Under the same Sky we share,my words bleed for you

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I'm falling in love for the second time. With the maturity and perspective I've gained over the years, I never thought my heart would open itself to someone again.

But love arrived unannounced, as if it had quietly memorized every empty corner of my soul. And when his heart met mine, two lonely rhythms became one beautiful melody, playing softly between us.

And yet, this love was never meant to be. No matter how deeply we both love each other, some distances cannot be crossed, and I already belong to someone else.

I don't know how long the two of us will have to struggle to hold on to our sanity.

This isn't a Romeo and Juliet love story. It's the kind of love people think only exists in stories, yet somehow it found us.

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You have to trust me that my heart is always for you..

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Tuhan... aku ingin pulang.....

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I think I should step back from the internet for a while. I just wanted to make friends from around the world because it's so much fun. But I think I may have made a mistake.

Some people tell me they love me, and I don't really know how to respond. One person even said he wanted to live with me someday. I laughed because I thought he was joking, but then he said, "This is a du'a, you can't laugh at it like that." I apologized afterward.

Another person told me that I was beautiful and that he had fallen in love with me.

Honestly, all of this makes me feel guilty and confused. 🥺

I only love n...

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I miss you N.. 😭

I think I couldn't take this anymore

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Okay, I'll give you some space. I feel like I've been bothering you a lot lately. So sorry... I meant it. I'll step back. 🥺

I'll go back to focusing on what I'm doing right now. Honestly, Nate, you're my distraction, my favorite distraction, though. I miss you!!❤️😭

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True love means letting go. Aah that's so silly.

Nah, I won't let him go

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He used to put me down in front of the children, and all I could do was cry because I couldn't stand up to him.

He treated me as if I were nothing more than a product he could buy. And when he grew tired of me, he threw me away like trash. Yeah, that's true...

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Ooh nate.... ❤‍🩹😭

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Aku gagal lagi. Mungkin memang tidak seharusnya aku mengejar sesuatu yang sudah bukan menjadi hakku.

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Maybe I really am just a dreamer, or perhaps something even worse than that.

Maybe I’m like a hero who arrived too late, forgetting that time has already moved on.

Maybe I’m like someone who’s already too old to still want so many impossible things, yet keeps dreaming anyway. 🥺😢

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All I need is... you.

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Today is the day. But I give all my trust to Allah.

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Aku kangen kamuuuuu.... 😭. Do you think longing can quietly kill someone?

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I would never ever be able to forget you. And I think I know that you realised what you've done to me.

Ooh Nate.. "Estoy loca por ti" 🥹

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Nate...... aku lelah..... 🥺

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I remember every conversation we had, from the very beginning when we first met until the very last moment we said “goodbye” to each other with trembling voices and tears we tried so hard to hold back. I also remember the moments when we laughed together, joked around, and shared such an intimate closeness. You probably still remember those moments when I was upset with you, and you pretended to understand me and gave in to me, while deep down you wanted me so badly.

Somehow, I remember things too easily. Maybe because I’m used to memorizing my scriptures, or maybe it’s simply a gift I’ve had since I was little remembering almost everything so deeply. It’s helpful in many ways, but also painful when I desperately want to forget something.

Instead of fading away, the memories of us only grow stronger and deeper in my mind. Ah, you... N...I still want you, you know that exactly. 🥺