Idiot 1, 2, And 3

Enabler AU ask blog!!! All credits too @ephermalnexus for AU and Pfp-Banner!!!!!!! They’re really cool go follow them!! (canceled for now, may come back)

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!!!!!!!RULES!!!!!!!!!

!!WARNING! This ask blog will be diving into deeper topics such as Suicide, Abuse(physical, mental, and emotional), depression, and many others! Please do not continue if you’re sensitive to that stuff!!

Again, this is NOT my AU or my art!! All credits to @ephermalnexus they’re a wonderful person and amazing artist. I do NOT claim any of this as mine, I’m simply taking an idea I love and having fun with it while trying to stay as close to the source material as possible!! That being said:

- ABSOLUTELY NO NSFW! I beg of you please don’t be weird in my inbox!! You may ship characters though, just don’t make it weird. -

- No real world/Political/Personal asks about the mod allowed. It just makes me uncomfortable and I’d rather not! -

- Anon magic welcome! Just don’t go OP with it(you can’t kill anyone, stuff like that) -

- There may be some mischaracterization, obviously. Im not the perfect writer, hell I’m barely a good writer, but I’m gonna try my hardest to keep these guys as close as canon as possible. That all being said, there most definitely will be some accidental mischaracterization. Pls don’t yell at me for it, if anything leave a comment so I know and can change it. -

- Each character has their own problems and personality, I will try my best to explore this in each of them. Even if I mischaracterize someone I’ll be trying my best ^^’ that being said. Jim will not be infantilized here, he’s a grown ass man who just happens to be babied a bit more by Ivan. Thomas will not be vilified or demonized here, yes hes not exactly the more healthy and he has his guilts and issues but hes a good guy trying to get better. Ivan’s actions will not be romanticized or taken lightly, I plan to dive into some darker topics with this blog and Ivan’s actions will not be excused to shown in a light that makes him look good.

- more will be added as I think to add things :) -

!!!LORE!!!

(Again this is my take, and my spin on this lore. It’s not gonna be 100% accurate to every little bit and piece to canon, but I will try.)

Ivan needed new roommates. Andrew had left, he had gotten fired from his job for his weeks of not showing up. His mind was in a spiral. He couldn’t pay for everything himself anymore he needed help. Luckily for him, they did too.

Ivan, Thomas, And Jim all live in Ivan’s apartment. Jim lost his house due to his hospital bills after his attempt, and Thomas is simply relocating to a different place to get away from the memories of his old life. Ivan doesn’t plan on letting this one leave, though.

Jim is completely dependent on Ivan, Ivan brings him food and cleans up after him. Jim is practically babied, the favorite child of the family. Doesn’t mean Ivan doesn’t have his moment with Jim, yelling at him about one thing or another but it never changes.

Thomas is a bit different. Ivan sees him more as a threat since he plans to leave, so Ivan does what he does best and tries to control the situation. Thomas is trying to be sober and quit his meds but it hard to do that when the withdrawal aggression kicks in and he has Ivan in a headlock or a strangling hold. These symptoms shouldn’t be as severe, so why are they? Thomas sits in guilt at his actions to unstable enough to move forward as Ivan devolves his meds in some water, handing it to him.

Ivan himself? Not much to say. Grew up in a house that didn’t feel like home, no control anywhere in his life. His best friend who he still crushes on left him from his behavior so now he searches for that same feeling of power of control. Maybe he’s found it in these two poor unfortunate souls.

(AND ALSO THE ENDLESS TORMENT TRIO IS HERE THEY LIVE IN THE APARTMENT UNDER IVAN AND FRIENDS ILL ADD LORE TO THEM LATER IM TIREDDD)

Tags and characters under the cut

[OPEN FOR ASKS!!]

Ivan- white italicized text. Tag: “[Youll understand.]”

Thomas- green text. Tag: “^I can stop when I want.^”

Jim- Red text. Tag: “{Im safe here.}”

Andrew- Orange/Yellow text. Tag: “|Stay out of my life.|”

Tobias- Half Blue Half White text. Tag: <“TBD”>

Emmerson- Half Red Half Blue text. Tag: !”Better here than dead.”!

John/Grace- Purple text. Tag: ?”I am saved.”?

Soren/Skittles - alternating three colors. Tag: \”Take your meds”/

Computer - Strike through. Tag: ~”TBD”~

Tumor - TBD. Tag: •”TBD”•

[CLOSED FOR ASKS]

No one!

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Hhiiii my friends I am so so so sorry to make this announcement

I will likely not continue this blog, a lot of stuff has come up in my life(school, work, health stuff Yknow the drill) and I just can’t put a lot of energy into this as I want too.

Please feel free to yoink this idea from me and create your own ask blog, idc if you copy everything or nothing at all. This ask blog is public use ig!

I’m so sorry to everyone I’m letting down, but this is the best option for my mental health

[ephermalnexus]

Confessions- Enabler AU (Short Story)

Ivan remembers the last time he'd been to church. The same one his father's funeral was held. It was the final week before he and his mother moved, teary goodbyes and warm hugs shared between the aisles, but Ivan can only remember staring at the altar. He never stepped foot into another church since then.

Well, until now.

The door clicks open beside him.

"Hello, my- oh! You're Thomas' friend. Ivan, correct?"

"Yeah, that's me. Has he talked about me?"

"We live on the same complex, but we haven't been properly acquainted. I'm sure you've met my partner. He's knocked at your door a couple of times."

"Oh, right... well it's nice to meet you, eh-"

"John."

"Right, John."

"So, what is it you wish to confess?"

"... I feel like I'm not doing enough. I've been working so hard to be a better person. But when I try to help people, to prove that I am changing, I end up making things worse."

"Proving yourself to who? To yourself, or others?"

"Well, I know I can change. I want to show that I can. But it's so hard to do it when people don't believe you. I can't be a good person if nobody's giving me a chance."

"You are what you perceive yourself, not other's around you. The only one who can judge our character is the Lord. It's His good light that'll guide us to redemption, we have to carve our own paths. We have to help ourselves before we can save others."

"So, what? I have to isolate myself for the good of others?"

"Of course not, our love is there to share. But we have to reflect on why we give it. Do you help others because it's what they need, or because you want something to gain?"

"Are you saying I'm selfish?"

"I'm not your enemy, Ivan. You joined us today because you wanted to heal, no? We must recognize our sins before we can meet Him under his light. Our reflections are not pretty, but we have to face it regardless."

"I already know I'm a bad person! That's what I've been saying! Is that not enough? Just tell me how to fix it! What more do I need to do for him to forgive me! For Andrew to- to..."

"..."

"If you need a minute to calm down, I understand. You can stay after hours so we can talk more about this, if you wish. I'll still be here."

"No. No it's fine."

"Are you sure, Ivan?"

"I said it's fine, I don't need anything else."

"I understand. But, Ivan, you're always welcome to come back. His love will always be with you."

"... Bye."

[hellboundheavenbound]

(MY THEORY WAS RIGHT!!! I WAS RIGHT!!!! IVE BEEN CORRECTTTT!!!!!)

[ephermalnexus]

Help - Enabler AU (Short Story)

CW: Mentions of PTSD, panic attacks

[Another episode, one Thomas couldn't remember setting him off. It could've been anything: a loud noise, something playing on the TV, or an unpleasant conversation. It didn't matter what triggered it, he just knows that it happened and he winded up in the closet again. Unfortunately, dragging an unwilling participant with him.

Jim slowly emerges from the closet, shaken up by the whole ordeal. His mind hadn't caught up with what happened. One second, everything was fine. Until Thomas came barging into his room, hands locked over an invisible rifle, mumbling a conversation that Jim wasn't a part of. He then grabbed Jim, calling him by a name he didn't recognize, sending Jim into a whirlwind of panic as he's dragged around the apartment, ending the search huddled in the closet until the man calmed down.

Careful to not make any sudden moments that might send the veteran reeling back to the trenches. But those were only fleeting memories. Now it's just the two of them.]

"I-Is... is it safe now?"

"... Yes, Jim, everything's fine. You can come out."

"Okay... are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm sorry that I gave you a scare like that, I don't mean to keep dragging you into my business like this. Just forget this ever happened, okay?"

"I... I don't that's okay."

"Pardon?"

"I-It's scary when you do this. You get so... lost, and start walking around the apartment talking about things that don't make sense. I don't understand. Did I do something wrong?"

"No, no. You didn't do anything wrong. It's my fault these things happen. Little things just set me off like this and it sends me into these episodes that I can't control. You're not responsible for that, nobody is."

"But it keeps happening and they're getting worse. W-what if you have another one and you end up hurting yourself? What if you hurt Ivan? Or me?"

"I-I wouldn't... I don't want to hurt anyone."

"You're a very nice person, Thomas. You help me a lot with things I can't do. I want to help you too. I-I don't know how to do that, but if you can tell me, I'll do it."

"You don't have to burden yourself..."

"Please, Thomas. I want to do something."

"... You're real stubborn, huh?"

"I-is that bad?"

"No, no, stubborn in a good way. You don't give up, even when everything else tells you otherwise. Good qualities of a soldier, my drill sergeant used to say..."

"Did you really go to those training camps, like in the movies? Uhm... I-if you want to talk about that..."

"Hmm, I never really do talk about it, do I...?"

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(SHOVES THIS IN MY MOUTH AND CHEWS ON IT)

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Does Jim like horses..? I feel like they’d be too big for him (scary) so pony’s might be better..but idk

[*Jim perked up at the mention of horses, taking Tobias’s bathroom break as a moment to answer*]

“I love horses honestly, they’re one of my favorite animals..horses, owls and cats..”

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thomas i havent been here in a bit What Did I Miss

im asking you because . youre thomas !

hows it going ?

“Oh! Uhmmm nothing much! We’re at the beach though!”

[*Thomas smiled, holding a fish tightly in his hands*]

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Anon what the hell! You didn't need to steal my money! You could be just asked for it!

Oh. And Andrew, here.

Hands him a perpetually perfect temperature pillow

- ♠ anon

“Mmn..?”

[*Andrew took the pillow and immediately sighed in heavenly relief, shoving it against his chest and squeezing it with no mercy.*]

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(Cough..dw I didn’t forget about you guys I just haven’t had motivation! I’m back now)

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Tobias, I think Jim needs a bit of cheering up!

“Hm??”

[*Tobias saw him sitting on the sidewalk and immediately thought to help him out! He walked over and smiled at jim, offering him a popsicle*]

“Heya!! Jim, right? I’m so happy you guys decided to join us!”

“Oh..uh- right..yeah uhm mhm..”

[*Tobias started yapping, leaving Jim there to just listen and eat his popsicle. Weirdly enough Jim didn’t feel the need to run..the silence was filled with Tobias talking all he had to do was listen, it was nice..*]

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After mischievous child is done with ivan he is going to get DEEP in the water, go to thomas, get his head out of the water and say “I know what you are.” And then get back into the water untill he isnt visible

- @oreo-anon13

[*Thomas stares at the child confused, watching the kid slowly disappear*]

“….??????”

[*Gay?? Depressed?? What??*]

[hellboundheavenbound]

Its ok Andrew, some people just like fucking with others...

Anyway, I stole some of the gambling anons money and got you some headphones!

(Anon holds out new headphones)

They're all yours!

[*He sighed, laying face down in his bed with like three fans pointed at him*]

“Yeah, and they need to stop.”

[*He didn’t get up to grab the headphones it’s to hot for that*]

“Eehh just put them on my desk..thanks.”

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May I give Jim some slime..? I've heard that you can make it like sandy and beach-themed with stuffs you find on the beach..! I dunno if he'd likes it tho.. kickflip!

“Eeuh..”

[*He despises the texture of slime so he immediately tried to get it away and off of his hands*

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Alright,if you say so,I wont bother you much ^^;

[places a pretty lil sea shell next to jim as a gift] - 🖥️

[*Jim takes the sea shell and stares at it, fidgeting with it*]

“Thanks..”

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(ACTS BEAT MY ASS IM SO TIRED YALL, asks and stuff will be answered eventually I just so blleeehhh)

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W-what if Ivan noted your license plate andrew?

What if he follows you home?! What would we do then??

- 🧠 anon (paranoid anon)

“I have a Restraining order in progress, if he knows what’s good for him he’ll stay away from me. You also need to leave me alone, I don’t want those thoughts around me.”

[*bro is very serious about his mental health*]

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Small mischievous child with massive water gun go spray them with water NOW

- @oreo-anon13

“What the fuck- not again!!?”

[*Ivan is then chased with a water gun, once again. This time by a child!*]

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Andrew, you good? Just a general life check.

- 🫆 anon

[*Andrew had arrived home, slowly taking things back inside*]

“Ups and downs yknow? Mostly just fine most days.”