“When I see human families all together, especially families with sticky-mouthed, giggling little sisters, I don’t like the way I feel.
I don’t imagine myself back in a life like theirs; what I imagine is going over there and scaring them until they cry.
I would never, of course.
I mean, I don’t think I would”
Jude is not unlike Cardan here. The main difference between them, the one thing that keeps her anchored from surrendering into this particular breed of unrestrained cruelty that is very notoriously Cardan, is that she has a family that loves her, that sees her. Despite the inherent problems within that family (her feeling like an outsider in the trio of her sisters, the fear-love she has with Madoc, etc), she was still raised with a form of familial love that Cardan was not.
These words though, the wildness she’s feeling, and how she wants to lash out, is so similar to the burning rage that Cardan gave into that I can’t help but GET THE FEELS because of how similar they are. My little angry monsters.