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The abyss is cold and so lonely

Let me steal your warmth

And let our silent laughs

Fill the space in our hearts

OKAY, I THINK ITS DFSDFSDFGSDF FINALLY DONE. I hope to not have have to deal with this idiot ever again

I got fined XD offff you damn birch I hope you will disappear from my sight screw you

Anyway, I guess Im fine, I had some rollercoaster of emotions but thanks to the help of my family I got it all resolved quite well. Mentally Im quite back to basic state; tho I have horrible insomnia right now and very very bad thoughts towards this guy but I can live with this

SO I guess I gonna say this

June gonna be my month uwu

I dont accept it wouldnt happen (✧ω✧)

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ugh, I think my browser is broken, it likes to show very weird suggestions >.>

Just a quick update; Im ok; the situation Im in is quite stressful but I hope to get it resolved. I dont wanna think too much about it rn, I will try to just chill and relax and do some art stuff ;)

CORRUPTED ONES The Twins

best siblings ever uwu

and I can say I have the best brother ever ;-; he called me today to tell me to let him know if that dude is still gonna harass me and even offered to go to the police station with me if I need to. I love my younger brother soo much, its amazing to have people who are there for me and gonna help no matter what happens

My husband is going there with me so I think we're gonna resolve this issue. Im so happy to have him cause Im not really able to deal with everything and my autism and borderline might make things very bad [especially if people around dont know it or are just bad towards people with higher needs]. Im so glad that if there are any issues we are working as team and help each other no matter what <3 I guess its your sign to ask out person you wanna date ;D

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I hope you burn in hell and weight of your sins will torment you to the end of your days

There is dude with two fcuking aggressive dogs. I tried my best to avoid them, I was changing hours when I walk Postal and places where I go. But he again cames there with one of those fjsdhfiuokeshjrfiwleksjf dogs

Postal bit that dog. Yes, he wasnt on a leash cause I was in a tiny green spot. But he came again, from a place I couldnt see him. I was suspicious of that dude and now Im terrified. He is also damned liar, we had agreement I pay for vet fot this fucccccked dog and he leaves me alone and wont file complain to police. I knew he was suspicious, I knew why I didnt believe him. He also triggered PTSD from a situation where 3 dudes tried to scare me and steal my money. He is the same. Posta; knew we were in danger so he wanted protect me

I feel horrible, I take painkillers and then I'm woken up by a call. From the police. He lied. He actually filed this report to keep tormenting me. Now Im scared to go out. Im going there on Thursday. I see already that both my physical and mental health got vertuy bad. I feel so much pain and I see I wont escape my fate. I tried, I was fighting to be alive. But I see how my health worsened and I feel I wont have so much time anymore. I guess if they wanna do something I gonna take it to court, I wanna see if they will try to see if Im mentally ready for it and they will see they torment weak autistic girl with serious help issues

I will only have peace if he will have to repay for tormenting me to death

I guess my fate is to stay as restless spirit, I hope I will have chance to haunt him and he will feel my pain

I dont know how long I can stand it. perhaps this is goodbye

Sorry, I wrote it during my mental breakdown so its so damn chaotic and shows my true feelings. I wanna keep this as a scream before a thing happens. Just in case it will happen at time we dont know

slimy friend uwu

and soon it gonna look for new home 🖤

% of days where I feel great and Im happy and enjoying my life increased a lot lately ^^

Of course with my borderline I still have violent mood swings but I dont feel as bad as in past

It will be ok

Im feeling fine and Im very motivated ^^ I slept a lot this weekend cause I had to go to doctors and 2 shops on friday and I was soooooo exhausted after this x.x I hope to do a lot tonight ^^

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CORRUPTED ONES Mary the Mimic

I decided to make some adoptables ^^ Im not sure if to put them for sale with single pictures or have 3 of them in one?

Btw, I will be selling them on my DeviantArt, I cant really try to put them on all socials and be able to keep track etc. especially that I gonna put them as auctions.

My socials arent working that well anyway, I hate that my severe health problems led to this, I have maybe 10% engagement I used to have x.x All I've built was taken away when I was fighting for my life :/ that suuuuckssss asssssss so much! Its very demotivating and now I dont really know what to do anymore… Should I try to wake up an algorithm to see me again or abandon my accounts and make new ones?

Sometimes I just wanna disappear cause my chance was ripped from my hands and I wasnt able to stop it cause well, I WAS FCUKING DYING >:/ what is the point of being alive if you have to start from the beginning? I dont wanna abandon my accounts cause they hold so much history, but perhaps this story should end.

Sometimes I just wanna leave without a word and disappear, probably not sharing much who I used to be. New acc and new life? Perhaps it would be better to not prolong this misery

but I dont know if I would still want to be Hekkoto. Perhaps she should’ve died a long time ago.

I dont know. I feel so down and hopeless. No matter what I want to do, what I try it seems like death is just 2 steps behind me. Is it worth trying with a new acc anyway? My health is bad, I dont know if I would be gone for a longer period of time and this would fail anyway?

ugh

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Denimo concept art | lost 2007 flash game

after 4353654 years I finally finished designing her x.x Im working on some YT video in vibes of ‘’2007 lost flash game’’ and here is our lovely gurl owo

Im working on this for a few years already x.x damn my health, I was thinking and planning this for sooo long already… but I guess cause I have so much stuff for this planned and written down I can finally progress uwu I hope to make and post this asap <3 Im working on both my arts and YT videos and I hope to spoil you with them soon <3

OMG TODAY IS MY 5TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY! ＼(≧▽≦)／

yay, finally lately time is much better so Im full of motivation and hope ^^

have a good day, I feel alive again

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Before eternal darkness will swallow you…

I had flare up of my chronic illness and my great plans and ambitions were moved further away

but Im fine, I still have a lot of motivation and I can look positive towards the future. It gonna be ok. I think maybe even awesome. I believe in myself and my dreams and I wont be stopped by mere pain and exhaustion

Im slow, way slower than I expected. But its fine, as long I keep moving towards my dreams its fine

btw, have you seen [or heard about] the recent 9days long charity stream by łatwogang? :3 damn, Im so happy that livestream not only was able to collect +280 000 000PLN and so many people joined it 🖤

I hoped to post stuff during this and such for example to share it more but my illnesses flareup decided it perfect time to take me away from doing anything but I was able to see a lot from it, mostly from some summaries and such and Im always happy to see such amazing things to turn out so amazing! Im so happy that a lot of kiddos with cancer got huge help and have bigger chances to get better 🖤🖤🖤

Its especially amazing for me cause its one of my long term goals, if I will be making nice money from my arts and such I wanna go alot into charity and helping. As someone who deals with awful health issues, especially with a big factor in them going so bad being neglect I wanna do something which will help kiddos who face things I faced. If I could help kids dealing with mental health issues, chronic illnesses, neglect and lack of support for neurodivergent kids I would be the most happy and I consider it a thing that would allow my restless spirit to find peace [one of my big life goals, I dont wanna be evil spirit looking for vengeance anymore >.>]

anyway, my hubby went with his friends kayaking today and will be back tomorrow so I gonna finally do my amazing super productive day~ I have so many things done halfway, I need to catch up on some stuff but I think THIS MAY is my start finally to be such amazing most artistic version of myself 🖤 I still have super often migraines but it gonna be ok ^^

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Im your wildest dream

but I can become your worst nightmare

yay, Im doing very well in last days ^^ I still need a lot of sleep and rest but I can do stuff ･ﾟ･(｡>ω<｡)･ﾟ･ finally!

I think I will be finally able to create as much I want and be online and talk with my dear darklings (つω`｡) oh thats so happy thoughts!

I hope you like such stupid graphics where I use photomanipulation and do kinda collage like this; I have some weird photos I made and stuff like this rtg of my mouth XD like bro, why do you think I still have my wedding dress ;D

Oh about the wedding! On 8th May I have MY 5TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY! damn, its also our 12th year of being together <3

I guess I will be ‘using’ it in some of my works, cause listen lil fcuks, I have horrifyingly amazing story and you need to hear it XD

Anyway, there is something I thought about since few years, I wanna make something like animation/animatic to song My Innermost Apocalypse from The Binding of Isaac [Wrath of the Lamb DLC XD]

My other idea is I wanna sing Guillotina from Mewgenics but meanwhile being dressed to look kinda like her [size of stomach I ready already 👍] and kinda ‘dance’ or more like, move like crazy yandere gf? I have half of it done in my head already >XD

That would be especially funny cause I have character who is blue cat, one of my oldest ocs >XD I kinda feel like its not coincidence [it is, but shhh]

anyway as you see Im doing great ^^ love ya my darklings and see ya soooooon~

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Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

really grumpy kitteh

yo, Im doing very well last days ^^ while physically its still not perfect I made huge progress mentally ^^ Im working on few things so I hope to be posting them in upcoming days

Oh, I will finally have glasses with blue filter again! I had my eyes checked yesterday and tomorrow Im going with my mom to pick up nice frames and order this all. Damn Im so glad my mom got discount to get 2nd pair cause I havent funds for new pair and I feel I see negative effects of not having ones with how much I use my computer ^^; I have some minor sight impairment but with my astigmatism I dont see that much difference >XD

I guess I will be sharing more cool info and stuff in upcoming days, I started some 28days challenge and I hope to draw, make videos and post more often now ^^ I also passed 50th day from 100 days of drawing something [even one line], I will be sharing how it looks so far in upcoming YT vid too!!

I was so ded in the beginning of this year but I can finally see Im more alive for real ･ﾟ･(｡>ω<｡)･ﾟ･

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Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

Progress in my health is so. damn. slow. its driving me insane >XD

I wanna do stuff ;-;

But it still moves forward! Seeing progress I had since my health got this awfully bad amazes me how I got from someone almost fully bedridden or feeling too bad to do anything to someone who can go make groceries without dying while doing it or after ;D I can work, not too much at time but still, on my arts and art projects

I would love to feel good again but I guess it requires patience I DONT HAVE >:{

But seeing how far I got makes me think I might be able to do as many things as before probably still this year!

While being half-dead for few years really hit me but thanks to love, care and support I got it wasnt that bad as my ‘darkest times’; being in awful pain, feeling like worthless trash and that I cant do stuff was horrible, yes, it definitely made me rethink me not following my big plan and perhaps it was mistake but those over 8,5 year I lived above what I planned to still was able to give me a lot of joy and happiness. It showed me how much I can be loved and cared for, how amazing people I can meet around, that doing stuff I love its awesome. That world can be awesome, that I can make it all work

Taking care of my neglected health also gave me a lot [welp, I would be ded rn if I didnt do it >XD], you know how awesome it is to be able to breathe? XD I finally got proper help from a psychiatrist and therapy allowed me to understand myself better, see how I think differently, me being who I am is not a problem but how I was treated in the past was

so yeah, I guess for now its all I wanna say ^^ dont worry about me, I decided I wanna wait after Easter to be fully back cause going to places and seeing people makes me so anxious I know I will be useless ball of anxiety now >XD

I hope after holidays I will be able to put my plans into action and I feel so happy and excited ^^

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Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

SNEK IS REBORN

heya my darklings :3 Im really happy to say that I feel like Im on another step of understanding life and myself and my problems better. I feel like I was able to discover or recover part of me that was trapped and was suffocating me everyday. I know there will be better and worse days but happiness I can feel, being able to be myself and enjoying world around is always great ^^ No matter how strong the storm is, there will be always sun waiting ahead

Im happy to start changing some things, my new skills and knowledge, being able to connect to anything I used to do in past - stopped because I felt like only certain things are liked and its better to stuck in safer zone but I feel more free again

I mean, my social media are dead rn cause I was kinda dying last, idk 3 years? So there is nothing to lose anyway, we will see which part of me will get more liking but I still gonna do some stuff only cause I WANNA DO IT and watch it or not but Im not gonna miss it! >:}

you can see lil fancy fella came back! Snek is lil cute bun and Im aways cheering up when I can draw something with him :”>

btw. its kinda daily challenge but due to my health ‘daily’ might be very broadly interpreted

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto

Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

Blessed in darkness

Baptized in silence

Questions led to truth which perhaps should stay buried

okay, damn, Im so happy I can finally post/write this; I was so extremely exhausted and in awful pain but Wednesday gave me some answers about my health tl;dr My blood tests I was making for rheumatologist are fine, my cough is still here but this isnt turning into anything worse 👍

I was feeling quite good that day so I made also groceries and picked few clothes cause its day with super cheap price cause they try sell what they can before next delivery

today Im feeling good again so I gonna do stuff ^^ rn everything seems to be good so Im super extra positive about this all and hopefully next days will be good too ^^ I will try to use my time the best I can cause Im already feeling better mentally thanks to tiny daily steps Im doing. Im really hopeful towards future ^^

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto

Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

Last days to get this Print <3 Im still kinda sick so Im quite absent ugh

Become my Patron before 13th of March to get it + obviously you will get March one too

https://www.patreon.com/Hekkoto

yo Im coming with lil update about me being sick: I still have quite a bad cough and feel quite bad so Im going to get it checked cause due to my asthma plus probably other illnesses too in my case its way more dangerous to get it progress to something more serious. I really hope it will finally end. Its very frustrating and I see on my body its taking all my energy and it really struggles to keep going. I really love its timing, when I finally feel better mentally and am able and want to do things my body will be making it impossible (´-ω-`)

I just wanna tell you to not worry about me, Im dealing with it quite ok; I will let you know if something will change with my health. Im resting a lot and just collecting ideas >XD Im doing some kind of challenge where I draw everyday for 100 days but its enough if it will be even just one line, so far I missed only one I think? So Im not just rotting ;D

Few of the problems already got resolved/resolved themselves so its another positive note (￣▽￣)ノ

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Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

We all know what a true love is~

Cause I was ded there is an extended time to get this one: I was sick last weeks, this damn cold doesnt wanna go awayyyy aaaa =,= fck me and my life ugh. Yeah, due to me being sick and stuff its extended to 10th of March to get it + obviously you will get March one too. (⌒_⌒;) sorry for being such failure aaaaaaaaaaaa

my Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/Hekkoto

Im still a bit sick and my mood swings are more persistent but I hope NOW it will get better =,=

It sucks that first 2 months of 2026 were quite bad but hopefully with right mindset and my strength I can pull through another year

But Im slowly more and more able to do stuff so thats something >XD

I need to work way harder this month cause my husband has new job and its way better than previous but Im a bit worried about our finances in March so I hope to make some adoptables ans others, I need to finish 2 things I owe and put 100% into this month ;)

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto

Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

Say you’ll be mine... We’ll be divine! My paws were made for you, My claws, I'll see what they can do! This kitty wants her cream... This pussy, oh, she has a little dream! Come, let me play... Don’t run away! I'll have my way with you and when I’m done, you'll say "I'll say!" I’m coming for you, tonight... I’m ready, shut the door, turn out the light!

I cant belive that Mewgenics is something that gave me this final push to be back to being my truly art self :3 I have few games in my life that were big part of who I am now, they not only showed me better what I like but they were present and were part of times that big changes or things were happening in my life ^^

I gave myself lil challenge to get back to creating more, my past tries were often failing cause of me not wanting to accept that my sickly body cant do as much as my mind wants >XD so right now its that I will draw everyday for 100 days at least one line a day. On good days I can draw whole arts but if I feel bad its ok to scribble some shlt

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) so yeah, yandere Guillotina is something that gave me strength and reignited my passion :v

btw Im still sick but doing better tho I cough a lot and sounds awful but I dont feel that bad anymore

I hope to be healthy soon so I can do moar stuff ｡ﾟ(｡ﾉωヽ｡)ﾟ｡ a lot of things get better rn so Im very positive about everything. But I know I cant be really happy if Im not able to create and share it all ;-;

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto

Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

When fit sits so hard you even care to make photo XD

Just wanted to let you know we have a cold. Again. I mean, rn we have weather where it gets from very cold to quite warm, very strong winds and sum snow/snow with rain. So its super common season for cold :v

Btw, have you seen the game Mewgenics? :3 its so damn amazing aaaaaaa

I love the vibes, gameplay and music.. damn good shlt >XD Im huge fan of The Binding of Isaac [especially Rebirth will all DLCs :3] and damn, Im soo sooo soooooo happy 🖤

Im huge fan of humor and overall vibes in those games 🖤

Anyway, Im ok, had some borderline mood swings but after hitting rock bottom Im doing better again ;) thats very exhausting but Im staying strong, trying to relax, get healthy again and I hope to be back as soon as possible cause I wanna do stuff, not only sleep :<

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto

Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

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