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why'd you delete 'my bunny froze out there to death, he was my very best friend'? It was my favorite wytthias fic

i wish i could tell you it was because i made some principled decision to never write about matthias dying again but no ): i just got insecure and decided i hated my own writing ): sorry ):

but i do have another wytthias fic though,,, perhaps i can redirect your attention before you notice i keep deleting things

#anon ask

have you ever been living a perfectly normal life and then your brain grabs you by the hair and goes, remember when nina kissed matthias first, matthias immediately deepened it, and then she put her tongue in his mouth during their FIRST kiss, and then “His hands curled along her back, tracing her shape, the line of her spine, the emphatic flare of her hips.” like we were supposed to survive THAT????

#the most romantic couple on earth and they still end up getting caught by zoya in the end #but if i were zoya i would’ve hit matthias on sight there; just a quick “how dare you fjerdan filth”#helnik #matthias helvar #six of crows #crooked kingdom #nina zenik #wylan van eck #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #kaz brekker #grishaverse

strangesmallbard

alright now i’m pissed off. i keep seeing takes saying that alicent proved in last night’s episode that she’s an uncaring mother who doesn’t understand motherly instincts, especially in the scene where she asks helaena to leave jaehaera and run. they say she literally doesn’t understand why helaena wants to stay or why she refuses an abortion. these takes also inevitably point out that helaena, in contrast, is a caring mother. okay. hey listen. can we google the madonna/whore complex for a second? can we lock in?

alicent asks helaena to run away without jaehaera because in that moment, she’s trying to protect HER baby. it’s an unconscionable choice that alicent is making in pure survival mode, but that’s her motivation here. she also clearly does not want to leave jaehaera. she wants to save helaena, the only kid she can conceivably save at this point. she clearly fucking understands why helaena wants to save her living child and her fetus! but she feels she can only save helaena.

that is by fucking definition, being a caring mother. it’s a harsh motherhood that our own patriarchal structures can’t accept: what can happen when a woman is forced to have children. alicent is a victim of martial rape. she got pregnant four times from that marital rape. she was a teenager when she became a mother, a choice that otto & viserys made for her.

we can also surmise that helaena may be a victim of marital rape, and we can also surmise that helaena enjoys being a mother in a way that alicent does not. however, her decision to prioritize jaehaera and keep her unborn child is not wholly dissimilar from alicent’s decision. they are both trying to save their kids no matter the consequences. what’s truly different is that alicent is trying to take helaena’s choices away & force helaena to let alicent save her life—accept alicent’s version of freedom & safety.

(and that’s another messy part of parenthood, not to talk out of my ass: what happens when your child asserts their agency, and you know their decisions will harm them? can you live with that?)

the hotd fandom has consistently demonizes alicent from day 1 and misogyny has always been laced in the criticism. “she was the slut who seduced rhaenyra’s dad and betrayed her trust” but also “she was too weak to stand up to otto. why did hotd make her such a weak character with no agency?” and now we’re at “alicent should just shut up and stop making decisions”. that push-pull causes revulsion in the audience, i think. there’s something unacceptable about alicent’s circumstances and the way she responds to them.

like, yes, sometimes i think alicent (and rhaenyra) are both passive to the detriment of the story. i think the writers have some Dany Fear. but alicent is the only mother in this entire story who, we can surmise, never started enjoying being a mother. who might have made a different decision, had she access to that decision. who didn’t fight her social conditioning and has done everything expected of her, and who started to fight back too clumsily and too late. i think it’s honestly a core angst in our global society: how many mothers never wanted their children, love their children anyway, and don’t succeed at loving them correctly. and alicent does love her children: that’s the point here, that’s the tragedy.

you imbecile.

#she says “helaena for your own sake. do you not wish to be free? will you bear a child who will never be more than a hostage or a pawn?”#she’s trying to protect her own daughter #because she lived a life where her own children were never anything more than pawns or hostages #she herself was a pawn in otto’s game #that’s the only example she has #so forgive her for trying to protect the only child she has left #alicent hightower

Birdie Africa For Stanley Kunitz, by Lucie Brock-Broido

#matthias helvar #tw: jarl brum #six of crows #crooked kingdom #nina zenik #wylan van eck #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #kaz brekker #grishaverse #gifs #gifset

#hotd spoilers #daeron targaryen #daeron the daring #ormund hightower #house of the dragon #hotd #hotd season 3 #hotd s3 #gifs #gifset

#alicent hightower #mysaria #rhaesaria #rhaenicent #rhaenyra targaryen #house of the dragon #hotd #hotd season 3 #hotd s3 #hotd spoilers #gifs #gifset

do you ever hate a character so much you want him blown into microscopic pieces and erased from human memory but here comes your girlfriend talking about how he has potential, no baby, no please.

#neens.txt

the zuko/matthias school of emotional support,

the boiling rock, part 2

crooked kingdom, chapter 16

#jeshias #zukka #matthias helvar #jesper fahey #zuko #sokka #six of crows #crooked kingdom #grishaverse #atla #avatar #avatar the last airbender #gifs #gifset

reticent-vampire

JACOB ANDERSON as LOUIS DE POINTE DU LAC Interview with the vampire 2.01

#the prettiest #the most beautiful #louis de pointe du lac

ormundshightower

Rhaenyra slowly fading further away from Alicent into the background

#“you’re starting to look really weird; your face is out of place and i can’t make you out”#“and i forget just what you said; it was about fear and getting out of here”#rhaenicent

“Fatherly, I’m told.”

#hotd spoilers #daeron targaryen #daeron the daring #ormund hightower #house of the dragon #hotd season 3 #hotd s3 #gifs #gifset

i don’t want to discuss the episode or the season as a whole. i didn’t like either of them and i have no interest in pretending otherwise. but paul saying, “thank you for loving him the way he needs to be loved” was so grotesque that it managed to make me angry all over again.

#“bUt i STilL WiSh yOu wERe a WomAn”#were you passing around lsd in the writers’ room #because what the fuck was the thought process here #tvl critical #tvl spoilers

uhm– THIS IS BORING! YOU’RE BORING! YOU! ARE! SO! BORING! COLORLESS. FLAVORLESS. DULL. DULL. DULL NIGHTS, DULL WEEKS, DULL MONTHS, DULL AS FUCK! SUFFOCATION, BY THE WORLDS’ SOFTEST, BEIGEST PILLOW!

#that’s all i wanted to say #thank you thank you #neens.txt