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fuck you, my child is completely fine!

your child romanticises the idea of running far away and completely changing their personality, looks & soul as a way of coping with having no control over their life & being generally dissatisfied with who they have become

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What Did You Expect? - Neck Deep

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One of the weirdest thing about growing up suicidal is that you assume you have no future, you don’t even try to envision it because you see no point. So eventually, you start assuming everyone else sees nothing in your future either. Recently, my friend and I were talking and she said something about how at her wedding I could wear a suit or a dress as long as it matched her bridesmaid’s dresses because the butler of honor has to make a good impression. This hit me so hard because I had never realized before how other people thought about me. She said it so casually like it wasn’t even a hard decision, just a given fact. She loves me so much she saw me at her wedding, standing with her on one of the most important days of her life. And you know what? There are so many people who think about you that way. If that isn’t proof that you should keep going I don’t know what is.

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For all my new followers: Some not-so-cute things about anorexia.

I want y’all to see the reality of this disorder.

EDIT: this is meant for those who are actively seeking out an eating disorder, or are romanticizing the illness, like “new anas.” this isn’t meant to cure anyone from anorexia.

1. being cold. all. the. time. you have to sleep with at least two blankets.

2. lanugo. think it’s cute to have thick hair ALL over your body??

3. that cute ass you had? it’s gone.

4. crying all the time

5. shaky hands, shaky arms, shaky legs, shaky everything.

6. you disappoint basically everyone important to you

7. it’s not cute to get smashed after one drink. it’s embarrassing.

8. forgetting everything. why did i walk into this room? where did i put my phone? why did i put my deodorant on the kitchen counter?

9. chewing food literally feels like you’re eating a live slug.

10. all those friends you love? you’ll basically never see them because you’re too afraid that they’ll suggest going out for lunch or try to give you food.

11. goal weights? not a thing. no matter how low your weight is, you’ll never be satisfied

12. this disorder literally kills you slowly, from the inside out

13. you have to sleep with a thick blanket or pillow between your knees because the feeling of your bones pressing against each other is too painful

14. your whole life feels like it’s a haze

15. concentration goes out the window. your grades will go down, you might even fail a class because for some fucking reason not eating is more important than getting a degree. think about that.

16. treatment is inevitable if you don’t get it under control yourself. and treatment is the worst experience you could possibly have – people FORCING you to eat, lots of crying, and its fucking expensive

17. you are so wasteful. all that healthy food you bought? you’ll eventually get to a point where you can’t even eat that and it just rots in your fridge.

18. it gets to a point where you care more about the number on the scale than your own fucking family

19. all your free time will be spent running. or walking. or working out. anything to burn off the calories you did (or didn’t) eat

20. eventually 50 calories is too much for one day

21. at a certain point, a size 0 is too big and all clothes look ill-fitting, not cute and baggy.

22. YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL. no matter how much you think you are, you’re not. you’re a slave to your own brain.

23. YOU ARE A LIAR. you lie to your family, to your therapist, to your friends, and there’s no undoing that. once people know you’re lying, they’ll never believe you again.

24. this disorder does not make you special. it makes you sick. and it makes you look selfish and weak to other people. that’s the reality.

25. get help.

this is the reality of this disorder. it’s not cute. it’s not fun. it’s addicting. and it ruins your life. that’s it. it’s an illness and you have to see it for what it is.

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School children protest against the sale of radioactive lamb in the wake of the Chernobyl disaster, Hackney, London, 1986

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Reminder:

● You will never be satisfied with your body until you stop trying to control it.

● Eating disorders distort your body image; when you see ‘flaws’ that is an illusion.

● Food is not moral. You’re not 'good’ or 'bad’ based on what you eat.

● When you eat regularly (and eat enough) you will feel so much better physically and mentally.

● Recovery is always possible.

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Analemma. The sun’s position in the sky, photographed from the same location at the same time of day throughout a year, forms an analemma. This shows the sun’s apparent swinging from its northernmost position, at the analemma’s uppermost point, at summer solstice, to its southernmost position/lowest point, at winter solstice.