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Debbie Harry

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Lita Ford and Tony iommi?

Ford’s rock life came full circle when she got to open for Black Sabbath, and spent time after with her idol, Iommi. “He seemed so charming, confident and handsome,” she writes. “I would later find out that looks are deceiving.”

Lita Ford photo 5They “fooled around a bit” that night, but “that’s as far as he was able to get because he was so high,” she writes, having noted the copious amounts of cocaine present.

“He was impotent from his constant drug use, and he was very embarrassed. I felt bad for him and didn’t really know what to do. Eventually, I got him off.”

They stayed in touch, the relationship progressed and she was thrilled when Iommi invited her to England to meet his “mum.”

The couple were on the plane, and as soon as it started moving, Iommi, “out of nowhere . . . hauled off and punched me in the eye.”

She was now stranded on a 10-hour flight with a man who had just mysteriously transitioned from lover to abuser, and spent the entire 10 hours in the flight attendants’ station. She planned to fly right back to LA when they landed, but Iommi acted like nothing had happened, and she decided to stay, she writes, “like a moron.”

Iommi’s mother saw her black eye, and Ford learned that abuse ran in the family, as the guitarist’s father used to do the same.

She and Iommi were eventually engaged, and he would go on to physically abuse her four or five times during their relationship. The worst came shortly after he gave her the ring.

Lita Ford photo 4“After snorting tons of blow, he got angry and choked me unconscious,” she writes. “When I woke up, I saw him holding a chair above my head. It was a big, heavy leather chair with studs around the arms, and he was about to smash it over my face. I rolled over, and luckily I moved fast enough that he missed me and the chair smashed into the ground.”

She ran outside and thought of the safest place she could go. Eliminating her parents’ house, since her fathered would have “murdered” Iommi, she drove to the home of ex-boyfriend Nikki Sixx from ­Mötley Crüe.

Sixx told her, “I’ll be right back. I have something that will help make you feel better.” He drove, Ford writes, to the home of Ratt guitarist Robbin Crosby, and returned with heroin. While not her drug, Sixx told her it would take the pain away. She snorted some and fell asleep.

She broke with Iommi — who, in a final indignity, recruited her band to work with him instead behind her back — but he wouldn’t be the worst she would face.

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11 Reasons Why Iron Maiden’s Bruce Dickinson Is The Chuck Norris Of Heavy Metal

The Book Of Souls has been opened. It’s T-minus three weeks and counting until heavy metal lords Iron Maiden touch down upon our shores in a fully-repaired Ed Force One jet, kicking off the Aussie leg of their absolutely gargantuan world album tour.

And if you’re a Maiden fan, then you probably understand why this means we should all be preparing to fall upon our knees and beg for the great Bruce Dickinson to spare our lives and bless our crops as he descends from the skies to grace us with his immortal presence (and more cowbell).

Non-Maiden devotees, however, may not have the same innate survival instinct.

So allow us to very possibly save your life.

Bruce Dickinson is the Chuck Norris of heavy metal. In fact, he is the only person in the world that Chuck Norris has reason to fear.

Because Bruce Dickinson is not just the frontman of the most kickass heavy metal band of all time. He’s also…

1. A Commercial Pilot & Marketing Director

Most Maiden fans know that Bruce Dickinson is a fully licensed airline pilot. He regularly flew Boeing 757s in his role as a captain for the now-defunct UK charter airline Astraeus, which also employed him as their Marketing Director for two years.

But did you know that Bruce Dickinson has also been in the cockpit for multiple high profile military and commercial voyages, including the time he returned a group of British RAF pilots home from Afghanistan in 2008, 200 UK citizens home from Lebanon during the Israel/Hezbollah conflict in 2006, and 180 stranded holiday makers home from Egypt following the collapse of XL Airways in September of 2008?

Bruce Dickinson’s fearsome aeronautical skills were also called upon to fly football giants Rangers F.C. and Liverpool F.C. to away matches in Israel and Italy during the same time period.

If you’re lucky, you can currently catch Bruce Dickinson piloting Iron Maiden’s official Boeing 747 jumbo Ed Force One jet and flying his band around the world on their Book Of Souls tour.

2. An Endangered Turtle Rescuer

Bruce Dickinson was recently involved in a noble mission to fly a sick, endangered turtle named Terri from New Jersey all the way back to his home on the Canary Islands. Bruce Dickinson volunteered his private jet for the task, and though it is not yet known whether Bruce Dickinson piloted the aircraft himself, of course he did.

3. An Actual Doctor

As well as graduating university with a degree in history, Bruce Dickinson was awarded an honorary doctorate of music by London’s Queen Mary College in 2011.

4. An Olympic-Level Fencer

In 1989, Bruce Dickinson was ranked seventh in all of Great Britain. Legend has it that Bruce Dickinson was even invited to join the British Olympic team, but declined due to Iron Maiden’s touring commitments.

There are also rumours that Bruce Dickinson once challenged Superman to a sword fight and the loser had to wear his underwear on the outside.

5. A Military Veteran

Bruce Dickinson proved that he is not afraid to fight for what’s right, spending a short amount of time serving in the Territorial Army, a part-time voluntary section of the British Armed forces, prior to his university studies and achievement of global domination via heavy metal.

6. An Accomplished Screenwriter

Bruce Dickinson co-authored the script for the 2008 film Chemical Wedding about infamous alchemist and satanist Aleister Crowley.

7. A Radio DJ

Bruce Dickinson presented Bruce Dickinson’s Friday Rock Show on BBC radio for eight years straight between 2002 and 2010. When the station axed the show, Bruce Dickinson hit them with a very public “Fuck you” by blasting the Johnny Paycheck version of Take This Job and Shove It live on air during his final episode.

8. An Ale Brewer

Bruce Dickinson worked alongside England’s Robinson’s brewery in 2013 to formulate Maiden’s signature The Trooper ale, whose sheer potency makes it virtually un-neckable.

Bruce Dickinson wants to develop more beers in the future which may or may not be carbonated with nitroglycerin.

9. A Tank Owner

Bruce Dickinson is the proud owner of a T34 Soviet tank, meaning he now makes as much noise on the road as he does on stage.

10. Beaten Cancer

Bruce Dickinson beat the shit out of his tongue-cancer diagnosis last year, which he apparently contracted in the first place from eating too much Maiden IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

11. And All This After Getting Expelled From Boarding School

Bruce Dickinson got kicked out after taking a piss in his headmaster’s soup (totally legit).

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Vince and sharise neil 🤘

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Lori Mattix (sometimes known as Lori Maddox) was born in Los Angeles in 1958. When she was 13, Lori made her entry into the rock n roll scene with Sable Starr. They were regulars at the Rainbow Bar & Grill, Rodney’s English Disco, the Continental Hyatt House (the notorious “Riot House”), and the Whisky A Go Go.

Lori Mattix became a teen model for several magazines including the Star magazine, the most popular of the time. Lori’s petite frame, large brown eyes and masses of chestnut curls drew her many admirers. It was reported that she lost her virginity to David and Angie Bowie at 13.

When a photo of her was shown to Jimmy Page, he quickly became infatuated with her. He was still dating Miss Pamela of the GTO’s (later Pamela Des Barres) during this time, but when he was in LA in 1972 on the Zeppelin tour Jimmy Page went after Lori Mattix.

Lori avoided Jimmy Page’s advances several times. She admitted that she was frightened of him. Finally Led Zeppelin’s tour manager “kidnapped” her and brought her to Jimmy’s room at the Hyatt.

In an interview for the Hammer of the Gods, a biography of Led Zeppelin, Lori Mattix said that the room “was dimly lit by candles… and Jimmy was just sitting there in a corner, wearing this hat slouched over his eyes and holding a cane. It was really mysterious and weird… He looked just like a gangster. It was magnificent.”

The love affair of Jimmy Page and Lori Mattix started that night. It was kept secret since she was only 14 and Jimmy was still dating Pamela. His relationship with Pamela ended dramatically when he took her to a party for the band but left with Lori.

Accounts during this time said that Jimmy and Lori were very much in love and for the next year and a half she traveled often with the Led Zeppelin band. But when Lori turned 16 he left her for Bebe Buell, the Playmate who had recently been living with Todd Rundgren.

Bebe was Jimmy’s date for the Swan Song soiree, which Lori found incredibly upsetting since she was still in love with him.

Out of her mind on Quaaludes, she stumbled around the party, bloodying her nose and soaking her white gown in blood. When Bebe and Jimmy were leaving the party, she cornered them, screaming at Jimmy, “Why are you doing this to me?” but he ignored her and went to the Rainbow Room where he had a huge fight with Bebe over his cruelty to Lori.

Lori went to the Hyatt the next day where she found Jimmy and Bebe in bed together. She fled but came back later and knocked on the door. When Bebe opened the door with the chain on it, Lori reached through, grabbing Bebe’s hair and trying to drag her out.

Jimmy watched his former and current girlfriends fight it out from the safety of his room, laughing hysterically.

Lori drifted out of the groupie scene and briefly got back together with Jimmy in the early 1980s. She supposedly never got over the pain of their first breakup but has gone on to a stable career as a buyer in LA and has a son.

Just like Sable, Lori’s style was an amalgamation of trash and full-on glamour. Often wearing hot pants with halter tops made from long, thin scarves that barely covered her pre-pubescent breasts, Lori was just as likely to wear a vintage 1940s satin gown with a mink stole.

Even in her trashiest outfits, her huge smile lights up the snapshots and she never appears as cheap as Sable sometimes did. More openly romantic than her good friend, it isn’t hard to see how she was so deeply affected by the events of her teenage years.

After drifting out of the groupie scene, Lori Mattix held a series of jobs. She worked as a buyer and manager at a fashion boutique in Los Angeles. Lori occasionally gives interviews where she talks about her groupie days, especially her relationship with Jimmy Page.

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Wendy o Williams

While she never earned the critical acclaim of artists like Patti Smith, Siouxsie Sioux, or Exene Cervenka, for many Wendy O. Williams was the first female face of punk rock. As the lead singer of the Plasmatics, Williams proved a woman could dish out on-stage mayhem as well as any man -- hoisting a chainsaw or a sledgehammer, Williams routinely destroyed guitars, smashed televisions, blew up automobiles, and generally left a trail of destruction in her wake. Williams also blended sex with anarchy, often appearing on stage stripped to the waist with shaving cream or electrical tape covering her nipples as a towering Mohawk bloomed from her scalp, creating a vision of a wildly empowered outlaw woman whose echoes would be felt in music and culture long after the Plasmatics called it quits.

Wendy Orlean Williams was born on May 28, 1949, in Rochester, New York. Williams' parents were strict and straight-laced, and her earliest exposure to performing came from taking tap-dancing lessons and appearing in the Peanut Gallery on The Howdy Doody Show at age seven. After completing ninth grade, Williams let her independent side take over; she quit school and traveled through Europe and the United States, taking odd jobs to support herself along the way. In 1976, Williams arrived in New York City and met Rod Swenson, a Dada-influenced performance artist who was running an experimental erotic theater in Times Square as "Captain Kink." Williams became a performer in Swenson's shows and as he grew interested in the punk rock scene exploding in Manhattan and on the Bowery, they decided to form a rock band with Williams as lead singer. The band became the Plasmatics, who made their debut at CBGB in 1978; merging the simplicity of punk and the guitar attack of heavy metal, the Plasmatics were best known for the over the top destructive impact of their stage show as well as their forceful anti-authoritarian message.

New Hope for the Wretched By 1980, the Plasmatics had become a major draw in New York and were developing an international reputation after they signed a deal with Stiff Records and released their first album, New Hope for the Wretched. In early 1981, Williams made headlines when she was arrested following a show in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, where police charged her with obscenity for miming masturbation on-stage using a sledgehammer. Following her arrest, Williams was beaten by the arresting officers (who claimed she attacked them), and her mug shot showed her bruised and battered. Several days later, Williams was arrested on similar charges in Cleveland, Ohio, though the police handled her more gently; she was cleared of all charges in both cities, though her lawsuit against the Milwaukee police for battery was unsuccessful.

Beyond the Valley of 1984 The publicity regarding Williams' legal problems had the unexpected consequence of raising her public profile considerably, and the Plasmatics found themselves making regular appearances on American television shows such as Fridays, SCTV, and Tomorrow, hardly common for an American punk band at the time. The year 1981 also saw the release of two Plasmatics records, the album Beyond the Valley of 1984 and the EP Metal Priestess, which put the group's metal influences into focus. Williams and the group continued to follow their new hard rock direction on their first major-label album, 1982's Coup d'Etat; that same year, Williams collaborated with Lemmy Kilmister of Motörhead on a duet single, covering the Tammy Wynette hit "Stand by Your Man."

W.O.W. After the commercial disappointment of Coup d'Etat, Williams and Swenson opted to make a Wendy O. Williams solo album for an independent label, and 1984's WOW featured several members of the band along with producer Gene Simmons. While the album earned Williams a Grammy nomination for Best Female Rock Vocal Performance, it failed to break Williams into the mainstream as a solo act, and her 1986 follow-up, Kommander of Kaos, fared little better. That same year, Williams took a stab at acting, appearing in the tongue-in-cheek exploitation film Reform School Girls, though Williams previously made a memorable appearance in Candy Goes to Hollywood, an X-rated feature released in 1979. The Plasmatics returned in 1987 with a sci-fi concept album, Maggots: The Record, but it proved to be the group's last hurrah, and after recording a rap album, Deffest! and Baddest! under the name Ultrafly and the Hometown Girls, Williams opted to leave the music business.

Put Your Love in Me: Love Songs for the Apocalypse While she made a few acting appearances -- including a role in the independent film Pucker Up and Bark Like a Dog and a guest shot on an episode of McGyver -- for the most part Williams and Swenson lived quietly in Storrs, Connecticut, and Williams devoted her energies to animal rehabilitation and promoting vegetarianism. On April 6, 1998, Williams, who according to Swenson had been suffering from a deep depression, committed suicide, shooting herself in the head in a wooded area not far from her home.

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urs of Oct. 12, 1978, residents of the Chelsea Hotel in Manhattan heard sounds coming from the room of Sex Pistols’ guitarist Sid Vicious. Given the clientele at the Chelsea Hotel in the 70s, screams, moans, and cries were hardly unusual. These cries, however, were out of the ordinary, which the hotel’s residents would realize the next morning when the body of Nancy Spungen was rolled out of the hotel in a body bag.

Before her untimely demise, Nancy Spungen was a pretty, 17-year-old girl from Philadelphia who had just moved to the big city. She was also a groupie and a hardcore partier in the punk music scene.

“She was blatantly honest about it: She bought drugs for the bands,” said photographer Eileen Polk, who knew Spungen in the 70’s. “In order to be a groupie you had to be tall and skinny and have fashionable clothes… And then here comes Nancy. She’s not trying to be cute or charming. She wasn’t telling people she was a model or a dancer. She had mousy brown hair and she was a bit overweight. She basically said ‘Yeah, I’m a prostitute and I don’t care.'”

Nancy Spungen was abrasive, a trait which had caused her trouble since she was a child when she was expelled from school for her mouth. Eventually, she graduated from a boarding school at just 16 and attempted higher education. After briefly attending college in Colorado, she decided schooling wasn’t for her and moved to New York.

While most of her fellow groupies were turned off by her crass exterior, Spungen didn’t care. She followed Johnny Thunders and Jerry Nolan of the Heartbreakers around New York and eventually to London. There, she began following around a newer band, known as the Sex Pistols, especially taking an interest in their bassist John Simon Ritchie — better known as Sid Vicious.

Unlike the rest of the band, who were so opposed to her they banned her from their tour, Sid Vicious found Spungen’s abrasive attitude captivating. When the two met in 1976, he instantly took a shining to her despite her reputation as a junkie and a troublemaker. From then on, the two were inseparable.

“Nancy…taught Sid all about sex and drugs and the lifestyle of a New York rocker,” Sex Pistols manager Malcom McLaren said. Though, truly, Vicious needed little education.

Even before meeting Nancy Spungen, Sid Vicious was a mess. The band wasn’t shy about making it known that his addiction hindered the group and that it even interrupted several of their gigs. His relationship with Spungen, if anything, exacerbated his problems. Eventually, in January of 1978, the Sex Pistols broke up, citing Vicious’ addiction and by proxy, his relationship with Spungen as one of the main reasons.

In August of the same year, Sid Vicious and Nancy Spungen moved into the Chelsea Hotel. The Chelsea Hotel was famous among artists and musicians. Figures like Bob Dylan, Janis Joplin, Iggy Pop and Jimi Hendrix had all called it home at one point, along with painters like Jackson Pollack and Andy Warhol.

For two months the famous hotel was the couple’s hideaway, a place for them to get high and escape from the world, which they did for days and sometimes weeks at a time. Friends of the couple were worried, fearing that their drug addictions would eventually get the best of them. Then on the early hours of October 12, they did.

On the night of October 11, several friends of Vicious’ were in the couple’s hotel room and watched the bassist take copious amounts of drugs.

“Several visitors to the room saw Sid take as many as many as 30 tablets of Tuinal – a far larger dose of the barbiturate than most of us could survive, and one certain to put nearly anyone into a deep state of unconsciousness for hours, and he remained comatose for through the morning’s early hours,” wrote author Sherill Tippins in her book on the Chelsea Hotel’s most infamous residents, Inside the Dream Palace: The Life and Times of New York’s Legendary Chelsea Hotel.

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The story of the time Janis Joplin knocked out Jim Morrison

You probably know that Janis Joplin was known for standing up for herself and she didn't take crap from anyone, especially not Jim Morrison.

Janis and Jim met at a party after being thrown together by producer Paul Rothschild, they were immediately attracted.

Fascinated by each other, the drinks kept pouring and as the night went on Janis continued to drink and so did Jim.

According to Rothschild Jim became “a cretin, a disgusting drunk” and in turn became rude, violent and generally unpleasant to be around.

Janis was completely put off by Jim by this point and shot him down at every turn before eventually trying to leave with Rothschild.

She nearly got away before Jim quickly followed her to her car and reached in, grabbing Janis by her hair in an attempt to pull her out.

In quick thinking Janis grabbed her bottle of Southern Comfort and hit him over the head with it which immediately knocked the Doors frontman out cold.

Usually this would be the end of things but after that Jim was absolutely smitten with Janis, begging Paul Rothschild to give him her phone number.

“I had to say, ‘Jim, Janis doesn’t think it would be a good idea for you two to get together again.’ And they never did. He was crushed,” Rothschild said.

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JOAN JETT: Why THE RUNAWAYS Broke Up

During a recent appearance on METALLICA drummer Lars Ulrich's "It's Electric!" online radio show on Apple Music's Beats 1, Joan Jett spoke about the breakup of iconic rockers THE RUNAWAYS. The first true girl band of the 1970s, THE RUNAWAYS — which also featured Lita Ford, Cherie Currie, Jackie Fox and Sandy West — toured internationally and made a dent in the charts before calling it quits at the end of that decade.

"I think really after Cherie left, after Japan, we made another what I thought was a really good album called 'Waitin' For The Night'," Joan recalled. "I just think it was a natural progression. I think as we each grew up and were figuring out more who we were as musicians, and really the kind of music we wanted to play, it started to diverge a little bit."

She continued: "I was definitely more a straight-up punk rock, rock and roll thing. But you know, I'm fine with hard music. It's just that I think Lita and Sandy wanted to go in that direction much more than I did. And the producer we were working with at the time, his name was John Alcock. I forget what his credits are, but he had worked with some hard bands, some heavy bands, I believe. And I think he was sort of perpetuating it, egging it on a little bit. But I don't know that."

Joan added: "I just thought, 'I've got a bad feeling. I don't wanna get fired from a band that I started.' We made one more album, called 'And Now... The Runaways'. But we just decided to sort of part ways. I'm sure none of us wanted to... We all got along fine, so there wasn't anything like that. It was not a personality thing. We just grew in different directions. I just thought, 'I don't wanna get fired from a band I started. Let's just part ways.' We had one last show, New Year's Eve '78 into '79. It was in California. Either San Francisco or L.A. I think we had decided that was going to be it. But I'm not positive about that. If we didn't, energetically we all knew that was it."

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C.C. Deville Vs Bret Michaels

The Backstory: Shocker: another altercation that happened at The Video Music Awards. During the height of Poison’s glam metal reign, lead singer Bret Michaels and guitarist C.C. Deville (B.F.F’s) each plunged into a spiral of debaucherous drug use. The addictions came to a climax at the VMAs when neither could remember what song was supposed to be played. Both men dove into different chart toppers, and the resulting performance can only be termed a complete disaster. As Poison exited stage left, bitter words turned into punches and the two former friends beat the living shit out of each other.

The incident led to a lengthy hiatus for lead guitarist C.C. Deville, but thankfully, he and Michaels are once again good friends. It’s way more enjoyable to watch two close buddies duke it out than strangers. There’s just so much pent-up frustration and hatred that usually boils over, causing a skirmish free of rules and full of eye gouges.

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Dude looks like a lady?

"So the story was that they had gone to a bar wherever they lived, south of Boston on the shore," Child told the show. "And at the end of the bar was this gorgeous, platinum mullet with the curvy waist and white skin and black nails. They just saw the back of her. And so they were there with their crew and they were drawing straws like, 'Who's gonna go up and say something?'"

Child continued: "So all of the sudden she turns around and it's Vince Neil of Mötley Crüe! And they were like, 'Oh my God! Oh s**t! Oh my god!' Then Steven immediately starts saying, 'That dude looks like a lady! Dude looks like a lady? Dude looks like a lady!' And boom, the riff was born."

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Squad goals 🖤

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Ozzy Osbourne Snorts Ants

Black-Sabbath Ozzy Osbourne is one of the most controversial figures in the history of music. He has sold over 100 million albums and helped popularize the genre of heavy metal. Ozzy has been addicted to drugs for most of his life and experimented with a wide variety of substances. During his career, Osbourne has been involved with two separate incidents in which he bit the head of an animal. In 1981, after signing his first solo record deal, Osbourne bit the head off a dove. In 1982, he bit the head off a bat that he thought was plastic while performing in Des Moines, Iowa. After decapitating the bat Ozzy had to be treated for rabies. In 1982, Ozzy Osbourne got drunk and urinated on a cenotaph erected in honor of those who died at the Alamo in Texas. He was arrested for the act and banned from the city of San Antonio for a decade. In 1984, Ozzy joined Mötley Crüe on the road and the tour has been called one of the “craziest drug- and alcohol-fueled tours in the history of rock and roll.” During their time in hotel rooms, Ozzy and Nikki Sixx of Mötley Crüe underwent a competition to see who could be the most extreme. After Sixx set himself on fire, Osbourne responded by snorting a line of ants off the pavement. After he snorted them up, some of the ants came out his mouth. The event was highlighted in a book written by Sharon Osbourne. Many accounts say that the ants were fire ants, but this is not confirmed.

#ozzyosbourne #blacksabbath #70s

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35 Years Ago: Metallica Fires Dave Mustaine

35 years ago two things happened that changed the direction of Metallica forever:

Dave Mustaine was fired

Mustaine was Metallica's lead guitarist since the beginning. It was just him, James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich and Cliff Burton. They were young, loud, rambunctious, and full of energy, but never acted on any ill-will. Even in their wild, booze-filled party days, they were never spiteful. That is of course except for Mustaine, who had built up a reputation of becoming unstable and unhinged after he knocked back a few.

Mustaine admitted that he got drunk, we would become violent and confrontational. A major factor that lead to his departure from the band.

His end with Metallica finally came on April 11, 1983 at 9AM when James, Lars and Cliff woke him up in a drunken stupor and told him that he was out of the band, and Kirk Hammett was hired as their new lead guitarist without Mustaine's knowledge.

To make the situation worse, Mustaine was under the assumption that he would be flying back to California. He wasn't. They booked him on a four-day bus ride that was scheduled to leave one hour after he found out he was out of the band. He struggled to get all of his things together, Hetfield drove him to 42nd Street and Eighth Ave in Manhattan, NY, and then that was it.

It's fair to assume that Mustaine was livid. He had just been abruptly kicked out of Metallica and is getting sent home on a bus while they're about to record one of their most successful albums, Kill 'Em All without him. Fuming with anger on the bus, Mustaine started to write lyrics on the back of a flyer from Sen. Alan Cranston, which had a message on stockpiling nuclear weapons that read, "The arsenal of megadeath can't be rid." From there, Mustaine found the name of his new band: Megadeth.

Even 34 years after getting fired and accepting the series of events that followed, he still felt that he could have at least got a sign or a warning from his bandmates ahead of time.