Light Yagami x reader wherein you see firsthand the change in Light when the Death Note returns to him. Something something Light was Kira's first victim.
A/N I ended up writing plot instead of concepts Ahsjsbsjbs. I write in your POV so if you're confused why he's not being evil it's bc he's not being evil to YOU 🫵 Also I don't beta read anything so be warned
Light who you were close with since highschool. Who was that smart kid you knew was going straight to college after graduating. The run of the mill teenager who everyone liked.
Light who you also admired and who was definitely very kind to you. The one with a sense of justice strong enough to insist you report to the teacher when some students were picking on you.
Light who was visibly frustrated when he saw how telling the teacher didn't work. That authority figures weren't doing much and lacked any real power to actually stop things from happening.
Light who you eventually lose contact with near the end of the year and in college when his dad gets busy with Kira investigations.
Kira who begins murdering kidnappers and criminals on the news. The list of deaths increasing. The public unrest of a serial killer but the quiet murmuring that the murderer is doing more to stop crime than the police.
Kira who believes that people don't change. That some people are just naturally born evil. That some people would have definitely been happier if the people picking on them had just died in highschool.
You who stays updated with the news of Kira. Who hears that people from your highschool class get added to the list of victims. The instant guilt you get for feeling momentarily avenged by the fact. The reluctant maturity to acknowledge that high school bullies do in fact change for the better instead of growing up to be criminals on death row.
Kira who had suddenly gone quiet. Who didn't kill for several days before starting back up with a different pattern.
Light who reconnects with you, still kind and gentle. Wide eyes and friendly smiles. Who couldn't help but look for you after getting released by L. Who couldn't fathom or recall why you both drifted away after highschool.
Light who definitely felt something was wrong when he was with Misa while not feeling as strongly as he did with you when you were both younger. Who felt guilty for leading her on but also responsible for roping Misa into the Kira investigations. Who stays in the relationship for now while rebuilding his friendship with you.
Light who talks to you about the investigations, his worries, and the Kira murders. Who agreed that Kira was a lunatic for murdering criminals. That violence wasn't the solution.
Light quietly admitting that he's happy the people who hurt you died.
Light who gets closer to you everyday. Sweet words, altruistic disposition. That same unwavering sense of justice that insists on what's right and very clearly points out what's wrong. The sweet talker that knows exactly what to say to make you fall for him all over again. The guy who was working day and night to find Kira and finally put an end to all these deaths.
Light who tells you there's a breakthrough. That they might finally catch Kira. The same one who forgets himself for a moment and kisses you goodbye.
Light who comes back happier, sweeter almost. Whose touch lingers longer than before. Fingers brushing your cheek that lacks the friendly restraint he'd kept guarded for so long. His words hold more affection, steps over the line of friendship and blurs it under his feet.
Light who confesses his feelings for you, who admits that he's known for a long time how he's felt. Who claimed that after the Kira was caught and died that he finally had the courage to tell you.
Light who still apologizes after confessing because he still needs to clear things up with Misa. The kind, conscientious man who didn't want to stress the poor girl who was implicated in this whole serial killer mystery because she was with him.
Kira who continues the executions even after they were deemed dead
Light who had gotten busier dealing with it all as some members of the task force dies. Who hadn't sent a message in a while. Who hasn't updated you on whether or not he'd spoken with Misa yet.
The feeling of you two drifting off again.
Light returning to you devastated after his father dies. Who clings closer to you now more than when you two reconnected. Who admits he'd neglected you and says he realized how much he's taken the people he loved for granted. Who insists on bringing you into the task force if only to ensure your safety.
Light who becomes head of the task force but makes it a point to come home to you. Who spends all his free time with you.
Light who loves to hear you speak and enjoys debating with you. Who chuckled every time you gave a contrary point. Who smiled in content when you would relent and agree. Your discussions always circling back to Kira and their extreme methods.
"We're at a point in history where people are in constant fear of being the next to die of a heart attack for making a mistake."
"If you're not a criminal, then you won't have to worry. Actually, the crime rate has lowered now because repeat offenders are dead and people think twice before committing crimes."
"Laws and equivalent consequences are in place for a reason, and making it the death penalty for everything takes away the concept of changing for the better."
Light makes a face, the idea of a terrorist rejoining society with a light heart after ruining hundreds of lives almost sickens him.
"Well, there are flaws in anything man-made, that includes the judicial system."
"Which makes it all the more concerning that Kira has all that power alone without anyone questioning their judgement."
"You think Kira is human?"
Light who puts on his typical charming smile but gets increasingly more on edge. A sharper gaze, and long silence deep in his own thoughts. You can't imagine what's going on in his head but you have a feeling a pattern is about to repeat.
You who refused to be left behind again. Who became more active in the task force, joined training, and worked your way to deserve to be by his side.
Late nights looking for any possible clues feel selfishly comfortable. Despite his cold, tired eyes, his words are still so warm when he compliments you. He coaxes you to retire for the night with warmer touches and kisses. Promises that everything will still be the same tomorrow.
Papers go missing in the morning.
More and more people get added to the investigation. It's clear to all of you that it's turning into a race to catch Kira.
A plan is made.
Matsuda pulling the trigger.
A cold warehouse, thirty minutes to wait. A creaking door, a 40-second countdown.
You weren't sure when it happened, how you've come to obsess over him so much to notice the little things. For your eyes to always be on him. His lips twitch as if holding back. Was he scared as well? You never thought such a day would come. You must not have been that observant to miss the fact his lips twitched up.
Your hands are cold when they reach out for his and his eyes finally drift to you. There's sympathy in his gaze as if in apology. Was he sorry for dragging you into this? You kept making excuses for him.
A list of names plain to see on a fake notebook. Yours cleanly written last.
Disbelief, then confusion. Denial then lies upon lies upon lies. Light running like a cornered animal.
"And you," Light turns his unfocused, panicked gaze past Matsuda and towards you. His voice shakes, throat nearly rasping from his angry ramblings after getting shot. "You're ungrateful. I did this for YOU! The people who hurt you are gone. I'm changing the world for you!"
Words escape you in the moment. Things seem much clearer in hindsight.
"You've changed," the sneer in his voice holds so much contempt and venom in contrast to his gentle whispers when you two were alone. Yet it does the same thing in pinching your chest and coaxing you to him.
"You're exactly the same," the pain in your voice at the realization that he wasn't as smart as you both thought he was.
He writhes on the floor and shrieks in a way that's too hard to watch. Pathetically and utterly defeated. He screams for a Hail Mary of names that don't include you.
You know that this would have ended the same way with or without you.
The concept that is Light who is Kira's first victim but not necessarily a different person. Like he's defo still seeing things black and white. If he grew up without the death note he'd still end up as a cop or probably a prosecutor. The fact he got power and was not fully developed in the brain just stunted that mental maturity that nuance is important.
Like I get it. You're idealistic as fuck as a high schooler I'm not gonna hear anyone out at the possibility you're mature enough.
But yeah I think he's a good kid that wants change but also aware enough that he's just a guy what can he do? So to get the thing that just screams solution feels like a sign from god himself. Plus his sense of justice so it's literally an "if not me then who?"
That being said I wrote this to be angstier but subverted my own expectations. I just got you male manipulated. I think it's a nice contrast of reader who believes people change and Light who believes there are inherently evil people. Only for it to end with him seeing you become different and you realizing he's always been like that. Also want to hammer home the fact this mf is such a manipulator dubsuzbzjs mf keeps using women I'm sick I'm sick. Want him still tho lowkey
I was unaware the link to this post didn’t work- it might be because of the mature label on my account? Or im just an old man. Anyway these bitches half off.
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