OCD Hurts

I created this blog to support folks with obsessive /or compulsive disorders and are in need of guidance, advice, or validation. I’m not as active as I used to be, but I want the past posts/submissions to be a continuous resource of validation to anyone in need • Again, I’m not here often, but if you have questions of any kind, feel free to send in an ask or message me anyway • Absolutely everyone is welcome here, including those who are self diagnosed

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I've been having these awful random thoughts that i'll yell at people or start screaming slurs or become totally unhinged, and it absolutely horrifies me. I feel like an awful person for even thinking about it. I don't want to do anything my brain comes up with, but it still is really unsettling when it happens. Is there anything to stop thoughts like this?

I haven’t had any success in 100% preventing/these thoughts, but the main thing I tell myself when I’m experiencing this is: if I’m having anxiety about saying bad things, I clearly have no desire to say them, and I am not a bad person. This anxiety and discomfort comes from my morals saying “no no no!!!” and that response is a direct showcase of who I am as a person. Your are not your OCD, and you are not your intrusive thoughts. I am fully confident that you have goodness inside you

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Hey, so I have OCD and been really struggling since i visited home because so much of it is around my family's safety. I just heard this superstition that you shouldn't wash clothes on new years day because it'll "wash away a loved one in the coming year" or "wash awag good luck" and ofc my mum did washing today and it has sent me into a tailspin of anxiety and compulsions and I just can't get this out of my head im so frightened I don't know what to do. Any advice? Im desperate

I’m so sorry I hadn’t gotten to this urgent one sooner. It’s so difficult to break free of these thoughts sometimes, and the only thing I can do to try and stop it is yell “NO NO NO” when they happen. I know that’s probably not the best advice though, because it makes my head so loud and echoe-y and I wish I had better advice. When it comes to anxiety dreams, I usually have to sit straight up, look around, and take a deep breath. I always have to switch whatever side I’m sleeping on and force myself to think of something complex until I can drift off again. I don’t know if either of those rhings are helpful but I really really hope this anxiety lessened over the course of the past few months

I also struggle with a lot of anxiety and obsessions surrounding loved ones’ safety and wellbeing, and that’s my biggest obsession at the moment. I wish I could give better advic, but when I’m actively fighting it I struggle to see past it too :(

Hang in there, buddy

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I have almost attempted suicide 3 times, relapsed with pocd at least 5 times, and possibly ruined fall and winter for myself, but here i am, resurfacing from an episode ive had since october, feeling again, kicking and fighting and ALIVE. its not over, but i wont stop fighting until it is.

You are powerful and you are strong!! I’m so incredibly proud of you, and you’re the definition of a fighter. You don’t always have to feel this way, but when you do, embrace it!!!

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If you're feeling overwhelmed, take as much time as you need! College can definitely be overwhelming; make sure you take some time for self care!

Thank you so much, you don’t know how much that means to me. Sincerely

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i know this is linked with eating disorders (because like i have one thats the main source of this) but do you think my ocd could be part of what started me off obsessively counting calories?

This is a valid concern, but since I’m not a professional I can only speak from experience. The counting was a huge part of my eating disorder and it felt like there were numbers constantly flying around in my head

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I’m terrified of not thinking before I speak, because I’m scared I’ll start screaming or yelling at people almost unconsciously. I don’t know how to stop feeling scared about things like that except for checking myself and over analyzing my thoughts and what I should say.

I get this, fam :( it’s scary and tiring feeling so out of control

Keep fighting the good fight 💜

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Hey Folks,

I’m going to be honest and say I really don’t think I’m capable of running this blog alone while remaining constantly active. The purpose of this blog is really close to my heart and I want to help people so badly. I understand your pain and I know how it feels to feel trapped in your head and obsessive cycles and like nobody can hear you crying. I’m so truly and deeply sorry if I’ve let anyone down by my absence.

I’m praying each and every one of you are safe and taking care right now. You all deserve the world and I know things are extremely scary for many people. I’m so honored that so many of you feel comfortable confiding in me, and I’m sorry to those who have reached out and not receieved a response.

I’M NOT DELETING THIS BLOG! I want this to remain a potential resource for y’all, and I really wish I had other mods that could keep it active and dish out the support I know people need so badly. I care about you and I’m sorry if I let you down in such a time of need.

Please take care of yourselves. You are so fucking worthy of recovery, I literally cannot describe to you how much I believe so. It doesn’t matter who you are, or what you’ve done, or been through, nobody deserves OCD. You’re all total troopers, and please hmu if you’re interested in being a mod that can help with this. I don’t want this blog to die, and I don’t want you guys to suffer and feel alone. I’m in college and life is so overwhelming. I just can’t do this alone

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Back! Sorry!

Hey folks :) I’m sorry again for the intermittent inactivity. I suffered a back injury and my life has been placed on hold for a few months. I’m checking to make sure my notifications are on so I can be more readily available and aware if someone inboxes me (I haven’t been getting notifications for some reason)

Remember I’m here to help and I’m not judging you for anything you’re experiencing. You do not need to sweat one bit about sending me something. People apologize for their questions and I’m like no!!! I want to hear what you have to say!! Everyone needs an outlet and you are all such kind people

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REBLOG IF IT’S OKAY FOR PEOPLE TO SLIP INTO YOUR MESSAGES TO TALK ABOUT THE PROBLEMS THAT THEY ARE FACING AND THAT YOU’RE WILLING TO HELP AND SUPPORT THEM AS MUCH AS YOU CAN

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God that Brooklyn 99 quote totally applies to everything in my life. "Kitten, False sense of security, gun, die." Except for me it's that lately I've been unable to stop feeling anxious when i eat anything "unhealthy," ever since i was diagnosed with PCOS my thought process has been like "I'm eating unhealthy, I'm going to get diabetes and die," and every time i try to seek reassurance on the internet (my first mistake!) it just comes up with exactly what i was fearing in the first place ugh why

I’m sorry to hear that you’re experiencing that anxiety :( I know intrusive thoughts around illness and trying to prevent it are really intense and scary. I think going to support groups is a safer bet than webmd or anything of the like

Stay strong ❤️

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Do people with ADHD or autism tend to have higher rates of intrusive thoughts/OCD? Just cause I'm pretty sure I have both, and I tend to get stuck on some topics that become intrusive thoughts and i was wondering.

I don’t think I have the knowledge to answer that question honestly. But of course comorbidity is always possible. Whether or not it’s heightened, I’m not sure!

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Hey I'm the anon who sent the ask about existential intrusive thoughts. Thank you so much for your kind words--I have your response saved so I can go back and look at it if i ever feel like "oh no whatif i'm just faking" and know that no, i'm not. I've been doing a lot better--I still have intrusive thoughts, but they've a) mostly switched topics and b) aren't impacting my quality of life nearly as bad as before, i feel like i'm in a much healthier mental place. I hope you're doing well too!

I’m so glad that I was able to help you!! I hope things stay steady like this for a while :) I’m doing well but going through some relationship troubles. I’m pulling through though :)

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What a beautiful day to remember that you’re valid!

Whether you’re diagnosed w/ OCD or not, if you’re in distress then you deserve help. No matter what is causing it or what is at the root. You are welcome here and you deserve peace within your own mind

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I just found this blog and I’m so grateful. Last year I was in a really bad place where I basically had an existential crisis and became obsessed with the mind body problem, to the point where I’d be up all night researching it, and whenever anything came up that reminded me of it, I’d need to look it up on my phone until I found an answer that I was comfortable with, which lasted for all of 10 seconds. I think it was ocd, but it basically faded over the summer for some reason so idk maybe not.

Having existential intrusive thoughts is literally tortuous. It causes exhaustion that I couldn’t express with words and you just hit it spot on. Whether it’s OCD or not, it was clearly causing you harm and distress so either way your struggle is valid. I’m really glad you found my blog and I hope those thoughts continue to be kept at bay. I hope all is well right now 🌻 take care, friend

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“I don’t wash my hands because of ocd! I’m just being *thorough*!” *proceeds to run the water scaldingly hot and wash at least 2-3 times*

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I’m so sorry I’ve been so inactive , I’m a senior in highschool and life is really packed and overwhelming at this time of year.

Because of this, I think this blog will do best if it is submission run. I usually do much better responding to people as opposed to making my own posts (because, hello again ocd, it can take me up to an hour to perfect one post). I love this blog and I still feel that it’s important to have a resource for such an infuriating disorder to live with.