salutations, a fancy way to say hello

i call everything bitch because im such a little one; nsfw; hamilton rp account; send an ask or pm || muses: GWash, TJeffs, ABurr [header & icon by terror-in-the-dream]

[heckagay-blog]

[[You're a fucked up piece of shit. Nothing gives you the right to deadname and misgender anyone, especially not my friend. Fuck off.]]

lmao i didnt deadname or misgender anywone sweetheart

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irma is so fucking gay smh i was locked outside with my little sister for so long earlier

[wafflehousegothic]

for those of u with shitty dads i just want to let u kno that im ur father now. "but you're a teenage girl" u say. that doesn't matter. now let's go outside on the deck and grill u up a football, sport. i'm proud of u

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lol why is my askbox filled with shit about that cuck miles,, who is she dont know her lmao

[impassivegeneral-deactivated201]

I hope you know Alex has been sharing this account with me and he hardly gets on, so it’s mostly me and I can see what shit you’re posting about me :)) Also, thank you for the exposure of my birthname. Glad I can trust someone who used to say I was like his little brother.

[heckagay-blog]

shit dog this is why i fucking hate you and i always have yer too fucking sensitive and emotional grow the fuck up why dont you and im not being transphobic because you arent transgender

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lol why is my askbox filled with shit about that cuck miles,, who is she dont know her lmao

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whats up fuckers im somehow still alive

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander awed and kneeled down to them. “How about you come help me make them, yeah? That way everyone gets what they want,” he suggested with a bright smile. “And you can tell me any embarassing things you know about John! Wouldn’t that be fun?”

[amateurhamrps]

They nodded and ran off to make their preferred sandwiches with him. A lankier girl to the side, one of the oldest, giggled about the time John came around for a nice little swimming trip when she was younger, and he got his trunks pulled down at the public pool and everyone laughed.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander laughed as he sat them down at the table with their sandwiches and cups of juice. “Aww. Poor baby,” he teased, looking at John in the other room. “I’m going to go check on him really quick. Don’t spill anything.” He made his way over and sat next to John, wrapping an arm around him. “Hey, Sweetheart, look at me,” he cooed gently. “You doing okay still? Hungry? Thirsty?”

[amateurhamrps]

John blinked- he’d either been daydreaming hard or dissociating a bit. “me? ..thirsty.. ribs and my tummy hurt a little bit of a lot of a bit..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander got John a glass of water and helped him drink it slowly. “Do you wanna go lie down in bed, John? Maybe you’ll feel better after a nap. If not I’m taking you to the hospital, okay? Please?” He kissed his cheek and smiled over at his mother. “I’m sure your mama would be more thsn happy to join you for some comfort and support.”

[amateurhamrps]

“wanna have a nap, papi,” He murmured softly, grabbing at Alex’s shirt with one hand and sipping his water with the other. He let Alexander help him to bed, of course, falling asleep in all of two minutes once he was curled up under the blankets.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander kissed his cheek and tucked him in. He gave John a small hug before heading back out to sit with his mother and siblings. He smiled as he spoke with them, honestly having a wonderful time meeting and getting to know his boyfriend’s family. Eleanor was nothing less than what John had described, probably greater than that.

[amateurhamrps]

Eleanor was a charming woman, and she adored Alexander and of course her own children, excited for her newest grandchild to arrive already.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander was just as excited, practically bouncing when he talked to her about it. He also told her about Eliza and the children belonging to her. “Phillip is the only one that doesn’t really resent me. He looks up to John like a second dad. He refuses to get his hair cut ‘cause John has long curly hair just like him. It’s really sweet. Would you like to see a picture of him?”

[amateurhamrps]

She nodded back excitedly. “Yes sir, is love to! I’m sure he’s a gorgeous boy! I want to see..” She was just so excited, always. Lovely woman.

[heckagay-blog]

He chuckled and got his phone, pulling up a picture of Phillip on John's shoulders. He handed it over to Eleanor. "He's like a John Jr. If John says he likes something, Phillip has to like it. If John says he doesn't like something, Pip doesn't like it even if he did before he knew. I'm not sure what makes him see John as his idol, but it's adorable and I love it."

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PSA

Just to clear something up, hi, I'm Ryan. I'm still here. I just never interact with anyone. Alex and Milo do that. -And, no, that's not the Miles that used to be my best friend. He and I are not on good terms whatsoever. Infact, I hate him. So, just to clarify: I do not know what he is up to, where he is, if he's still on tumblr, etc. Right after he and his boyfriend broke up we had a fight about him being a distant asshole. Ask for more details if you want idgaf, i'll spill all the tea.

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Send me 👶 where my muse has been turned into a child

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[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander awed and kneeled down to them. “How about you come help me make them, yeah? That way everyone gets what they want,” he suggested with a bright smile. “And you can tell me any embarassing things you know about John! Wouldn’t that be fun?”

[amateurhamrps]

They nodded and ran off to make their preferred sandwiches with him. A lankier girl to the side, one of the oldest, giggled about the time John came around for a nice little swimming trip when she was younger, and he got his trunks pulled down at the public pool and everyone laughed.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander laughed as he sat them down at the table with their sandwiches and cups of juice. “Aww. Poor baby,” he teased, looking at John in the other room. “I’m going to go check on him really quick. Don’t spill anything.” He made his way over and sat next to John, wrapping an arm around him. “Hey, Sweetheart, look at me,” he cooed gently. “You doing okay still? Hungry? Thirsty?”

[amateurhamrps]

John blinked- he’d either been daydreaming hard or dissociating a bit. “me? ..thirsty.. ribs and my tummy hurt a little bit of a lot of a bit..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander got John a glass of water and helped him drink it slowly. “Do you wanna go lie down in bed, John? Maybe you’ll feel better after a nap. If not I’m taking you to the hospital, okay? Please?” He kissed his cheek and smiled over at his mother. “I’m sure your mama would be more thsn happy to join you for some comfort and support.”

[amateurhamrps]

“wanna have a nap, papi,” He murmured softly, grabbing at Alex’s shirt with one hand and sipping his water with the other. He let Alexander help him to bed, of course, falling asleep in all of two minutes once he was curled up under the blankets.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander kissed his cheek and tucked him in. He gave John a small hug before heading back out to sit with his mother and siblings. He smiled as he spoke with them, honestly having a wonderful time meeting and getting to know his boyfriend’s family. Eleanor was nothing less than what John had described, probably greater than that.

[amateurhamrps]

Eleanor was a charming woman, and she adored Alexander and of course her own children, excited for her newest grandchild to arrive already.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander was just as excited, practically bouncing when he talked to her about it. He also told her about Eliza and the children belonging to her. "Phillip is the only one that doesn't really resent me. He looks up to John like a second dad. He refuses to get his hair cut 'cause John has long curly hair just like him. It's really sweet. Would you like to see a picture of him?"

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander awed and kneeled down to them. “How about you come help me make them, yeah? That way everyone gets what they want,” he suggested with a bright smile. “And you can tell me any embarassing things you know about John! Wouldn’t that be fun?”

[amateurhamrps]

They nodded and ran off to make their preferred sandwiches with him. A lankier girl to the side, one of the oldest, giggled about the time John came around for a nice little swimming trip when she was younger, and he got his trunks pulled down at the public pool and everyone laughed.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander laughed as he sat them down at the table with their sandwiches and cups of juice. “Aww. Poor baby,” he teased, looking at John in the other room. “I’m going to go check on him really quick. Don’t spill anything.” He made his way over and sat next to John, wrapping an arm around him. “Hey, Sweetheart, look at me,” he cooed gently. “You doing okay still? Hungry? Thirsty?”

[amateurhamrps]

John blinked- he’d either been daydreaming hard or dissociating a bit. “me? ..thirsty.. ribs and my tummy hurt a little bit of a lot of a bit..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander got John a glass of water and helped him drink it slowly. “Do you wanna go lie down in bed, John? Maybe you’ll feel better after a nap. If not I’m taking you to the hospital, okay? Please?” He kissed his cheek and smiled over at his mother. “I’m sure your mama would be more thsn happy to join you for some comfort and support.”

[amateurhamrps]

“wanna have a nap, papi,” He murmured softly, grabbing at Alex’s shirt with one hand and sipping his water with the other. He let Alexander help him to bed, of course, falling asleep in all of two minutes once he was curled up under the blankets.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander kissed his cheek and tucked him in. He gave John a small hug before heading back out to sit with his mother and siblings. He smiled as he spoke with them, honestly having a wonderful time meeting and getting to know his boyfriend's family. Eleanor was nothing less than what John had described, probably greater than that.

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander awed and kneeled down to them. “How about you come help me make them, yeah? That way everyone gets what they want,” he suggested with a bright smile. “And you can tell me any embarassing things you know about John! Wouldn’t that be fun?”

[amateurhamrps]

They nodded and ran off to make their preferred sandwiches with him. A lankier girl to the side, one of the oldest, giggled about the time John came around for a nice little swimming trip when she was younger, and he got his trunks pulled down at the public pool and everyone laughed.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander laughed as he sat them down at the table with their sandwiches and cups of juice. “Aww. Poor baby,” he teased, looking at John in the other room. “I’m going to go check on him really quick. Don’t spill anything.” He made his way over and sat next to John, wrapping an arm around him. “Hey, Sweetheart, look at me,” he cooed gently. “You doing okay still? Hungry? Thirsty?”

[amateurhamrps]

John blinked- he’d either been daydreaming hard or dissociating a bit. “me? ..thirsty.. ribs and my tummy hurt a little bit of a lot of a bit..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander got John a glass of water and helped him drink it slowly. "Do you wanna go lie down in bed, John? Maybe you'll feel better after a nap. If not I'm taking you to the hospital, okay? Please?" He kissed his cheek and smiled over at his mother. "I'm sure your mama would be more thsn happy to join you for some comfort and support."

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander awed and kneeled down to them. “How about you come help me make them, yeah? That way everyone gets what they want,” he suggested with a bright smile. “And you can tell me any embarassing things you know about John! Wouldn’t that be fun?”

[amateurhamrps]

They nodded and ran off to make their preferred sandwiches with him. A lankier girl to the side, one of the oldest, giggled about the time John came around for a nice little swimming trip when she was younger, and he got his trunks pulled down at the public pool and everyone laughed.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander laughed as he sat them down at the table with their sandwiches and cups of juice. "Aww. Poor baby," he teased, looking at John in the other room. "I'm going to go check on him really quick. Don't spill anything." He made his way over and sat next to John, wrapping an arm around him. "Hey, Sweetheart, look at me," he cooed gently. "You doing okay still? Hungry? Thirsty?"

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander awed and kneeled down to them. "How about you come help me make them, yeah? That way everyone gets what they want," he suggested with a bright smile. "And you can tell me any embarassing things you know about John! Wouldn't that be fun?"

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nuzzled against John’s belly, humming softly to it and continuing to kiss it every now and then. “You will be such a beautiful child. We will raise you with all of the love in the world. Pip is going to have an absolute fit, but it’s okay. I know he’ll love you just as much. He’s just jealous whenever I pay attention to anyone else.”

[amateurhamrps]

John smiled brightly, looking to Alexander. “They kicked, you know. I just didn’t say anything because you won’t be able to feel it yet. But I felt it, it was really soft..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander grinned and looked up at John. He leaned up to kiss him softly. “That’s sweet. They already know their Papa’s voice,” he murmured and rested his head on John’s lap again. He lifted his shirt enough to kiss his tummy then blow on it just to make him laugh.

[amateurhamrps]

John squealed, shifting around a lot instead of throwing kicks like he normally would, just in case he hurt Alex. “Ah! No!”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggled and wrapped his arms around John’s waist. “You really think we’re ready?” he asked in a mumble as he nuzzled against the other. “It’s a pretty big step for a relationship. Neither of us have even proposed yet.”

[amateurhamrps]

“I think we’re ready.. We both have stable jobs- you more than me, but still- we have a pretty stable relationship.. we’re both ready to give this child the best life possible..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded. “Yeah. I’m ready to spoil it like there’s no tomorrow and remind you every day how you’re so much stronger than any other men.” He hummed and sat up. “Let’s go cuddle in bed and talk until we fall asleep cause I love cuddling with you and hearing your voice.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That sounds nice.” John went and cuddled up in bed so he was as comfortable as possible, calm and happy. Then he raised the blanket for Alex to cuddle up next to him.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stumbled in and stripped down to his boxers. He got in bed and snuggled up to John, limbs entangling with the other’s. He kissed him softly and played with his hair, jokingly tugging on it lightly.

[amateurhamrps]

John gasped, letting out a small laugh. “oh, quit it, Alex. You little tease.” He pressed small kisses to Alex’s cheek, smiling at the other sweetly.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggles and lookes lovingly at John’s smile. He sighs happily, pulling the curly haired man closer to himself. “Maybe by the time our child is born we’ll have raised enough money for your top surgery. It’s not uncommon for parents to use formula instead of breast feeding. It’ll be like… having to deal with all that dysphoria then having something that takes most of it away.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That would be nice. And you know that every paycheck I stash away some for the top surgery fund- it’s not a lot, but I stash away as much as I can without having a tiny amount to contribute to our actual household funds.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded. “I might be very close to getting a promotion,” he murmured. “My boss has taken a liking to me lately. He has me in his office a lot to help out. I’m hoping he promotes me to his assistant or something.” He kissed John softly. “Then my paycheck would double. We might even be able to get a bigger apartment.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That would be lovely, but don’t get ahead of yourself, sweetheart.” He pressed kisses across the other man’s face. “I want us to.. think in the present for now. Work with what we already have.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded and smiled. “Sorry. I’m a dreamer,” he murmured and nuzzled his face into John’s neck. He kissed his skin softly and hummed. “My sweet baby boy,” he purred. He then placed a hand on his belly. “And sweet baby.”

[amateurhamrps]

John nuzzled him right back. “It’s fine to be a dreamer.. but I try not to be caught up in it? And I’m sure the baby would love to meet you.. when they’re born we’re gonna love up on them so hard.”

[heckagay-blog]

“I’m gonna spoil ‘em so much. Phillip will be happy if it’s a boy. He’s been wanting a little brother,” Alex murmured. He kissed along John’s neck sweetly. “Mmm. You smell really nice, Babe. Did you get s new shampoo or somethin’?”

[amateurhamrps]

“Don’t think so? Maybe I just smell nice, sweetheart..” He shrugged, shuddering at the loving kisses and grabbing onto Alex tight.

[heckagay-blog]

He grinned and kissed John’s jaw softly. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to make this sexual. Just tryna’ love up on you,” he said and simply rested his cheek against John’s shoulder. “I won’t kiss your neck.”

[amateurhamrps]

“thank you. I’m not in the mood for sex right now, and I likely won’t be for a.. while. a serious while. because the more I think about having a baby, the more the dysphoria kicks in and it’s starting to make me feel gross again.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander just coos and kisses his cheek. “Aww, Babe. I’ll be here for you, okay? If you just need to be held or loves or even just want someone in the room then I am there. It’s still your choice. It’s still your body.” He held John close and nuzzled into him, pushing a pillow between them for the other’s comfort.

[amateurhamrps]

“Thank you, my love..” He pressed against the pillow for the familiar feeling of his chest being.. compressed, wrapping his arms further around Alexander. “you’ve always been so good to me.”

[heckagay-blog]

“You deserve to be happy,” Alexander whispered. “I hold your happiness and comfort above all else. When I see that smile of yours it’s just all worth it. My heart stops at the sight of you regardless cause, damn, my man is sexy as fuck. But when you smile or blush it’s the cutest thing in the world and it takes a little piece of me away every single time.”

[amateurhamrps]

“You make me melt with every little smile and even just when you look at me. Your eyes are so warm and it’s like you can see right through me, you always know what I’m feeling. When I’m excited, when I’m sad, when I’m angry- when I want sex and when I don’t. When I’m feeling dysphoric or even sometimes euphoric. You know me. Plus you’re sexy as fuck yourself.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggled and smiled brightly. He proudly kissed John, stroking his cheek gently. “God, I love you so much. I’m gonna marry you one day, John. I promise.” He kissed him again, letting his eyes fall shut. He remained like that even after he pulled away. “You own my heart. No one else. You. You are the love of my life and dare I say soulmate.”

[amateurhamrps]

John shut his own eyes, playing with one of Alex’s hands. “I’d love to marry you, I don’t care how it happens. Big wedding, small wedding, even just getting eloped without a proposal or anything. I’m up for it.”

[heckagay-blog]

“Eloped,” Alexander repeated and snickered like a teenager. “Sounds like old timey slang for sex.” He kisses up on John’s face, covering his cheeks. “We’ll have a small wedding. Our friends and us. And your family if you wish to invite them.”

[amateurhamrps]

John rolled his eyes. “Hush!” He laughed softly, giggling at the little kisses. “I’ll probably invite my mama and my siblings. But hopefully our baby will be born by then to be either a little cute flower girl or ring bearer, and I’ll have to get one of my sisters’ kids to be the other one if necessary.”

[heckagay-blog]

“I haven’t met your family,” he murmured as he kissed his nose. “Maybe we should go visit them before it’s time, y'know? Let them know you’re pregnant and meet the baby daddy.” He rested his head against the pillows and hummed. “We could go for Christmas, perhaps.”

[amateurhamrps]

“I’d really rather just talk to them over skype or something. My mama and one of my brothers still live with my dad and I’d rather not stir anything up- trust me, if we go to see them, all of our asses are getting beat. I wouldn’t put it past that monster to rip the baby out of me with his hands just to kick their ass too. Because he would.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander let out a protective growl and held John tighter. “I’ll kick his ass,” he grumbled. “If he ever touches you I will kick his ass. No one even thinks of hurting my Jacky.” He huffed and shut his eyes. “We can Skype them next week if you want.”

[amateurhamrps]

John cuddled up to him sweetly. “That would be nice.” Of course, little did John know, his lovely mother was already arranging tickets for the whole family to come over. Yes, the whole family, because his dad would kick her ass if he wasn’t included.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander kissed John one more time. “Goodnight, baby boy. Goodnight, our lovely child. I love you both.” He fell asleep, still holding John tightly like he’d slip away.

[amateurhamrps]

“Goodnight, babe.. baby says goodnight too. love you..” He nuzzled against him, pulling the blanket up so close it was almost to his chin, and falling asleep soon after.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander made it a regular occurrence to sing and talk to John’s belly every night before bed for the rest of the week. When it was Saturday and neither of them had work he refused to get out of bed or let John up.

[amateurhamrps]

John was so happy with all of this. Then around 12- pm- the door was.. knocked upon and he sighed as he stood, in his boxers and a too big t-shirt as he opened the door. “Hello- oh, my god.. of course.” So he started with a lazy greeting towards his father and siblings, giving his mama a nice long hug.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stumbled out in his boxers to see who was at the door. “Babe, who is it?” he mumbled as he approached, freezing as he saw multiple people that he could only assume were his family. “Um… Hello…” he greeted awkwardly, making an attempt to cover himself with his arms.

[amateurhamrps]

He lightly nudged Alex behind him. “This is my boyfriend Alexander.” Before his father could say anything he shot a glare his way. “He makes me very happy,” He said forcefully, “In fact, we are having a baby together.” He expected the reactions he got. Multiple hugs and a firm slap to the face that caused a few of their neighbors to peek out of their apartments- he knew his father had strong hands, of course.

[heckagay-blog]

When John was slapped Alexander grabbed his arm and pulled him back, inspecting his cheek. He pushed the other behind him, no longer caring that he was half naked. “What the hell’s wrong with you?” he snapped, glaring at his father. “You find out you’re having a grandchild and the first thing you do is slap him? Fucking yell, be upset, but don’t you ever touch John anywhere near like that again. You’re a shit father if you think hitting your child is anywhere near acceptable or an appropriate reaction.” He snarled at the man and grit his teeth, turning and cupped John’s face. “Are you alright?” he asked softly, kissing where he’d been hit gently. He turned to look at his father with a cold gaze. “I was hopimg we could get along but it seems to me you’re not at all the kind of person I want to even try to get along with.”

[amateurhamrps]

Everyone looked away from John and Alex, embarrassed and used to the treatment that was normally aimed towards John these days- he had not only decided that he was a male, but a gay one at that, so his father beat him whenever he had the chance. It was easy for him to. John was his personal punching bag, had been since he came out to him especially, so he just hung his head and clenched his fists. “I’m just fine, Alexander. This was a good reaction from him, okay?” Henry somehow still didn’t speak up.

[heckagay-blog]

“A good reaction? Alexander scoffed. “John, he just hit you. I’ll be dammed if I let someone who wants to hurt you anywhere near you. He’s got no good reason for wanting to send any harm your way. He is your parent. He is supposed to care for you and protect you from people like that.” He let out a heavy breath of air and turned to look at them. “Alexander Hamilton. My apologies for the small outburst. I’m just really protective over him,” he greeted, sticking his hand out. He shook everyone’s hands with the exception of Henry.

[amateurhamrps]

So they introduced themselves one by one- Henry excluded- and John went to go get dressed quickly. Whatever. That was basically the best reaction he could have expected from his father, the worst being something along the lines of a manual abortion or just his own death. He wouldn’t even put it past him.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stared at his father for a while. “I don’t know why you think it’s okay to harm your family, but it’s not. John is just trying to be happy. He just wants to be comfortable in his own skin. Maybe if you let me sit down with you and explain you wouldn’t be so blindly angry with him.” He turned and left to pull on clothes as well, pulling his messy hair back into a pony tail. “It’s very nice to meet you all. If we were expecting you I would have cleaned up a bit and bought groceries for a big dinner,” he said as he came back out.

[amateurhamrps]

Everybody came in and sat down, Henry’s knee bouncing wildly because he wanted to be here.. but he didn’t want to be here at all. He was definitely gonna kick John’s ass as soon as he could, to be sure. To relieve some steam and all.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander watched his knee move for a moment before looking to John’s mother. “You must be Eleanor,” Alexander said with a soft smile. “Y'know, I told John that if it’s a girl I’d want to name her after you. He’s told me how sweet you are and I expect nothing less from such a nice woman.”

[amateurhamrps]

Eleanor just lit up, and when she spoke it was exactly what you’d expect from a little older southern lady of mixed race. It was cute, and her accent was a bit thick. “That’s wonderful! I can’t believe you would name her after me- if she’s a girl- let me hug you-”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander chuckled and hugged her gently. “Thank John for it. If he would’ve never told me how lovely you are I would’ve never even thought of it. Eleanor is a very beautiful name and I can only hope that she’d be half as darling as you.” He smiled brightly and patted her back softly. “I’ll go check on John and make sure he hasn’t fallen back asleep. Sometimes he’s just too exhausted. He works really hard.”

[amateurhamrps]

Eleanor was just worked up with emotions, smiling brightly and bouncing in her seat, babbling words of thanks and little compliments to Alex. As Alex went to check on John, John came out of wherever he’d been and plowed right into him. “Shit, sorry..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander squeaked and put his hand over his heart. He laughed and shook his head. “You’re fine, you’re fine. You just startled me a little.” He pulled John along to join him in the living room. “I told your mother about the name. She’s so sweet and adorable.” Alexander moved to talk with John’s siblings, beaming as he became a social butterfly in the room full of people.

[amateurhamrps]

“She really is, my mama’s the loveliest lady I’ve ever met, and that’s not just because she birthed me.” John sat with Alex, pitching a few words in to the conversation occasionally and getting up to go take a piss- being silently followed, of course, because man I just really, really wanna see Alex get protective as shit over his boy.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander was just talking it up, rambling with John’s siblings when John got up. He turned to tell him something and frowned when he sww Henry get up. He stood and moved in front of him to block his path. “With all do respect, I’d appreciate it if you’d stay in the living room. You have no business near this part of the apartment seeing as all it is is our room and the bathroom, which is obviously being occupied.” He looked at the man with a glare, daring him to challenge Alexander.

[amateurhamrps]

Henry laughed- it was very unsettling- and he pushed Alex to the side, beginning to move forward and pretty much just waiting to be stopped again. He knew it would happen anyways.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander grabbed him by his shoulder and pulled him back. “I’d advise to sit your ass down before I make you,” he said, pushing the man back slightly. “Leave him alone. He’s done nothing to you. If you’re so ashamed then you can take yourself elsewhere. If you want to hurt him you’re going to have to get through me. I may be short but I can sure as hell throw a punch. I’ve been trying to be polite to you, but enough is enough.”

[amateurhamrps]

He turned towards Alexander and let out a low growl. Whatever. He would just have to be quick when John came out. Which wasn’t too much later. He came out of the bathroom and went towards the left side of the couch, towards his mother and Alexander, but got almost immediately tripped up and.. jumped on top of? Stomped? He just hid his face. Whatever.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander really was very intolerant and fed up with this man. He shoved him away from John and opened the door, pushing him out. “Take your abusive ass somewhere else before I beat your ass and call the cops,” he barked out, slamming the door. He went to check on John quickly, kneeling next to him and cradling him. He cooes to him softly and placed kisses all over his face. He worriedly looked over at his mother and siblings. “Are you just going to sit there and watch that asshole beat him up like that? Let it happen? That’s no better than him doing it. Don’t let him control your family like that and, from the warmest place in my heart Mrs. Ball, why would you even stick around him? Why haven’t you done anything?”

[amateurhamrps]

John cuddled up with him. The deep burning ache in his chest and abdomen was entirely familiar, and almost welcome. He had some serious problems with his father that always seemed to come back to some mild Stockholm syndrome. His siblings were mostly silent, muttering sad excuses, and his mother twiddled her thumbs. “It is easier to stay with him at this point. I am not in the best shape to work, he keeps me in his home- it’s a mutual relationship? He gives me a roof over my head and I clean and cook for him.”

[heckagay-blog]

“You are always welcome to stay with us,” Alexander said, keeping his voice soft and turning to kiss John’s forehead. He pet his hair softly, combing his fingers through it. “We wouldn’t mind. There’s an extra room. We could keep the cradle in our room. Really, if it saves you from that piece of shit then I am more than happy to take you in. My mother died when I was very young. You, on the other hand, are a mother that has been graced with living a long life. You deserve to be happy and be around people who make you happy.”

[amateurhamrps]

She smiled sweetly. “thank you, you’re very gracious. I wouldn’t even mind having the cradle in the room with me- I do adore babies, cries and stinks and everything. They don’t know any better. ..I’m.. so sorry for what happened to your mother. You’ve clearly still grown up to be an outstanding man.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander smiled softly as he stood, helping John up and hugging the man tenderly against himself. “Are you okay?” he checked, lifting the other’s chin so he had to look at him. “Please be truthful. Do you think you need a hospital or should I just patch you up?”

[amateurhamrps]

“I’ll be fine,” He murmured, eyes sort of.. glazed over and blissed out. Pain and pleasure had always been very hand in hand in his childhood- his father made sure of it- so when the pain came back he got a little.. aroused. “probably just some bruises..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander carefully sat him down on the couch and lifted his shirt enough to inspect his belly, ribs, and lower back. He kissed the bruises he saw and dropped his shirt. "Is anyone hungry?" Alex asked, looking to the others. "I could make us some lunch. I know the flight was probably boring and long. You're welcome to nap."

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nuzzled against John’s belly, humming softly to it and continuing to kiss it every now and then. “You will be such a beautiful child. We will raise you with all of the love in the world. Pip is going to have an absolute fit, but it’s okay. I know he’ll love you just as much. He’s just jealous whenever I pay attention to anyone else.”

[amateurhamrps]

John smiled brightly, looking to Alexander. “They kicked, you know. I just didn’t say anything because you won’t be able to feel it yet. But I felt it, it was really soft..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander grinned and looked up at John. He leaned up to kiss him softly. “That’s sweet. They already know their Papa’s voice,” he murmured and rested his head on John’s lap again. He lifted his shirt enough to kiss his tummy then blow on it just to make him laugh.

[amateurhamrps]

John squealed, shifting around a lot instead of throwing kicks like he normally would, just in case he hurt Alex. “Ah! No!”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggled and wrapped his arms around John’s waist. “You really think we’re ready?” he asked in a mumble as he nuzzled against the other. “It’s a pretty big step for a relationship. Neither of us have even proposed yet.”

[amateurhamrps]

“I think we’re ready.. We both have stable jobs- you more than me, but still- we have a pretty stable relationship.. we’re both ready to give this child the best life possible..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded. “Yeah. I’m ready to spoil it like there’s no tomorrow and remind you every day how you’re so much stronger than any other men.” He hummed and sat up. “Let’s go cuddle in bed and talk until we fall asleep cause I love cuddling with you and hearing your voice.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That sounds nice.” John went and cuddled up in bed so he was as comfortable as possible, calm and happy. Then he raised the blanket for Alex to cuddle up next to him.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stumbled in and stripped down to his boxers. He got in bed and snuggled up to John, limbs entangling with the other’s. He kissed him softly and played with his hair, jokingly tugging on it lightly.

[amateurhamrps]

John gasped, letting out a small laugh. “oh, quit it, Alex. You little tease.” He pressed small kisses to Alex’s cheek, smiling at the other sweetly.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggles and lookes lovingly at John’s smile. He sighs happily, pulling the curly haired man closer to himself. “Maybe by the time our child is born we’ll have raised enough money for your top surgery. It’s not uncommon for parents to use formula instead of breast feeding. It’ll be like… having to deal with all that dysphoria then having something that takes most of it away.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That would be nice. And you know that every paycheck I stash away some for the top surgery fund- it’s not a lot, but I stash away as much as I can without having a tiny amount to contribute to our actual household funds.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded. “I might be very close to getting a promotion,” he murmured. “My boss has taken a liking to me lately. He has me in his office a lot to help out. I’m hoping he promotes me to his assistant or something.” He kissed John softly. “Then my paycheck would double. We might even be able to get a bigger apartment.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That would be lovely, but don’t get ahead of yourself, sweetheart.” He pressed kisses across the other man’s face. “I want us to.. think in the present for now. Work with what we already have.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded and smiled. “Sorry. I’m a dreamer,” he murmured and nuzzled his face into John’s neck. He kissed his skin softly and hummed. “My sweet baby boy,” he purred. He then placed a hand on his belly. “And sweet baby.”

[amateurhamrps]

John nuzzled him right back. “It’s fine to be a dreamer.. but I try not to be caught up in it? And I’m sure the baby would love to meet you.. when they’re born we’re gonna love up on them so hard.”

[heckagay-blog]

“I’m gonna spoil ‘em so much. Phillip will be happy if it’s a boy. He’s been wanting a little brother,” Alex murmured. He kissed along John’s neck sweetly. “Mmm. You smell really nice, Babe. Did you get s new shampoo or somethin’?”

[amateurhamrps]

“Don’t think so? Maybe I just smell nice, sweetheart..” He shrugged, shuddering at the loving kisses and grabbing onto Alex tight.

[heckagay-blog]

He grinned and kissed John’s jaw softly. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to make this sexual. Just tryna’ love up on you,” he said and simply rested his cheek against John’s shoulder. “I won’t kiss your neck.”

[amateurhamrps]

“thank you. I’m not in the mood for sex right now, and I likely won’t be for a.. while. a serious while. because the more I think about having a baby, the more the dysphoria kicks in and it’s starting to make me feel gross again.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander just coos and kisses his cheek. “Aww, Babe. I’ll be here for you, okay? If you just need to be held or loves or even just want someone in the room then I am there. It’s still your choice. It’s still your body.” He held John close and nuzzled into him, pushing a pillow between them for the other’s comfort.

[amateurhamrps]

“Thank you, my love..” He pressed against the pillow for the familiar feeling of his chest being.. compressed, wrapping his arms further around Alexander. “you’ve always been so good to me.”

[heckagay-blog]

“You deserve to be happy,” Alexander whispered. “I hold your happiness and comfort above all else. When I see that smile of yours it’s just all worth it. My heart stops at the sight of you regardless cause, damn, my man is sexy as fuck. But when you smile or blush it’s the cutest thing in the world and it takes a little piece of me away every single time.”

[amateurhamrps]

“You make me melt with every little smile and even just when you look at me. Your eyes are so warm and it’s like you can see right through me, you always know what I’m feeling. When I’m excited, when I’m sad, when I’m angry- when I want sex and when I don’t. When I’m feeling dysphoric or even sometimes euphoric. You know me. Plus you’re sexy as fuck yourself.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggled and smiled brightly. He proudly kissed John, stroking his cheek gently. “God, I love you so much. I’m gonna marry you one day, John. I promise.” He kissed him again, letting his eyes fall shut. He remained like that even after he pulled away. “You own my heart. No one else. You. You are the love of my life and dare I say soulmate.”

[amateurhamrps]

John shut his own eyes, playing with one of Alex’s hands. “I’d love to marry you, I don’t care how it happens. Big wedding, small wedding, even just getting eloped without a proposal or anything. I’m up for it.”

[heckagay-blog]

“Eloped,” Alexander repeated and snickered like a teenager. “Sounds like old timey slang for sex.” He kisses up on John’s face, covering his cheeks. “We’ll have a small wedding. Our friends and us. And your family if you wish to invite them.”

[amateurhamrps]

John rolled his eyes. “Hush!” He laughed softly, giggling at the little kisses. “I’ll probably invite my mama and my siblings. But hopefully our baby will be born by then to be either a little cute flower girl or ring bearer, and I’ll have to get one of my sisters’ kids to be the other one if necessary.”

[heckagay-blog]

“I haven’t met your family,” he murmured as he kissed his nose. “Maybe we should go visit them before it’s time, y'know? Let them know you’re pregnant and meet the baby daddy.” He rested his head against the pillows and hummed. “We could go for Christmas, perhaps.”

[amateurhamrps]

“I’d really rather just talk to them over skype or something. My mama and one of my brothers still live with my dad and I’d rather not stir anything up- trust me, if we go to see them, all of our asses are getting beat. I wouldn’t put it past that monster to rip the baby out of me with his hands just to kick their ass too. Because he would.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander let out a protective growl and held John tighter. “I’ll kick his ass,” he grumbled. “If he ever touches you I will kick his ass. No one even thinks of hurting my Jacky.” He huffed and shut his eyes. “We can Skype them next week if you want.”

[amateurhamrps]

John cuddled up to him sweetly. “That would be nice.” Of course, little did John know, his lovely mother was already arranging tickets for the whole family to come over. Yes, the whole family, because his dad would kick her ass if he wasn’t included.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander kissed John one more time. “Goodnight, baby boy. Goodnight, our lovely child. I love you both.” He fell asleep, still holding John tightly like he’d slip away.

[amateurhamrps]

“Goodnight, babe.. baby says goodnight too. love you..” He nuzzled against him, pulling the blanket up so close it was almost to his chin, and falling asleep soon after.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander made it a regular occurrence to sing and talk to John’s belly every night before bed for the rest of the week. When it was Saturday and neither of them had work he refused to get out of bed or let John up.

[amateurhamrps]

John was so happy with all of this. Then around 12- pm- the door was.. knocked upon and he sighed as he stood, in his boxers and a too big t-shirt as he opened the door. “Hello- oh, my god.. of course.” So he started with a lazy greeting towards his father and siblings, giving his mama a nice long hug.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stumbled out in his boxers to see who was at the door. “Babe, who is it?” he mumbled as he approached, freezing as he saw multiple people that he could only assume were his family. “Um… Hello…” he greeted awkwardly, making an attempt to cover himself with his arms.

[amateurhamrps]

He lightly nudged Alex behind him. “This is my boyfriend Alexander.” Before his father could say anything he shot a glare his way. “He makes me very happy,” He said forcefully, “In fact, we are having a baby together.” He expected the reactions he got. Multiple hugs and a firm slap to the face that caused a few of their neighbors to peek out of their apartments- he knew his father had strong hands, of course.

[heckagay-blog]

When John was slapped Alexander grabbed his arm and pulled him back, inspecting his cheek. He pushed the other behind him, no longer caring that he was half naked. “What the hell’s wrong with you?” he snapped, glaring at his father. “You find out you’re having a grandchild and the first thing you do is slap him? Fucking yell, be upset, but don’t you ever touch John anywhere near like that again. You’re a shit father if you think hitting your child is anywhere near acceptable or an appropriate reaction.” He snarled at the man and grit his teeth, turning and cupped John’s face. “Are you alright?” he asked softly, kissing where he’d been hit gently. He turned to look at his father with a cold gaze. “I was hopimg we could get along but it seems to me you’re not at all the kind of person I want to even try to get along with.”

[amateurhamrps]

Everyone looked away from John and Alex, embarrassed and used to the treatment that was normally aimed towards John these days- he had not only decided that he was a male, but a gay one at that, so his father beat him whenever he had the chance. It was easy for him to. John was his personal punching bag, had been since he came out to him especially, so he just hung his head and clenched his fists. “I’m just fine, Alexander. This was a good reaction from him, okay?” Henry somehow still didn’t speak up.

[heckagay-blog]

“A good reaction? Alexander scoffed. “John, he just hit you. I’ll be dammed if I let someone who wants to hurt you anywhere near you. He’s got no good reason for wanting to send any harm your way. He is your parent. He is supposed to care for you and protect you from people like that.” He let out a heavy breath of air and turned to look at them. “Alexander Hamilton. My apologies for the small outburst. I’m just really protective over him,” he greeted, sticking his hand out. He shook everyone’s hands with the exception of Henry.

[amateurhamrps]

So they introduced themselves one by one- Henry excluded- and John went to go get dressed quickly. Whatever. That was basically the best reaction he could have expected from his father, the worst being something along the lines of a manual abortion or just his own death. He wouldn’t even put it past him.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stared at his father for a while. “I don’t know why you think it’s okay to harm your family, but it’s not. John is just trying to be happy. He just wants to be comfortable in his own skin. Maybe if you let me sit down with you and explain you wouldn’t be so blindly angry with him.” He turned and left to pull on clothes as well, pulling his messy hair back into a pony tail. “It’s very nice to meet you all. If we were expecting you I would have cleaned up a bit and bought groceries for a big dinner,” he said as he came back out.

[amateurhamrps]

Everybody came in and sat down, Henry’s knee bouncing wildly because he wanted to be here.. but he didn’t want to be here at all. He was definitely gonna kick John’s ass as soon as he could, to be sure. To relieve some steam and all.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander watched his knee move for a moment before looking to John’s mother. “You must be Eleanor,” Alexander said with a soft smile. “Y'know, I told John that if it’s a girl I’d want to name her after you. He’s told me how sweet you are and I expect nothing less from such a nice woman.”

[amateurhamrps]

Eleanor just lit up, and when she spoke it was exactly what you’d expect from a little older southern lady of mixed race. It was cute, and her accent was a bit thick. “That’s wonderful! I can’t believe you would name her after me- if she’s a girl- let me hug you-”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander chuckled and hugged her gently. “Thank John for it. If he would’ve never told me how lovely you are I would’ve never even thought of it. Eleanor is a very beautiful name and I can only hope that she’d be half as darling as you.” He smiled brightly and patted her back softly. “I’ll go check on John and make sure he hasn’t fallen back asleep. Sometimes he’s just too exhausted. He works really hard.”

[amateurhamrps]

Eleanor was just worked up with emotions, smiling brightly and bouncing in her seat, babbling words of thanks and little compliments to Alex. As Alex went to check on John, John came out of wherever he’d been and plowed right into him. “Shit, sorry..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander squeaked and put his hand over his heart. He laughed and shook his head. “You’re fine, you’re fine. You just startled me a little.” He pulled John along to join him in the living room. “I told your mother about the name. She’s so sweet and adorable.” Alexander moved to talk with John’s siblings, beaming as he became a social butterfly in the room full of people.

[amateurhamrps]

“She really is, my mama’s the loveliest lady I’ve ever met, and that’s not just because she birthed me.” John sat with Alex, pitching a few words in to the conversation occasionally and getting up to go take a piss- being silently followed, of course, because man I just really, really wanna see Alex get protective as shit over his boy.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander was just talking it up, rambling with John’s siblings when John got up. He turned to tell him something and frowned when he sww Henry get up. He stood and moved in front of him to block his path. “With all do respect, I’d appreciate it if you’d stay in the living room. You have no business near this part of the apartment seeing as all it is is our room and the bathroom, which is obviously being occupied.” He looked at the man with a glare, daring him to challenge Alexander.

[amateurhamrps]

Henry laughed- it was very unsettling- and he pushed Alex to the side, beginning to move forward and pretty much just waiting to be stopped again. He knew it would happen anyways.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander grabbed him by his shoulder and pulled him back. “I’d advise to sit your ass down before I make you,” he said, pushing the man back slightly. “Leave him alone. He’s done nothing to you. If you’re so ashamed then you can take yourself elsewhere. If you want to hurt him you’re going to have to get through me. I may be short but I can sure as hell throw a punch. I’ve been trying to be polite to you, but enough is enough.”

[amateurhamrps]

He turned towards Alexander and let out a low growl. Whatever. He would just have to be quick when John came out. Which wasn’t too much later. He came out of the bathroom and went towards the left side of the couch, towards his mother and Alexander, but got almost immediately tripped up and.. jumped on top of? Stomped? He just hid his face. Whatever.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander really was very intolerant and fed up with this man. He shoved him away from John and opened the door, pushing him out. “Take your abusive ass somewhere else before I beat your ass and call the cops,” he barked out, slamming the door. He went to check on John quickly, kneeling next to him and cradling him. He cooes to him softly and placed kisses all over his face. He worriedly looked over at his mother and siblings. “Are you just going to sit there and watch that asshole beat him up like that? Let it happen? That’s no better than him doing it. Don’t let him control your family like that and, from the warmest place in my heart Mrs. Ball, why would you even stick around him? Why haven’t you done anything?”

[amateurhamrps]

John cuddled up with him. The deep burning ache in his chest and abdomen was entirely familiar, and almost welcome. He had some serious problems with his father that always seemed to come back to some mild Stockholm syndrome. His siblings were mostly silent, muttering sad excuses, and his mother twiddled her thumbs. “It is easier to stay with him at this point. I am not in the best shape to work, he keeps me in his home- it’s a mutual relationship? He gives me a roof over my head and I clean and cook for him.”

[heckagay-blog]

“You are always welcome to stay with us,” Alexander said, keeping his voice soft and turning to kiss John’s forehead. He pet his hair softly, combing his fingers through it. “We wouldn’t mind. There’s an extra room. We could keep the cradle in our room. Really, if it saves you from that piece of shit then I am more than happy to take you in. My mother died when I was very young. You, on the other hand, are a mother that has been graced with living a long life. You deserve to be happy and be around people who make you happy.”

[amateurhamrps]

She smiled sweetly. “thank you, you’re very gracious. I wouldn’t even mind having the cradle in the room with me- I do adore babies, cries and stinks and everything. They don’t know any better. ..I’m.. so sorry for what happened to your mother. You’ve clearly still grown up to be an outstanding man.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander smiled softly as he stood, helping John up and hugging the man tenderly against himself. "Are you okay?" he checked, lifting the other's chin so he had to look at him. "Please be truthful. Do you think you need a hospital or should I just patch you up?"

[amateurhamrps]

"It's been a long day... Let's take a bath together." // Alex with John?

((I’m assuming that John would be who I am, as I’ve ha a history of playing him with you))

John glanced over to Alexander, a smile lighting up his tired face. “That sounds nice. I’d like that.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nuzzled against John’s belly, humming softly to it and continuing to kiss it every now and then. “You will be such a beautiful child. We will raise you with all of the love in the world. Pip is going to have an absolute fit, but it’s okay. I know he’ll love you just as much. He’s just jealous whenever I pay attention to anyone else.”

[amateurhamrps]

John smiled brightly, looking to Alexander. “They kicked, you know. I just didn’t say anything because you won’t be able to feel it yet. But I felt it, it was really soft..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander grinned and looked up at John. He leaned up to kiss him softly. “That’s sweet. They already know their Papa’s voice,” he murmured and rested his head on John’s lap again. He lifted his shirt enough to kiss his tummy then blow on it just to make him laugh.

[amateurhamrps]

John squealed, shifting around a lot instead of throwing kicks like he normally would, just in case he hurt Alex. “Ah! No!”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggled and wrapped his arms around John’s waist. “You really think we’re ready?” he asked in a mumble as he nuzzled against the other. “It’s a pretty big step for a relationship. Neither of us have even proposed yet.”

[amateurhamrps]

“I think we’re ready.. We both have stable jobs- you more than me, but still- we have a pretty stable relationship.. we’re both ready to give this child the best life possible..”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded. “Yeah. I’m ready to spoil it like there’s no tomorrow and remind you every day how you’re so much stronger than any other men.” He hummed and sat up. “Let’s go cuddle in bed and talk until we fall asleep cause I love cuddling with you and hearing your voice.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That sounds nice.” John went and cuddled up in bed so he was as comfortable as possible, calm and happy. Then he raised the blanket for Alex to cuddle up next to him.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander stumbled in and stripped down to his boxers. He got in bed and snuggled up to John, limbs entangling with the other’s. He kissed him softly and played with his hair, jokingly tugging on it lightly.

[amateurhamrps]

John gasped, letting out a small laugh. “oh, quit it, Alex. You little tease.” He pressed small kisses to Alex’s cheek, smiling at the other sweetly.

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander giggles and lookes lovingly at John’s smile. He sighs happily, pulling the curly haired man closer to himself. “Maybe by the time our child is born we’ll have raised enough money for your top surgery. It’s not uncommon for parents to use formula instead of breast feeding. It’ll be like… having to deal with all that dysphoria then having something that takes most of it away.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That would be nice. And you know that every paycheck I stash away some for the top surgery fund- it’s not a lot, but I stash away as much as I can without having a tiny amount to contribute to our actual household funds.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded. “I might be very close to getting a promotion,” he murmured. “My boss has taken a liking to me lately. He has me in his office a lot to help out. I’m hoping he promotes me to his assistant or something.” He kissed John softly. “Then my paycheck would double. We might even be able to get a bigger apartment.”

[amateurhamrps]

“That would be lovely, but don’t get ahead of yourself, sweetheart.” He pressed kisses across the other man’s face. “I want us to.. think in the present for now. Work with what we already have.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander nodded and smiled. “Sorry. I’m a dreamer,” he murmured and nuzzled his face into John’s neck. He kissed his skin softly and hummed. “My sweet baby boy,” he purred. He then placed a hand on his belly. “And sweet baby.”

[amateurhamrps]

John nuzzled him right back. “It’s fine to be a dreamer.. but I try not to be caught up in it? And I’m sure the baby would love to meet you.. when they’re born we’re gonna love up on them so hard.”

[heckagay-blog]

“I’m gonna spoil ‘em so much. Phillip will be happy if it’s a boy. He’s been wanting a little brother,” Alex murmured. He kissed along John’s neck sweetly. “Mmm. You smell really nice, Babe. Did you get s new shampoo or somethin’?”

[amateurhamrps]

“Don’t think so? Maybe I just smell nice, sweetheart..” He shrugged, shuddering at the loving kisses and grabbing onto Alex tight.

[heckagay-blog]

He grinned and kissed John’s jaw softly. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to make this sexual. Just tryna’ love up on you,” he said and simply rested his cheek against John’s shoulder. “I won’t kiss your neck.”

[amateurhamrps]

“thank you. I’m not in the mood for sex right now, and I likely won’t be for a.. while. a serious while. because the more I think about having a baby, the more the dysphoria kicks in and it’s starting to make me feel gross again.”

[heckagay-blog]

Alexander just coos and kisses his cheek. “Aww, Babe. I’ll be here for you, okay? If you just need to be held or loves or even just want someone in the room then I am there. It’s still your choice. It’s still your body.” He held John close and nuzzled into him, pushing a pillow between them for the other’s comfort.

[amateurhamrps]

“Thank you, my love..” He pressed against the pillow for the familiar feeling of his chest being.. compressed, wrapping his arms further around Alexander. “you’ve always been so good to me.”

[heckagay-blog]

“You deserve to be happy,” Alexander whispered. “I hold your happiness and comfort above all else. When I see that smile of yours it’s just all worth it. My heart stops at the sight of you regardless cause, damn, my man is sexy as fuck. But when you smile or blush it’s the cutest thing in the world and it takes a little piece of me away every single time.”

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“You make me melt with every little smile and even just when you look at me. Your eyes are so warm and it’s like you can see right through me, you always know what I’m feeling. When I’m excited, when I’m sad, when I’m angry- when I want sex and when I don’t. When I’m feeling dysphoric or even sometimes euphoric. You know me. Plus you’re sexy as fuck yourself.”

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Alexander giggled and smiled brightly. He proudly kissed John, stroking his cheek gently. “God, I love you so much. I’m gonna marry you one day, John. I promise.” He kissed him again, letting his eyes fall shut. He remained like that even after he pulled away. “You own my heart. No one else. You. You are the love of my life and dare I say soulmate.”

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John shut his own eyes, playing with one of Alex’s hands. “I’d love to marry you, I don’t care how it happens. Big wedding, small wedding, even just getting eloped without a proposal or anything. I’m up for it.”

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“Eloped,” Alexander repeated and snickered like a teenager. “Sounds like old timey slang for sex.” He kisses up on John’s face, covering his cheeks. “We’ll have a small wedding. Our friends and us. And your family if you wish to invite them.”

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John rolled his eyes. “Hush!” He laughed softly, giggling at the little kisses. “I’ll probably invite my mama and my siblings. But hopefully our baby will be born by then to be either a little cute flower girl or ring bearer, and I’ll have to get one of my sisters’ kids to be the other one if necessary.”

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“I haven’t met your family,” he murmured as he kissed his nose. “Maybe we should go visit them before it’s time, y'know? Let them know you’re pregnant and meet the baby daddy.” He rested his head against the pillows and hummed. “We could go for Christmas, perhaps.”

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“I’d really rather just talk to them over skype or something. My mama and one of my brothers still live with my dad and I’d rather not stir anything up- trust me, if we go to see them, all of our asses are getting beat. I wouldn’t put it past that monster to rip the baby out of me with his hands just to kick their ass too. Because he would.”

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Alexander let out a protective growl and held John tighter. “I’ll kick his ass,” he grumbled. “If he ever touches you I will kick his ass. No one even thinks of hurting my Jacky.” He huffed and shut his eyes. “We can Skype them next week if you want.”

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John cuddled up to him sweetly. “That would be nice.” Of course, little did John know, his lovely mother was already arranging tickets for the whole family to come over. Yes, the whole family, because his dad would kick her ass if he wasn’t included.

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Alexander kissed John one more time. “Goodnight, baby boy. Goodnight, our lovely child. I love you both.” He fell asleep, still holding John tightly like he’d slip away.

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“Goodnight, babe.. baby says goodnight too. love you..” He nuzzled against him, pulling the blanket up so close it was almost to his chin, and falling asleep soon after.

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Alexander made it a regular occurrence to sing and talk to John’s belly every night before bed for the rest of the week. When it was Saturday and neither of them had work he refused to get out of bed or let John up.

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John was so happy with all of this. Then around 12- pm- the door was.. knocked upon and he sighed as he stood, in his boxers and a too big t-shirt as he opened the door. “Hello- oh, my god.. of course.” So he started with a lazy greeting towards his father and siblings, giving his mama a nice long hug.

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Alexander stumbled out in his boxers to see who was at the door. “Babe, who is it?” he mumbled as he approached, freezing as he saw multiple people that he could only assume were his family. “Um… Hello…” he greeted awkwardly, making an attempt to cover himself with his arms.

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He lightly nudged Alex behind him. “This is my boyfriend Alexander.” Before his father could say anything he shot a glare his way. “He makes me very happy,” He said forcefully, “In fact, we are having a baby together.” He expected the reactions he got. Multiple hugs and a firm slap to the face that caused a few of their neighbors to peek out of their apartments- he knew his father had strong hands, of course.

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When John was slapped Alexander grabbed his arm and pulled him back, inspecting his cheek. He pushed the other behind him, no longer caring that he was half naked. “What the hell’s wrong with you?” he snapped, glaring at his father. “You find out you’re having a grandchild and the first thing you do is slap him? Fucking yell, be upset, but don’t you ever touch John anywhere near like that again. You’re a shit father if you think hitting your child is anywhere near acceptable or an appropriate reaction.” He snarled at the man and grit his teeth, turning and cupped John’s face. “Are you alright?” he asked softly, kissing where he’d been hit gently. He turned to look at his father with a cold gaze. “I was hopimg we could get along but it seems to me you’re not at all the kind of person I want to even try to get along with.”

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Everyone looked away from John and Alex, embarrassed and used to the treatment that was normally aimed towards John these days- he had not only decided that he was a male, but a gay one at that, so his father beat him whenever he had the chance. It was easy for him to. John was his personal punching bag, had been since he came out to him especially, so he just hung his head and clenched his fists. “I’m just fine, Alexander. This was a good reaction from him, okay?” Henry somehow still didn’t speak up.

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“A good reaction? Alexander scoffed. “John, he just hit you. I’ll be dammed if I let someone who wants to hurt you anywhere near you. He’s got no good reason for wanting to send any harm your way. He is your parent. He is supposed to care for you and protect you from people like that.” He let out a heavy breath of air and turned to look at them. “Alexander Hamilton. My apologies for the small outburst. I’m just really protective over him,” he greeted, sticking his hand out. He shook everyone’s hands with the exception of Henry.

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So they introduced themselves one by one- Henry excluded- and John went to go get dressed quickly. Whatever. That was basically the best reaction he could have expected from his father, the worst being something along the lines of a manual abortion or just his own death. He wouldn’t even put it past him.

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Alexander stared at his father for a while. “I don’t know why you think it’s okay to harm your family, but it’s not. John is just trying to be happy. He just wants to be comfortable in his own skin. Maybe if you let me sit down with you and explain you wouldn’t be so blindly angry with him.” He turned and left to pull on clothes as well, pulling his messy hair back into a pony tail. “It’s very nice to meet you all. If we were expecting you I would have cleaned up a bit and bought groceries for a big dinner,” he said as he came back out.

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Everybody came in and sat down, Henry’s knee bouncing wildly because he wanted to be here.. but he didn’t want to be here at all. He was definitely gonna kick John’s ass as soon as he could, to be sure. To relieve some steam and all.

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Alexander watched his knee move for a moment before looking to John’s mother. “You must be Eleanor,” Alexander said with a soft smile. “Y'know, I told John that if it’s a girl I’d want to name her after you. He’s told me how sweet you are and I expect nothing less from such a nice woman.”

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Eleanor just lit up, and when she spoke it was exactly what you’d expect from a little older southern lady of mixed race. It was cute, and her accent was a bit thick. “That’s wonderful! I can’t believe you would name her after me- if she’s a girl- let me hug you-”

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Alexander chuckled and hugged her gently. “Thank John for it. If he would’ve never told me how lovely you are I would’ve never even thought of it. Eleanor is a very beautiful name and I can only hope that she’d be half as darling as you.” He smiled brightly and patted her back softly. “I’ll go check on John and make sure he hasn’t fallen back asleep. Sometimes he’s just too exhausted. He works really hard.”

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Eleanor was just worked up with emotions, smiling brightly and bouncing in her seat, babbling words of thanks and little compliments to Alex. As Alex went to check on John, John came out of wherever he’d been and plowed right into him. “Shit, sorry..”

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Alexander squeaked and put his hand over his heart. He laughed and shook his head. “You’re fine, you’re fine. You just startled me a little.” He pulled John along to join him in the living room. “I told your mother about the name. She’s so sweet and adorable.” Alexander moved to talk with John’s siblings, beaming as he became a social butterfly in the room full of people.

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“She really is, my mama’s the loveliest lady I’ve ever met, and that’s not just because she birthed me.” John sat with Alex, pitching a few words in to the conversation occasionally and getting up to go take a piss- being silently followed, of course, because man I just really, really wanna see Alex get protective as shit over his boy.

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Alexander was just talking it up, rambling with John’s siblings when John got up. He turned to tell him something and frowned when he sww Henry get up. He stood and moved in front of him to block his path. “With all do respect, I’d appreciate it if you’d stay in the living room. You have no business near this part of the apartment seeing as all it is is our room and the bathroom, which is obviously being occupied.” He looked at the man with a glare, daring him to challenge Alexander.

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Henry laughed- it was very unsettling- and he pushed Alex to the side, beginning to move forward and pretty much just waiting to be stopped again. He knew it would happen anyways.

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Alexander grabbed him by his shoulder and pulled him back. “I’d advise to sit your ass down before I make you,” he said, pushing the man back slightly. “Leave him alone. He’s done nothing to you. If you’re so ashamed then you can take yourself elsewhere. If you want to hurt him you’re going to have to get through me. I may be short but I can sure as hell throw a punch. I’ve been trying to be polite to you, but enough is enough.”

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He turned towards Alexander and let out a low growl. Whatever. He would just have to be quick when John came out. Which wasn’t too much later. He came out of the bathroom and went towards the left side of the couch, towards his mother and Alexander, but got almost immediately tripped up and.. jumped on top of? Stomped? He just hid his face. Whatever.

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Alexander really was very intolerant and fed up with this man. He shoved him away from John and opened the door, pushing him out. “Take your abusive ass somewhere else before I beat your ass and call the cops,” he barked out, slamming the door. He went to check on John quickly, kneeling next to him and cradling him. He cooes to him softly and placed kisses all over his face. He worriedly looked over at his mother and siblings. “Are you just going to sit there and watch that asshole beat him up like that? Let it happen? That’s no better than him doing it. Don’t let him control your family like that and, from the warmest place in my heart Mrs. Ball, why would you even stick around him? Why haven’t you done anything?”

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John cuddled up with him. The deep burning ache in his chest and abdomen was entirely familiar, and almost welcome. He had some serious problems with his father that always seemed to come back to some mild Stockholm syndrome. His siblings were mostly silent, muttering sad excuses, and his mother twiddled her thumbs. “It is easier to stay with him at this point. I am not in the best shape to work, he keeps me in his home- it’s a mutual relationship? He gives me a roof over my head and I clean and cook for him.”

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"You are always welcome to stay with us," Alexander said, keeping his voice soft and turning to kiss John's forehead. He pet his hair softly, combing his fingers through it. "We wouldn't mind. There's an extra room. We could keep the cradle in our room. Really, if it saves you from that piece of shit then I am more than happy to take you in. My mother died when I was very young. You, on the other hand, are a mother that has been graced with living a long life. You deserve to be happy and be around people who make you happy."