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You’re my favourite person in the whole wide world. I’m so lucky to have you and to call you not just my best friend, but also my boyfriend💛❤️ @latinoblood
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Do you ever miss Hero?
“no she made her decision fuck her but like yes i miss her a whole bunch and i might still maybe love her but she hates me but also i feel like i could probably convince her otherwise cause like im hot and she thinks im hot and i dont even know what i did wrong in the first place like us breaking up was such bullshit and everyone knows it so i have no idea what she keeps fucking crying about.”
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latinoblood:
Gosh, how good it felt to have her lips against his again, he missed it so much. It all seemed a dream, was he still in a coma, and dreaming about this? No, it wasn’t possible, everything was too real, and he wasn’t asleep when he was in a coma, just trapped in his body, so it was real, but it felt so good, that it didn’t seem like it. He lost the count of how many times he dreamed about that moment, how many times he dreamed about being with her, about being able to kiss her again, and to cuddle her again. It was one of the reasons why he spent practically the whole weekend with her, and cuddling her. He also spent time with other visitors, but he also spent a lot of time with Hero, and just spent the days with her in his arms, however, he also insisted for her to go rest at home, as he knew that sleeping in the hospital, was not the same as sleeping at home, “I get that, it’s one of the reasons why I stayed in denial for a while about my feelings for you, I was scared. All my exes, they were the ones that broke things off with me, so I was terrified, I closed myself off, and was scared of getting hurt again,” he admitted, especially after he moved to Dayton, and Laurel told him she was trying to work things out with Dex, which hurt him again. The walls around his heart got thicker, until he met Hero, and she crashed them down, “But, Hero, I don’t plan to go anywhere, and we can work in our insecurities together,” he picked her hand up and kissed it softly, they could work together on it, they could help each other to get rid of it, to overcome the fear. They could fix each other, and glue their hearts together, “I understand why you’re scared, but you’re going to be an amazing step-mom, though you don’t need to meet her right now, if you’re not ready yet,” he assured her, he didn’t think that they had to be in a hurry. He didn’t want to scare Hero away, so she could meet Amelia, when she felt like she was ready, “We can wait, and when you feel like you’re ready, she can meet you.” he was already ready for her to meet his daughter, because even though they didn’t date officially the months that they spent together, they acted like they were dating. They were practically boyfriend and girlfriend, so if she wasn’t so scared, he would have suggested already for her to meet his daughter, but since that wasn’t the case, he would wait.
“I don’t want to hurt you,” she spoke softly, kissing his lips lightly. “Nor do I plan to. I promise I’ll try and be the best girlfriend I can be, Edu.” Charity said otherwise, though, throughout the remaining bits of their relationship. That had really hurt and god, she was scared she was going to be awful at this. How do you go back to being in a new relationship with someone after spending your last one dealing with so much pain and heartbreak? She is so scared. But looking at Edu, kissing him and holding him, something told her that she can do this. That this time will be different. “God, I really like you,” she admitted with a gentle laugh. She hasn’t felt like this in so long. And it felt good- it felt so, so good. She loved feeling like this with Edu, that he could bring this feeling to her. She couldn’t stop staring at him with heart-eyes. And then the conversation about Amelia continued. “S-Stepmom,” she stammered with a soft squeak. “Wow. That’s... I honestly never thought that word would ever apply to me, but here we are. Holy shit.” However, what he was proposing sounded like a good and sound plan. It seemed perfect. When they’re both ready, they will be introduced to each other. She’s going to get to meet her boyfriend’s daughter soon. Holy fuck... Life truly was funny. However, another thought came to her. And oh, did she try not to smirk. Looking at Edu innocently, she smiled and kissed his lips before asking, “Does this mean I’m not allowed to call you ‘daddy’ anymore? How does that work out? Because... If I’m not allowed to... Not gonna lie, that makes me really sad, daddy.”
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latinoblood:
She reacted better than he thought, he was expecting her to leave, or to say that she didn’t want to be with him anymore, because not everyone would be fine with being with someone that also had feelings for someone else, but the fact that she didn’t seem to be that upset, was a good sign in his opinion, “Yeah…” he said a little awkwardly, he didn’t like the fact that he had feelings for Laurel, it was not something that he chose, if he could, he would just stop it, he would just turn off his feelings for her, and destroy them completely, until he just loved her, like his best friend. Especially at that moment in his life, that he wanted to be with someone else, he wanted to fall out of love for Laurel, because after he started to have feelings for Hero, he started to move on, started to realize that Laurel was not the person he wanted to be with anymore. His eyes closed when she touched his cheek, and leaned on her touch, it felt right, his heart skipped a beat every single time that she touched him, gosh, how much he loved it, “I do, you’re the girl that I want to kiss, that I want to cuddle, have sex with, that I want to call my girlfriend,” he smiled widely at her, that was good, she wasn’t crying, and she also wasn’t yelling at him, like the last time. It gave him hope, gave him hope that things wouldn’t end badly, however, her next sentence, made the smile disappear, because he hated that she was feeling that way. It was understandable why she did, but he didn’t want her to think like that, “Hey, look at me,” he cupped her face, his thumb stroking her cheek softly, “I’m not just settling for you, “You’re not my second choice, do you hear me?” he looked her in the eyes, “You’re my first choice, and like I told you, if Laurel and Dex broke things off, and she told me that she wanted to be with me, you would still be the one that I want to be with,” he knew it wouldn’t ever happen, but if for a miracle, it happened, he would still think the exact same way, and he would still want to be with Hero, because he was moving on, Laurel wasn’t the one that he wanted to be with anymore, “You will always be my first choice, okay? Please remember that, and if you don’t, I’m willing to repeat that to you every single day, until it’s stuck in your head.”
Of course, she wasn’t exactly fine with it. It did hurt, a lot. But... at the same time, she really wants to be with him. She wants to give being in a relationship with him a chance. And that would mean working through complications and things that they may not like. Hero wants to be with him and to work through this. She smiled softly as he leaned up against her touch. The fact that they both want this, to be together finally after months and months of knowing each other and being together, meant everything. And it meant more as he reassured her. God, it meant so much more. Of course, she was scared. It wasn’t going to be just them now, not entirely: His daughter is now included in the equation. God, his daughter... Never had she thought she’d be with someone who was already a parent. Truth be told, kids and parenthood scared her. Obviously she volunteered at children’s hospitals and was nice to kids she came across; But to actually have a kid in her life? Especially a kid who was connected to the person she wants to be with? Oof. Just... oof. Smiling warmly, she leaned down to kiss Edu on the lips. “I just... needed to make sure,” she admitted. “I want you and us and this so fucking much, Edu. I’ve wanted this for awhile now and I guess... I’m just scared of putting my heart and soul into something that isn’t going to last again.” She knew that he would understand, considering his own fair share of heartbreak. Pressing her lips together, she took a shaky breath. “And... your daughter... I know that she’s your main priority. She’s your number one girl now. I just... I would love to meet her one day, but I’m... I’m scared. Kids and motherhood have never really been a dream of mine. But I want to be with you and I know that she’s a part of the package deal. I want to give this a chance not just with you, but also with her. But I’m really scared. I mean, I’m turning twenty-one soon and the guy I want to call my boyfriend has a daughter. That’s really rather daunting.” She wasn’t sure if letting her fear involving Amelia was a good idea or not; But he needs to know ahead of time. He needs to know so that they could figure things out together.
latinoblood:
She was joking, and he could tell, but it was a question hard to answer, in one hand, what he would tell was would be a good thing. That he wanted to be with her, that he wanted to go out with her, and to only be with her, that he didn’t want anyone else, that he wanted her to be his girlfriend, but then there was what he would tell her about Laurel, which honestly made him even more nervous than he already would be if he would just tell her how he feels. In a way, she already knew that, because he told her when he told her about Charity, but he would say it again, to emphasize, and to make sure that she knew just how much he liked her and wanted to be with her, “I don’t think so, no,” he shook his head, before letting out a small sigh, as he tried to create courage to tell her everything that he wanted to say, “So, I’m in love with Laurel, but I don’t want to be with her, I’m moving on, me and Laurel, we’re just friends, and we are meant to be just friends, I’m just telling you this because I don’t want to hide anything from you,” he was talking quickly, and practically pausing to breath, because he tended to ramble when he was nervous, “You’re the one I want to be with, even if Laurel walked in right now, and told me that she wanted to be with me, I would still choose you, because you’re the one I want to be with, I like you, a lot, I can’t stop thinking about you, I feel better when I sleep with you in my arms. Staying away from you, was a torture to me, my life, is just not the same without you, I didn’t even have sex with anyone, because you were the only one I wanted to be with, and because I knew, if I did it, I would be thinking about you the whole time, and it wouldn’t be as good as when I do it with you, I want you, I want to be with you.”
“... Oh...” That first part, the part about Laurel, surprised her at first. Of course, she wasn’t ignorant to the rumors. She remembered hearing about them, especially after the chaos that happened during Halloween. But the more they spent time together, the more she got to know him and developed feelings for him, the more Hero tried to ignore the so-called “rumors”. She likes Laurel and never wanted to be jealous of her. But knowing that Eduardo’s feelings for the older girl were true, she couldn’t stop herself. And for a moment, she almost pulled away from him. She almost asked for a moment to digest it all down. Until he continued. It was all too much to take in at once and she tried to comprehend them all. “You... You want to be with me? You want this? Us?” Sitting up slightly so that she could look down at him, the brunette smiled softly. Her hand reached up to cup his face, her thumb tracing his cheek. Fuck, he is so handsome and caring and warm and just makes her feel safe. She feels so safe with him. She knows that he’d never do anything to hurt her. What happened with Charity hurt but it had been a coincidence. They didn’t know each other at the time, so it was hard to remain mad about it. But of course, she still has her fears. And after learning about his feelings for Laurel... Well, she needs to know. “You’re not just... just settling, right? Laurel’s unavailable while I’m not. You’re not just settling for me... right?” With each word, she spoke softer. She was scared of hurting him, of potentially offending him with her words. But at the same time, she couldn't handle being second best for him. “I just... I just need to know, because I want you, too. I want to be with you, Edu, more than anything. I want this, I want us. I want to hold you in my arms and kiss you whenever I want. I want to go to bed at night with you and to wake up in the morning in your arms. I want... I want to meet your daughter, when the time’s right and you’re both okay with it. I want so much with you. I want to be with you... but I don’t want to be your second best choice.”
#sex in public places is where it’s at
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latinoblood:
One of the reasons why he told Hero about Charity, when he knew that it would hurt her, was because he knew that hiding it from her, would hurt her even more, and she deserved to know, he didn’t want to hide from her, which was exactly why he also planned to tell her about his feelings for Laurel. He would also tell her how he felt about her, that he wanted to be with her, he knew that he may lose her again after he tell her that he was in love with someone else, but he didn’t want to hide it from her, he didn’t want to start a relationship with her while he was keeping secrets from her. It would hurt to lose her again, the weeks that he stayed without, was painful, he hated not being able to be with her, he missed everything about her, he could barely sleep without her by his side. She was not just the girl he was falling for, she was also one of his best friends, so if she left, and started to avoid him again, would be so painful, but like he said, he wanted to be honest with her. But he would make sure she knew that she wasn’t a second choice, because she wasn’t, she was his first choice, and she would always be. She was the one he wanted to be with, even if Laurel suddenly realized she had feelings for Edu, he would still choose Hero, without thinking twice, “This time, we’re not just going to cuddle, I want to talk to you about something.” @heroastaireismss
Nothing could describe how happy she was. Of course, it still sucked that Edu was in the hospital still and would be for awhile. But this time, he was finally awake. He was awake and talking and holding her again and that, that meant everything. While she still gave him time to be with his other visitors and to attend her classes for school while also working on her channel, Hero made sure to still have quality time with him. Made sure to get to hold him and talk to him, to get to kiss him and just be with him. When they were together a few weeks ago when he told her about him and Charity, she couldn’t stop thinking about him admitting that he wanted to be with her. She couldn’t stop thinking about Laurel and Marissa, the two older girls continuously telling her that he would talk about her with them and that he truly did want to be with her. But.. she was scared. She was scared that he wanted them to remain their friendship with occasional sexual activities. That his feelings have changed for her and he thought of her as only a friend. She wasn’t sure if she could handle that- not after everything. She wants to be with him so much, she hasn’t felt this way for anyone since Charity. That was also scary. But she needed to put those worries aside. Lying next to him, curled up with their legs intertwined and her fingers tracing his chest, she looked up at him. “Should I be scared?” she tried to joke, smiling warmly before nudging the tip of her nose against his. “But okay, yeah. Is... Is everything alright?”
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She noticed him earlier. It had been the curly brown hair that caught her attention. But after awhile, she lost track of him and continued enjoying the New Years Eve house party. She didn’t know the host; He was a friend of a mutual friend. It had been a few weeks at this point since she’s seen Edu and she missed him so much. But... she wasn’t sure if she should see him again. Not after learning about him and Charity. So why was she in the host’s bedroom, sitting on a bed and staring down at her phone while contemplating on texting Edu? Hero knows why and she was angry with herself. Groaning softly, she’d been about to text him when suddenly, the door opened. Hero quickly got up and turned around. “Shit, are you the host? I promise I wasn’t using your room for anything. I just... needed a moment to myself.”
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latinoblood:
It had been pretty much one week since the accident, one week that he had to deal with not being able to move any part of his body, but that he was able to listen to everything that was happening around him. In a it felt like a dream, but part of him knew that it was real, which was painful, because he could hear his friends suffering by his side, could hear them crying, could hear them begging for him to wake up, and all he wanted to do was give them a sign that he was in there, that he was alive, but he wasn’t able to even move his hand until recently. Then he finally was able to squeeze Rissa’s hand, and show her that he was not dead. Which was also a sign that he was getting better. In that morning, he was able to open his eyes, but it for a short period of time, right after, he was back to sleep again, but at that moment, it would be different. His eyes slowly opened, and despite the fact that he was a week asleep, he felt exhausted, could barely move his arms, he figured it was just because he woke up, and took a big effort to talk, but eventually he was able to, and he said the name of the person that was in the room with him at that moment, “…Hero?” he said it in almost a whisper, he thought that he wouldn’t ever see her again, but there she was, by the side of his bed.
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Leaning that he was slowly showing signs of activity brought her hope. Edu had squeezed Marissa’s hand the other day and earlier, he had woken up. Sure, that had been for a short-lived moment, but he still did. Ever since then, she’s been waiting for him to wake up. Could someone go back into a coma even after waking up for a moment? She wasn’t sure but she was too scared to ask the doctor. Sitting in the chair next to his bed, Hero continued her routine of reading and talking to him. She’d been quiet for a little bit, though. The girl had been lost in her thoughts. She wasn’t sure when he’ll next wake up or what she’ll say when he does. The last time they spoke to each other, it hadn’t end well. He said he wanted to be with her, and so did Laurel and Marissa, but what if he changed his mind? Besides, he’s going to need to focus on getting better and being with his daughter; She couldn’t get in the way of that. She didn’t realized that he spoke at first, having been lost in her thoughts and fears. Yet as she looked at him and saw his eyes opened, she let out a choked up gasp. “E-Edu,” she finally whispered, quickly getting up from her seat and into his bed. She held onto him, making sure to hold him carefully but tightly as she cried into the crook of his neck. “Thank god you’re okay,” she sobbed softly.
Why are we even talking about this? You’ve already moved on, right?
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Marissa had been visiting the hospital every day since Edu had fallen into a coma. She knew that he had a lot of other people in his life that cared deeply for him, and she wasn’t that close with any of them, so she made sure to visit at odd times so she wasn’t interrupting anyone’s time with him. Every trip into the hospital was just as hard, every time she passed through the ICU doors, she feared for the progress report from the nurses. She feared that he had gone during the day, and they just hadn’t got around to calling her yet. Then, as she sat by his side she battled all the similarities between this and sitting by Delilah’s bedside back when she had tripped and smashed her head open in Italy. Between this and sitting by Hayden’s bedside after he overdosed. Then between this and sitting by both of their graves. She’d lost too many people she loved for her age already. Aside from Shane, Edu was the only person she loved that she had left. Losing him? It would send her over the edge, undoubtedly.
She sat by his bedside, late on a Saturday night, her hand laid gently over his as she spoke to him about anything she could. The Doctors said he could probably hear people speaking to him, and honestly, there was no point in not trying it. She told him about everything that had happened with Shane since he’d gone under, about how she had put herself out there, asked for something more, and been turned away. “I just… I know you’d know exactly what to say right now, Edu… God, I’m a day away from getting on my knees and praying for you,” she chuckled sadly before hanging her head with a heavy sigh. Riss wasn’t able to drown in a pool of thoughts and memories though, the sound of the door opening bringing her almost immediately back to the room but she didn’t look back to the door, figuring it was probably just a nurse coming in to do observations anyway.
Fucking Laurel! Hero thought to herself, quickly making her way back to the hospital. Of course, she couldn’t be too mad at the older girl. Hero has been by Edu’s side practically all the time since she first got back to Dayton after learning about his accident. Of course, she’d make sure to leave so that she could give him and his other visitors time to spend together, but otherwise Laurel typically had to force the girl out of the room for awhile. She was hardly eating or sleeping much, constantly scared of being gone for too long and Edu... Well, Laurel had forced Hero to head home for a little bit, take a shower, eat, and then take a nap. She would call if anything changed. Okay, yeah, that sounded doable.
Unfortunately, what was suppose to be a one hour thing ended up with her sleeping all afternoon and evening. She hadn’t received any calls from the hospital or Laurel, but she felt so guilty. It was late now, so she didn’t expect for there to be any other visitor for the night. Making it to his room, her eyes were on Edu and him alone. “I’m so sorry for being gone for so long,” she said, her words as she quickly went over to his bed. Kissing his forehead, one hand cupping his cheek and the other holding his hand, she had hoped for a moment that he was going to wake up. Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case. A strangled noise left her throat but she willed herself not to cry. He’s heard her cry far too much over the past few days; She needs to get better at keeping it quiet. Looking over the machines and sighing softly, the young girl looked back at Edu. “Still the same, I see... I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to leave for so long. Laurel wanted me to get away from the hospital for a little bit and get some sleep; I didn’t realize I’d sleep for basically a whole day. I got to meet Felicity, though. She’s such a sweetheart, I-” Wait, how long has someone else been holding Edu’s other hand? She finally noticed it out of the corner of her eye, causing her to quickly look at the other woman. “Oh my god, I- I’m so sorry. I didn’t... I didn’t know you were here.” Realizing she was still holding onto Edu and sitting on his bed, she got off and letting go of his cheek. But... fuck, she can’t let go of his hand. She couldn’t. With her free hand, she tuck some hair behind her ear while taking a shakey breath. “I, uh... I can leave, if you wanted more time with him. I’m so sorry, I didn’t... God, I feel so rude right now. I’m so sorry.”
it’s going to be okay // self-para
Where: Dayton, California
When: January 2020
Time: Late evening
Warnings: Angst; Hospital
Character Mentions: Laurel Mitchell, Eduardo Lopez
Prompt: Hero has a little heart-to-heart with Laurel at the hospital.
(Call from the hospital) Hello, Miss Astaire? We're calling you because Eduardo Lopez has you as one of his emergency contacts, and we called to report to you, that Mr Lopez was in an accident and he is now in the hospital.
Hero had been in Los Angeles when she got the call. Having attended the Golden Globes on Sunday with Sabrina and Marcus (she was starting to reconcile with them, slowly), she stayed in the city for a few more days. She wasn’t ready to return home to Dayton; But she misses Edu. She misses him so fucking much and she was done. Sitting in her room at her parent’s house in Beverly Hills and contemplating it, she’d finally was starting out a text to Eduardo when she got a call. The number was unfamiliar, but it was a Dayton one. Answering it, she never would’ve thought that it’d be about this. Without much explanation to her parents, Hero got on their private jet and quickly flew back home. Everything had been a blur; The young girl focusing on getting to Edu. It wasn’t until she was in the older boy’s hospital room when it all finally hit her. With her heart heavy, she remembered their last conversation and the tears finally poured. “Please wake up,” she whimpered, sitting on the bed and taking his hand. She rested her cheek against it, tears falling down as her eyes scanned his face. He looked so peaceful, like he was sleeping. She recounted the times after sex they’d fallen asleep together and she’d either wake up earlier or he’d fallen asleep first. How she’d use to watch him, take in his soft and calm features as he dreamed and held her in his arms. God, she’d give anything for him to open his eyes and to grin brightly at her, to hear him say her name one more time. A sob leaving her lips, she leaned forward to rest her head on his chest and cried. “Please… Please wake up and come back to us. Please… Please, wake up. I can’t lose you, Edu. Please wake up.”
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“okay real talk, you know those times where you get really bored with literally everything in life and just need like an epiphany to figure out what to do next or what to add on to whatever you already do?” the girl spoke quickly talking to the person who stood beside her waiting for their drinks at one of the cafes in town. “so i like had one of those moments and honestly, as reckless and illegal as it sounds, street racing is the fucking shit. and even better i guess the cops here don’t really care cause i witnessed one of them come to watch a race i was in. this shit is like coke and i don’t mean the drink, but like i’m not gonna replace coke with street racing cause they coexist.”
God fucking dammit. She’s done so good at avoiding her ex and now, here she is. While Hero’s initial anger over Charity and Edu fucking has subsided a bit and she’s become more understanding of the situation, actually seeing the other brunette made her forget that for a moment. Charity and Edu didn’t know each other, nor did Edu and Hero know each other, at that point. Charity doesn’t know about Hero’s feelings for Edu. It had been purely coincidence; That was it. But... still, it hurt. It hurt imagining the girl she once had been so in love with having fucked the guy she was now falling for. Tensing up, she wasn’t sure if Charity recognized her in her dazed state. She pressed her lips together and looked past her, hoping that she’ll leave her alone. “That’s nice. Hope you got your order ready; It’s almost your turn.”