, spontaneous, urgent, without warning Thrust - (forward) advance, drive, forge, impetus, impulsion, lunge, momentum, onslaught, poke, pressure, prod, propulsion, punch, push, shove, power, proceed, progress, propel (push hard) assail, assault, attack, bear down, buck, drive, force, heave, impale, impel, jab, lunge, plunge, press, pound, prod, ram, shove, stab, transfix, urge, bang, burrow, cram, gouge, jam, pierce, punch, slam, spear, spike, stick Thunder-struck - amazed, astonished, aghast, astounded, awestruck, confounded, dazed, dazed, dismayed, overwhelmed, shocked, staggered, startled, stunned, gob-smacked, bewildered, dumbfounded, flabbergasted, horrified, incredulous, surprised, taken aback Torment - agony, anguish, hurt, misery, pain, punishment, suffering, afflict, angst, conflict, distress, grief, heartache, misfortune, nightmare, persecute, plague, sorrow, strife, tease, test, trial, tribulation, torture, turmoil, vex, woe Touch - (physical) - blow, brush, caress, collide, come together, contact, converge, crash, cuddle, embrace, feel, feel up, finger, fondle, frisk, glance, glide, graze, grope, handle, hit, hug, impact, join, junction, kiss, lick, line, manipulate, march, massage, meet, nudge, palm, partake, pat, paw, peck, pet, pinch, probe, push, reach, rub, scratch, skim, slide, smooth, strike, stroke, suck, sweep, tag, tap, taste, thumb, tickle, tip, touching, toy, bite, bump, burrow, buss, bury, circle, claw, clean, clutch, cover, creep, crush, cup, curl, delve, dig, drag, draw, ease, edge, fiddle with, flick, flit, fumble, grind, grip, grub, hold, huddle, knead, lap, lave, lay a hand on, maneuver, manhandle, mash, mold, muzzle, neck, nestle, nibble, nip, nuzzle, outline, play, polish, press, pull, rasp, ravish, ream, rim, run, scoop, scrabble, scrape, scrub, shave, shift, shunt, skate, slip, slither, smack, snake, snuggle, soothe, spank, splay, spread, squeeze, stretch, swipe, tangle, tease, thump, tongue, trace, trail, tunnel twiddle, twirl, twist, tug, work, wrap (mental) - communicate, examine, inspect, perception, scrutinize Wet - bathe, bleed, burst, cascade, course, cover, cream, damp, dampen, deluge, dip, douse, drench, dribble, drip, drizzle, drool, drop, drown, dunk, erupt, flood, flow, gush, immerse, issue, jet, leach, leak, moisten, ooze, overflow, permeate, plunge, pour, rain, rinse, run, salivate, saturate, secrete, seep, shower, shoot, slaver, slobber, slop, slosh, sluice, spill, soak, souse, spew, spit, splash, splatter, spout, spray, sprinkle, spurt, squirt, steep, stream, submerge, surge, swab, swamp, swill, swim, trickle, wash, water Wicked - abominable, amoral, atrocious, awful, base, barbarous, dangerous, debased, depraved, distressing, dreadful, evil, fearful, fiendish, fierce, foul, heartless, hazardous, heinous, immoral, indecent, intense, mean, nasty, naughty, nefarious, offensive, profane, scandalous, severe, shameful, shameless, sinful, terrible, unholy, vicious, vile, villainous, wayward, bad, criminal, cruel, deplorable, despicable, devious, ill-intentioned, impious, impish, iniquitous, irreverent, loathsome, Machiavellian, mad, malevolent, malicious, merciless, mischievous, monstrous, perverse, ruthless, spiteful, uncaring, unkind, unscrupulous, vindictive, virulent, wretched Writhe - agonize, bend, jerk, recoil, lurch, plunge, slither, squirm, struggle, suffer, thrash, thresh, twist, wiggle, wriggle, angle, arc, bow, buck, coil, contort, convulse, curl, curve, fidget, fight, flex, go into spasm, grind, heave, jiggle, jolt, kick, rear, reel, ripple, resist, roll, lash, lash out, screw up, shake, shift, slide, spasm, stir, strain, stretch, surge, swell, swivel, thrust, turn violently, tussle, twitch, undulate, warp, worm, wrench, wrestle, yank
//MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS - HERE IS THE ANSWER TO THE PROBLEM OF FINDING THAT RIGHT WORD!!!!!
I’ve reblogged it before, and I’ll reblog it again
Just need somewhere to store this for later
So…I have been struggling quite a bit since Christmas. I don’t really show the darker side of my life on here much except for on my health blog which I haven’t posted to in forever, but I found something out today, that kind of shocked and disturbed me, and I feel like sharing for a couple reasons. I have lost a lot of weight since Christmas. I knew I had lost weight but my weight has always fluctuated and I always lose weight when I’m stressed. I’ll lose or gain 5lbs from time to time and it is never an issue. Today, I found out that I have lost over 15 lbs in a little over two months. I did not want to nor was I trying to nor should I have been losing weight. I was at the most comfortable, healthiest weight I had ever been at before the end of December, which is around 130-135. I weigh 115lbs now which is the least I have weighed since I was in early high school. I look really small in my photos and in the mirror right now, and I have been struggling with that a bit. I feel more attractive and healthier when I weigh more. This weight doesn’t look or feel right to me. I didn’t lose this weight on purpose. I haven’t been able to afford enough food. I recently have been doing better with my health conditions and have been able to work more than I had been able to throughout the rest of the winter, so I’m making enough money to sustain my weight again thankfully. I’m pretty sure I have stopped losing weight. I don’t think I am able to eat enough to gain weight yet though. I have the fucking craziest metabolism, and it is so expensive to eat enough calories especially if I am being active at all. I also have a bunch of serious food sensitivities and become completely disabled quickly if I eat anything other than the very strict diet I have to be on. Food is difficult for me. And my special diet is so fucking expensive. I don’t like being this tiny. It like hurts to sit in chairs. I guess this is kind of to serve as a message to my fans that I’m not intentionally getting this small and I’m actively working to get myself out of a financial hole so I can afford to eat a bunch more calories and gain my weight back. I am also working with my partner to build a homestead farm which will eventually help tremendously with food costs, I just gotta be patient and get by until then. :) Someone recently commented that I look like I am possibly getting unhealthily small and my explicit stuff was hotter when I had a bit more weight. I usually reject this kind of body shaming, but they are right…I agree with them. I can’t help it. And I don’t feel great about it. I have always struggled keeping weight on, but it has never been this bad. So, I’m feeling pretty triggered by it unfortunately. I’m hoping that with spring weather, I will be even more on top of my game and turn this whole thing around so the next year of farm and medicine charity infrastructure building isn’t so filled with financial struggle and I’ll be able to eat enough again really soon. :)
Be Kind To Yourself!
The last Note To Self
[image description: drawing of a spider saying “it’s okay to be comfortable alone.” in a blue speech bubble.]
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Sensory processing disorder makes me feel like a petulant child. I really want to go visit my grandparents more. My grandfather has muscular dystrophy and they need help in order to keep him out of a nursing home. I am too worked up and too sensitive almost every day I have time to go see them. My grandmother is awesome but her voice triggers me a lot when I am feeling oversensitive and I have such a hard time sticking it out. It's so frustrating. I want to go visit them today but I don't feel like I can deal with it. :(
dear mentally ill people:
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for taking a shower
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for finally finishing that one homework assignment that’s been missing for weeks
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for going a few hours without wanting to die
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for going a few hours without thinking about your traumatic experiences
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for eating
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for raising your hand in class
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for not having to make your friend talk to the cashier for you
you are allowed to be proud of yourself for things that neurotypicals might find easy and/or insignificant
you are allowed to be proud of yourself because you are strong and you can do this and i love you
if you have anxiety or sensory issues
you might want to try this app called mynoise! there’s an free iphone app for it too! they offer:
many different types of soundscapes (rain, forest noises, chiming bells, white noise etc)
calibration that tailors to your personal hearing and compensate for environmental noise
volume adjustment of noises at different frequencies and it’s good for people who can’t take certain high pitched noises
it’s very calming and can help you to focus on studying or tuning out background noises in crowded/noisy areas
I'm going to a doctors appointment today and I'm exhausted and so fucking nervous. Trying not to let it snowball into anxiety. It's the first time I'm going to a doctors appointment by myself in I can't remember how long. I reeeeeeally don't want to go by myself. I feel inclined to cancel but it is an appointment with a specialist that I have been waiting to see for months about my sinuses which are the number one problem in my life right now and baaaaaaadly fucking absolutely everything up all the time because the cause me chronic lack of sleep which makes me literally go insane. Ughhhhhhhh I wish I could just be completely healthy so I wouldn't have to subject myself to things that trigger my anxiety all the fucking time.