We always see when Regina’s pregnant, she’s insecure and scared about it. And Robin is always very excited about it and always soothes her worries. Can we see vice versa this time? OQ Prompt AU, “I’m pregnant.”
I changed it a little, I hope it’s okay and sorry it’s taken so long!
“Do you not want this child?” she blurtsout one morning after Robin has carefully extricated himself from the bed – so asnot to wake her no doubt but too late – and is halfway to the door.
He turns with absolute incredulity onhis face and asks, “How could you even think that?”
And it’s not quite what she’d wanted tosay to him because of course he wants this child, she knows he does. He’d beenso excited the day she’d told him that he’d practically bounced off of everysurface in the house…but that excitement had only lasted until the next daybefore they’d fallen into this rather odd space that they’re in now.
“Regina,” he prompts, taking a stepcloser to the bed but still not close enough for her to reach him and that’sjust it. He’s always out of reach this days.
“You’ve barely touched me since I toldyou I was pregnant,” she tells him – she feels a little foolish doing so butenough is enough – “you don’t hold me at night anymore and I can’t remember thelast time I woke up with you beside me. I feel as though you are pulling awayfrom me and the only thing I can think of is this baby and it doesn’t makesense because I know you can’t wait to be a father again but then, if it’s notthe baby…” her chin quivers – she’ll blame her hormones in an hour or so whenshe’s more level-headed – as she allows herself to fully give in to the despairof her thoughts, “is it me? Do you not love me anymore?”
“Sweetheart,” he does move towards thebed then, falling to his knees beside her – stillnot touching her despite his closeness – “I love you more than I’ve everloved anyone in my entire life, save our children. I couldn’t ever stop lovingyou, even if I wanted to!”
“But loving me and being in love with me are two differentthings, Robin.” Hot tears fall from her eyes and begin streaming down hercheeks and this isn’t the way she’d wanted this conversation to go but it’shappened anyway and the easiest thing now is just to go with it so shecontinues, “Maybe, on some level, you’ve finally realised what you’ve letyourself in for. Maybe my past hasn’t been so hard to forgive.”
“Oh, my darling,” he shakes his head,desperation in his blue eyes as he finally takes her hand – it’s not enoughcontact, not by far but still, it’s a start – “I had no idea you were feelingthis way, thinking these things.” His thumb rubs over the back of her hand ashe lifts the other to wipe at her tears before he cups her cheek, “I am more inlove with you than I have ever been. You are carrying our child, our miraclebaby right there in your belly and I don’t think you have ever been morebeautiful to me than you are right now. Of course I still love you. Of course I’mstill in love with you!”
“Then why have you pulled away from me?”
“Because I am terrified of doingsomething that will ruin this, that will take our baby from us, that will harmyou.” It’s Robin with tears streaking his face now as he sits back on hisheels, the truth of his feelings finally surfacing. “I almost lost Marian whenshe was pregnant with Roland and I’ve lost you more times than I can bear tocount. If I were to lose you now, I wouldn’t survive it.”
She frowns down at him for a longmoment, watching as he loses the battle against his tears and his shouldersbounce with his silent sobs before she takes her hand from his and slowlyclimbs down from the bed. She waves off his hands when he moves to stop her andgrabs his shoulders to keep him from moving back and away from her when theirbent knees touch on the ground. “You could never do anything to hurt either oneof us,” she breathes softly, allowing her hands to slide gently up over hisneck to cup his jaw and ensure he’s looking at her. “I cannot go through thispregnancy without you by my side and had I known you were feeling this way, Iwould have told you sooner.” She shakes her head, eyes as wet as his own as shetells him, “I need you, Robin. We both needyou and, more importantly, I trust you so please don’t make me go through thisalone.”
She cuts him off with her lips on hisown, tasting the salt and desperation in him as she lets it lingers for a fewlong seconds before she pulls back and reminds him, “It was you who taught methat we can’t dwell on the ‘what ifs’ in life because otherwise, we would neverhave gotten to this point. Focus on the here and now with me, live in thishappiness with me because for once, I feel as though life isn’t going to kickme in the teeth.” She allows her head to fall slowly forward in order to resther forehead against his own as she tells him, “This isn’t our happy ending,Robin…not by a long shot because it’s our happy beginning.” And then, when hisbreathing finally begins to calm and she can feel him nodding gently againsther, she asks, “Now will you get back in this bed and hold me and our daughter?”
His gasp is audible and pulls a smile toher lips because they haven’t been to the doctor to confirm yet but she knowsit’s the truth and as he asks, “Our daughter?” she nods and lets loose abreathy laugh of confirmation before she lets her hands drop to find his andbegins guiding him up and off of the floor with her.
“Promise me you’ll put this sillinessbehind you and trust that we are going to be okay, all of us.”
He nods, stealing a soft and heartbreakinglytender kiss from her lips before he replies, “I promise,” before allowing herto lead them both back into bed and holding her close to him for the first timein weeks.
It truly is a blessed feeling.
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