I Really Fricked Up

23, Genderfluid, Neurodivergent. Aspiring Artist, Writer, and Theorizer. https://hgmercury73.carrd.co/

[hgmercury73]

@americiumam are you preparing for your easter season migraine

[chronicangel]

Is there a fate worse than being a yapper with an anxiety disorder. I do not think so.

[hgmercury73]

Mood, also thank you for all the muppet memes you send <3

[hgmercury73]

Ok so I got MRI results back this morning and I've just been kinda out of it all day due to a chronic pain flare but my brain decided to write a song to the tune of "If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands" for one of the findings and it makes me laugh. If my sibling sees this, just ignore this post please or text/DM me about it. I'm genuinely fine, I promise. <3

There's a Tumor on my spine, but it's benign.

There's a Tumor on my spine, but it's benign!

There's a least one on my spine, but I'm going to be fine,

There's a Tumor on my spine, but it's benign.

[hgmercury73]

Hello, I'd like to vent about something that just hit me.

I am 21 years old. I've been experiencing chronic pain and "mystery" medical conditions for as long as I can remember. I've gone through stretches where I lost massive amounts of weight because I physically couldn't keep food down. I've had chronic headaches and migraines for a decade. My periods have been so bad that unless I was literally bedridden with a heating pad the pain would make me throw up. My fatigue is so bad that I regularly can't make it through the day without falling asleep. I get respiratory issues at least once a season. My joints and muscles ache on their best days and on their worst days are absolutely excruciating. I've done the math. I'll have a debilitating migraine or headache about 2-3 days per month on average. For my period, I'll lose another two days. For the respiratory stuff, another day. That, without any other issues, is six days per month when my body fails on me. I'm losing 1/5 of my life to this. I am 21 years old, and two weeks ago I went to the first appointment where it felt like my doctor listened to me.

Every single other doctor told me I'd grow out of it or that it was my hormones/anxiety or just said it was a mystery and called it a day. The stuff this particular doctor is putting me through the diagnostic process is all degenerative, long-term disorders and conditions, one of which could eventually lead to me not being able to walk if it was untreated. And it is treatable--specifically, babies as young as 2-4 months old can receive surgery to correct it and I have spent over two decades in pain before anyone even looked at this as an option.

So, I don't care if it comes back negative and I went through all these EEGs and MRIs and Bloodwork for no answers because nobody has ever even sent me for an EEG or MRI before. Someone is listening to me and trying to get me answers and that's all I ever wanted!

God.

[insane-cripplepunk]

Here is your permission post to complain about how your disability is effecting you

This post will never stop giving you permission and you never needed this posts permission anyways

[moondirti]

*frantically scrolling through a thesaurus* if i use the same word twice my readers will Hate me

[closet-keys]

nobody talks about how ptsd feels like genuinely embarrassing and humiliating sometimes

like you’ve been through however much shit and then years later you’re crying in your kitchen cause you got triggered by something super mundane you see every day like.. dishes, and you can’t explain why because the connection to trauma is vague and weird and contextual and so you’re just like why is this who I am…

[hgmercury73]

Today sucks, I woke up before three am from a trauma based nightmare, couldn’t go back to sleep, decided to be productive, and discovered the toilet had overflowed. It’s not even 8am, I haven’t eaten anything and I’m running on three hours of sleep, and I’ve now had to walk on towels soaked in poop water to unclog the stupid toilet. Wtf, life.

[hgmercury73]

You ever have an interest that you are not allowed to have? Like you never judge anyone else for having it and support their love and enthusiasm but you in particular are cringe and terrible for having it?

[tethered-heartstrings]

in the tags describe what the person you reblogged from would look like as a cat

[hgmercury73]

This one is you @americiumam​

[donutdisturblivball]

rewatching the sk8 anime and god i did not miss these fuckers

[americiumam]

*BIRDS SCREAM WHILE FROSTY THE SNOWMAN PLAYS IN INSTRUMENTAL*

[americiumam]

*Birds scream while Ave Maria plays*

LET ME OUT LET ME OUT LET ME OUUUTTT

[hgmercury73]

did you look up the format of telegrams just for that

YES

[americiumam]

WESTERN UNION TELEGRAM MX. AMERICIUM DEEPLY REGRET TO INFORM YOU THAT YOUR SIBLING IS OFFICIALLY REPORTED AS KILLED IN ACTION DECEMBER SECOND.

ANON, TUMBLR USER WHO IS NOT SIBLING.

[hgmercury73]

YOU ARE WELCOME!

[ierotits]

enough of blorbo from MY shows, what about blorbo from your siblings shows

[hgmercury73]

I NEVER SAW THIS @ ME NEXT TIME THIS WAS AMAZING

[hgmercury73]

@americiumam I may have misspelled his name but I got the vague concept correct.