You know, I had a feeling he was going to lean into into this āweāre fineā damage control. The energy has been so fucking weird and now I see why.
Glad to see him showing his hand I guess? I was optimistic, but Iāve also had a sneaking suspicion that Iād be putting on some clown makeup again. Every time I think, āsurely weāre moving on now?ā there he goes lol.
Paris was a disaster. For whatever reason, this keeps the lights on in the circus. I have a few theories Iām quietly considering. But at this time Iāll invite you all to sit with your own ideas for a bit.
I still feel that heās leaving. Iām not convinced away from that. We all saw what we saw. Thereās something very rotten here with this ācoupleā.
I have advised you guys to brace for various possibilities. Even though I get anxiety sent my way, and scolded at every time. So Iām not going to answer any direct questions, apart from my usual conversations. Iām irritated and sitting in Observation mode.
Maybe he does like her. Maybe he tolerates her. Maybe heās trying to pretend that he loves her for some big reason we donāt know. Maybe they are a ācoupleā for right now, for whatever fucking reason. I donāt know their agreement, I donāt live in their walls.
None of the above negates hudcon, in my view. Even if the actual nightmare is happening, and heās genuinely trying to ādateā FM4 at this time in the Shane and Rose of it all, I cannot be convinced he does not wake up every single day loving Connor.
To put it bluntly - We know about their secret visits. We know their feelings. We know their continued importance to each other.
Nothing Iām seeing here negates what we have seen, and continue to see with the actual love story in his life. So Iām going to sit back, observe and continue to wait for this shit to blow over. If theyāre real in any sense, it sucks and it will collapse. If this is just damage control for whatās coming, well played. Either way Iām fatigued so Iām going to take a step back and let him do whatever shit he wants for right now.
The elephant in the room continues to stand there. So Iāll wait until weāre allowed to address it.