Randomness Life

I'm fun, funky fresh bisexual girl and willing to be your friend and talk. Call me what you like, as long as it's nice. PS I really love short haircuts,overalls and glasses.

[hikagesumio]

Feeling really down and left out these days. I know that I am special. But after a few days I feel like I am not good enough because I can't make it to were i need to be. I feel like I can't complete the way I need to. And I hate that the other person can and I can't. It hurts that he can make the other person get all the way. And me nothing I just wanna complete. Idk what I'm saying I'm just lost

[hikagesumio]

I'm feeling a little left out, and I don't know why. It is like i wanna make everyone happy, but sometimes I feel like I hurt myself doing this. And then I want it to go back, but that hurts everyone else. We all know that they care more about each other more than me. That I'm the 3 wheel. Even if I was there first, I'm the person people just feel sorry for. And I felt like this for a long time. Why did I say yes, and why did I go with it. It's probably because I wanna see the main person in my life happy. But I also wanna be happy again. Just us and no one else. I wanna wake up knowing you only love me and want only me, not anyone else, not them. But I know I can't think this way because I hurt you so much, and I would hurt hurting you. I wanna so.wtimes hurt myself, so maybe that if I disappeared, you would be better off. I know we were first together, and I'll always be number one, but that doesn't stop worrying.

[hikagesumio]

Dont know why, but lately, I have been thinking what it would be like if me and my married partner and I added another girl into our relationship. I know if we did, I would for sure want it so we all dated,like I dated them,they dated my man, and my partner was with me. Like, I kinda wanna spice up our relationship, but I didn't know where we start. Plus, idk if I could handle it because my jealousy kinda hit hard, but at the same time, I kinda want someone I can hold and kiss in romantic ways, when my man isn't there. It would be weird if we went with it because of how our family is right now

[hikagesumio]

When ever I see people show picture or videos of their baby or how they are pregnant I can't help but cry most times. I see people talk about the things they love doing with their child(s). All the videos post on social media about anything to do with children. It really gets to me. I am happy because I love to learn new things I did know about how children work or what products can help a child learn. But other time I just start to ball out in tears. When this happens I think about the lost of my child in 2019. I didn't get to know anything about, who they where or see any kind of pictures. I truly only knew them for about a month before I lost them. And I wish I could have learned more. But the day I found out I was losing them was the worst day of my life. I tried so much to just move on with work and life to forget that it happened. And wasn't till a many months later that I started to miss them more. Wondering if I would ever get that chance again to have a child. Sometimes it feels like that will never happen. But I still have hope one day it will. But when ever I see post about people and their kids I some how just get away. And this is how I feel.

[hikagesumio]

In all my years out as a busexual this is the first time I have even been hit on by a girl. My straight was like what is going on and my gay side is like should I go with it. Guess it's been such long time mostly being straight it forgot how to act when gay things happen.

[positivity-in-pain]

[bastard-poopiepoopoo]

YES >:(

[xxgreendruidessxx]

Some days it’s definitely like that.

[roseticospacebae]

[hikagesumio]

When ever I get in a mood and need something to pick me up I always start crocheting always get me in happy mood and reminds me that the projects I make will make someone happy. I can't wait to finish this blanket I started

[hikagesumio]

Been looking at all the bruises on my body and thinking to my self, that for some reason getting these makes everything feel so real. That you like for some reason just sitting in the shower counting all of them. Like it’s a game to see how many you have, witch ones are lame and witch ones are really bad. Then you ponder where the hell you get these. But in the end you don’t care because looking at them and touching them to see how much they hurt just makes your life some how feel real and alive.

[astraea9-deactivated20180212]

proving a point to my parents

so I need your help guys? I have like waist long hair and I really want to cut it short like a pixie cut but my parents wont let me because apparently short hair is only for boys? I just want to prove them wrong so please reblog if you disagree and think they should let me cut it which would make me extremely happy

[0ntheplusside]

[lisathewife101]

This is important

[audrey-hepbae]

If you put a fat girl who exercises next to a skinny girl who’s on meth they’ll say the skinny one is healthiest

[twig-rat]

and this is why we say fuck diet culture because fUCK DIET CULTURE because SKINNY DOES NOT EQUAL HEALTHY

[studyblrsophie]

I spent my entire school career afraid of being wrong because I was taught that to make a mistake was embarrassing. Now I’ve discovered that making a mistake just means you are one step closer to the right answer, and everyday I have to work to shake the mindset that a single wrong answer equals failure.

[hikagesumio]

I hate it when you are trying to having a conversation with someone and they just talk about how my life is worthless and im the reason they are sad and cant do anything. That i take away from what they want. Like if they had a problem they do something about not just hide and complain their life sucks. Like your life is only as great as you make it. I just hate when people pull the fake i have depression shit to get attention it not cool for people who truly have it.

[tayolrswift]

[123472oodkkxkxkx-deactivated202]

[fairycosmos]

dont u hate when people just talk at u and they literally dont care what u have to say back they just care about responding and voicing their opinion like okay! get a diary

[animalcrossingallover]

When your so obessed with minions and animal crossing you are so proud when you make this.

[catchymemes]

Credit: @juliehangart

[hikagesumio]

When you kinda wanna tell people something about your self but you don't know how they will take it or already know