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You're like a fire shut up in my bones You're like a raging flood I can't control You're like a summer breeze blowing through the trees It's Your nearness bringing me to my knees With all my heart, my mind and strength I'll love You Lord, until the end With all my heart, my mind and strength I'll love You Lord, until the end You appear and walk through all my walls You come close and my defenses fall You light up our night like the rising moon It's Your kindness leading me back to You With all my heart, my mind and strength I'll love You Lord, until the end With all my heart, my mind and strength I'll love You Lord, until the end Until the end You will have my heart My dearest friend We'll never be apart Until the end We will always be 'cause there is no end to You and me Until the end You will have my heart My dearest friend We'll never be apart Until the end We will always be 'cause there is no end to You and me I know we'll go on and on and on Beyond forever This is our love, this is our love, this is our love You'll stand the test of time It will, it will, on and on I'm not holding back from You I'm not holding back I'm not holding back from You I'm not holding back I'm not holding back from You I'm not holding back I'm not holding back from You I'm not holding back I'm not holding back from You I'm not holding back With all my heart, my mind and strength I'll love You Lord, until the end With all my heart, my mind and strength I'll love You Lord, until the end

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feeling a bit overwhelmed lately

I’ve got a lot on my plate, despite (or perhaps due to) being a 3L.

law school / 12-credit course load [federal income tax, remedies, biotechnology & the law, a.i. frontier, law review]

pro bono / immigration/asylum law pro bono project [k.i.n.d.]

facilitating / redeemer women’s accountability group

co-leading / ucsd campus outreach discipleship group

volunteering /  redeemer kids’ ministry 

participating / redeemer community group

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“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”

1 Peter‬ ‭5:6-7

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Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:6‬ ‭MSG

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Hands down the best trip ever. Thank you, Jesus ❤️

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hawaii in may

it happening :D :D

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Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.

Luke 10:41-42

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3.7.19 | universal studios hollywood, wizarding world of harry potter

had so much exploring harry potter world @ universal studios! i was mainly there for the food though, of course, and i was not disappointed. the three broomsticks came through for an incredible breakfast and lunch! so fun.

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2.21.19

My close friend from NY visited, and we spent the day together yesterday. The last time we really caught up was in 2017, I believe. Sadly, I realized that a lot of the things that I “updated” her on regarding my life were either mere repetitions of what I had told her two years ago (aka my life hasn’t changed much), or declines in certain areas of my life (aka some things have only gotten worse). Certainly a discouraging realization.

I’ve just felt so stuck over the past 3-4 years. I’ve been in this weird rut for so long that it’s become the new normal...

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2.9.19 | puppy foots :)

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2.9.19 | grateful for my fam (and doggies)

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2.7.19

Yesterday I learned that a friend from college recently passed away, tragically and unexpectedly. 

I didn’t know him well, but we were in the same social circles. I remember him being kind to those around him, always. He was always smiling, always positive. His passing has really affected me. My heart hurts for him and for his community. I so hope that he was saved, that he is now resting with the Father.

His death just brought things into perspective for me. Each of us is given an opportunity to live for God. We can either respond to his calling wholeheartedly and surrender in obedience to him, or we can ignore that calling and live for ourselves. There is no in-between. Life is so fragile; it can expire in a heartbeat with no warning sign. I found myself questioning whether I’d be content with my life thus far if mine too were taken away today, or tomorrow, or the next day. The answer is, probably not. 

Help us, Lord. We so desperately need you. Help us recognize that.

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1.6.19 | such a beautiful day; Jonathan, Tuck, and I took a walk to the beach today and grabbed Starbucks on our way back. I feel so blessed to live within walking distance of the ocean, and I hope to take more of these relaxing walks in 2019. ☺️

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1.1.19 | My first day of 2019 started off fine but quickly took a turn for the worse. After a homey breakfast with my family and then an outing to see the new Spider-man movie, I started experiencing intense stomach cramps and chest pains that resulted in my laying in bed / on the couch and sipping on soup and tea for the rest of the night. Not how I’d imagined the first day of a brand new year to play out. X_X

1.2.19 | Today is a new day, though. Jonathan and I celebrate our 3-year anniversary (!!!) and, though he will be busy for most of the day, we will hopefully get to spend some quality time together before the day is over, reflecting on these past 1,095 days of marriage. :)