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Feeling like I want to end this.

I know what needs to happen to make this better ans to make it work but I can't do any of it.

Farm boy is causing so much damage is his attempts to keep himself disconnected from feeling.

Sure he can't feel any shame or guilt or pain but he also can't feel any love or trust or joy.

You cant cut ties with just the bad emotions, when one goes they all go.

Well I got over myself and I got brave and I sent a message and told him I feel shitty and hopefully it's okay

#farm boy #i am learning how to be confrontational #but im so scared of confrontation #hope this doesnt blow up #being vulnerable is hard

I'm in a ridiculous stand off with my boyfriend because he hurt my feelings five days ago and he knows it and I know he knows and he knows that I know he knows and yet he won't message me more than the formal hi how are you probably because he doesn't even know why im upset hd just knows that i am yoset in general and instead of asking me about it he's ignoring it which makes me even more upset.

I know its immature and I should just say outright "here. I am upset" but I went to him five days ago with my troubles and he interrupted me to say goodbye and end the convo and I dont want that to happen again.

Also it's nice when someone takes the initiative to notice something is wrong and ask about it.

IM JUST CONFLICTED.

I want to move past it but I also want to be taken care of.

I DON'T KNNOOOOOOOWWWW

#stupid feelings #anxiously attached #insecure #someone help me grow the fuck up #farm boy

memeuplift

How tf am I supposed to tell them I love them?

Terrified.

borderlinereminders

They are not the only one who will love you. There are so many people you have yet to meet who will love you. This isn’t the end.

borderlinereminders

They are not lying to you. They care about you. You are loved.

riversidereassurance

Someone will want you just as much as you want them someday. Someone will love you just as much as you love them. They are out there, waiting for someone just like you.

surprisebitch

dont mean to be horny on main but would really love to be cuddled rn

thelawofuniverse

darlinghoneysweetheart

I DON’T WANT TO LOVE YOU, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE ANYONE WHO DOESN’T LOVE ME, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T MISS ME WHEN I’M GONE, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT ANOTHER GIRL, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO FORGETS ABOUT ME, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO WOULD WILLINGLY LET ME GO, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T THINK I’M WORTH IT, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO WOULD CHOOSE ANOTHER OVER ME OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, I DON’T WANT TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO ALMOST LOVED ME.