my sanctuary

call me unique, coz' I may look like a snob but I am a sanguine for real. I like photography, fashion and the untouched nature. I also like adventures or just simply having fun in my own perspective of the word.. I am a water person and I love dancing. I like people who can really give me a good laugh. But, well... I have to admit that i can be very impulsive at times.. hhmmm.. this is my santuary, this is where I throw all my uhmmm.. random thoughts. sooo.. :D haha!

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red riding hood with 🐶 #styling101 #fashionstyling #fashionteam #makeupbyjomah #teamjomahjingx #styledbyxyza #prenup #weddingshoot #forest #photoshoot (at The Forest Barn)

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Yaaas!!! Check this out!!

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always remind yourself of what you wanna accomplish

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Why.. hello again!!

I havent been here in decades.. hahaha!! Its been a while since i poured out my emotions.. probably because its easier for me to write when i am frustrated, depressed or heart-broken. I went through my page.. and see that almost all my longs posts are about negative feeling, unspoken conflicts.. which for a fact drains the energy in me. Besides.. its like reading the bad things that have happened to me over and over again. But on a positive note, after going through all those mixed emotions.. and pp those negativity.. and after reading all those crap.. i laugh!! I was just like looking at your old self.. and realizing.. a lot has changed. You are now in a better place than you were "decades" ago... and feel better.. and again.. laughing at the old you!!

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THIS!! Coz we are welcoming 2016 with a blast!! 😎✌ #squadgoals #artists #model #photographer #stylist #makeupartist #dancer #skater #hairstylist #fashionteam #photoshoot #happy2016 (c) Ronan Capili

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this bottle is magic!! 😍😍😍 #houseoflux #BatheWithLux (at Marriott Grand Ballroom, Resorts World Manila)

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that brick wall.. ❤👌 #strikeapose #vogue #voguephilippines #xyzamizrahi (at URBN BGC)

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mirror me.. goodmorning!! 🌞😄👌 #mirroreffect #voguepose #strikeapose #xyzamizrahi #houseofmizrahi (at End Up Bar)

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at a diner with my grade 3 smile.. #happykid #americandiner #atthecounter (at West Orange, New Jersey)

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the kind panda

he can be so clueless but he indeed has a kind heart. he can be so busy yet be so sweet at the same time. he can be so quiet but his hugs speak a lot. he can just stare straight to your eyes and melt your heart. I love my panda.. soooo much! cant wait to be back.. ❤🐼❤

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Dont try too hard

Relationship. Friendship. Connection. I have observed that often times, people are just there because they need something from you. Dont be caught up to the idea that your friends then will still be your friends now. Sometimes, most times.. they are just there at certain points in your life when you need them. But that doesnt mean they werent really your friend at that time. Sound confusing right?! People in our lives come and go. At the right time, at the right place, at the right moment. They are there at specific timelines in our lives where and when we need them most. And once their purposes in our life is over. Its time to move on. We share experiences from hundreds or even thousands of people. We are all connected to each other somehow. Everyone we meet, everyone we see, everyone we experience.. changes us. Each contributes to who we are now. Some people stay in our lives.. some dont. This is reality. We learn from every person we encounter. But we all have to move forward somehow. This could be vague but.. yeah, you cant move from one chapter of your life to another if you keep browsing on previous ones. People dont really change. People grow. To the a better person everyday. Everyone is challenged.. we can be at our lowest points in our lives at one time and be at the highest the next. The people who are with us during our low times, are indeed valuable.. they matter. They play a big part in our lives. But surely.. we cant keep track of all of them all the time.. we may not have the capacity to keep in touch with each and everyone who taught us. Hence we may not be able to be the same to them if they are the ones experiencing their low times. Hence, the miscommunication.. and the relationship just grows apart. But i believe everything has a purpose. Things happen for a reason. Why look for people who are not there for you at the present moment. Value those who are with you NOW. Dont keep looking behind, dont keep re-remembering the past. How this person used to be your bestfriend, how this person always share jokes with you, how this person used to be your treasure box of secret. Get real. He/she is not that person anymore. Im not saying he/she is now your enemy. All im saying is that he/she changed.. grew.. became better.. also because of you. Real friends are hard to find indeed. The ones who stay are like diamonds. They are very rare. Value the diamonds in your life. The others are important as well but can be passed on. To people who needs them next, whether it is friendship or relationship. Its time to meet new people. Who will add spice to your life. Give you new challenges. New experiences. And will help you be even better. Dont take me wrong. Im not saying that you should completely block out the people from the past. All im saying is that you shouldnt hold on to them so tight. Enough forcing a previous relationship thats gone. Make new ones. If the people in your past will be the same people in your future. You wont have to try so hard. MOVE FORWARD. Just do what you gotta do.. for yourself. Shine on your own. For sure people, friends or not, will be around you. Whether to break you or teach you. Each one has a purpose in molding you. Accept so as not to regret. Embrace everthing that comes your way. But always remember. To be the light if everything seems so dark.

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Communication

This is very essential in a relationship. Most especially if the people involved are far away from each other. The distance is not only the factor.. time difference could also be barrier. I have experienced being away from the person i love for several weeks now. And i must say talking to him is very important. The distance can indeed challenge your love and commitment for each other. How you go through each day without being with each other. Not seeing each other. Its hard. Although even if back home you dont really live together. The thought of being in separate countries can kill. Plus the time difference, its really hard to communicate. One either has to stay up late or to wake up too early in order to hear each others voice. Then after awhile. The effort stops. The consistency just fades. And the conversation you have shortens. Til it comes to a point that all you say to each other is goodmorning and goodnight. And the only form of conversation you have is by telling each other where you are. Its a sad truth. The tale doesnt stop here. The longing grows. You miss each other so much.. you want to talk to each other so bad. But then, you no longer have the time.. until the communication stops. Then you fight. Then it ends. All of a sudden, a big question mark appears.. I dont know how to end this, but my point is.. all i need is someone to talk to.. not someone to report to.. END.

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A cycle can be tiring.. hence make something interesting out of it..

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A chang in perspective

this trip has been opening several possibilities. encouraging me to focus on certain probabilities. i need to sacrifice several things in order to give my heart peace and happiness. Tired of being trapped. Tired of being manipulated and doubted. I wanna be limitless. I wanna be set free. This decision can cause several questions i myself wont be able to answer. But when a person wants your best interest at heart for sure they will always support younno matter what. For sure this will make me see those who are real and those who are not. Its time to let these wings fly. Its time. Its time.

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missing my panda.. this view will be best enjoyed when im with you! ❤🐼❤ #ldr #pandatravels #pandaadventures #nature #mountainpeak (at Heavenly Ski Resort, Lake Tahoe)

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it's the kind of feeling i have for you.. always and forever!!! #love #pandalove #pandas #forever ❤🐼❤ happy 17th my love!!! I miss you so much! I LOVE YOU!! 💋💋💋 #myonlyone

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never fails to amaze.. 😎 #nofilter #sky #latepost #wheninnewyork