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@herlildevil
I’m so tired all the time. I just want it to all stop. The pain is so much!! Losing my grandma has been one of the hardest things to deal with. I feel like my world is just crumbling; I’m having issues all over the place and it’s just all at once. This is one of the lowest parts in life. I didn’t think I could get any lower but here I am. Hopefully soon will start to get better. One day at a time.
THE ARISTOCATS (1970), dir Wolfgang Reitherman
I love you so much!!! @reader-meet-author3!! You've been an amazing support system and my rock for the last few months with helping me open my studio!! It'll all ways be you and me against the world!!! You're my everything!!
Mind racing
A lot on my mind
They always compare how much you deal with by putting it on a plate. Why do we use that saying I have a lot on my plate? My plate is buried under everything. Can I just put it in a box and hide it in the back of my closet?
All I want to deal with right now is school and passing the state board. No work, no personal issues, no car issues, no health issues nothing. Everything is overwhelming.
When can I go on vacation or take time for myself and not be judged. I wish you could see what goes on in my mind. I wish you could understand the pain I feel just waking up every morning. I wish people would stop piling it on me as if I got it all under control cuz the truth is….I don’t
I just want some relief
Rest In Peace, Lisa Marie Presley (February 1st, 1968-January 12th, 2023)
Ugh!! I’m so burnt out at work. I wish they gave us more days off. We barely get any holidays off and we’ve all been working our asses off for what? Nothing. I can’t wait til I’m done with class and can start working on my esthetician stuff. Something I have been wanting to do my whole but was discouraged because there is no future retirement or it’s not something you do. I needed to have a better career. Well last year I decided to finally do what I wanted. It is the scariest thing ever!! It’s rewarding and I’m so excited. I feel like repunzel when she finally gets out of the tower with Ryder…a mess lol. 4 months left of school and hopefully 6 months left of dental jobs.
Fuck this bullshit!! I really just want to walk out of my job and not think twice.
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What people don’t tell you about grief
Society makes us believe a bunch of things about grief that can slow down the process of mourning. Here’s what they don’t tell you :
> The five stages of grief is bullshit
Because there’s actually 7 stages and they are also bullshit. You don’t have to feel denial, or anger, or anything, it is unique for every one of us. Some people don’t ever feel anger. Some feel sadness first then the shock then the acceptation, then the denial, etc. Conclusion : it’s bullshit.
> People will tell you horrible things
My personnal favorites are “ they are in a better place “ yeah Stephanie but I’d rather have them with me :)) and “ if you sell the house/the car/any other item , I’d like to buy it ! “ do I look like I can deal with this right now ??
Sometimes they want to soothe us… And they try hard… But it’s clumsy. “ You already have childrens it’s okay to miscarriage “, “ at least you were expecting them to die “, “ they didn’t suffer “. People will tell you “ they wouldn’t want to see you like this “ and it’s horrible because we are fucking destroyed but we feel guilty about it, because we think our loved one would be disappointed in us. It’s truly painful.
> There’s a physical dimension in grief
First because when you loose a person, you loose them physically. They do not longer exist as a body on earth, the loss is a true loss of someone. It’s not even the fact that we lost connection with this person, it’s the fact that their body is not there anymore.
Second because we need stuff to mourn. We need objects, clothes, pictures, bed sheets, jewelry, grave. We need to touch and feel on our skin, we sit in closets between clothes, we smell bed sheets, we play with their car keys, we wear their necklace.
> After a time, people expect you to be okay
And that fucking sucks. They will expect “ I’m okay “ when they ask how we are doing, they will think that you moved on and that your grief is over so they will act like it. Some of them may even blame you for “ still being sad “. In the same vibes, after a time people stop calling and proposing their help because they assume you’re over it.
> It will get harder by the time
According to psychiatrists, after about 1 year ½ - 2 years, you’ve done a good part of the process and so you can start thinking about the person without waking in yourself any pain, you grew up from the tragedy… But it feels like you’re loosing the person a second time. Psychiatrists say you may feel miserable and like you’ve not grieved - basically returning at the beginning of mourning. Thanksfully after few months feeling this way, you will rise again <3
> You will do weird things
Literally, because loosing a person is a tsunami. You may find yourself searching for explanations about embalming bodies, crying because you didn’t park right, eating one single food every damn meal for weeks, watching cartoons with your kids/your siblings/or even alone, sleeping in the bathtub. Everybody copes their own way, let yourself rest on the flow.
> You will never be on the same page as people
If both partners loose a child, they will never be on the same page ; for one of them today is a okay-day, for the other today is a I-can’t-get up-beacause-of-pain-day. Same for siblings that loose a parent, etc. And that is why grief is the loneliest psychological process that exist. You will feel very, very, very alone and everyone else around you also feel that way.
> It’s GODDAMN tiring
Grief is exhausting.
On a physical level.
You body will hurt just as much as your soul, you will probably get sick after few weeks, I personally could not walk the day after the funeral because of how tensed I was during the ceremony. You may even sleep 11 hours and still feel exhausted ; as I said, there’s a physical dimension in grief and it makes us very tired.
Life will never be the same, but if you needed a sign : you got this.
Some days are…
Well, it doesn’t matter. All of the days are days where you’re not here anymore.
IT’S CHRISTMASTIME AGAIN, CHARLIE BROWN dir. Bill Melendez
I’ve been having a terrible time lately. This week has been a long week, it already feels like last devemeber and not 9 days in and only get worse before the holidays. As the holiday draws near I reflect more and more about how time with people are so important. We do only have a limited time here and with the ones we love. I’ve been so busy with work that I push my feelings about the lost of my grandpa and my mother in law( the best ppl in my life, of course other then my wife) down and just focusing on work. But as Christmas approaches I find myself more sad and depressed then before. That I find my eye start watering and can’t control it. I try to be there for everyone but right now I just want to lay in a ditch and cry. I don’t and can’t focus on other things at the moment. My emotions are all over the place. I got from sad to anger. I get mad cuz I didn’t get to say goodbye to my mother in law, I didn’t get to see her one last time or I’m mad cuz I didn’t get to take my grandfather out to lunch for his bday this year like I was going to to, I didn’t get to say sorry for all the things I did to upset him. I just want to rewind to last year and get more time. I JUST WANT MORE TIME!!! I didn’t learn enough from these important ppl.
Had such a great night last night!! Teagan and Sara are great performers. Loved seeing @reader-meet-author3 and @stankgyna jam out and have a great time.
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Send love ❤️ please. Thank you.
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God bless!
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