whyamithewaythatiam

just a girl with a lot of BPD feels, willingly and unwillingly seeking treatment ;)

[cinnaluna]

*someone calls my name*

Me, to the fuzzy land of disassociation I’m stuck in: oh shit that’s me guys, gotta go

[oxyjenn-deactivated20210115]

i have this Huge Fear™ that no one will ever actually want me or love me.

[insecttica]

I need intimacy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need closeness and tenderness and care and affection and love and softness all the fucking time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[beautifullyunspectacular13]

Whenever I have the chance to breathe, I just flood.

[myblissfulsuicide]

Do you ever get overwhelming urges to be devastatingly self-destructive? Because fuck.

[anxietyproblem]

Follow us @anxietyproblem​

[degraded-dolly]

some bpd things i don’t think i’ve seen people discuss:

- being quiet when you first meet someone so you can work out what kind of person they are and then tailor your personality to what you think they’d prefer

- choosing a personality for a date/meetup/interview/whatever is even more important than choosing an outfit

- tfw neurotypicals interpret you saying “i’ve been good” as “mental illness who? never heard of her” when in reality it’s more like “it’s been 2 days since our last abandonment scare”

- having a fight with someone due to mood swings and then it being awkward 20 minutes later when they’re pissed off and your mood has swung back up and you don’t care for what you just fought about

- cutting someone off before they can, then dissociating for the next month straight because you don’t know who the fuck you are without them

- forgiving someone. then un-forgiving them. rinse and repeat.

[skelet0nflowerx-deactivated2018]

wow

[n-bpd]

[exxtrauma]

nothing has ever felt real. it’s like i’ve been living in a memory

[ashzxlla]

[hellowhyamithewaythatiam-blog]

Have you heard there’s a rumor in... Pittsburgh...?

[beccasgrinsekatze]

Invalidating sentences you should not say to someone with BPD

• Not everyone who does (insert dysfunctional behavior here) has bpd

• Everyone does that

• Everyone feels this way

• You always overreact

• Why are you such a drama queen

• I also do (insert dysfunctional behavior here) and I don’t have bpd

• Oh so you’re saying everyone who does (insert dysfunctional behavior here) has a personality disorder…yeah right

• Oh my God calm down

• Can you stop? You’re embarrassing us

• Do you have your 5 mins again?

[pariaaaaah]

i can love you and you can love me but if you dont show me your love in a way that makes me feel loved then i will feel ignored and neglected and at that point it wont matter how much you love me

[earthtomaddie]

[thedinbpd]

BPD thoughts in a nutshell.

- from a book my mom is reading rn

[ofthemoonandsea-deactivated2019]

[the-nordic-system]

BPD is fun because you feel so much emotion you start violently shaking