Invictus

Charlotte Azucenas (n) eighteen. future educator. an extremely food lover and a traveller ♥ Welcome to my world! |Thoughts and Imaginations|

[heycharlyy]

It’s been 3 months since we stopped talking but you know what? I still miss you. I still do :( Every memory of you haunts me at night. I wish I could turn back time and make everything right. I want to talk to you again. I want you to look at me, the way you do before. I want you be “interesado” on me always. But everything’s over with us now. You’re just a memory. A sweet memory I want to remember forever. Good bye lover. Jungmal bogoshipda. 

[heycharlyy]

Motivation

With these simple words everything changed,

From dull to inspired I became.

Yaaaaaaaay! Thank youuuuu. *sending hearts*

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Love? No. Fate? I Think So

I knew the day we met

That we were meant to be I knew our fate was set That you were the one for me I didn’t even know you I only knew your name I wasn’t sure what to do I didn’t know who to blame I knew I thought you attractive I could tell that you were nice The butterflies were so active That I couldn’t think twice Everything I did that day Didn’t show you who I am Every time you came my way My heart began to ram My actions weren’t natural My reactions weren’t real I felt so very terrible But my heart I did not wield And when the group said goodbye to me My eyes were fixed on you I knew I was trying to see If you felt the same way too I liked you when I saw your face But maybe it was the touch My heart had begun to race I already liked you too much I knew the day we met That we were meant to be I knew our fate was set As friends, as lovers, as enemies

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He's not the one

I have this feeling that, sooner or later I'll fall for him. He's sweet, funny, caring, loving. But the thing is, we're not committed. He's in a year-long relationship. Everytime we're together, he doesn't fail to make me smile, the smile that you'll see, once in a blue moon. He's not the one, he should not be the one.

[heycharlyy]

Idk why I am doing this, but this is just my opinion. I think I need to stand for what I believe is right.

Days ago, lumabas ang issue about sa statement ni Manny Pacquiao comparing the LGBT community to animals. In his words, Manny made a mistake, literally. Pero marami ang hindi nakakaintindi sa message ng statements niya. Hindi ako nagmamalinis as a christian, hindi ako perpekto, hindi ko banal, pero gusto ko lang malaman ng iba kung ano ang mensaheng nais sanang iparating ni Manny sa lahat. Again, THIS IS JUST MY OPINION.

When I was younger, meron akong karelasyon, babae. Yes I admit it, I fell in love with a girl. We lasted for a year and a half. Madami ang hindi tumanggap sa relasyon namin, kahit mga kaibigan namin. Noong una, wala kaming pakialam sa sinasabi nila. Why? Mahal namin ang isa’t isa and I believe it’s more than enough. We don’t care what others will say/think not until... we encountered God. We were invited to attend church service, and we did. At first, medyo awkward. Ikaw na may karelasyon with the same sex, kasabay mo siya magsimba, nagseserve kayo, pero both of you are committing sin against the Lord? Ironic. Lahat ng churchmates namin, specially our pastor and our cell leader, is against on our relationship. Kinausap nila kami nang maayos, if pwede naming tapusin na ang relasyon namin because after all, this is against the Law of the Lord. Through prayer and faith, we both believe that this is the right thing to do; to end our relationship. Mahirap? Oo. Masakit? Sobra. BUT, as i’ve said, THIS IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. 

My point here is, we commit sins, but God gave us chances to make it right. God loves us, equally, that is true. But God doesn’t tolerate sins, He hates it so much. Eto lang ang masasabi ko, kung lumaki ka man na gay or lesbian, it’s okay as long as you live in God’s presence and not committing sin such as homosexuality. In my case, nakagawa ako ng kasalanan, BEFORE but I believed na pinatawad na Niya ako, and now I am doing what is right. About sa statement ni Manny Pacquiao, he has a point. Why would one marry with the same sex? This is a mortal sin. We should #standforthetruth not just for equality. God only created Adam and Eve, no Steve, no in between. Lawakan natin ang pagiisip natin. Hindi ibig sabihin nito, close-minded kami sa mga ganitong bagay. We don’t judge you, I personally don’t judge you. I have been in your situation before, so don’t tell me I don’t feel the same way. I did, before. We have free will, so use it in the right manner. Wag tayong magpadala sa makasalanang mundong ito. When the final judgement comes, dito natin maiintindihan lahat. He who made all things and people on earth, gave life to us, is the only one who has the right to judge us. 

PS: I have gay friends and I love them.

[heycharlyy]

To you, my TBA~

I still can't forget that day when we saw each other again. Parang sobrang tagal natin hindi nagkita, sobrang tagal natin hindi nagusap, pero yung pakiramdam, pareho pa din. Walang nagbago. Oo, lumipas man ang ilang taon, ganon padin pala yung pagtingin ko sayo. Seeing you again is like watering a dead flower, giving a chance to be back and continue its life. Nabuhayan ako, hindi ko alam kung bakit. I feel so much happiness in my heart everytime I am with you. We talked, we laughed, we reminisced. Though it's very different now. That night, tandang tanda ko pa. Magkasama lang tayong dalawa pero nagtetext ka padin sakin. Sinasabi mo ang taba ko kahit hindi. Nakakatawa. Para tayong nakawala sa kulungan sa sobrang saya. Kahit ang lakas mo mangasar, kahit ang lakas mo manggaspang, wala, ganon padin. Okay lang, natutuwa naman ako, masaya naman tayo. Noong araw na yun puro tayo kalokohan, parang walang pakialam. Gusto ko ulit maulit lahat ng yun. Gusto kita makita. Gusto kita makasama. If only, God will allow us to continue what we never had; I will surely be forever grateful (though I am) and treasure it for the rest of my life. I will never waste that chance again. I will never waste someone like you. IF. Alam ko isang malaking pagkakamali ang iwan ka dati, pero yun ang naging way para maging better version tayo ngayon. No, I will never close my heart, you still have the biggest space here. Hindi na kita sasayangin, kung pahihintulutan tayo. And if not, it's okay. Alam ko nandyan ka lang, hindi ka na mawawala ulit, at hindi ko na hahayaan mawala ka ulit. Still, i'm here. :) Love, Charlotte

[words-of-emotion]

You’re not the same person you were a year ago, a month ago, or a week ago. You’re constantly changing; experiences don’t stop. That’s life.

(via words-of-emotion)

It's really disappointing but dealing with it is the best choice

[michrosm]

I like you. I like waking up in the morning, reading your last message. I like having conversations with you. I like how we first talked. I like everything that we have in common. It’s close to the familiar feeling, very familiar. I don’t know what is about to happen, I’m worried what will happen.

[heycharlyy]

You told me.. "How can I be in dreamland if I don't know where it is?" "Show me, good night Charlotte" I was joking that time, saying I want to see you in dreamland, and you responded.. To tell you honestly? I want to show you where it is, but the first thing entered my mind is.. will you allow me? Dreamland, where unrealistic things happen. I want you to experience such magic, have happy memories, create new things, and know the feeling of being in love. I want you to experience that.. with me. That's why, the only way for that to happen is, when I see you in dreamland. I want to show you, I want us to be in the same world, but we couldn't. Considering the fact that, you want someone else to be with you, and that's not me. Dreamland is the only place where I can do anything and everything I want, a place where YOU and ME is not impossible.

[heycharlyy]

To the guy who left me hanging

They say I should be over it by now. Maybe they’re right. Maybe I should have fully recovered from the drama and trauma you have caused when you made your disappearing act. But who are we to say when feelings are supposed to end? Like love, we also don’t know  when heart break stops. It seems sad, now that I look back on these times when I was just so crazy about you. Crazy about the way you told me that you liked me, but never really loved me.

I will never know what went wrong. Why we can’t cross the other side of the fence. I didn’t know if you got bored or you thought you were done with me already or you found someone new. You just tossed a person who happened to be there when you were in need of something, to listen to you or distract you from your issues in life. When all has been said and done, what I had was nothing anyway. I had no claim, no rights. there was never a “we” or an “us”, just you and me. We didn’t need closure because we haven’t even opened a door. I don’t have any choice but to let this all go.

[heycharlyy]

True definition of happiness. #BLBSGirls #Love #Repost

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